LET THE HEALING BEGIN! Chapter 5, a twilight fanfic

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Chapter 5: Shopping With the Angel, the Bitch, Oh and Jacob Too

Behind every bitch is a man who made her that way

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I was not sure I had made the right choice when Angela pulled up in her mother's Hyundai Sonata. I grabbed my purse, along with the thirty dollars Charlie gave me, and ran out the door.

"Hey Bella," Angela exclaimed.

"Hey Angela," I said.

I got in the passenger's seat. She was playing some cheesy love music. I smiled and tried to tune it out.

When we got to Jacob's house, he was waiting outside. He had on a black leather jacket, a tight, sleeveless, gray shirt that had a picture of a black car on it, and a pair of black jeans. He cleaned up nicely.

"That's your friend?" Angela asked, impressed.

I nodded.

"Hey Bella," Jacob said running to the car.

"Hey Jake," I said then noticed someone behind him.

It was Leah Clearwater.

"What's Leah doing here?" I asked.

Jacob let out a sigh.

"Harry asked if she could go with us to the mall." Jacob whispered.

"Why?" I asked.

"He wants her to get out of the house." Jacob said.

I turned to Angela.

"It's okay with me." Angela said.

"Cool." Jacob said getting in the back seat.

"Whatever" Leah said getting in beside him.

Leah scooted as far away from him as she could and crossed her arms.

"Thanks for the CD Jacob" I said.

Jacob smiled "Glad you like it!" he said.

I decide to let Angela listen to the radio. Now that Jacob was here, the music did not bother me. The three of us all talked until we reached the mall. We tried to engage Leah but she just ignored us.

"So what do you want to do first?" I asked Angela.

"Let's check out the boutique." She said.

The shop was not very big or crowded. They sold men's clothes to so that was good for Jacob.

"How do I look?" Angela asked.

She came out wearing a cute red dress.

"I like it." I told her.

"You look good." Jacob said.

Leah just rolled her eyes.

"Morons" she muttered.

Jacob glared at her.

"Shut up Leah," he ordered.

Leah glared back at him.

"No, you shut up. You're not the boss of me." Leah growled.

I decided to intervene before someone got hurt.

"Come on Jacob. Help me find an outfit." Jacob continued glaring at Leah.

It was time for drastic measures.

"I'll let you pick out the next outfit I try on." I said.

Jacob's head snapped towards me so fast that I was surprised it did not fall off.

"Any outfit" Jacob asked.

I nodded hesitantly.

"Okay", Jacob grabbed my hand and began leading me away.

I looked back and saw Angela talking to Leah. I hope Leah was not too much of a bitch towards her. Angela was one of the nicest people I knew. Jacob started looking through the racks.

I expected Jacob to pick out some skimpy outfit, that would make me uncomfortable to look at, much less wear. Instead, he turned around with a red top and a short blue jean skirt.

"This would look great on you," Jacob said handing it to me.

"Y-you think so?" I asked nervously.

I did not really think I looked good in skirts.

"Of course" Jacob said.

"Anything would look good on you." He said.

I smiled and went to the fitting room. The outfit was actually comfortable. I came out of the fitting room slowly.

"How do I look?" I asked.

Angela smiled "You look pretty." She said.

Leah looked me over and gave a nod of approval. I looked at Jacob who was just staring at me.

"What do you think?" I asked.

"You look beautiful." Jacob said.

I smiled and decided to buy it. I looked at Leah who was just sitting there glaring at the ground.

"You should pick something out to." I suggested.

Leah gave me a blank look.

"Seriously, you should get something." I said.

Jacob looked at me then at Leah. He walked off leaving me alone with her. Jacob came back with a dark brown almost black dress and through it at Leah.

"Here, Leah." He said then gestured toward the fitting room.

Leah got up. I thought she was going to take the dress to the fitting room but instead she walked over and punched Jacob in the face. She threw the dress on the ground and stormed off.

"I don't need your help finding clothes Black!" she said angrily.

Angela looked in the direction Leah went puzzled.

"Why is she so angry all the time?" I asked Jacob.

Jacob sighed and motioned for me to come closer.

"Leah wasn't always such a bitch. She used to be really nice." Jacob whispered in my ear.

"What happened?" I asked.

Jacob sighed.

"You remember Sam?" he asked.

I nodded. How could I forget about Sam, the gang leader, who kept looking at Jacob funny?

"Well, Sam and Leah were high school sweet hearts. They started dating when Leah was a freshman. Anyway, before you came to Forks Sam went missing for two weeks. No one knew where he was. Sam's mother and Leah had the forest rangers searching for him and the police. People thought there had been an accident or something." Jacob said.

"Where was he?" I asked.

Jacob shrugged.

