Zoe's POV:

We had all been joking around for the last hour because the department was pretty much empty. For the last half an hour Max had been really distant and I can't seem to work out why. It's like one minute he can't get enough of this relationship and then the next he doesn't want to be in it. Everyone knew about us now and I can't help but wonder if that's why he is acting like he isn't interested. Everyone knows him as the ladies' man, different girl every night but that's not the Max I know. I think he's having second thoughts about us, the only reason he probably stayed with me was for the adrenaline rush of it being a secret. I looked at him and he was too busy on his phone to notice me, I thought I would text him instead. 'Hey babe, are you alright? You're acting really distant x' I sent the text and watched as his eyes didn't even leave his phone screen once when I heard my phone buzz in my hand. He replied with 'Just leave it Zo I can't deal with this right now.' What have I done this time? He can't just drop me like this when I haven't done anything. I walked across the room slightly towards him.

"What's that supposed to mean?" I said to him and the other four instantly listened.

"Exactly what it said, I can't do this anymore Zo" he said and I could feel tears in my eyes.

"Do what Max?" I said as the tears began to roll down my cheeks.

"Us, everything I'm sorry I just can't do it Zo. You deserve so much better" he said before typing something into his phone and ringing someone "Hey Jenna….busy tonight….yeah see you then." He said before hanging up.

"I can't believe you just did that, after what you said earlier" I pretty much shouted at him.

"Whatever Zoe I obviously didn't mean it" he said as Connie and Cal walked in looking really loved up. I looked at him before slapping him hard around the face and rushing out past Connie and Cal. I ran to my office, tears streaming down my face and I locked the door before going over to the sofa and collapsing straight onto it and crying. Connie came in a few minutes later, obviously she had her key with her.

"Zoe, what just happened?" she said looking at me before sitting down next to me.

"Max… he dumped me" I said before bursting into tears again she pulled me into a hug as I cried into her shoulder. "What am I going to do without him Connie?" I said crying.

Max's POV:

I can't believe I just did that. I love that girl but I still think she deserves so much better than me. I felt terrible, I hated seeing her upset and she's been through enough today with Nick Jordan going up to surgery and all. I just couldn't do it anymore, I know that she deserves better so I don't want to hold her back. I need to distant myself in order to get over the love of my life who I have just ruined any chance I had with.

"What are you playing at?" Robyn asked coming over to me after telling Ethan and Lily to give as a few minutes.

"Don't start Robyn, I didn't want to be with her anymore" I said but I knew in my heart that it wasn't true.

"We both know that isn't true so why say it, I know you love her" she said and I could tell a tear had fallen out of my eye. "Oh come here" she said and pulled me close to her knowing how I felt about her.

The shift past by really slowly. I had Connie have a go at me for what happened with Zoe and Tess and Cal as well. Everyone thinks I shouldn't have done it, I've already cancelled of Jenni so that I can just go home and not have to speak to anyone. Zoe hasn't left her office even once, she won't answer my phone calls or texts and I don't think she wants me here anymore. I've been outside behind the wall where me and Zoe used to go each hour hoping she would do the same, but she hasn't not even once. Everyone at the hospital hates me right now for what I've done, but none of them hates me more than I hate myself.

As soon as we got home I collapsed onto the sofa like me and Zoe had done so many times before and just cried, I missed her so much. Robyn and Lofty had been trying to get me to talk, eat and drink something ever since we got home but I couldn't I felt so empty. I didn't realise how much she meant to me until she was gone. I decide to ring Connie because I knew how close she and Zoe was.

"Connie" I said as soon as she picked up.

"Max" she said back almost instantly.

"I know you're probably busy with Grace or with Cal but please hear me out" I said to her and I heard her press a button on her phone but I didn't know what it was.

"Sure go ahead" she said soon after. I explained to her why I ended it and how much I still loved her before I heard Grace at the other end.

"Zoe loves you but you broke her Max" was all she said before I heard Connie hush her away.

"Is that true?" I asked Connie and she just sighed.

"Just give her time, let everything calm down before trying to speak to her again" Connie said. I said thank you to her before hanging up and going up to my room. I opened my wardrobe because I needed to get changed, there was so many of Zoe's clothes, shoes and bags in here and it just made me want to cry again. How was I going to do this without her?

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