A/N: ABLE TO UPLOAD STORIES AGAIN! YAY! :D

Anyway, I really wanna fix up the first chapter to this story. It has a lot of mistakes and just feels off to me. BUT I"M LAZY! So, if any of you guys might wanna go over it and fix it up just inbox me. :) Also BE WARNED, Sesshomaru might seem a little OC in this chapter, but he'll probably be that way from now on. Sorry. :/

When you open yourself fully to someone, you can't take back the knowledge they gained, but you can cherish the fact the knowledge was given out of love and the trust that person feels for you.

Chapter 20: Things Left Unsaid

Kagome's POV

I sat on the bed in the spare bedroom Touga made mine looking at the number on my phone. "How should I even start." I whispered.

I felt like my mind was jumbled and the more I tried to figure out what I would say, the more I felt like the stereotype people viewed teenagers as. It was just so hard though! When you're the one at fault after repeatedly refusing the other one that was right, it kind of makes you felt stupid. And scared.

"Just do it girl. If he rejects you, then he wasn't good enough to start with." that was probably the biggest lie I've ever told in my life.

Clicking the call button, I put the phone to my ear and hugged the pillow in my lap to my chest as I bit my lip. Five rings later I felt as dejected as I could before a snarling voice answered on the other end. "What!"

I almost dropped the phone at the venom in the male's tone on the other end, and after a moment of silence, a growl broke me from my blank stare at the far wall. "Sesshomaru?"

Any growling or fowl snarls on the speaker ceased and for a moment I believed he would hang up. "Kagome?"

The school girl in me wanted to blush at the sound of his voice, but the older more mature part of me that I had been trying to access all day picked up on the sadness and worry in his tone.

"Yeah." I whispered before we fell into a small silence again. "Are you okay?"

Shifting was my response on the other end before a sigh was heard, and I could just imagine him running his fingers through his bangs. "How did you get this number?"

The question made my face fall slightly, but it didn't deter me. "Does it matter?" I countered earning a growl for the demon.

"Kagome," his short pause after my name frightened me before an overwhelming panic hit me at his next words. "never call this number again."

"Sesshomaru if you hang up I will steal one of your Dad's cars and drive to that house so I can kick your ass!" I yelled into the phone before speaking in a voice that could rival his own. "I don't think you want a repeat to what happened with your car, now do you?"

The threat was childish, but it wasn't a lie. I would do everything in my power to find him if it meant I got a chance to tell him everything. And keep him on the line.

"So now you're threatening me?" I picked up on the dark tone he used.

"No, but I do want answers to some things and I have some things I want to tell you. You owe me that much after leaving me in that cemetery." I told him.

"Oh really?" he chuckled bitterly at me. "I still owe you after sparring your life, releasing you to my father so you could go back to the life you wanted to go back to, taking care of you the entire time you were with me, and now you're telling me I still owe you?" he hissed.

"Okay, you're mad. That's normal, but-"

"Kagome you couldn't even imagine how hard it is listening to you speak right now. If you only knew half of the reasons why your leaving-" he cut himself off and I wait to hear what he has to say.

"Just tell me what you have to say and make it quick."

That statement didn't make me feel hopeful, but at least he was listening.

"Why did you leave me in the cemetery?"

"Because after the stunt you pulled, I figured nothing I did would ever get you to stay."

"Why did you want me to stay?"

"I told you when I brought you here why. To make you my slave."

"We both know you're full of shit." I answered leaning back into the pillows on the bed.

"You asked for answers. I cannot help if they aren't what you want to hear." He said nonchalantly.

I huffed. "Well, maybe what I want is the truth. Maybe I just want to know how much of a screw up I am."

I know my logic wasn't really good, but maybe opening a bunch of doors in the conversation would lead somewhere. I wasn't disappointed.

"You are not a screw up Kagome. You have never did anything wrong."

'Got him.' I thought happily, but kept the emotion out of my voice. "No. I am a screw up Sesshomaru. I've been a screw up ever since I yelled at you in the kitchen that day." Tears began to fill my eyes and I didn't have to fake the quiver in my voice this time. "That day, the reason- the reason I told you those things and said what I said was because-"

"Kagome, don't." Sesshomaru whispered, but I continued on.

"I said it because I- I didn't know how to deal with the way I felt about you." I couldn't hold back the sob I let out, or the line of curses at myself for not just saying I love him. "When you nuzzled my neck and said how the idea of kids sounded nice it scared me. Everything that I had grown up believing and hearing rushed to my mind, and I lashed out at you because honestly I could see a future like that."

I sniffed and listened to the silence on the other end. It felt as if the world had boxed me in at that moment. The fear of rejection swimming in my chest.

"I know."

My jaw dropped as I began to choke. "Wh- what?"

"I know. I knew you were afraid of what would happen. After I took my run I figured out why you acted that way. I was going to tell you after dinner that night I would take you back to your family if that was what you wished, but you know what happened. That's why I told my father to take you back to Tokyo when I healed you. You could live your life how you always wanted it to be. You could finish school, get a college degree and a good job, and start a family with a man who was worthy enough to call you his."