"He wouldn't tell anyone. Rumors flew that he was up to no go, mostly. Sam and Leah were still together after that though. Then he started disappearing at night. Leah was furious that he would not tell her where he had been or where he went at night. Why he was so exhausted after he came back home, but they were working it out. They were trying and I thought they really loved each other…" Jacob broke off.

I looked at him expectantly.

"What happened?" I asked.

"Leah's cousin, Emily Young, came down from the Makkah reservation to visit her one weekend. Emily is Leah's second cousin. They were close, though. Almost like sisters. Once Sam saw Emily it was love at first sight for him. After that, he dumped Leah and pursued Emily relentlessly. He broke Leah's heart. He went back on every promise he'd ever made to her." Jacob looked angry.

I was angry too.

Poor Leah, Sam was a jerk, who could ever do something so cruel!

I saw a flash of Edward's cold face when he left me in the woods. I felt a sharp pain.

I grabbed Jacob's hand and the pain numbed a little.

"How did Emily take it?" I asked.

Jacob squeezed my hand.

"She was real angry, in the beginning. However, eventually she gave in. a few weeks later she was mauled by a bear. Sam rarely left her side after that. They were engaged a month later. Now Leah has to put on a brave face. She is going to be a bridesmaid next spring." Jacob said.

I was practically shaking with anger. I guess it was karma. She stole her cousin man so she is mauled by a bear.

"Come on Jake. Let's go find Leah." I said determined.

I picked up the dress that Leah threw down and told Angela where we were going. Angela decided to come with us. We found Leah sitting on a bench in the shoe section. She was not trying on shoes though. She was staring at her phone with a wistful look on her face.

"There you are Leah." I said and Leah dropped her phone in surprise. I picked it up.

Leah snatched it out my hand but not before I saw her screen saver.

It was a picture of Sam and Leah smiling and walking happily hand in hand on the beach.

I felt sad for her. I was also a little envious. He took all our pictures with him when he left. I shook those thoughts away.

"Here Leah, I really think this dress would look good on you." I told her.

She looked at me suspiciously.

"Whatever," she said grabbing the dress and going in the fitting room.

When she came back, I gasped.

She was absolutely stunning.

I knew that I could never pull of something like that but on Leah, it looked good.

The dress was strap-less and it stopped at her knees.

"You look gorgeous!" Angela said.

"You look amazing." I said.

Jacob gave her the thumbs up.

Leah scoffed but I think I saw her blushing. I looked at Jacob who did not have anything in his hands.

"Aren't you going to get something?" I asked.

Jacob shook his head. "I didn't see anything I wanted." Jacob said then smirked.

"But I found a bunch of outfits for you." Jacob said suggestively.

I thought about the last outfit he picked out for me.

"Bring them, I'll try them on." I said heading into the fitting room.

Shopping with Jacob was nothing like with Alice.

I did not feel like a life-sized doll. I felt almost…Beautiful.

We had a lot more fun after that. Leah and Angela really hit it off. She even warmed up to me a little. We all decide to get something to eat at the food court before we left.

Jacob decided to be good man and bought us each a slice of pizza and a soda. We thanked him and all talked easily. We made plans to hang out again afterwards.

"I want ice-cream." Angela said.

Leah and Jacob nodded.

I did not really want ice cream but I tagged along any way. Angela got a strawberry ice cream with sprinkles. Leah got rocky road ice cream with nuts. Jacob got a double fudge banana split with nuts, sprinkles, and caramel sauce.

He handed me a cherry cola float.

I shook my head.

"I'm not hungry." I said.

Jacob frowned then looked at his banana split. He took a spoonful and held it out to me.

"Say AAH!" Jacob said.

I kept my mouth closed.

Jacob moved the spoon closer.

"AAH." He said again.

I sighed and opened my mouth.

"It's delicious!" I said amazed.

Jacob smiled and took a spoonful for himself. He pointed toward my cherry float. I took a sip and smiled.

"Thank you." I said.

I drank my float while Jacob ate his ice cream. Every occasionally Jacob would spoon-feed me some of his ice cream. We even split the banana.

As we were leaving, I saw a hairdresser and remembered what I had wanted to ask Jacob.

"Hey Jake, do you think I should change my hair style?" I asked.

Jacob looked at me and frowned.

"Why?" he asked and I shrugged.

"I was thinking of trying something different." I said.

Jacob nodded.

"Okay." He said.

I told Angela and Leah what I was doing then went into the shop.

"What style would you like?" the hairdresser asked.

I looked at Jacob who was waving at me through the window.

"Something different… Edgier" I said.

The hairdresser smiled.

"I got it.," she said.

I left the shop with shoulder-length layers that stacked on the ends, to create subtle volume at the sides, with a deep side part.

Jacob was speechless.

"Does it look bad?" I asked.

