'Lou' – I said with no hope to hear a reply. It must have been late; the room was dark and quiet with only a dim light coming out the corner of the room.

'Yes Will'– Lou's voice broke the silence. She was very close. I could smell her scent and felt her breath on my chick. But I couldn't yet see her face in the darkness.

'You are still here? Is it really you?'- maybe I was dreaming.

'Yes. You said you have something important to tell me. I didn't want to take my chances and miss it.' – She whispered.

'I am sorry.' – I had to close my eyes, I still felt week.

'For what exactly' – she rested her head next to mine.

'For everything, for being sick, for not being able to take you in my arms or at least turn my head enough to face you.'

'Stop please' – she sounded tiered, but I couldn't stop, she needed to hear this.

' For being rubbish at apologising' – I continued –' for being selfish, for letting you go, for wasting four weeks, 1 day and 15 hours or so of being away from you. This calculation could be a bit off as I don't know how long I have been out. For being a complete idiot, for making you cry, for not letting you love me, for breaking your hart ..'– I apologised and asked that little woman with immense hart resting next to me if she can forgive me, but she didn't respond.

'Lou, can you forgive me' – I prompted her

'I don't know.' – She answered quietly.

'I missed you. This life was never great, but when you left, it felt emptier than ever. I can't do this without you.'

'But you don't want to do it with me. '

'Lou, I don't want to live like this.. '- she place her hand gently on my lips to silence me. I kissed her finger tips softly and finished- 'But I am willing to do it for you' – she lifted her head to face me. My eyes adjusted now to the darkness to see hers full of question.

'Don't tell me that I need to do it for myself, because I simply cannot. But I will live for you. If that's what makes you happy.' – I felt warm tear on my nose. –' Hey Clark, stop crying. '

'You said happy tears are ok.' – She laughed. – 'Do you mean it?' – Lou was very close to me now, her lips almost touching mine.

'Yes, but before we close the deal with the kiss, I have one condition.'- I needed to tease her a bit.

'Ookey and that would be? '– she was cautious.

'You can't back down on all the sex you promised.' – I thought she will be appalled, but to my surprise she was the contrary – 'Don't think I promised you all the sex, but don't you worry about that Will Treynor. – She kissed me and added . – but first you need to recover and get into shape a bit.'

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'You know Clark, I never have seen sky like this. This is pretty amazing. I travelled the world, but never bother to look up. '

We were in my garden, lying next to each other, looking at absolutely cloudless sky full of stars. It was Lou's idea and I have to admit a brilliant one. Lou read somewhere that if the visibility is right we might see spectacle of stars and we did. The sky was simply magnificent.

Now I looked at the brightest star I've seen in my life. She was right next to me. I still haven't told her what I really feel for her.

Strangely enough little raindrops started to disrupt the display.

'Oh , oh, rain , how ? It's clear sky. Hold on, I will get you out .. '– Louisa began to move out of her sleeping bag.

'Don't you even dare Clark leaving me now? Come back. '– I was getting frustrated; are we ever going to spent time together without being interrupted.

'But it's raining '

'It's the sprinklers.' – I explained. Damn sprinklers.

'I will switch them off.'

'And you know where?' – I questioned.

'I'll ask your parents' – brilliant idea of hers.

'Stop talking and put the blanket over us. It will stop in few minutes.' – She did what I asked but still didn't want to give up. –'But you will get soaked.'

'By the time you figure out what to do, I will definitely get soaked. You are not going anywhere. No, not again. I was just about to get lucky.'

'What?' – she tried to sound shocked. I couldn't see well under the blanket but I could almost hear the little smile that was hiding in the corner of her mouth.

'What, what? … no? You were the one who first brought that up. I even didn't dream. Ok I did dream, but I didn't have much hope' – I was acting innocent.

'Oh you, you're horrible. This is almost like our real first date'. – she pretending to be angry

'Clark, you know I don't have much time.'– I did my very best to sound serious

'I know, but not in here. ' – she actually seem to consider her options. This definitely went the wrong direction.

'Lou' - she was waiting – ' I love you. '

'And now what, you say 'I love you' and I am supposed to jump on top of you ?'

'Louisa Clark you are helpless case. Sure be my guest, just don't be disappointed if I am not aware or in control of what's going down there?'

'Well, we will see about that. ' – she had sparks in her eyes.

'Hopefully feel.' – I joked.

'Lou?'

'Yes'

'I love you'

'You don't have to say it as long as you live….