Title: A Dose of Reality
Author: Khazrn43, taken from a ddh1973 idea.
Rating: Teen
Summary: Takes place after Born This Way. After hearing her boyfriend tell his ex that she was beautiful, Quinn overhears a conversation that affects her relationship with Finn. Starts out Fuinn, ends Finchel.
Disclaimer: The characters in this story all belong to Ryan Murphy Productions and Fox Television. If I owned them, I would have a lot more money than I do right now.
As always my fictions are chalked full of Finchel Smut. If you can't handle it this is not for you.
Honor the Tether! Remember the Drummer!
Chapter Four: Sam
To say Finn had better weeks of his life would be an understatement. He broke up with Quinn on Sunday, not that it was a big loss, but on Monday she caused a scene in the hall way.
*Flashback*
Finn pulled his truck into his usual spot and cut the engine. Jumping out, he felt like a weight had been lifted from his shoulders. He nodded at some of the underclassmen who said hi as he walked to his locker. He turned the corner and the weight he thought was gone was standing at his locker all 110 lbs. and blonde hair of it. He let out an aggravated sigh walking up to his locker.
"Move" he said curtly
"No, we are talking about us" Quinn said
"I said everything I need to yesterday and there is no us. Leave me alone" Finn bore down on her.
"You can't just break up with me" Her voice lowered so no one could hear that he broke up with her weeks before prom.
"I can and I did" He said
"Finn, come on this is stupid"
Finn sighed again and turn his whole body toward the blonde girl. "See Quinn, that's not the problem. You controlling me since I met you is the problem. Me not loving you is the problem. ME still being in love with someone else is the problem. You calling me names is the problem. BEING STUPID ISN"T THE PROBLEM" he raised his voice.
"So what about Prom Finn?" Quinn asked
"I told you yesterday, find another dope to do your bidding. I'm done"
"You're done when I say you're done" Quinn snapped
"Thanks for making this so easy Quinn," Finn squared his shoulders looking her directly in her face and yelled "I DON'T LOVE YOU, I DON'T WANT TO BE WITH YOU, I'M NOT GOING TO PROM WITH YOU, I'M NOT EVEN YOUR FRIEND! I BROKE UP WITH YOU! AND IF YOU TRY ANYTHING OR SAY ANYTHING TO RACHEL YOU WILL BE SORRY! LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!
He slammed his locker, looking at her once more seeing tears in her eyes. "Please, you don't have a heart so stop trying to get sympathy. You're a bitch and don't talk to me for any reason. For me, you don't exist." Then Finn walked away the weight lifting again.
*End of Flashback*
Today was Wednesday and she hadn't even looked his way since he left her in the hall and he was more than okay with that. The entire school was now aware that he broke up with her. The rumors were running rampant, from he caught her in Puck's bed to she was pregnant with Sam's baby. This school was something else.
Finn was just finishing up his workout when Sam came into the weight room. They hadn't talked but the shame Finn was feeling was eating him and he needed to have Sam listen to him. Even if he didn't forgive him, Finn needed to say somethings.
Finn sat up on the weight bench clearing his throat then Sam turned to him. "Hey, Sam um…can I talk to you?"
"I really don't have anything to say to you Hudson" Sam dismissed him and went about his workout.
Finn dropped his head into his face then rubbed his hands up and down. You need to do this Hudson, he told himself. "I have somethings I need to say, you don't have to say anything but can you listen please"
Sam wasn't an asshole, but Finn hurt him and he really didn't want to talk to him right now, but he saw something in Finn's face that made him drop one of the walls he built up. He just nodded his yes and for Finn to start talking.
"Thank you. I know I don't deserve you to hear me out but thank you" Finn started and Sam nodded again.
Finn stood from the bench and made his way over to where Sam was working out "I'm an asshole" He began. "I'm sorry for my part in hurting you. You didn't deserve to be hurt and I'll never forgive myself for hurting you and encouraging Quinn to hurt you too."
Sam shook his head "You are an asshole. But Quinn knew what she was doing. You didn't force her. She lied to me all on her own."
Finn listened to Sam, knowing he was right about Quinn because she was the one to initiate this after the championship game.
"I know this doesn't excuse what I did and I'm not telling you this so you will feel sorry for me, but you deserve to know who Quinn really is. I found out Saturday that she has been manipulating my life since I met her. From our first round of dating, sleeping with Puck, lying about the baby, Santana, Rachel with Jesse, orchestrating our break ups. She's had a plan since I first met her and I'm too much of an idiot to have realized it."
"Hey, I put blinders on and Quinn used my naiveté to lie to me. And when we were together everything was about status. That should have been my first clue." Sam contributed.
Finn nodded his appreciation and continued "I was jealous when you got my spot on the football team."