"Damn Swan, you look good." Leah said.

"You look totally different!" Angela exclaimed.

I looked toward Jacob.

"You look hot!" Jacob exclaimed then blushed.

I blushed too.

"Thanks" I said to all of them.

Jacob grabbed my hand while we were walking to the car.

"Well if it isn't Bella and her little fan club." I heard someone say from behind us.

I turned and saw Lauren, Jessica, and some people I did not know staring at us.

"Having fun?" she asked gesturing to my hand, which Jacob was still holding.

"You bounce back pretty quickly." Jessica said with a smirk.

"Weren't you still in love with Edward last week?" she asked and I felt my heart rip itself out of my chest.

"You make me sick!" Lauren said with a sneer.

"You acted like you were so torn up about Cullen for attention. Didn't you?" Jessica said.

"You're nothing but a slut with a bad hairdo. No wonder Edward left you!" Lauren said.

I was devastated. I wrapped my arms around myself and began to cry.

"You bitch!" Jacob said angrily stepping forward.

"I have a policy against hitting women but for you I just might make an exception!" Jacob said cracking his knuckles.

The boys, who were with Lauren and Jessica stepped forward, to defend them.

"Like we would let that happen." The one on the right said.

"Come on, you look like a weakling anyway." The one on the left said.

They rushed toward Jacob.

"I wouldn't do that." I heard Leah mutter from behind me.

I had my hands over my eyes so I did not see what happened. I just heard the sounds of a struggle, then the sound of something hitting the ground.

I looked up and saw Jacob punching the last one in the throat. Then Jacob kicked them again when they fell. He turned toward Lauren and Jessica, who were shaking in fear, and shook his bloody, bruised knuckles at them.

"You better not bother Bella again or I will come for you next. I don't care whether you are girls or not." Jacob threatened.

"And Bella is Not a Slut! She is the best girl in the world." Jacob said and I felt my heart flutter.

Lauren stopped shaking and smirked.

"Why do you want her? She's old goods. She's been used and dumped like a soiled tissue. Wouldn't you rather have someone prettier than that loser?" Lauren asked suggestively.

Jacob looked disgusted.

Leah stepped forward.

"That's it!" she said taking off her earrings and handing them to Angela.

"I'm going to shut you up once and for all!" Leah said.

Lauren frowned and Jessica took a step back. Jacob walked over to me and put his jacket on my shoulders while I watched Leah beat the crap out of Lauren and Jessica.

I never knew a girl could be that brutal.

After Leah finished she walked over to me.

"You're not so bad Swan. Those bitches had it coming!" she said.

"This isn't over Bella!" I heard Lauren shout.

Leah glared at her. Jessica and Lauren limped away fearfully.

Jacob led me to the car. The two of us sat in the back seat. Jacob wrapped his arm around me in the car.

"Hey Jacob," I whispered, wiping the tears off my cheeks with the back of my hand.

"Hmm" Jacob said.

"I'm sorry you had to get involved in all that." I said guiltily.

"Don't be silly Bella! They were just a bunch of jealous liars. I know you, better than anyone right? "Jacob asked.

I nodded.

"Don't worry. I will always be here watching over you!" Jacob said.

"Thank you for coming to my rescue" I said to both Jacob and Leah.

Angela dropped Jacob and Leah off then drove me home.

"I'm sorry Bella!" Angela suddenly blurted out.

I looked at her confused.

"Why?" I asked.

Angela turned away from me, and looked down at her hands, which were gripping the steering wheel tightly.

"I just froze and I couldn't do anything to help you." Angela said.

I placed my hand on her shoulder.

"It's okay Angela." I said quietly.

"I'm glad you didn't fight." I told her.

Angela was too nice I smiled at her and said goodbye before going in the house.

Charlie was asleep on the couch when I got home. I woke him up and made him go upstairs. He was so tired that he did not even notice my new hairstyle. I went to bed extremely tired after the events of the day. I lay down in my bed and stared at the ceiling.

The words Lauren and Jessica said echoing in my head.

I hated them.

I hated everyone.

I hated the world.

I hated Edwa-

I felt the hole in my chest burst. I collapsed holding my chest gasping like a fish out of water.

I cried bitterly.

I could never hate him. I still loved him. I loved him from the bottom of my wounded, bleeding heart!

"How could you just leave me here? What am I supposed to do now?" I whispered angrily at nothing.

I was completely alone. I scrambled of the bed to my Stereo. I put the black CD in hoping for something to ease my pain.

"Hey Bella, it's me Jacob" Jacob was whispering softly.

"It's time for bed."

I lay down and closed my eyes listening to Jacob's voice. The music started playing.

