Chapter 11
"So, you're telling me that the first person that I ever loved in currently six feet under?" Addison's voice held a note of disbelief. The sound of beeping from the machines scattered around the room grew louder as one of the machines signaled the increase of the woman's heart rate.
Morgan made movements towards Addison's bed, telling her that she needed to lower her heart rate. Nodding Addison tried to take deep breaths. She knew it wouldn't do her any good to panic.
"I'm sorry to have to tell you this. But we need to know if you knew anything about the recent occurrences in her life. When we went to see her mother she pointed us in your direction. We need to find the common element between all the victims. We needed to see if you were that common element." Spencer's voice was soft, again Derek could tell that his voice was slightly shaking. All Derek wanted to do was wrap Spencer in his arms and hold him until he stopped shaking. Spencer looked up, letting Derek meet his eyes, trying to tell him not to worry. A slight smile curved the older man's face when he realized the message that Spencer was trying to send him. Pretty boy wanted him to know that he could take care of himself. Unknown to the two men, the woman lying in front of them noticed the look that they shared. She recognized the undying devotion that was present in both of their eyes. She remembered the look from when she and Meredith had still been together back in high school.
We don't have any more questions for you right now, but when we idea the other victims we might need to ask you a few questions. Of course only if you are okay with that." Spencer's voice was soft, but was steadier that it had been before. When Addison nodded Spencer looked to the older agent before saying; "that's all for now, but we'll be staying in the area until the unsub either caught or identified. If you think of anything else that might help us with this case here are our numbers." Spencer placed a small rectangular card onto the white blanket covering the bed before turning to leave. Just as the two men reached the door a raspy voiced called out from behind them, drawing their attention back to the bed.
"take care of each other. Don't let anything get in the way of what you feel for each other." Startled Morgan turned ready to ask Addison what she meant by her comment, but already sleep was invading her body, causing it to go slack against the large white pillows. As Derek watched Addison Baker's eyes close he felt the soft slender hand of the man he loved loop through his own, fingers curving around his own pale against the deep chocolate of his skin. Morgan felt his own fingers wrap around the younger man's of their own accord. It was then that he realized that he would never be able to live without the man standing next to him, he would never be able to love anyone else.
"I talked to Hotch while you were in the bathroom." Morgan's voice rang through silence that permeated the SUV. They hadn't talked since leaving the building, both of them unsure about where they stood in relation to the other. Having never been in love before Derek was unsure what his feelings meant and how he should and could express them. Spencer was unsure about the reality of what was going on. In the past few hours they had moved from a completely platonic friendship to a deep passionate one. Having never had a long term relationship that lasted longer than a few months, and never having been involved with another man, Spencer wasn't sure what to expect. His entire life he had known exactly how he wanted his life to be, there had never been any surprises, he knew what to expect from the job and what to expect at the end of the day. The recent episode called Tobias Hankel hand changed everything. Spencer was no longer sure what he was supposing to be doing. Everything that he did lacked the passion that it had once involved. He no longer felt like he was making the world a better place by putting the evil people in the world behind bars. The only tthing that he could think about now was the next time he would be able to get his fix. The next time that he would be able to escape the drudgery that had become his life. But within the past few hours everything had changed. Derek made Spencer want to live life to the fullest, he wanted to be able to laugh again, he wanted to feel the drive of purpose that this job had once given again.
But most of all Spencer was confused. He wasn't sure what Derek wanted of him. In the years that they had known each other Derek had been a parade of endless one night stands and casual hookups. And to Spencer's knowledge the older agent had never once been with another man, having been scarred by his childhood mentor, Carl Buford. What Spencer wanted most of all was to be with the darker man until they became one being, but he was unsure. Spencer didn't think that he could handle the rejection if Derek didn't want to make what had happened into anything. Coming back into the moment Spencer realized that the older man had spoken, the silence of the car had seeped into him and he hadn't realized that any sound had been made. Stuttering Spencer managed to make a few incoherent sounds before falling silent. He wasn't sure exactly what to say to the man sitting next to him, afraid that one wrong word would drive him away. And the one thing that Spencer did not want to be was alone.
"Pretty boy." Morgan startled Spencer even more, the younger man having gotten lost in his thoughts once again. "Did you hear me?" when Spencer nodded his head Derek continued, "I heard from Hotch. He wants us to stay in the area, we've got rooms booked at a local Marriot. He said that until we make it clear that Addison Baker wasn't the common element that we should stay close to her just in case." Again Spencer nodded, not trusting his voice. Silently he hoped that they had gotten a single room, just so that he could be close to the other man.
