A/N Hopefully, after this chapter, the title will make sense to you. This is longer than the others, and the next chapter will probably be very short, so enjoy the long one while you can. :) This is the good part, so if you don't read anything else, read this. Enjoy!
He was still staring at the pile of letters, almost as if in a trance. Finally, he snapped out of it, realizing he should just read them. He noticed they were numbered, but not with the same pen used to address them, so it was obviously written before she delivered them to him. He didn't know why, but he felt the need to get his letters. Maybe he would compare them to hers. He went over to his closet and pulled out the box and brought it back to the table.
He found the letter labeled "#1" and opened it.
Dear Jess,
Hi. I hope you're good.
-Rory
He looked at the first letter he had written to her. He had also labeled them, but he didn't know why. He didn't plan on giving them to her.
Dear Rory,
Hi. How are you? I'm sure you're good.
-Jess
He remembered how badly he had wanted to sign it "Love, Jess". He had never experienced love before, but he figured it wasn't supposed to be with someone you weren't even dating. He also knew that would have been way too corny. He opened the next one.
Dear Jess,
I should regret kissing you.
This one wasn't signed, and he figured she decided not to send it before she finished writing. He didn't know how to interpret the letter. He opened his second one.
Dear Rory,
I know you should regret kissing me.
He, too, didn't sign it, figuring that would be too stupid to send. He opened the next one.
Dear Jess,
I should regret kissing you. But I don't. Not at all. Why can't I make myself regret it?
-Rory
He was stunned. The girl he was in love with was saying she doesn't feel bad about kissing him. He was happy, but also stunned. He looked at his letter.
Dear Rory,
Do you regret kissing me? I'm sorry you cheated on Dean. You can regret it, it's fine. I understand. You should regret it.
-Jess
He had written that last part in hopes of saying what he thought she wanted to hear. Apparently, he was wrong. He took out the next letter.
Dear Jess,
I figured out why I don't regret it. I like you. I like you more than a friend. I like you a lot. I shouldn't like you. I should like Dean. No, I should love Dean. Why can't I just focus on Dean? I tried to let you go. It obviously isn't working.
-Rory
He was amazed. These letters got better and better. But he also felt sort of bad for her. He knew Dean was her first love, and he knew it must be really hard for her to fall out of love with him. He took out his letter.
Dear Rory,
I like you. If it's not obvious, well, then, I guess I should be a spy, because I obviously have a good cover. I like you a lot. I'm sorry. I know you like Dean. Sorry, you love Dean. I tried to let you go. It didn't work.
-Jess
He couldn't wait to read the next. He didn't even stop to think about it. He just pulled it out and read it.
Dear Jess,
I know why I can't focus on Dean. I don't love him anymore. I don't even like him anymore.
-Rory
He couldn't even comprehend this. He read his again.
Dear Rory,
Do you like me? Don't worry, I know the answer is probably no. That's fine, I guess. I just want you to be happy. But I'll tell you one thing: I don't think you love Dean anymore. And you're probably going to hate me for this letter, but I just needed you to know. And I'm not experienced with love. But I just know.
-Jess
There was only one letter left from her.
Dear Jess,
I think I love you.
-Rory
He tried, unsuccessfully, to refrain from grinning. He re-read the letter a million times before pulling the final one he wrote to her out.
Dear Rory,
I've never done this before, but I think I love you.
-Jess
He couldn't believe how similar their letters were. Suddenly, he knew what he had to do.
A/N Hope you liked it! I told you this was the good part. There will be more, probably soon, and it will probably be another very short chapter. :)