When I woke up again Severus hasn't been in my grip again. I looked around and found him sitting in the corner of the room in an old fashioned sofa watching me carefuly.
"Good morning." I said sleepily.
"Good morning." His deep voice answered.
"How long have I been sleeping?"
"For three days almost."
"What? It cannot be that long."
"You were very exhausted, it is not surprising at all. How are you felling now?"
"Better." I smiled lightly.
"Great, you should. I used some healing spells on you when you were asleep. I didn't know you ran from St. Mungo's."
I smiled guilty. "I could not stay there."
"Still, it was very irresponsible a quite stupid."
"As our relationship." I said sarcasticaly but regreted in when a sad expression appeared on his face. "Sorry, I didn't want to..."
"That's all right, you are actually right. "
"No, I'm not. How is it actually with us now? Can we finally have THE talk?"
"I think you should rest now." He said and got up from the armchair.
"Don't you dare!"
"I beg your pardon?" He asked partly surprised partly warning.
"I don't let you leave just like that this time. I let you once, when I believed you wouldn't care about me at all and I'm not repeating the same mistakes again."
He didn't say a word and turned to leave the room. He must be kidding! I got I up from the bed a bit too fast so I had to stop in the middle of my step as I lost my vision for a few seconds. He probably noticed as he was at my side immediately.
"You're like a child!" He moaned of despair. "I told you have to rest." He tried me to take into his arms to put me in the bed again but I skipped his grip.
"I'm fine, it's just from all thy lying."
"No, it's from being so weak. I should have taken you to the St. Mungo's the very first moment "
"I'm not a child, Severus!"
"We won't agree on this one."
"Really? Who was the one letting me wait for you for whole hour just to find out you would never come?"
"I told you why I didn't come."
"No, you just gave me stupid execuses. But I want no more execuses now, I know you care about me as much as I do care about you didn't, you wouldn't act the way you did when I told you about our baby."
He looked desperately, he was getting lost in her.
"God, of course I care about you. I have loved you since the very first moment we have spent in the woods after the battle anniversary. I have never loved anyone this much since Lily have passed. "
I stared at him blankly. Then I kissed him. He kissed me back like this was what he was waiting for his whole life. I then slowly moved from his lips to his neck and earlobes. I then slowly began to unbotton his shirt when moving us slowly towards the bed.
"Mione" he said in between my kisses. "We cannot do this, you are too weak."
"You think I am weak? Than watch." I provoked him and begant play with his nipples.
"Hermione stop!" He pushed me away from him, but it took him a lot of restraint.
"Please, I want you and I know you want it too." I tried to beat him in this argument.
"I do, but not like this. Not now when both of us are so emotionaly wrecked. I want to keep some dignity for both of us."
I sighed. "But promise me, promise me you will stop pushing me away. Please, just let me stay, let me love you back."
"I...I'm scared. To hurt you, to disappoint you."
"That's just fine, I'm sacred too. Let's be scared together." I said and moved towards him again. I finshed my words with one single kiss on his lips.
"Only if you promise me not to leave me. I couldn't stand losing you..."
"I'm not going anywhere." I smiled and hugged him tightly.