Chapter 35
Two days later and she was at least able to trust herself to be alone again, it didn't mean she was missing Joey any less though.
"Lauren is there anything you need ? I'm going to the shop" Lauren paused and thought about it and shouted a no to her Mum who was at the bottom of the stairs. "ok, will you be alright if I go and do the big shop then? Your Dad's only at the car lot if you need anything."
She shuffled to the top of the stairs so Tanya could see her "I'll be fine Mum, I'm really tired any way. The baby's really active today…" the tiredness was more than clear in Laurens voice, she'd got three weeks to go now and the baby never seemed to let up, if it wasn't kicking it was bouncing on her bladder or pressing on her stomach, she'd started to change her mind about the baby being a girl though… girls were more behaved, she was sure.
"I can stay if you like?"
"it's fine…" she smiled watching her Mum collect her things and go. She placed her hands on her Bump and looked down at it "you're really restless today… shall we sneak out, go for a walk before we get bombarded with care"
Taking a kick as a yes, Lauren pulled her coat on and slipped on her pumps, thank god for none lace ups. There was no way she was bending down over her bump. She locked the front door and stole a quick glance though the window to ensure she was safe to leave. Deeming it safe, she slid from the kitchen and out of the back door.
She took the few steps out into the air, taking a deep breath in to fill her lungs. She closed her eyes, feeling a slight sense of freedom, but also a little scared that she could be seen. Lauren wandered the back routs of the square for a good half hour, before finding herself near the Allotments.
She sat on her granddad Jim's bench, looking over at his old patch, that Patrick took care of. "This… all this mud and grass belongs to your great granddad, my Granddad Jim. He used to bring me here when I was little, and your Daddy used to tag along too…"
"used to cry and cry until Jim would take him with you… silly fool used to give in as well" Lauren looked left to the person who'd accompanied her.
"What are you doing here Sara ?" she sighed pulling her coat further around her.
"I watched you from the window, pretty impressive escaping skills I might add." She smiled "I was worried, you left the house about an hour ago and I hand seen you go back, so I thought I'd come and find you"
Lauren smiled weakly "thanks but you didn't have to…"
Sara shook her head "I'm your Auntie if not anything else, so I wanted to. Now you going to tell me why your sat on a mouldy old bench in October on your own when you 8 months pregnant ?" Sara watched as Lauren shifted awkwardly her hand moving to her side. "Lauren ?"
"she's kicking" Lauren said softly moving her aunts hand to the place the movement was.
"She?" She asked wide eyed.
Lauren shrugged "just a feeling I have… Did you have feelings with Joey and Alice?"
"hum hmm, and I was wrong both times. Lauren talk to me, please. You're really distant and not you. Your hiding away like being pregnant is something to be ashamed of and it's not."
"isn't it? Because Mum and Dad are ashamed of me. Joey hates me and Uncle Derek will kill Joey and Me if he finds out I'm having Joey's baby."
"Lauren… Joey doesn't hate you darling, he's always on the phone asking about you...Joey loves you . It's killing him not being near you…"
"he does?" Sara nodded "I miss him too" she took a breath, her hand curving around her bump. "The baby might be ill when it's born, it might need to have an operation." Sarah gasped . "I'm really scared Auntie Sara, what if I can't do it... what if when it's born it's too weak and they can't do anything ?"
"Stop all this silly talk Lauren... they baby will be fine... and if something is wrong the doctors will make it better and you'll be able to hold your baby and realise that all these months have been worth it because you've got this most beautiful baby in the world" Lauren hadn't told Sara about the adoption, it had never been a certain thing for Lauren, she was never 100% on board with it, and now more then ever she didn't want to go through with it. She began to fidget on the bench and took a sharp breath.
"Sara…" Lauren closed her eyes taking a deep breath. "I think my waters have just broken"
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