I kept walking from one wall of the room to another. Johnatan has just fallen asleep and I needed to keep myself moving, otherwise I would have gone crazy. Where was Severus right now? Was he all right? He was one of the most wanted targets of this stupid revolution.

It was him who foolished Voldermort and made him believe him so he could have sent the inner information forward. He was playing a double game, a dangerous one and now there were too many people who wanted him to pay.

And now he was gone somewhere out there trying to safe innocent people once again. He shouldn't be there, he has done enough so far, no one could blame him for not helping again. He deserved to lead a bit calmer life. We all did.

But what was I thinking! There was no way Severus would just rest on the sofa waiting for the World to be overtaken by death eaters once again. No, it wouldn't be him.

I feel exhausted, too tired to be fighting again in such a short period, that's the reason why I'm the one sitting on a sofa while other people fight out there, or isn't it? But who isn't tired? Harry is out there fighting and for sure he hasn't suffered any less than I did. And Ron for sure too!

It was only me waiting at home. Or let's say at this hiding place, because I definitely couldn't the place we moved to in order to be safe call home. Maybe it wasn't just me, there were many women staying at home taking care of their kids, it was obvious that not everyone could go out and fight. But I couldn't stand it anymore, not like this.

I ran to the Johnatan's room and stoo dat his crib for a minute watching him sleeping calmly. He looked like an angel everytime he was asleep. It was worse when he woke up. I didn't want to wake him up so early, he wasn't asleep longer than half an hour, but I just couldn't bear it anymore.

I caressed his cheek softly and began to whisper: "Darling, we have to wake up. I know, I'm sorry baby, but we have to go." He began to argue with me a bit sleepily and then he opened his eyes widely. "Dada?" He asked curiously, though I found it more pleading.

"No darling, dada isn't here. But we're going to visit auntie Gin and I'm sure we will be seeing dada soon." I knew he couldn't understand all I said, but I felt the urgue to explain him. To explain me why was his daddy missing.

I took him from the crib and dressed him up so we could leave. I also packed him some spare clothes and favourite toys. I took almost nothing for myself, there where I planned to go wouldn't spare clothes help me much.

When everything was ready I took all the luggages and Johnatan and apparated to the only place that came to my mind as a safe place for Johnatan and it was at Ginny's.

"Oh my God Hermione!" Ginny cried putting back her wand she took out prepairing herself for a fight. "You scared me to death! But wait… Who is the father of your child?"

"What? Are you kidding me?" And that was when I realized. We never made our relationship official, it was too dangerous for me (though I didn't care about that much) and for Johnatan – which mattered the most. "Severus Snape." I answered with a smirk.

"Fine, than it really is you Hermione." She said relieved and went to hug me. I laid the luggages on the floor to be able to hug her back. "Oh and here is my favorite godchild!" She said smiling at Johnatan. "Come to auntie!" She said taking him from my arms.

Then stormy noise disturbed our conversation. Johnatan began crying from the shock and I began turning around searching source of it. Of course – it was Ginny's twins Jamie and Charlie.

"Boys!"What did I tell you about using the wizarding fire crackers? Come her!"Both of you Charles!" They came to their mother unwillingly and stood in front of her waiting for the punishment.

Then they noticed me and their eyes caught little flames. What were they up to? One could never be sure.

"Hello auntie!" They said unison. "Hello boys." I smiled at them but then turned to Ginny who was now trying to calm down Johnatan and was pretty successful. "There will be no dessert for any of you tonight." "Mom!" Jamie argued. "Don't argue with me or I'll make it a week without desserts." He sighed angrily and left the room with Charlie following.

"They are just like the copy of George and…" I didn't finish my thought, we have never really talked about Fred since he died, it's been a few years and still it hurt a lot.

Ginny nodded in understanding. "I'm afraid I'm going crazy because of them but they really are like them. I think Charlie is more Fred, I have talked about it with George who of course adores his boys and gives them all of this stupid stuff like wizarding firecrackers – I'm honestly going to get him for these! "

I had to smile. "But come in. You have no idea how happy I am to see you. Would you like some tea?" I nodded and went to sit at her kitchen table. Her place was pretty similar to mine, it was just a bit more messy because of the boys who simply never got tired.

Ginny then looked at my bags and smiled. "Why haven't we thought of it earlier? We should have moved in together in the very beginning! The waiting drives me crazy and being here alone all day long doesn't make it any better. I'll prepare you the rest room." She winked at me and went to prepare the room as she said.

"Ginny wait!" "What? Didn't you plan on staying? I just so the bags and stuff so I thought you didn't want to be alone." She smiled again.

"The truth is Ginny, that I wanted to ask you to take care of Johnatan for some time."

She froze and looked at me in surprise. Then she realized. "No…No, there's no way you're going to fight out there." "Ginny I…" "No, listen to me. You know me, you know my nature and how much I hate sitting here and just waiting for the news, but it has a reason! We are not the kids without responsibilities to anyone anymore."

"Ï know, but I can't take it anymore, I need to find Severus, to make sure he's all right and help him fight the death eaters. It's just not me anymore, can't you see it? The old Hermione would never agree to stay away if anything like this was happening…"

"But the thing is, you're not the old Hermione anymore, honey!"

"I get it Ginny, you've got twins there's not really a way to let them stay without you but Johnatan can make it without me for some time…"

"It's not really the only reason." Ginny whispered not looking into my eyes.

"Huh?"

"I think I'm pregnant Mione, I didn't tell Harry but I was this close to go and fight but then I found out and just..."

"Of course Ginny, I understand. But I just can't handle it this way. I have lost Severus too many times to lose him again. I have to go and fight. Can you please také care of Johnatan? Please?"

Ginny sighed. "I really don't want you to do this. Johnatan needs his mom."

"But he also needs his dad and safe World to live in."

"Severus is going to kill me once he finds out I let you go."

"You'll have enough time to escape once you find out I was murdered." I winked at her and Ginny had to smile.

"When are you leaving?"

"Now."