Sam scoffed "jealous of me? Do you know how hard it was trying to fill the great Finn Hudson's cleats? The guys in the huddle were all like 'Hudson did it this way and Huddy wouldn't call that play. Shit I've felt inferior to you since I walked into this school."
Finn didn't know what to say. So he didn't say anything about that. So he continued with his apology. "When Rachel kissed Puck it fucked me up so bad. And when Quinn kissed me, I thought why not. Why couldn't I be the one who stole the girl and didn't' get hurt. It seemed to me it was so easy for everyone to cheat on me so I thought I could do it. It only made me feel like a douche"
"Well it seems you got hurt anyway. When you act like something you aren't you are a douche. You really love her don't you? Rachel I mean" Sam studied Finn face while they were talking knowing that the guy in front of him was the real Finn not the asshole that has been walking around since the game.
Finn smiled at what Sam said because it is true. He' always telling everyone that they should be themselves but here he was trying to be something he clearly was not. "I do. I love her more than anything. I am still so mad at her for kissing Puck. I think I forgave her the minute she told me but my pride was so wounded that I couldn't give it to her. Then I just fucked it up even more with the Quinn shit. I don't know why she would still want me. I'm a dick. I've been a dick since I met her. I want her to be happy. But letting her go is something I don't' think I can do. It's selfish I know. I have to believe she still loves me. I'm pretty sure after the song at regionals but I wouldn't blame her if she told me to fuck off, but in the Rachel Berry way, more words."
They both chuckled because that is a Rachel Berry way. It felt good to laugh at his stupidity instead of feeling like shit about it. He does love Rachel, more than any seventeen year old probably should but she's his other half.
Finn thought and spoke again "Where you in English, when we were talking about the gods splitting people apart so they couldn't take over and spend the rest of their lives looking for the other part. Rachel is my split apart. I'm tethered to her. No matter what is going on I feel her."
It was getting late and Finn's stomach started to rumble so they both once again chuckled. (Because dudes don't giggle, Rachel) "Thanks for listening man, again I am truly sorry. But just know you are so much better than Quinn. She will cause you nothing but heartbreak." With that Finn turned to the showers so he could get home stopping to say one last thing.
"I hope that one day you can forgive me and we can be friends for now I hope we can be teammates" he shook Sam's hand and starting once more to the shower.
"Hey Finn…Sam stopped him…thanks, I don't need to be hit over the head won't be going back to that. It might take a while but I'd like to be able to forgive you and move past this and become friends. But yeah we can be teammates and I won't act like you are public enemy number one."
Finn quickly showered then dressed pulling his bag over his shoulder he left the locker room heading toward his parking spot and his trusty old truck when he heard the most beautiful sound he had ever heard. He was moving toward the auditorium before he could even stop himself. He walked in quietly, slipping into the darken back row.
He saw Mr. Shue and St. Jackass sitting at the table in the audience. Kurt, Mercedes and Santana were sitting just behind them but what capture his attention was the gorgeous girl on stage. God he loved her and she was flawless.
The music continued as she belted out a Barbra song he remembers from Funny Girl. She made him watch it like eight hundred times.
"Oh, my man, I love him so, he'll never know
all my life is just despair, but I don't care
when he takes me in his arms
the world is bright, all right
What's the difference if I say I'll go away
when I know I'll come back on my knees someday
for whatever my man is
I am his forevermore?"
She finished her song with tears running down her checks. Kurt jumped up clapping yelling bravo, Finn laughed at his brother before bringing his attention back to the girl on the stage. She looked at Mr. Shue with a strange look. Like she was hoping he approved. Mr. Shue couldn't form words all he did was put his hand to his heart and smile up at her like Finn was doing.
Then the asshole had to ruin it. "Rachel when you sang that, was it to someone in particular?"
Rachel looked at him wiping her tears "N...No… No not really" she offered. "OH!" Jesse said clearly disappointed. But Finn smiled sneaking out, knowing she was lying. He knew her better than anyone and he also knew she only sang that song about him. She told him it was how she felt about him. With a smile on his face and a renewed bounce in his step he made his way to his truck and drove home.
He needed to talk to Rachel but, he still needed time. He was still reeling from what Santana confessed. "Soon Rachel Soon" he whispered taking off his shoes at the door.
Sorry for the shortness of the chapter. But really that is all I could get out of Sam and Finn. They are not to old ladies sitting on a Sunday morning coffee clutching. Sorry!
If you have come here thinking I would make Quinn sympathetic you are in the wrong place. I hate her. I don't' like how RIB tried to redeem her. So I this and all my stories she is unliked and irredeemable.
Glee - My Man Lyrics | Metro Lyrics from the Movie Funny Girl.