Author's Note: Sorry it's been awhile, guys. Here's a new chapter for ya!

I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT OR THE CHARACTERS.
Music Credit: "Monster" – Meg & Dia

Chapter Three:

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'His little whispers, 'Love me – love me.
That's all I ask for. Love me – love me.'
He battered his tiny fists to feel something –
Wondered what it's like to touch and feel something.

Monster,
How should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the window.

That night he caged her,
Bruised and broke her.
He struggled closer,
Then he stole her.

Violet wrists and then her ankles,
Silent pain –
Then he slowly saw their nightmares
Were his dreams.'
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"I'm not leaving her without Karson. No one can have her if I can't. She is mine. Do you hear me? I don't give a damn what you are. You're not taking her away from me." Jeff growled. He yanked me down the stairs. I landed on the hardwood hard. My face is definitely bleeding. I crawled away.

"I'm not asking. I'm telling you. You've hurt her enough. She's not your rag doll to play with." James pulled Jeff off of the ground by his shirt.

"You'll never have her like I did. I was her first. She will always think of me."

"No, she won't. She isn't going to be afraid of you forever. Tonight is the last time you will see her."

"Are you going to kill me?"

"No, but she will and I will help her – she's strong enough to face her own demons. Am I clear?" James growled. Jeff nodded. James dropped him to the ground. "I asked you a question." He growled. The sound of his voice made my skin crawl.

"Y-yes."

"Good, now leave. You're no longer welcome here. Leave." He hissed. Jeff took one last look at me and ran for the door.

"This isn't over." He said over his shoulder and left. James helped me up, his eyes still black. He licked the blood off of my forehead.

"Are you okay?" He asked, quietly. I nodded. He helped me up. I struggled to stand. I think I banged my knee when I fell. "He was your first?" He asked as he helped me up the stairs. I looked at him.

"Technically."

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"That's not something that a girl really wants to tell the guy that she just started seeing. It's not like I wanted it. He- He forced me. It was before I met you. Normally he doesn't have time to take it that far." I couldn't stop shaking. He helped me onto my bed. His eyes went back to their natural blue eyes.

"I'm not judging you – I just want to know you. I don't think anything less of you. You're extraordinary." He brought his face closer to mine and traced my jaw with his lips.

"I'm not the extraordinary one; you are. When were you going to tell me?"

"Tell you what?"

"Don't play dumb."

"I didn't want to scare you. I won't hurt you. That's not my intention."

"But you've hurt girls before."

"I used to be a different person."

"What kind of person are you now? I mean, how could this even work? I'm human. You'd outlive me. You can't age…"

"There are always options. If this works out, who's to say that you wouldn't want to join me?"

"Join you? You mean…? Oh. You mean… You'd actually consider that? You'd want to turn me? I still haven't been able to get my head around the fact that you're an actual vampire."

"Don't jump the gun. I don't know where this thing with us is heading, but potentially, yeah, I can see it as a possibility, someday. Are you okay with it?" He was quiet, watching my reaction. I bit my lip.

"You don't scare me. You could have hurt me and you haven't. I trust you and whether I should or not is debatable, but I do. I'm okay with who you are. I've already accepted you. This doesn't change anything between us. Does it?" I asked him. He shook his head.

"I don't want it to. I meant what I said. I want to help you get stronger. I want you to believe that you're capable of fighting for yourself because you are. You're beautiful and strong and capable. It's such a turn on." He pushed his lips on mine. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled myself closer to him on instinct. I couldn't help myself. He's my heroin.

"Did you mean what you said?" I asked, detangling myself from him.

"About which part?"

"That I would kill him?"

"I meant every word of what I said to him."

"I can't kill anyone. I don't have it in me."

"I've met men like Jeff before." James told me. I flinched at his name. "They don't change they just get worse. If things had stayed the way they were, you would've ended up dead or close to it. If it came down to your life or his, I know you would fight like hell to stay alive. You're a fighter." He smirked, getting closer. I became suddenly aware of how close we were together. He pressed his lips to my neck. My eyes fluttered closed. I just wanna feel right now. I don't wanna think.

"You think so highly of me. I don't know if I could. God, you make me feel so…" It was hard to talk with what his lips were doing.

"How do I make you feel?"

"Alive." I shuddered against him. His hands slid up my shirt and lifted it off of me. My heart feels like it's going to pound out of my chest.

"What else?" He asked. He started kissing all of my bruises. It feels like he's trying to kiss me better.

"You make me feel beautiful." I gasped. He flipped us over and pulled me onto his stomach. He maneuvered my pants off. I didn't freeze up like I normally do. This feels right. It feels like this is what I'm supposed to be doing with him.

"What else do I make you feel?" He sat up. I straddled him. He pulled off his shirt. I nibbled on his neck.

"Liberated," I whispered. My eyes raked over his body. I ran my hands over his chest. He rolled his hips against me. I moaned. I clamped my mouth shut and looked at him, surprised. We've fooled around before, but normally we stop before we get this far.

"Is that all?" He asked, fiddling with my bra. I can't think straight. He makes me want to melt.

"I-I dunno. I can't think like this." I told him. He smirked.

"Do you trust me?" I asked him.

"Completely," I whispered as he rolled his hips again.

"I have an idea. I think it will help you." He whispered.

"Help with what?"

"Fix you. I want you to feel empowered. I want you to feel like a woman." He watched my reaction. I closed my eyes. God, what is he doing to me? I never get like this. I can feel myself growing wetter by the second.

"I trust you." I told him.

