The Moment Max walked into the Hospital Room, Jennifer knew that something was wrong , from the way he was walking to the expression on his face, it was clear something had happened to Jonathan.

But she was never prepared for Max's revelation.

He sat down beside her and took the hand that wasn't support their baby's body and with tears streaming down his face, told her that the man she loved with every fiber of her being was feared dead after being in a plane crash. The police and search teams were being sent out to recover the remains as well as the Plane. But their fear was that the plane had crashed somewhere over the Atlantic Ocean and was unable to be recovered.

Jennifer hadn't heard anything aside from Jonathan had been in a plane crash, her heart instantly stopped and her ears turned all sound instantly out, the only thing she heard was someone screaming, it took a moment for her to realize that sound was coming from her mouth.

The only thing heard over her screaming was their daughter, who was less than 10 hours old and wasn't used to the sudden noise.

A Team of Doctors and Nurses rushed in, one took the baby while the others took charge, first sedating Jennifer and then debating on what to do with her when the sedation wore off.

It was only at Max's insistence that he take both her and the Baby home because he knew that she needed to grieve in peace and in the home that she'd built with Jonathan even though every inch of that place was filled with memories of moments that they shared together. Some moments that only the three of them knew, some that only Jonathan and Jennifer shared together.

The Doctors agreed to release both Jennifer and the Baby if Max promised to keep an eye on her and Any changes he was supposed to bring her back, they didn't feel she was suicidal but with the type of shock she was in, anything was possible.

The ride home was much different than what she anticipated, for one thing Max drove them home and she sat beside him, she wouldn't remember the wheelchair ride from the hospital or even Max putting the baby into her car seat, she didn't even remember getting into the car.

She felt numb.

Max brought them home on a rainy day and when he pulled into the driveway and Jennifer spotted Jonathan's car, for a moment she thought it had been a horrible dream, she rushed out of the car and into the house, calling for Jonathan, only to be greeted by Freeway, excited to see someone after so many days.

When she realized that the house was empty, she collapsed in the foyer and cried with every inch of her being, Poor Max unsure of what to do, brought the baby in and set her on the stairs then sat down beside Jennifer and hugged her, usually he kept his distance but since she didn't speak to her father and Jonathan had no family, Max was the closest thing to a father figure she had.

She must have cried for hours, Eventually Max had to take care of Baby Jocelyn and so he left her there, eventually Jennifer picked herself up from off the floor and crawled to the master bedroom.

The simple act of even just stepping into the bedroom took away her breath, Jonathan's glasses lying where he left them underneath the crime thriller he'd been reading.

She remembered those final moments before he walked out the door, They'd made love and she was laying nude underneath the cold sheets with her big belly, he'd gone down to the car to put his suitcase down and then ran back up the stairs for one last kiss, making her promise that she wouldn't have the baby until he was home.

Jennifer wondered into their closet, his impeccable suits and shiny shoes, everything he wore was one of style but also comfort, he wasn't one for flash but when he dressed up, he always looked amazing

And she felt a sense of pride knowing that Jonathan was hers and she belonged to him.

Jennifer wondered into the bathroom and found his bathrobe, the tattered blue bathrobe that she'd begged for years for him to get rid of and he'd resisted, it was the same robe he'd had all through college.

She took it off the door and slipped it on, she felt so small in it and when Jennifer reached into the pocket, she found his clunky watch.

The morning He left, he had been searching for it and had blamed her saying that hiding his watch was keeping him from going despite having 100 watches, that was his favorite.

Jennifer climbed into their big bed and sank in the middle, pulling Jonathan's pillow to her face, it smelled heavily of his cologne and she began to cry all over again.

Over the next few days and weeks, hope for Jonathan's recovery was growing slimmer and slimmer and Jennifer's depression grew deeper and deeper, she refused to hold the baby or even acknowledge she'd given birth, she would only eat soup and that was because Max would sit at the edge of the bed with the bowl and force feed her, she was wasting away to practically nothing.

Max learned quickly how to take care of Jocelyn, she slept in her bassinet by his bed and when he had chores to do, he would put her into the carrier on his chest so she would never be alone.

Jocelyn was orphan except she had a mother.

This continued until Max knew he would have to do something drastic, as much as he loved taking care of the Baby, he knew that sooner or later Jennifer would have to pull herself together because so much was depending on her, not only Jonathan's company but their baby as well.

Max put his plan into action one morning, deliberately only changing Jocelyn, who expected her breakfast at the same time and would screech until her Grandpa Max would feed her.