I tightly squeezed my eyes shut and through myself forward as I tucked my body into itself. My hair rumpled around my head.

"But what if my plans changed!" I cried, tears burning both sides of my cheeks. "What if I don't want a plan to my life. Maybe- no. No, there is no maybe. I want something different then a plan to what I do. I never knew how boring my life was until I meet you. I want a guy I can have a conversation with, and not feel like I'm boring him. I want a guy that doesn't always show me affection when we're in public, but when we're alone he's as loving as a puppy. I want a guy that knows me more then I know myself, and damn it Sesshomaru I WANT YOU!" I told him sitting up in the bed once more as I heard the sharp intake on the other end.

"Kagome," I could hear the smile in his voice, but the sadness laced within it made me want to scream. "I want you too."

"But?" I asked as tears filled my eyes again at the knowledge that his next words wouldn't have a fairy tale ending.

"But there is no going back. What's done is done. I wish we could have worked things out before. I wish I acted differently then I did. I regret how I put myself around you, but will never regret the time spent with you."

I pressed the phone into the comforter as I let out a pained cry and covered my watery eyes. 'God this hurt. Why can't this be some sappy love story?' I thought sniffing as I whipped the tears away and brought the phone back to my ear.

"Why? Why can't we go back to how things were? Why can't I go back to the house with you, or you come back here until I finish school in June? Why don't you want to try!"

"It isn't that I don't want to try koi, it's that everything had went too far and now I can not fix it."

"I don't understand." I mumbled, confused at his words but elated at use of an endearment even though it caused more pain.

Sesshomaru sighed. "The demon council found out about me 'kidnapping' you. Apparently someone called them about what I did. They were not pleased, and shortly after my father retrieved you I received a letter from them. I had to go see them, and after witnessing that you were home safe they released me with a warning. Mainly because of the knowledge I gave them about the issue, but there was a catch to my release. I am not allowed within 500 miles of you, to contact you, or be allowed in Tokyo unless on business and I am with my father." He said solemnly as my anger flared.

"That's not fair! What if I want to see you? They might have a say dealing with you, but they don't have a say dealing with me!"

"That is the thing Kagome. I- I can't tell you everything because I believe it will only make you more determined, but the reason the council said that was to punish me. They did not believe I deserved you after taking you and who ever told them also said I abused you, but there was no evidence to that. My point is, because of my poor treatment of you, they believe I shouldn't have the luxury of ever seeing you again. If they even found out about this call, there could be serious consequences. They could execute me."

I felt my blood run cold at his words. Suddenly it was hard to form a sentence. "But- but it's not the feudal era, they can't just kill when they want! I mean, I'm the one who contacted you, it should be me who gets executed."

"NO!" Sesshomaru's enraged snarl quickly silenced me as I leaned back against the headboard still holding a pillow to my chest. The quietness that settled between us before was back and I bite my lip as I switched to lay on my back as an idea formed.

"Hey Sesshomaru?" I asked quietly looking at the ceiling. "Could you tell me a story?"

"A story?" he asked, and I could hear the confusion in his voice.

I had spent days listening to Inuyasha spit out his version about Sesshomaru meeting me, but what I needed to hear was his side. "I want to hear how you met me, including the dream." The last part was almost whispered, but I knew he heard.

"Inuyasha told you didn't he?" His tone was angry, but I knew his wrath wasn't directed at me. "Kagome-"

"I don't blame you Sesshomaru. You've told me about you and what your demons side needs, I just want to know the truth form you." I told him.

He let out a long sigh. "If that is what you wish."

I got comfortable against the headboard and listened as he began the 'story'.

"It had been the beginning of September when I first saw you. I can still remember what you were wearing. A white dress that hugged each of your curves and fanned out at your waist. It was warm that day, and I had left the office for a late lunch. It was unusually for me, and pure luck I had even come across you because of it. It seemed as if fate wished me to that exact spot.

"A business partner had recommended the sandwich shop I had went in, and had told me to try it and tell him what I thought of it in the next meeting. It was out of the way, but I decided to kill two birds with one stone and go. The place had been packed with humans, and after the half hour wait to order and receive my food, I had instantly threw it away after the first bite. It had been disgusting, but I would never tell my partner that. I had walked out irritable, and about ripped off the door while leaving.

"As soon as I walked out the door the though I had ran into someone. More bad luck, I had thought. It was an ebony-haired human girl with two shopping bags in her hands."

I felt my breath hitch as I remembered that day slowly comeback to me. I had went out to get groceries, and had been deep in thought before I ran into someone who growled at me!

"I wanted to yell at her, but she had cut me off with a rushed apology before running down the street. I would have went after her, but I had been frozen into place, not only by her scent, but by the flare of her miko powers from my growl."

"I had been embarrassed." I mumbled with a blush as he paused. I could almost see him grinning.

"Hnn, I have come to realize your reiki spikes with any type of intense emotion you show. Now as I was saying; Your scent had called to my more primal urges, but you being a miko was a challenge to me. Most females I had come across were weak and predictable. I began to tire from hurting until that day I saw you.

