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Thor held Loki against the wall.
"Why are you fighting for him?" Loki asked quietly looking in his younger self direction. Thor didn't look he concentrated his energy on Loki on keeping him in one place knowing that this could be a distraction.
"Because you are my brother." Thor said.
"Yes but you know that I tried to kill myself not long from now. Are you honestly telling me that everyone won't be better off if I'm dead? Even me, I fell off the bitfrost with every intention to die but I wasn't allowed to. The Chitauri took me and they tortured me until I became what I was." Thor blinked in all the time he had never known that Loki had been tortured by the Chitauri. Thor had suspected something like that but he had never asked and Loki had never offered any knowledge. "So even I would be happier if I were to die now and all the people who I killed would also certainly be happier. Your friend Steve might actually live to a ripe old age without me." Thor grip tightened a little without him realizing. Steve had been a great friend until Loki had killed him.
"It is forbidden to mess with time." Thor said deciding to go for a logical argument hoping that Loki might respond better to a logical argument rather than then emotional one. "You have no idea if you will make things worse." Loki smiled kindly. This was not a situation Thor had ever expected to be in. Having his younger brother trying to convince him to let him kill himself.
"How could anything be worse than me?" Loki asked sadly.
"You don't know that it will be better." Thor said stubbornly.
"What are you really afraid of?" Loki asked kindly and Thor hesitated not wanting to say it aloud but after a moment without his consent it tumbled out of his lips.
"What will happen to us?" Thor asked he asked but he had a feeling that he knew.
"You're me aren't you?" Thor became momentarily distracted as he turned to look at the voice. In that moment Loki broke his grip and use his magic to push him into the wall. Loki also used a spell that made the wall like quick sand only a million times worse. Thor could struggle all he wanted but he couldn't seem to get out of the wall. He had to get out of the wall! He had to save his brother from himself!
"I was wondering when you would figure it out honestly I thought it would be a little sooner even with the Jotun face, but then again if I remember correctly at this point in my life I'm deeply in denial about my heritage. So much so that I thought if I could rid of of Jotenhiem all together then I would finally...fit in? Be free? Belong?" Is that what Loki had been thinking when he had tried to destroy Jotenhiem? Thor had wondered that too over the years; wonder what Loki had hoped to gain by destroying Jotenthiem. Loki let go of jotun face and looked like himself standing by an eerily similar image.
"Why?" Loki's younger more innocent self asked and Thor wished that he could get out of the wall.
"Because we are a disease and if we are not extinguished now before someone catches us many people are going to die because of us." Thor blinked but didn't stop struggling. That was a very bleak view to have of oneself, then again it wasn't exactly wrong. For a long time anyone Loki came in contact with ending up dead.
"Please I don't understand." the younger Loki said and he looked scared and confused. Thor's heart broke for the younger version of his younger brother. The version who didn't know what was to come and why his older self would want to kill him.
"It's okay Loki I'm not sadistic not anymore and I don't want us to suffer I'll make it quick and painless for you." His Loki's eyes looked his way briefly before turning back around Thor screamed.
"Loki don't this!" Loki didn't turn to look around at Thor but said in a voice loud enough for both Loki and Thor to hear.
"This is what has to be done." Loki said.
"Loki no!" the dagger went into Loki's heart and suddenly Thor could move from the wall. Thor ran the short distance to his younger younger brother. Younger Loki looked at him shocked.
"No! No!" Thor screamed as the younger Loki fell onto his knees. Thor grabbed him tightly as if that would prevent him from slipping away. Younger Loki looked at him blood dribbling from the corners of his mouth.
"I'm sorry Thor, I didn't realize..." this was eerily reminiscent of when Loki had faked his death but he knew this time around it wasn't fake. Thor stroked his dying brother hair. His brother that he would now never get to see grow up, to see change into a good person albeit one with guilt.
"It's okay Loki." Thor said although he was crying and younger Loki could probably feel his tears. "I forgive you, I know what you did and what you planning and I forgive you." he said into his hair and felt Loki trembling. Thor had seen enough warriors die to know that Loki was close. Thor shook his head, no. no. Loki stopping trembling and his breathing stopped.
"No!" Thor screamed. He looked up and saw Loki who looked at him solemnly.
"You killed him!" Thor yelled and started towards his brother who had just killed his brother..or rather his younger self. Loki didn't move out of the way even as Thor pressed him against the wall by his neck.
"You can kill me if you want; if that's how you want to spend your remaining time." Thor deflated, Loki was right. Soon time would catch up with them and they would cease to exist. Thor didn't want to spend his last minutes as himself by fighting or hurting Loki. Thor released Loki who grunted and fell to the floor. As soon as Thor released him he found he also lacked the ability to keep standing and fell into a little heap on the floor. He found Loki moving him so that he was resting on his lap. It wasn't that comfortable with Loki thin bones that didn't have enough fat on them to cushion his head but Thor didn't move his head.
"Thor it's okay, its' going to be okay." Thor wasn't sure if he believe him, and even if it was, he would never see it since he would cease to exist.
"How do you think it will happen?" Thor asked tiredly. Thor felt that he was allowed to be. Thor had been fighting Loki for over 100 years, only to finally get him back for 2 years and then lose him all over again and now he was going to cease to exist at all.
"I foresee two ways. One is that we will simply pop out of existence and the other is that we will slowly fade away." Thor nodded. He was not fond of either idea but he supposed that it didn't matter; he was going to stop existing anyways and probably soon. Thor felt tears coming to his eyes and normally he would try to stop them or even hide them. However Thor was going to fade away, so he would have never cried to begin with. So what did it matter if for once in his life he let someone else see him cry? Loki rubbed circles into his back and kept saying.
'It's going to be okay." again and again as the two of them waited to fade away.
A/N: There is either going to be one or two more chapters left so we're nearing the end.
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