"Mrs. H, I gotta go to the store for more diapers, can you watch the baby?" Max asked standing the doorway

"Can't you take her with you" Jennifer asked her eyes to the ceiling

"Sorry, not this trip, she's been changed so she'll probably need to eat soon," Max said leaving the baby's bassinet at the end of the bed within reach of Jennifer

"How long will you be gone?"

"Not long, maybe a half hour," Max hated lying but this was for her own good,"Maybe an Hour"

"It doesn't take an hour to go to the market" Jennifer knew what he was up to and she was getting angry.

"I'll be back real soon" Max quickly backtracked out of the bedroom and down the stairs, out the driveway and into the car, he drove away but made sure to disconnect the mobile car phone.

Jennifer could hear the baby gurgling but she made no move to get up, talking out loud to herself, she felt stupid but knew that somehow Jocelyn understood her.

"I don't blame you for what happened to your Daddy, I know you coming early took us all by surprise but it's not your fault," She felt the tears prickle her eyes. "I miss him so much, I can't breath and not knowing has made it impossible for even consider moving on. Your Daddy was supposed to be here to help and the idea of raising you with just Max, kills me"

Jocelyn took that moment to cry in hunger loudly and Jennifer knew that she couldn't lay there while her child screamed; Max had left the bottle on the dresser

Jennifer pulled herself out of the bed and walked to the end of the bed, picking up Jocelyn, she began to hum a nameless tune and put the bottle to her little lips.

Jennifer hadn't noticed before how much the baby looked like Jonathan, from the shape of her face to her dimples in her tiny cheeks to even her hands; she even had his dark hair.

The only thing she could see that resemble herself was Jocelyn's nose and ears.

Jennifer sat down on the edge of the bed and began to feed her daughter, who ate like she'd never eaten before and who stared into Jennifer's eyes the whole time as if she was trying to understand this new person, this wasn't her Grandpa who read the racing forms to her and who explained boxing matches to her on the big box.

Jocelyn finished her bottle and Jennifer burped her, it was surprising to Jennifer how easily taking care of the baby was, everything was instinctual and it felt good.

She walked over to the big picture of her and Jonathan on their mutual dresser that Max had taken one day on Hart 1 of the two of them, she remembered that Jonathan had leaned forward over the table and just before he kissed her, after he'd promised to take her to dinner in Italy, said "You love me, you can't live without me, you are like putty in my hands," and when she tried to shoot him down, he pulled her from her seat and kissed her, and a flash went off, later Max gave it to them as a wedding present.

"This is your Daddy; he was a very important man and He loved us very much, I promise to tell you as much about your Daddy as you want" She kissed her baby's head," You are a big piece of your Daddy and that's very important to Mommy, I know you came into this world expecting everything to be wonderful and perfect, I wanted that for you so much but without your Daddy, I don't know how but I promise Mommy will do the best she can, but you'll have to bear with me, I love your Daddy so much, he was the best part of me and I'll make sure he's the best part of you too. I promise to be the best Mommy in the world and that's all I want to be now, just your Mommy" She hadn't realized she was crying until she saw the tear drops on Jocelyn's baby blanket.

When Max returned from the store, he walked in to find a much different picture, one that made his heart grow three times its normal size, it was Jennifer staring at baby in her arms and with a lightness in her eyes.

And when they were standing in the kitchen, it came on the radio that Jonathan's plane had been found and that remains had been recovered, she didn't fall apart like Max expected, instead she took it with her usual grace and went upstairs, she cried for a bit in their closet but pulled herself together and said that she knew it had been coming for a bit and that she knew that Jonathan would want her to continue on in his absence.

Which is exactly what she did, she would take over Hart Industries and run it the way she knew Jonathan would, it was a bit overwhelming being in the office that he'd loved so much and that she'd carefully decorated until every inch reflected his personality.

Often she would stare out the window at the side scrapers and buildings spread out over Los Angeles and wonder what she was doing there, if she was doing the right thing but then she would be called into a meeting and suddenly she would forget her doubts.

More than often, she would bring the baby to the office so Max could get things done; it was becoming a routine for them, half the week He watched Jocelyn, Half the week She did and it was almost like a marriage but still she felt very alone.

Until one Wednesday afternoon

She'd been in and out of meetings all days, struggling to save a company that a minute and a half away from being in bankruptcy court when an unexpected client showed.

Deanne had stepped away from her desk to make copies so when the client showed up; there was no one to announce him.

Instead he simply knocked on the door and waited for her voice "Come in"

He opened the door slowly and waited for her to look up.

"Hey Beautiful"

She gasped and immediately passed out on the floor