Welcome to chapter ten. This one is a bit longer than the last, thank god. Enjoy!
~~~Chapter Ten~~~
I am staring out the window in my room, like I have been doing. It has been a... an eventful past few months.
Very eventful.
Things are definitely not the same between Killua and I, I will tell you that.
Gon did do his fight. It was against Gido, one of those creepy guys we saw in the halls. He broke his arm, and other bones, obviously. I knew it was a terrible idea.
Wing-san was quite disappointed in him. So he and Gon made a promise... He would not fight, or learn about Nen for two months until he healed.
Then he pulled Killua out to talk to him, and I stayed with Gon. We did not talk. He closed his eyes, and controlled his breathing. He has a lot of potential.
Well that happened. And then there was Hisoka's match, which happened a month later. Gon was already healed, when it should have taken him four months. Insane.
Killua had gotten tickets for us to watch the match, but Gon could not go. So we went together instead.
I must admit that Hisoka is a very impressive Nen user. So was his opponent, Kastro. It is a shame that Hisoka killed him.
To be honest, I was not really paying attention to the fight. Like usual. Whenever the noise level had risen, I would look up, but for the most part, none of this was new to me.
Well, after that, a little bit of trouble had arisen between Killua and I... We had a small fight, unfortunately. It was not like our general banter.
It started when he asked to see my Nen, a question that he frequently asks me.
When I shook my head and walked away, he became very frustrated.
"What's the problem, you moron!?" he yelled. Of course, I was not going to let anything slide, so I turned around to face him.
"Not ready..." I quietly mumbled. I was getting fed up with him.
"I'm not ready? Biggest load of crap ever! Gosh, you suck! You never do anything with me and Gon! You don't even pay attention to me at all, and then you make stupid excuses! I wish you had never even came with us!"
That had really hurt. A lot. The tears started stinging my eyes, but I did not want him to think that I was weak. I am not, but when it comes to him, it is different. So I turned around again, and walked away, back to my room. He did not follow me.
And that is what happened. I have not talked to them for a while. Not even Gon has come to my room.
I do not have those dreams anymore, either. I am glad.
I knew Killua had a short temper, but what he said made me very sad. So that is what he really thinks of me. I cannot believe I wasted these feelings on him.
Knowing him, he will not apologize. That is how he is. He is the most stubborn person alive, which makes things difficult.
I have not left my room for about a week. The refrigerator is starting to run out, so I will have to leave eventually. I just do not want to run into him.
I am very bad at explaining things, if you have not noticed already. What I say, or write, I suppose, is not usually what I mean. It is not my fault. I just do not know what I am supposed to say to make it better.
My heart starts beating faster. I know what it means.
I have not had an anxiety attack in a long time. It was because someone, pretty much Killua, was always there, but that is different now. I am back to square one.
The headache starts, as if on que, and soon enough I pass out like usual. I know the drill.
The visions I have this time are a little different. Generally they portray a boy and a girl, who are love interests, but this time, it is just a girl. She seems to be sitting on a bench, crying softly.
It makes me upset, surprisingly. Because she is alone. No one is there to comfort her. She looks around, like she is expecting someone to come, but no one does. And she cries a little louder, screaming in frustration.
And then I realize that that girl is me, sitting alone on that bench, waiting for Killua to come. But he does not. And he will not.
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I wake up, on my bed. Nothing has changed except for the sky. It is now dark indigo. No stars are present. Nothing for me to gaze at, no constellations for me to pick out.
Today is the day that I must go out and get something to eat. At some point I must sign up for a fight as well. Although, it does not matter if I was disqualified. Nobody wants me anymore.
I have come to realize that I did not appreciate the unusual kindness that Killua gave me. Gon even told me that that was not like him.
"You're lucky, Shizuka-chan. Killua must really like you! He's so nice to you. He isn't that nice to me, or anyone!"
It is true how I do not pay attention. I get bored easily, having witnessed and lived through must of these things. Of course, Killua would not understand that, as he knows practically nothing about me.
I groan, and slip out of bed. After brushing out my hair and pulling my boots on, I quietly open the door and walk out. No one is in the halls. I hurry to the elevator. The doors are about to close when a certain someone slips in.
"Oh, Shizuka-chan! I haven't seen you in a while," Gon chirps. A tiny smile creeps on my lips as the elevator goes down.
"I'm heading to Wing-san's now. Do you want to join? I'm meeting Killua there too. He seems really unhappy for some reason. I'm hoping this cheers him up."
I clear my throat, and take a deep breath.
"S... Sure."
Gon just flashes a grin. I reluctantly follow him all the way to Wing's.
We enter, and I freeze when I see Killua. He is sitting next to Zushi on the couch. He glances at me, but immediately looks away.
"Gon-kun, Shizuka-chan. I am glad you could join us," Wing-san says, motioning for us to sit down. I sit next to Gon this time.
"I was just explaining the different categories of Nen."
Oh. Great. That. That is what started this whole thing in the first place.
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*Update: Going to be doing some fanart. Will post links on my profile when I finish those if you'd like to look. Anyways, I'm pretty confident that everything I've created (about Shizuka's abilities) are pretty correct and follow the rules, but if they don't, don't yell at me, haha. I'm just hoping I did a good job . Again, you'll be learning them next chapter. Love ya!
I really appreciate all the things you guys say . it makes me really happy, haha. Don't worry. Next chapter, which will be posted tomorrow, you will figure out Shizuka's Nen type. She'll also be participating in a fight in chapter twelve (which will be posted the day after tomorrow). Now, I've been contemplating her skills. I've dropped a hint in one of the chapters. If you can figure out her main 'weapon', I'll write you a short story, teehee (I guess about whatever characters you'd like). If you think you've got it, send me a PM. The hint might be a little vague, but if you think enough, you can figure it out. Do not post your answer in the reviews!
Cut me some slack for her skills. It actually is really hard coming up with something! (I think I've said that before, haha)
Alright. I decided that I would try to update everyday. Thank you for reading, reviewing, favoriting and following! Love you guys!