Alex looks at me with eyes of steel. I wish I could tell what he was thinking. There is a group crowded around the edge of the building. I don't go over there, because I know what I would see.
There is almost always 1 person who falls off the building while jumping during initation. I don't want to see that.
Our instructor then asks who is brave enough to jump off into the hole below. My mother told me that there is a net at the bottom. I have no intention on jumping first so I tell one of the braver looking girls and she is very eager to jump.
She leaps and... Splat! There was no net.
All we heard was a weak scream, and then nothing.
I feel so terrible.
Our instructor then tells us that that is lesson number 1. Never ever ever be the first to jump.
"That can be taken literally and metaphorically," he says. "My name is Eliza. I will be training the dauntless born initiates. My friend here, Four, will be training you transfers. Any questions?" He stared us down and we all mentally shook our heads. "Good. Follow me," he calls to me and the 3 other dauntless born. The rest of you, follow Four.
I waved to my dad. "Hi dad!"
He smiled and waved back.
As I was led down the familiar pathway, the sudden realization of what I had done hit me.
I was in dauntless.
I was never going to abnigation.
And I will never ever be able to take it back.