With each passing month the couple grew more excited until the day before when nerves started creeping in. At family dinner Jamie and Danny sat across from each other not saying two words.
Henry looked up halfway through the meal meeting Frank's eyes quietly, feeling the same awkwardness. "So, are you two ready to get married? This is a big day for you son, we're really happy for you and Eddie."
Danny snorted meeting his brother's eyes while stabbing the meat on his plate. Ignoring him, Jamie turned to smile at his grandfather. "Yea, I can't wait..we can't wait.." He glanced Eddie watching her nod in agreement.
"Yea hope this one goes through," Danny mumbled under his breath, warned with a glaring look from Frank.
"Danny! I'm really happy for you two and I hope for only the best things to come. We wouldn't say no to some grandkids or great grandkids when your ready," Frank traded with a smirk at the couple.
Jamie laughed, looking at Eddie mischievously taking her hand. "Yea well we've talked about it so it's just a matter of time." Eddie shook her head at him feeling odd talking about having kids with her future family, especially her future father in law who happens to be her boss.
The evening before Jamie sighed sitting on his bed looking through an album of him, Danny and Joe as kids with their arms wrapped around each other's, blinking to push back the emotion.
Eddie leaned against the doorway smiling sadly watching him. "Jamie," she whispered walking to the bed beside him. Setting the album aside so they could lay down Jamie reopened it showing her pictures of when he was a kid. "This was Christmas I was like four, Joe was eight, and Danny was fourteen. "
Eddie smiled at the three boys all wearing matching smiles looking up with presents in front of them. "He'll come babe, I know it." She nuzzled his neck hating to see him so sad. "I can't wait to marry you."
"Me either," Jamie couldn't help but return the smile, leaning down to kiss her. In just a little while Eddie would head to her friend's house not seeing Jamie until tomorrow at the church. "I love you."
"I know," Eddie grinned at him.
They cuddled for an hour before Eddie left for her friend's leaving Jamie alone in the apartment. Shoving his hands deep into his pocket jacket Jamie walked to the window looking out into an empty street sighing.
Watching cars pass by Jamie 's mind turned to the wedding, their future together as man and wife. The reality hit that they would be sharing a life together forever. Feeling his stomach turning Jamie rushed into the bathroom, getting sick in the bowl.
After several minutes the nervousness passed allowing Jamie to clean himself up. Sighing, he looked at his reflection in the mirror while washing his mouth out. "I can't do this," he mumbled, turning the water off and walking back into the living room. Grabbing his shield and off duty Jamie slipped on a jacket going out for a walk hoping the fresh air will help.
He started walking towards nowhere in particular not meaning to ending up at the cemetery. Leaves crunching beneath him Jamie walked in, stopping by his family's row starting with his grandma Betty, mom Mary and brother Joe.
"I miss you, all of you especially now. I'm getting married tomorrow to Eddie well we're supposed to be but I don't know. Eddie is my best friend, always has my back but can I treat her how she deserves to be? Joe I could really use a brother right now. Danny refuses to come.."
He fell quiet staring at the stones taking a deep uneven breath. "This is supposed to a big occasion and my big brothers won't be there, mom.."
Jamie didn't want to admit but not having his brother's standing up at the altar with him as he promised to be with Eddie for of their lives hurt. Joe and Danny should be by his side wearing tuxedos witnessing the beginning of his and Eddie's life together.
A sharp breeze snapped around him forcing Jamie to hold his jacket closer against him. "You'd like her Joe, both of you would. She's amazing, always has my back, I love her a lot. Never been this happy." Jamie smiled at this, taking in a deep breath.
He sat quietly in between the two graves holding his lost loved ones breathing deeply. "You should be here mom happy your baby boy is getting married and Joe helping me find the right tux, giving me advice.. Standing in front with me.."
"You'll always be here with me but it isn't the same. Dad and pops are coming and I think Erin. Even Niki is coming she really likes Eddie " lowering his eyes to the grass Jamie paused his breathing uneven.
"I don't know about this.. What if I can't treat Eddie the way she deserves. Eddie is amazing, loyal, always has my back, sweet, and sassy, smart mouthed. She could drink all of under a table Joe," he laughed recalling all the time they spent at bars after tour and on days off.
Raising his eyes again reading the engraved names silently he continued. "She treats me really well mom. I know you, dad and pop taught me how to be a gentleman but Eddie deserves so much.."
A gentle breeze swept around him in a blanket to envelope the young man.
"I just need reassurance I guess to hear it's going to be okay. That should have been you Joe, that's your job. Will we be okay? This is a big step we're taking and I just.." Jamie shook his head laughing.
"Will I be good enough for Eddie? "
"Of course you will kid.."