BPOV
I cant believe im here in Jacksonville going to Phil an my mums funeral. We have been here about a week and Sam has not left my side unless he has phased to make sure everything in la push is ok. Everything was ready and today was the funeral, I was sat in front of the mirror doing my hair.
I remember all the time I lived here all my birthday party's all the Christmas mornings , remembering the times my mum tried to cook nearly burning the whole house down. I remembered the day she brought Phil here the first time, he was young but you could see the love in his eyes for her it was the same look that Sam gave me, true love.
Sam came behind me wrapping his arms around me, he has been so good this week I don't think I could of done this without him. Turning around I looked at him, he looked good in a suit, I don't think I have seen him wear so many tops as I have this week. He gave me a sweet kiss before walking back into the main room. We were staying in a hotel I could not face going into the house knowing he has been in there. We had been in the house once and Sam could smell Edward and Victoria there I knew it was them that killed her I wish they would just leave me alone.
The ride to the church was worse than I could ever Imagen,there was no sun out today it was Grey and cold and for the first time ever it was raining. My mum would not be happy she hated the rain, she loved the sun. Getting out of the car Sam was at my side in no time, There were a lot of people here a lot of people loved my mum and Phil. Phil had made it to the major ball players so all his team was here, there lives were cut to short all because of Edward.
My mums and phil's casket was pulling up it was time for me to say goodbye. I felt the tears falling down my cheeks I tried to hold them back but I could not do it any more, I felt like I was going to fall when I felt Sam's arm go round my waist.
"its ok baby I got you" Sam kept saying soothing words in my ear as I walked behind following them into the church. Sitting down I zoned out, all the memories of my mum and phil came flooding back, if I had not moved to forks they would still be alive. If I had listened to Edward all the times he had warned me to stay away from him my mum, phil and my dad would still be alive, but I could not regret my decision to move in with my dad if I never did I would not of met Sam and the pack, my only family I have left now.
I felt Sam nudging my arm it was over I don't even remember anything that was said. I stood up and walked with Sam to the graveyard, the tears were still falling, the priest was talking and I could not hear anything he was saying. I watched as my mum and phil were lowered into the grave together, I never got to tell her how I loved her and I never got to say goodbye. I sobbed into Sam's chest not being able to watch any more, Sam wrapped his arms around me holding me tight to him rubbing my back whispering soothing worlds in my ear calming me down.
Everyone was walking away and I just Sat there wrapped around Sam. I did not want to leave, but as soon as I could I was going back home to la push I had nothing here any more now my mum was gone, everything was gone there was nothing.
"baby I'll give you some time alone" I just nodded not trusting my voice. He kissed my head an left me to say goodbye.
I stood there looking at the grave trying to think of what to say.
"mum im so sorry, its all my fault, I didn't think he would come for you mum, you and phil didn't deserve this it should be me not you two. I'm so sorry mummy, I hope you are happy, I know you would be with Charlie and Phil. Sam will look after me mum him and the pack will look after me . I love you mummy I love you to Phil and I love you to Charlie, mum the pack will get Edward and Victoria for this I promise, I love you mummy im so sorry" I sat on the wet ground I didn't care that I was getting wet and muddy I just did not care any more.
I don't know how long I sat there could have been hours and I would not of realised it,I cried for my mum and phil and my dad the people I would not see again and the times in the future they would never see, my wedding, the grankids, I would never see the smile on their faces again or hear there laugh again. I sat there and sobbed "it should have been me dead not you"
"I cant agree more" I voice I would never forget said. A voice I once loved to hear that would make me smile but now it made me scared. I turned around an there stood the person I once loved who I was willing to give my life up for. He looked the same I knew he would look the same he was a leach they never change. He did look the same but with one big difference, the once gold loving eyes were now blood red filled with hate and staring right back at me.
"Edward" I said with as much hate I could master "how could you, my mum how could you? Why are you here Edward on her funeral do you hate me that much?"
if looks could kill I would be dead right now. He looked at me with so much hate I was scared.
Sam was suddenly next to me he was shaking really bad trying not to phase in the open. He pushed me behind him taking me out of Edwards view.
"leave now you are not welcome here leach" his shaking was getting worse and I could tell any minute he was going to phase. I moved back about five feet in case he phased, I didn't want to be to close.
Edward must of said something because the next thing Sam was gone and in his place was a horse size midnight black wolf . I had seen Sam in his wolf form a lot but now I could not stop staring at him, he was so beautiful.
I never heard anything until I felt the cold rock hard arms go around me, I saw the red hair and suddenly knew it was Victoria holding on to me. Three things happened at once, first I felt a sharp pain going down my face down my arm and I could smell the blood.
Second Edward ran off Victoria running after him
third I fell to the ground hearing "BELLA" being shouted by Sam. When did he phase back?
I looked at him, saw him running towards me shouting for help, that was the last thing I heard before the darkness took over.