I'm not really good with my words. I had a lot I wanted to tell her but I could never make myself say it. Sometimes, I lie awake at night wondering if things would've been different if I just said it. Then I realize that's stupid. She died in my arms without any reason. I didn't see any of it coming. I wanted to tell her I loved her. But it's too late now. All of it. Too late.
September 30
She found my watch. I didn't even know she'd gone looking for it. She just walked up to me one night, and pulled it out of her pocket like it was nothing.
"..Hey... Come with me, okay?" This girl probably would've followed me to hell and back. That kinda shit was terrifying.
I took her to Naganaki Shrine so we could be alone. "Where did you find this?"
"The police station. All I had to do was ask Kurosawa and he let me claim it." She smiled as she watched me, her lips curved slightly in a mocking way. I wasn't in the mood for her jokes tonight.
"I see... I thought I'd be fine if I never saw this again... But I never imagined you of all people would bring it to me."
"Why not?"
"I didn't know you were in the lost and found business. I thought someone as busy as you wouldn't have time to look for something that was probably gone for good."
"It was important to you. I'd felt bad after our last conversation." Her eyes were closed. I remember that. She almost looked like she wanted to fall asleep. "It was unfair of me, so I thought bringing you back the watch would make things even. Does it?"
I opted not to answer her. She was too perfect. We would never be even.
"I bought you something a long time ago but didn't know if you'd like it. I was hesitating about if I should give it to you or not. I thought it'd look good on ya..."
I pulled the leather watch out of my pocket. I hadn't wrapped it. I never thought I'd actually give it to her. She didn't wear any jewelry. Didn't even have her ears pierced. I'd bought it after that night at the cafe but I couldn't grab the guts to give it to her. After our last conversation, I thought I'd never do it.
"Thank you..." She said softly, tying it around her wrist. I was right. It did look good on her. "Why did you pick a watch?"
"What?"
"You have a pocket watch, and now a wristwatch for me. It's...different. Most people can check the time on their phones."
"Well, I don't use my phone. It's normally Aki sending me stupid pictures anyway. Sides, time's important. We never know how much we have. A lot of people like to spend their time doing nothing. I guess... I want to know how much time I spend on everything, so I can save my time for the important things. Yeah... That's it..."
"Am I an important thing?" Her head rested on my arm. Almost the shoulder but she was too short to make it. This was good. It meant she couldn't see my face.
"...Yeah... You're a... really important thing."
We sat in silence for a minute before I told her the story about the first fight between me and Aki. It's a good story and an important one. He'd been a hero and an idiot. Beating me up and crying his eyes out. He hasn't changed at all from back then, even now. After everything is over. He's still beating things up when he's mad, and crying when he's sad. He's stupid, honest, proud, and a crybaby.
"Someone needs to be by his side." It had to be her. She was strong. Together, the two of them could've been perfect. They looked nice together too. That hurt a little.
"We'll be by his side. All of us." She whispered. "Me and you... Everyone at SEES."
"Yeah... I'll be counting on you. All of you. I ain't worried at all because I know you're with him. I'm leaving the rest to you." It felt like goodbye. Maybe she knew that because she didn't answer me. She just shivered. "Hey...The wind's starting to pick up..."
"I kinda want to stay here a little longer if we can..." She was offering me the option. We could stay if I wanted, and I wanted to. I'd of stayed forever.
"Aren't you cold?" She wasn't wearing much. Her uniform, a flimsy jacket, it wouldn't protect her from this wind.
"Yeah, a little." She pulled the jacket closer, but it didn't seem to help much. The useless action almost made me laugh.
"Hey, you're gonna catch something. C'mere..." I pulled her into my arms, catching her off guard. She gasped.
"Sepnai...?" I wrapped my coat around her, pulling her whole body onto my lap. She seemed surprised at first, but then she rested her head against my chest. She was so small, so warm and so cold at the same time. She was close. I wondered if she could hear my heartbeat racing.
"You're really cold." She whispered.
"It's because a tiny girl is stealing all my body heat." I retorted. I wouldn't tell her the real reason. Nothing would ruin this moment.
"I'm not stealing. My powers of seduction have made you willingly hand it over to me." She almost laughed. I could hear it with my chest.
"It's because you don't wear much clothes. Showing skin is cheating in the art of seduction. You gotta show them a little personality. Where's your skills, Arisato?" I refused to let her win tonight. She wasn't going to get away with making my heart race while she could walk away unfazed. It just wasn't fair.
"My skills are too much for the lone man. It would make his heart faint." I could feel her smiling into my chest. The cheeky devil. She was too good at this.
"Modesty is a virtue ya know." I couldn't think of anything else. The battle was pretty much hers.
"Virtue is my persona. Modesty is for the weak! I will use all the battle panties if it makes me stronger!" She threw her hands up into the air, nearly punching me in the face. It was a mess.
"Tch..." The only form of revenge I could imagine was petting her head. She hopped a little on my lap before snuggling herself deeper into my arms and chest. Her hair was all tangled up in her ponytail. It looked kind of like a bird's nest, actually. Not an ounce of girly charm. I pressed my lips to the top of her head and left them there. She didn't move.
"I have something to tell you." Those words are damning. If your girl ever says those words to you, be afraid. In fact, it might be better to cover your ears and run.
"Go ahead."
"Minato's my brother. My twin brother, actually."
"...What?" That wasn't what I expected. That hadn't crossed my mind at all even though it should have. With names like theirs.
"Minako and Minato. We were twins. He died on Moonlight Bridge with my parents... That night. They were taking us to Inaba. For a funeral. Our aunt and uncle had just died in a car accident. Funny, isn't it? Having my entire family die in a car crash while heading to a funeral for someone else who was in a car crash. Our parents had agreed to take in their daughter because no one else wanted her. After that night, Naoto and I were both orphans. The car hit something and flipped over. It kept spinning and when it stopped, the lights were bright green. My parents were dead. Minato was dead. Everything was covered in blood. I left the car and no one was on the bridge. It was the Dark Hour. Everyone who was alive was locked up tight in their little coffins. I passed out... When I woke up again, I was all alone. I've been alone ever since. If he didn't die that night, the one sitting in front of you right now, might be him and not me."
She was quiet for a long time. What do you say to the girl you like when she tells you about watching her family die? She'd probably been calling out to him for the past 10 years, waking up alone and feeling all of that shit all over again. "What made you want to tell me everything?"
"Because I loved my brother. And you remind me of him."
That was a little creepy, and a little comforting. I could live with her thinking of me as her brother. It wasn't a bad spot to be, just not what I really wanted. "What was he like?"
"Minato...? Well, he didn't talk much."
That night could've been enough for me. The moon was smiling for us. There were stars shining above our heads, and I held the entire universe in my arms. That night could've been enough, but she gave me more. The fool gave me everything.
A/N: Forgive this chapter for being short. It's pretty much all buildup. The next chapter is the extra scene in the moon social link. It's also going to be a somewhat graphic sex scene. Skip it if your morals don't allow you to read about pre-marital sex.