"I followed you for a month to learn your routine that mainly only consisted of home, school, or maybe that slayer's house before I decided to enter your dreams. It's how I would see if you were worth pursuing or if I should just kill you. I hadn't been disappointed though and had a fun chase, so I decided to go ahead and make you mine.

"This is where I sent in Inuyasha. I enrolled him in your school to be-friend you to make obtaining you easier. When we brought you to the mansion though he had started to feel guilty for deceiving you. I figured then that I would have to change my plans. I paid you a visit at your family's shrine to toy with you in person before following you around for a few more weeks. Every now and then giving you hints to my presence.

"But, when that idiot decided to befriend you again after whatever little spat you had, and 'then' decided to try and sneak passed me at school with you, I had to act. Thus, kidnapping you, and taking you to the beach house where you pretty much know the rest." he finished and I slowly narrowed my eyes as everything sunk in.

"That had to be the longest you've ever talked in your life. And why did you have to end it like that? Why didn't you continue on about how your feelings started to change and all that stuff?!" I said, slightly unhappy he wasn't willing to tell me.

"Maybe someday I will. But not now."

I was about to ask when someday was went a knock at the door almost made me throw my phone across the room, but instead I pressed it against the pillow. "Yes?"

The white painted door opened slightly as Touga peaked his head through with a raised eye-brow. "Dinner is finished Kagome. Come down stairs when your ready." I gave the fatherly figure a small smile and nodded while waiting for him to close the door. When I was sure he was down stairs again, I picked back up my phone and checked the screen. Kami, we had been talking for almost two hours.

"You still there?"

"Was that my father?"

I laughed nervously at the stunned voice. "Yeah, he found me in the storm sitting in a cafe. I needed someone to talk to and he brought me here where I kinda got snowed in. Inuyasha's not here, and your father told him not to come home because of what he did to me today, so its just us two."

"What did that moron do to you Kagome?"

'Shit.' I thought, wincing as I realized my mistake. I tried to come up with something, but nothing came. I sighed.

"Your not going to be happy." I didn't hear anything for a moment and I knew that was my cue. I swallowed hard, knowing if their father wasn't going to keep the castration promise, Sesshomaru would without a second thought. "Inuyasha had been acting weird ever since I came back, and now I kinda know why. After school he asked me out on a date."

I bit my lip as Sesshomaru growled, but continued on. "But, that's not all. When I ignored the question because I thought it was obvious, I told him I didn't like him like that, and as soon as that left my mouth it was like his whole attitude changed! It was all darkish and scary and he started saying things." I finished quietly.

"What kind of 'things'?" Sesshomaru hissed and I could almost imagine steam coming from his ears.

"He figured out before it really came to me that I-" I quickly rushed through the rest. "that I loved you, and called you a disgusting bastard before kissing me on the lips!"

I was certain he heard what I said even through the rushed words from his booming snarl and the sound of something breaking.

"I will kill that half-breed if it's the last thing I do in this world." He said with so much venom that a chill went down my spine.

"I- if it makes you feel better Sess, I kicked him in the crotch and in the stomach before leaving him in front of the school blue in the face."

"No." he replied with a growl and I knew I needed to hurry down stairs to dinner, but I didn't want to leave him wondering about Inuyasha the rest of the night.

As the childish part of me kicked in again I began to fiddle with Sesshomaru's black jacket that I had yet to take off, and an idea hit me.

"You know, I still have your jacket and I'm wearing it right now."

"...Oh?" He offered and I could tell by the change in his voice he was focused back on me.

"Mmhm. I wear it all the time. It smells just like you and I can't get enough. Especially," I grinned as I thought of a few teasing things to say as I let the sentence hang. Maybe I could think of something sexy.

"Especially?"

"Especially after I've showered and went to bed naked." I quickly told him before ending the call with a squeal and throwing the phone at the end of the bed like a retard as my face blushed ten shades of red. That was not sexy.

It was all lie, sort of since I do always wear the thing, but I didn't want to leave Sesshomaru in a bad mood, and the point of the phone call was to make him want me, right?

"I'm pretty sure he's more shocked then turned on." I mumbled as I got off the bed. The teenage girl hormones were back with a vengeance as I shrugged off the jacket so I wouldn't blush all through dinner. Even though I did what I did because I wanted to, I know felt foolish and immature. At least the real Kagome was back instead of the depressed one.

'Hormones one, sexiness zero.' I pouted as I walked to the door, thinking about how stupid I was.

'I wonder what Sesshomaru's thinking about now?'

A/N: I wonder too. Idk how I feel about this chapter. :/ It's kinda hard to write emotion into a phone call. I hope this ties up everything left unsaid (haha the title makes sense to me now since it was a song). Sadly this stories is almost done. :( It will only have four if not five more chapters. Everything so far has led up to this. Will Sesshomaru and Kagome be together, or will fate be cruel and rip them apart? That sounds like a lot of Sess/Kag summaries I read. Nothing wrong with it, just seems idk. Anyway, review! I wont promise an update because when I do I take forever. Love you guys!

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