"So, you're telling me that the first person that I ever loved in currently six feet under?" Addison's voice held a note of disbelief. The sound of beeping from the machines scattered around the room grew louder as one of the machines signaled the increase of the woman's heart rate.
Morgan made movements towards Addison's bed, telling her that she needed to lower her heart rate. Nodding Addison tried to take deep breaths. She knew it wouldn't do her any good to panic.
"I'm sorry to have to tell you this. But we need to know if you knew anything about the recent occurrences in her life. When we went to see her mother she pointed us in your direction. We need to find the common element between all the victims. We needed to see if you were that common element." Spencer's voice was soft, again Derek could tell that his voice was slightly shaking. All Derek wanted to do was wrap Spencer in his arms and hold him until he stopped shaking. Spencer looked up, letting Derek meet his eyes, trying to tell him not to worry. A slight smile curved the older man's face when he realized the message that Spencer was trying to send him. Pretty boy wanted him to know that he could take care of himself. Unknown to the two men, the woman lying in front of them noticed the look that they shared. She recognized the undying devotion that was present in both of their eyes. She remembered the look from when she and Meredith had still been together back in high school.
We don't have any more questions for you right now, but when we idea the other victims we might need to ask you a few questions. Of course only if you are okay with that." Spencer's voice was soft, but was steadier that it had been before. When Addison nodded Spencer looked to the older agent before saying; "that's all for now, but we'll be staying in the area until the unsub either caught or identified. If you think of anything else that might help us with this case here are our numbers." Spencer placed a small rectangular card onto the white blanket covering the bed before turning to leave. Just as the two men reached the door a raspy voiced called out from behind them, drawing their attention back to the bed.
"take care of each other. Don't let anything get in the way of what you feel for each other." Startled Morgan turned ready to ask Addison what she meant by her comment, but already sleep was invading her body, causing it to go slack against the large white pillows. As Derek watched Addison Baker's eyes close he felt the soft slender hand of the man he loved loop through his own, fingers curving around his own pale against the deep chocolate of his skin. Morgan felt his own fingers wrap around the younger man's of their own accord. It was then that he realized that he would never be able to live without the man standing next to him, he would never be able to love anyone else.
"I talked to Hotch while you were in the bathroom." Morgan's voice rang through silence that permeated the SUV. They hadn't talked since leaving the building, both of them unsure about where they stood in relation to the other. Having never been in love before Derek was unsure what his feelings meant and how he should and could express them. Spencer was unsure about the reality of what was going on. In the past few hours they had moved from a completely platonic friendship to a deep passionate one. Having never had a long term relationship that lasted longer than a few months, and never having been involved with another man, Spencer wasn't sure what to expect. His entire life he had known exactly how he wanted his life to be, there had never been any surprises, he knew what to expect from the job and what to expect at the end of the day. The recent episode called Tobias Hankel hand changed everything. Spencer was no longer sure what he was supposing to be doing. Everything that he did lacked the passion that it had once involved. He no longer felt like he was making the world a better place by putting the evil people in the world behind bars. The only tthing that he could think about now was the next time he would be able to get his fix. The next time that he would be able to escape the drudgery that had become his life. But within the past few hours everything had changed. Derek made Spencer want to live life to the fullest, he wanted to be able to laugh again, he wanted to feel the drive of purpose that this job had once given again.
But most of all Spencer was confused. He wasn't sure what Derek wanted of him. In the years that they had known each other Derek had been a parade of endless one night stands and casual hookups. And to Spencer's knowledge the older agent had never once been with another man, having been scarred by his childhood mentor, Carl Buford. What Spencer wanted most of all was to be with the darker man until they became one being, but he was unsure. Spencer didn't think that he could handle the rejection if Derek didn't want to make what had happened into anything. Coming back into the moment Spencer realized that the older man had spoken, the silence of the car had seeped into him and he hadn't realized that any sound had been made. Stuttering Spencer managed to make a few incoherent sounds before falling silent. He wasn't sure exactly what to say to the man sitting next to him, afraid that one wrong word would drive him away. And the one thing that Spencer did not want to be was alone.
"Pretty boy." Morgan startled Spencer even more, the younger man having gotten lost in his thoughts once again. "Did you hear me?" when Spencer nodded his head Derek continued, "I heard from Hotch. He wants us to stay in the area, we've got rooms booked at a local Marriot. He said that until we make it clear that Addison Baker wasn't the common element that we should stay close to her just in case." Again Spencer nodded, not trusting his voice. Silently he hoped that they had gotten a single room, just so that he could be close to the other man.