Well hello there. Welcome to chapter fourteen.

Things are getting insane. Really.

You guys are lucky I update fast, haha. Enjoy!

~~~Chapter Fourteen~~~

"I killed my mother."

I am face to face with Killua. The room is dark, with moonlight the only thing illuminating it. I can barely see his face. The only thing very visible is just a few tufts of his hair, and the glow of his eyes.

I cannot see his facial expression, so I am not sure what his feelings are.

"I am so confused right now," he mutters after a few minutes of silence, "Like, I don't know where to begin. So you killed your mom? Big whoop. Who cares?"

"I care! My family cares! She was the only one who loved me! Everyone hated me! They would not care if I died! They would dance on my grave, if I even deserved one," I yelled. I am shaking so much now, and I am close to falling. I need to rest. I need to rest.

"And who's Hanako?" he asks, running his fingers through his hair.

"Me."

"You?"

"My name is Hanako, yes."

"Thought you didn't have a name, liar."

"I did not remember! You are so mean..."

Damn. Here come the tears.

"Well- Well, don't cry! It's just Killua being Killua, right?"

He sounds really stupid. I am not even mad at him. I do not even know why I am crying.

He touches my shoulder, but quickly pulls his hand away.

"You're shaking. Honestly. You should've stayed at that clinic, idiot," he says, poking my forehead.

"You are the idiot," I choke out, "For leaving me there without a proper explanation."

"I didn't really want you to remember, or whatever. I didn't really want you to come back."

"What? Why?" Even I can just hear the pathetic pain in my voice.

"Hey, I thought you hated me! Why do you care?"

"If I hated you I would not have jumped out of a window and ran all the way across town to come see you. Idiot."

That throws him off, and he does not say anything. I suddenly fall to my knees, and he rushes over.

"You're shaking more now. Moron. Go back to your room and get some sleep, yeah?"

I chuckle a bit before cringing. My legs actually really hurt.

"I will not... make it. I was lucky I made it here...!"

"It's three doors down! Drag yourself or something!"

"You are a cruel person," I quietly mutter, laying on my back. I am starting to fade from consciousness.

"Woah, are you dying? Er, don't die, that would kinda suck, y'know! I mean, not just for you, but for me too. Wait, what? Did I say that out loud? Damn!"

I only hear snippets of what he says. I am still alive. I am pretty sure I am.

My vision is starting to blur, but I feel myself getting picked up. Soon I feel soft sheets beneath me, and then they cover me.

"Listen up! Stay on your side. Don't touch me at all. I've never really... shared a bed with a girl... so just stay right where you are! I don't feel like sleeping on the floor tonight."

I giggle, watching Killua's expression instantly soften, until I fall asleep.

•••

When I wake up, I am curled up against a body. His arm is around me.

The first thing I think is 'Ew'. But then I think it is kind of nice.

Yeah, no. Ew.

I had pretty much suppressed all feelings for Killua since I realized he did not really like me at all. I do not get those dreams anymore. Nothing.

It does not help that he is snarky with me, either. So it is his fault.

I try to move away, since I started to feel a little uncomfortable now awake, but his arm grips tighter. If only he actually knew what the hell was going on right now, and who the person he's cuddling is.

"Good morning."

I look up. Was that him? No. He's sleeping.

Wait. He doesn't sleep.

I immediately start to push him away, this time succeeding.

"D-Did you not realize what you were doing?" I stuttered, holding a pillow close to me.

"...I think...?"

"You are so... stupid! First you tell me not to touch you, and to stay on my side, but it is you who did not follow the rules!"

"No, I'm on my... Oh... Oh... Wait a minute... Aw, man! This is so gross!" He backs away, back to his side, where he's supposed to be.

"If you had went back to your room, it wouldn't have happened. So it's your fault," he says, rubbing his eye.

"I was about to pass out, idiot! I could not even stand!"

"If I gross you out as much as you say, you would have dragged yourself without hesitation."

I stop to think. That is true. If he really disgusted me, we would not even be in this situation. I would have done whatever it took to get away from him, even if it meant dragging myself down the hall. In fact, I would not even be here period if he really disgusted me. I would be in my own room first thing.

"You do not... gross me out..."

"Hm?"

"I do not find you... disgusting. At all."

I have no idea where all of this bravery is coming from. I do not want to say any of this, but it is how I really feel, and I should be honest.

"But, Shizuk- er, Hanako... No, Shizuka, what are you talking about? You were calling me an idiot, and stupid, not even two minutes ago!"

"What else am I supposed to say to someone who always fights with me? I cannot be weak. I do not even like fighting. I pass out when realization sets in. I cannot stand the fact thinking that I had actually killed someone. I cannot stand blood. It scares me!"

"But... You've trained to be able to fight. Why is it a problem?"

"My brother forced me to. I was fine with it, but I had never seen any blood, or any fights. I never did that, even though I was capable of killing at 4..."

"I mean, I was born an assassin, so I'm used to blood and killing and torture and all that. It's not so bad."

"I just always remember my mother. Man, I suck. I really should leave."

"No, you shouldn't-"

"I will just hold you guys back. You and Gon do not have a problem with fighting and such. That is what you will be doing the majority of the time I am with you. I do not want you two to get distracted with me fainting all the time," I say, shrugging. I start to get out of the bed, with much more energy, but he grabs my arm and yanks me back, hard.

There is pain in his eyes. Excruciating pain.

"You won't hold us back. You know, I really don't want you to go. I'll admit that I, uh... tease you a lot... but it's just how I am! I can't really help it."

"It's not like you have to kill anyone. You don't have to fight anyone."

"I do not know if I would even last just watching you two fight."

"You just need to get used to it. Just... Just don't leave me behind. Man, this is so embarrassing!"

I can tell that his face is pink. He is staring down at his knees, not looking my in the eye.

"Don't leave me behind when I need you..."

Alright now... Tell me what arc you think I should go to. Or if I should do the whole story. I need to figure out where this is going, haha.

Also, should I start another story? What anime/manga? I feel like I should start another as well. Of course, I'd still update just as quickly.

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