When the road gets dark

And you can no longer see

Let my love throw a spark

Have a little faith in me

The singer's voice was amazing. It also felt familiar. His voice was soft and deep. I could feel the emotions he had running through him when he sang. It all felt deeply personal. As if, I was intruding on something private.

And when the tears you cry

Are all you can believe

Give these loving arms a try baby

Have a little faith in me

When your secret heart

Cannot speak so easily

From a whisper start

To have a little faith in me

And when your back's against the wall

Just turn around and you will see

I will catch your fall

Have a little faith in me

I felt my eyes drop and I fell into a deep sleep.

That night I dreamed Jacob and I were riding on top of a giant russet wolf.

We were both smiling and laughing going to a better place in the distance, I could swear I heard Edward's voice in the wind saying.

"You won't get away" I urged the wolf faster and just went we made it to the clearing Jacob disappeared.

I looked around and saw Sam Uley standing there staring at me with cold hard eyes. The wolf dropped me of its back and went to crouch near Sam's feet.

"You can't have him Bella." Sam said patting the wolf's head.

"Jacob belongs to me." He growled.

"No!" I shouted running toward him.

A cold hand wrapped itself around my wrist.

"Think only of me Bella!" Edward yelled.

I struggled against him trying to find Jacob.

"Jacob where are you!" I yelled.

I saw Jacob crouched on his knees in place of the wolf. He was looking up at Sam as if Sam was his savior. Sam leaned down and whispered something in his ear. Jacob nodded and rose to his feet following Sam into the trees.

"Jacob, please come back!"

Edward continued holding me tightly.

"I won't let you go Bella!" Edward yelled.

"Sam!" I heard, I looked, and saw Leah running after them.

Sam turned to face her. They stood there staring at each other. I cried out for Leah to help me. Sam held out his hand toward Leah.

I was screaming, begging, at the top of my lungs. Sam and Leah ran off into the forest with Jacob leaving me behind. I continued to struggle.

"What are you doing?" I heard to my left.

I looked and saw Jacob, in the same outfit he wore to the mall, standing there staring at me with an eyebrow rose.

"Jacob, please help me!" I shouted.

Jacob looked puzzled.

"What's wrong?" he asked.

"Edward won't let go of me!" I yelled struggling.

Edward only gripped me tighter and growled.

"There is no one there Bella," Jacob said.

I continued fighting.

"He won't let go of me." I said again.

Jacob put one hand over my chest where my heart was beating frantically and the other over my mouth.

"Shhh," he whispered.

I stopped struggling.

"Relax, Bella…I'm going to take you away from here…some place far away." He said then took his hand off my mouth.

"Just take my hand Bella," he said calmly.

"I can't. Edward is holding me too tight." I said.

Jacob just continued holding his hand out for me to take.

"There is no one there Bella. Stop fighting and take my hand. Have a little faith in me." Jacob said.

I felt myself calm at his words and Edward's grip loosened. I reached out and took hold of his hand.

Edward disappeared instantly. Jacob and I held on to each other as a strong wind came over us.

When I opened my eyes and found myself at the lake with Jacob.

"This is our world now Bella." Jacob said and he pressed his lips against mine.

I kissed him back and held his shoulders pulling him closer.

Suddenly my eyes popped open and I realized that I was awake. I pressed my fingers to my lips. I could still feel Jacob's warmth. I could not believe it had been a dream.

Not even Edwa-

I gasped in pain.

Every cell of my body seemed to be jerking in pain. Sickness and disgust ran through me.

I had betrayed him!

I had betrayed our love.

The words that Lauren and Jessica said echoed through my mind.

You bounce back quickly.

Weren't you still in love with Edward last week!

I covered my ears trying to block out my thoughts. I felt like a horrible person. I looked at my alarm clock beside me.

It was only 3:00am.

That was too early to go anywhere. I needed to get out of here. I stood up and walked out of my room.

I walked across the hall and knocked before I could change my mind. I heard the sound of Charlie shifting.

"Come on in, Bella" he said.

I darted into his room. He was sitting up in bed, wiping his eyes and yawning.

"What's up Bells?" He asked.

He glanced at his alarm clock but did not comment on the time.

I looked down at the floor nervously.

"Can I sleep in here?" I asked.

I waited for him to tell me I was too old for that, as Rene did when I turned eight.

"Sure, Bella" He said and held up the covers.

I climbed into bed and cuddled beneath his arm.

Just like I used to do, when I was a little girl, and I was hiding from the monsters in my closet.

"Goodnight, Bells," he said closing his eyes and falling back to sleep instantly.

"Goodnight, Dad" I muttered, sleeping into a deep dreamless sleep.

Author's note: So Bella is finally relying a little bit on Charlie. What did you think of the song and of Bella's dream? Thank you all for reading my story. Please make sure you PM or review your thoughts and suggestions. Thanks to those who reviewed. You guys rock.

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