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(Sugarkane Montgomery - I'm sorry I made you cry in a Public Library – Jerica MMADfan - his day is coming, just not yet)

SPOILERS – This week – Miracles happen, the children want to help and Jesse gets closer to the truth.

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Kendall felt nervous when she first stepped into Ryan's apartment, wondering how she could possibly face her two boys. When she was engulfed in two eager, loving hugs from her sons she wondered how she could have stayed away so long. She held them tight until Ian struggled out of her grasp. Spike held onto her a little longer.

She thanked Ryan a hundred times over for taking care of them. She had experienced his heartache when he had come and cried by her bedside. He looked exhausted but somehow he had kept it together enough to take care of his grieving daughter and her two boys.

Ryan promised he didn't mind taking care of Ian and Spike a little longer and allow Kendall to visit the rest of her family in hospital. Kendall thanked him with a kiss on the cheek and then smothered her sons with kisses until they squirmed from her grasp.

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Kendall starred wide eyed through the doors of the ICU at her mother's tiny frame, almost lost amongst the machinery around her that was keeping her alive. Griffin put a supporting hand on her shoulder.

"It's not really as scary as it looks. She's just sedated, to prevent her any discomfort. You just need to sit beside her and talk to her. I think she needs to hear a friendly voice."

Kendall slowly pushed open the glass door and took a seat on the plastic chair by the bed.

"Hi mom!" she said rather lamely, she had no idea what to say. "I'm sorry it's taken me so long…"

Kendall sighed and looked despairing around the room. Griffin had said her mother was in danger - that it was up to Kendall to keep her going.

"Mom, don't give up. We need you. You have to keep fighting. Think about the book deal, the movie – my god Mom, you can't let this be the end of the indomitable Erica Kane."

Kendall shook her own head at the awfulness of her platitudes. She felt out of her depth; the comforting voice of the Kane family was Bianca. She hadn't had a chance to see her baby sister yet, she was in surgery. If Bianca was here she would know exactly what to say. Kendall gently took her mother's hand, trying to ignore the drying blood around the IV needle a little higher up her arm and searched for what her mom needed to hear.

"If Bianca were here she would be reminding you about her two girls and my boys and how much we all love you. And we love you mom, even when you exasperate us! We love you, and we couldn't imagine our lives without you, and we don't want to. You have to stay with us and you have to come back to us, so you can keep driving us all crazy."

Kendall was a little surprised to find herself smiling. It was only a brief moment and then it was gone just as fleetingly. Once again she was taken by how fragile and tiny her mom looked amongst all the machinery that was keeping her alive. There was every chance she was going to lose her mother just like she lost her husband. Then she felt the tears she had been holding at bay returning.

"Please mom." she sobbed. "I need you back… Zack died, he's gone and I need you so badly to tell me it's going to be alright. Mom… Please… I need someone to tell me it's going to be alright…"

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