Woo! Double chapters!
Kylo's POV:
I forgot how relaxing it felt. Maybe solitude wasn't that bad. My scarf and gloves were next to me in the grass. The wind blew a few strands of my hair in my face.
I brought my arms over my eyes to shield the rising sun.
"What?"
It was kind of ridiculous how discreet this girl thought she was.
I rolled my eyes and dropped my arms from my eyes to behind my head.
"Why did you do it?"
I sighed. "Rey. I've done many things. Don't be so general. What did I do now that's bothering you?"
I sat up. She walked around in front of me.
"It was a question. You didn't have to be so offensive about it."
"Fine. What's wrong?"
She shook her head, knowing I wasn't going to change my attitude.
"Why did you, you know, do what you did last night?"
I smiled.Oh."Why I tried to kiss you?"
She's was blushing. "Don't smile at me like that!"
"Why not?" I kept smiling.
"It's making me uncomfortable."
I almost started laughing.
"Look, I did it because I- I'm-"
My head began to hurt.
I clenched my jaw and grabbed my hair.
I could hardly see. Dammit! This has been happening more often than I'd like.
The pounding went from one small spot to my whole head.
I cried out and hunched over.
I heard Rey calling out for me a few times. I strained to look up to where her voice was coming from, to make me steady but I couldn't think, nonetheless see.
All of a sudden, the pain and pounding was gone. I opened my eyes to Rey. My face was pulled in against her chest and her heart was racing.
Adrenaline was pumping through me. I was sweating and I knew it wasn't from the sun.
She pulled away from my trembling body. She pressed her palm onto my cheek so I lifted my hand up to her wrist.
I was going to make all these sly comments that probably would've irritated her but there was no point. She knows who I am.
"I felt it. Your pain. I couldn't bear it. I had to do something. I'm sorry."
It took me a second to comprehend what she said. Our connection.
"Of course."
"What?"
"Our connection," she was the light calling to me.
"That's probably why I can't kill you."
I looked around. Everyone I know would probably die if they saw me with her, like this.
She was sitting in my lap with her legs around my waist. Her fingers kept tracing my jawline.
I laid back and pulled her down with me.
Rey smiled and my face got hot. She laid next to me. Rey had a leg and an arm curled around me as well her head laying on my chest.
Rey's POV:
After a few minutes, I lifted my head up to see Kylo fast asleep.
I wonder how much sleep he got, if any, at the First Order. I got up and began walking back to Luke.
"Um, Luke, can I tell you something?"
He turned around. "Yes?"
"I don't mean to go against your teachings but...I can't kill Ben."
He looked down.
"He's still a person. And like you said, he did save my life. I can't just kill someone that I owe something to."
Luke began pacing. "I can tell you've given Kylo Ren something more than what he's anticipated."
My body got hot. This is all Ben's fault.
"The tension of the Force is dissipating when you two are together. Maybe..."
He touched his beard then turned his back to me.
"What is it?"
"I need to meditate on this, get answers."
I nodded.
When I returnedback toKylo, he wasstillsleeping. The sun was getting higher in the sky.
I could kill him right now if I wanted to. It'd so easy. Just one stab and he wouldn't even know it. It'd be all over.
I shook the thought out of my head and sat on the ground, holding my face in my hands.
For now I watched him sleep, dream, be at peace for once.
I scooted next to him and stroked his hair.
He reacted to my touch. He turned his face towards my body, hiding his scar I gave him.
Could I use the connection we had while he was asleep?
I decided to try it.
I used the Force like I did that one time in the interrogation room. I was pushing myself.
I made it into his mind and instantly regretted it.
I saw a younger version of me crying out. For him.
I pulled back and fell backwards.
Ben sat up gasping.
He looked over at me trying to catch my breath.
"What's wrong?"
I kept staring at him.
"Rey tell me."
I stood up and began running.
"Rey, wait!"
Now I really wanted to jump off a cliff and never come back.
"Stop!"
He grabbed my wrist.
I screamed.
He spun me around in his hands and held me by my arms. He was searching my face.
"What happened?"
"It was my fault."
I was in tears and could hardly see his face.
"I saw your dream," I coughed out.
He loosened his hold on me.
"That's nothing," he pulled me into his arms,"it's just a dream. We need to practice this if you're that curious."
I nodded and stayed there in his arms.