"We'll stop if you get uncomfortable." He assured me. I nodded, slowly. He winked at me. He got up and laid me on my back. "You're beautiful." He looked at me with lust-coated, sexed eyes. I can feel my breathing growing heavier. He pulled my panties off and threw them to the floor. He opened my legs and kissed his way to my sex. I jumped when his lips made contact. "Just relax." He whispered. I nodded. He gave my womanhood a lazy lick. I gasped. He touched everywhere but my nub. I shook. I sat up and pushed him away from me.

"I'm sorry, bad memories." I told him. He shook his head.

"Don't be sorry. Let's try something else. If it doesn't work, we'll stop." He assured me. He switched our positions. I landed on top of him. He moved me onto his chest. "You smell delicious." He growled. He pulled me closer to his face. I propped myself up on my knees, unsure of what he's doing. "Just let go, I'm strong enough for the both of us. I'm a vampire, remember?" I nodded. My phone started going off. I looked over to see who it was. It's Emmett.

"Maybe I should get that." I reached out for it. James shook his head.

"Don't you dare." He moved his mouth underneath my sex. I moaned in surprise when his tongue grazed my nub. He kept teasing my womanhood. I tried to keep my eyes open and watch his movements.

"Fuck." I breathed. He lifted me a little higher and slid his tongue inside of me. I rocked against his tongue. I couldn't help myself. This is amazing. I've never felt more in control. I moved in time with his thrusts. He moved his tongue back onto my clit and I all but screamed. I don't know how much more of this I can take. He made slow, deliberate circles. I can feel myself inching closer to bliss. I growled in frustration. I bucked my hips, trying to get more friction. He held me still. He kept teasing.

He moved a hand and slid a finger inside of my heat. I jumped. I cried out when he fingered my g-spot. He kept his tongue at an agonizing pace. He slowly started moving his tongue faster. I moaned. I hurdled into waves of pleasure. I screamed. My back arched and I felt like I was exploding. He held me still. I had nothing to cling to as I rode it out. He didn't stop, just kept going. I felt the next one creep up on me much faster than the one before. This one hit me harder. A strangle screech escaped my lips.

My bedroom door busted open. I was frozen in pleasure and couldn't fully comprehend what was happening. Emmett stopped short of me bed.

"Emmett?" I asked, breathless. "What?" I grabbed the sheets while my orgasm passed through me. I closed my eyes. I can't believe he's here. Why is he here?

"I thought you were hurt. There was screaming…" Emmett just stared. James moved me off of him. I covered up with my sheet.

"I'm okay." I told him, quietly.

"I see that, now." He said, coldly. "Does she know what you are? Have you told her?" Emmett got in James' face. James got off the bed and smirked.

"She knows. I told her tonight. She's fine with it, especially after I threw Jeff out. What about you? You've known her for how long? I know you haven't told her what you are." James stared him down. I put on my bra and shirt. I got off the bed and pulled on pajama pants from the floor. I walked in between them.

"What are you talking about?" I asked. Emmett swallowed, hard.

"He isn't the only vampire here. All of the Cullens are vampires. We don't hunt humans or drink from them. We only hunt animals. I knew you had a lot going on. I didn't want to scare you."

"I've known you for a year and you didn't tell me?"

"Trust goes both ways, Kar. You didn't tell me until tonight. I was going to tell you in the morning. I told you that I had news. Don't be like that. I love you. You're my girl. You know that." He put a hand on my shoulder. I shrugged him off.

"How could you keep that from me?" I asked him.

"I thought you of all people would understand. You're a hypocrite, Kar." He growled.

"I love you – you know that I do, but it's a lot to take it. A lot happened tonight. I found out my boyfriend and best friend are vampires. James kicked Jeff out after he tried to… It's just been intense. Give me a minute to breathe, okay? I don't want you two to rip each other's head's off." I took a deep breath. How did things go from sexy to psycho in zero seconds flat?

"Maybe you should judge things so fast, Cullen." James smirked at him. I glared at him.

"This doesn't concern you." Emmett growled.

"Maybe you should knock next time." James winked. I rolled my eyes.

"I'll talk to you in the morning, alright?" I told him. He nodded. I gave him a hug. "Goodnight, Em." He kissed my forehead.

"Take care of her." He told James.

"She doesn't need it. She can't take care of herself." James told him. Emmett nodded and left. I sat down on the bed. James wrestled with the door until it closed. "Are you okay?" He asked. I nodded.

"Where did you learn how to do that?" I asked him. He smirked.

"Are we talking about the door or something else?"

"Something else." I told him, quietly. He smiled and put his arms around my waist.

"Does that mean you like it when I eat you out?" He asked, huskily. I groaned, inwardly. How is he this hot? I grabbed onto him when I felt my knees starting to get weak. "I'll take that as a yes. Did you enjoy it?"

"More than I thought possible. I've never had one before."

"Oral or an orgasm?"

"Both." I told him. He nuzzled my mouth.

"You know, if we do stay together for a while, we're going to have to move around every few years. I know that's long term, but I don't want there to be any unnecessary surprises."

"I appreciate that. You know that Jeff was serious, right? It isn't over."

"We'll step up the self-defense lessons."

"Thanks."

"I know you can do this. You're stronger than you think you are."

"I don't see it."

"You will."

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'Monster,
How should I feel?
Creatures lie here,
Looking through the windows.

I will
Hear their voices.
I'm a glass child.
I am Hannah's regrets.

Monster,
How should I feel?
Turn the sheet down –Murder ears with pillow lace.

There's bathtubs
Full of glow flies.
Bathe in kerosene –
Their words tattooed in his veins, yeah.'

Author's Note: Alright, this chapter wasn't as long as I wanted it. SO, a new chapter will up within a week… Next chapter James gets a haircut and more drama. Stay tuned. Review, review. :)

Xo Xo
Anneryn