Olivia made her way into her apartment and fell down onto the couch. She exhaled and looked down at her phone seeing no messages or calls from Elliot. She knew she made a mistake even kissing him let alone having sex with him. She knew this would ruin her friendship with him and she knew it wouldn't last. He was too involved with Kathy and his family, which of course she completely understood. She typed a quick message to him 'I miss you. I'm sorry El.' She locked her phone and set it down on the coffee table going into the bathroom to shower.

Elliot was doing paper work at his desk when he seen his phone light up. He slowly read the message. He set the phone down not knowing how to respond to it. She made it clear that they weren't going to be together so why was she texting him? He picked the phone back up and typed a message back 'I love you.' he grabbed his coat and phone leaving the squad room.

When she exited the shower walking out into the living room to check her phone she seen his message and smiled. She heard someone out in the hall, she opened the door to see if it was Elliot but it was just a neighbor. She turned around and seen Elliot sitting on her couch.

"Jesus Elliot. Where the hell did you come from?"

"Well I was in the bedroom and then I walked out when you were turned around."

"You scared me. Why are you here?"

"I just thought… you know the text you sent."

"Oh…"

Elliot stood up and made his way to the door. She grabbed him.

"Where are you going?"

"You just don't seem to want me here. I love you Olivia. I just want to be with you, not Kathy."

"Yeah well I didn't want to get involved with you and then have you leave me. I'm not just going to fall back into your arms Elliot."

Elliot pulled himself from her grip and walked out the door.

She breathed out and felt the warm tears running down her face. She was breaking down again. If he was any other guy this wouldn't be happening. She knew she felt so much more with Elliot than any other guy. It hurt knowing she was just so easier to leave, doesn't matter if he's back and wanting her now the point is he actually left her. Olivia snapped out of her thoughts when she heard her phone ringing the caller ID read 'Kathy Stabler'.

"Hello."

"Olivia is Elliot with you?"

"No he stopped in earlier to talk. Why?"

"He hasn't been home and I just thought maybe he would be there… I know you guys slept together."

Olivia sat there not even knowing what to say to her. Elliot actually told her.

"Yeah, he's in love with me… You know that right?"

"I've always known… I got to go. Um, if he comes there again let me know."

She hung up and sat her phone down and laid back on the couch. She eventually drifted off to sleep.

Elliot had stopped in the nearby bar after seeing Olivia. He was now staggering his way to her house. He knew it was the most stupid idea knowing he was drunk and might say something dumb and make her even more pissed. He didn't know what he was going to say but all he knew is he couldn't go home to Kathy. He slowly made his way up her stairs and started pounding on her door.

Olivia jumped awake and walked over to the door looking through the peep hole. She exhaled and opened the door.

"El…"

"shhh… I just need a place to stay I just can't go home to Kathy." He slurred.

She gestured him inside and told him to take the couch. He fell face first on the couch. She rolled her eyes and sat on the edge of the couch.

"Why are you drinking?"

"Because I disappointed you, I disappoint myself."

"Elliot… I just am hurt that it was so easy to just walk away. I get her being the love of your life but…"

He cut her off before she could finish.

"I never really loved her… I mean I was forced to start adult hood earlier because she got pregnant. I love my kids but I just wish I would've waited."

"I'm sorry Elliot. I didn't know."

"See I love you. I know I do. I never felt this way with Kathy maybe in the beginning before kids and everything."

"El… just get some sleep. Okay?"

He mumbled something rolled over onto his back. Olivia stood up walking past him taking her phone and going into the bedroom. She laid down and but couldn't sleep. She texted Kathy and let her know Elliot was sleeping there.

Olivia woke up and rolled over to see Elliot snoring beside her. She laughed and he stirred awake. He looked at her and smiled.

"Why are you in my bed?"

"Well… I don't really know I can't remember anything." He said rubbing his head.

"Oh so that's your excuse?"

"No seriously what happened? Did we have sex again?"

"No." she laughed "You came here drunk and I let you stay. You were on the couch."

Elliot looked at her with a confused face. He finally looked away and put his hand on her hip and got closer to her. She could feel his breath on her.

"El…"

"Olivia how can I prove to you I'm not going anywhere?"

"I don't know. How can I trust you again? I just don't want to feel this pain again…"

"I swear I am not going anywhere. I promise. I love you and only you."

Olivia felt like she knew he wasn't lying. She just didn't want to feel the way she felt when he left her. She felt like she was the other woman but technically Kathy was. She felt empty and broken. But she wanted to trust him, she wanted to be with him, she wanted to be loved by him.

"I love you to…"

Review! They aren't together YET. They have issues to work out as you can see.