HELLO!~ So by majority vote (two or three people lol) I will post two chapters today! ENJOY!~
Kevin's POV
At the end of his next class, Kevin expected Marie to be there, but no one showed. Kevin frowned, he knew Edd was around, if only he could get rid of him. Kevin blinked, maybe he could. After all, he wasn't carrying a heavy amount and Double D had to stay hidden. Kevin smirked, and abruptly ran into the crowd of teenagers, weaving in and out while ducking through the large crowd. Kevin eventually made it to his locker and briskly opened it, grabbing a different book and notebook. He turned to close his locker and run in the same direction when his bruised rib sent a sliver of pain through his chest.
Kevin grabbed at it and fell against his locker. It felt like he had been stabbed, running through the large crown of teenagers was probably not the best idea. Kevin continued to clutch at his chest, when he felt two pairs of hands pick him up. Kevin looked up to see a door open and close. He was in the boys restroom, Edd was suddenly by his side. The pain was still coursing through his body. He looked up at Edd who looked frightened and concerned.
"Kevin, Kevin breath slowly, it's ok I'm here." Edd sat him down on the floor and he knelt over him. Kevin did as he was told, breathing deep breathes slowly, gradually the pain subsided and he let go of his sweater. Kevin looked up at Edd who seemed more relax, but still a bit frightened. Kevin relaxed entirely as he began breathing a little fast. He felt a hand gingerly touch his chest, over his sweater. Kevin looked up at Edd who pulled away suddenly.
"I'm sorry! Did I harm you?" Edd looked so apprehensive, Kevin stared at him before shaking his head no. Edd hesitated before returning his hands to his chest. "Tell me if it hurts." Edd moved his hands around Kevin's chest, it was extremely relaxing, Kevin wanted to close his eyes. Kevin shook his head no when Edd had pulled away. Edd pulled him forward and check his back.
The pain was back. Kevin clutched Edd close to him, wincing. Edd stopped immediately, then scooped him up his arms. Kevin relaxed against Edd's chest, his eyes fluttering open. With the pain and Edd's hands on his chest had made him feeling tired. Kevin wasn't even paying attention to where Edd was taking him. Kevin just laid on Edd's chest breathing. He could hear Double D's heart beat pound against his ear, it was going pretty fast. After a few minutes, Kevin heard a door open, the lighting had changed. Edd was letting his rest against a bed then, he still had his eyes closed. Edd began to pull away when Kevin grabbed at him. Kevin couldn't tell where he grabbed, but he felt Edd stop. Kevin let go rested against the bed, listening to the conversation.
"Eddward?" it was a women's voice.
"Dr. Jamie…I don't know what to do. I have studied a lot of books but I do not consider my work very well done." Edd's voice was shaky, it made Kevin smile.
"What happened?" She seemed closer now, then Kevin felt two small hands pull his head to the other side.
"Yesterday various kids got a whole of him, a-and they delivered him a bruised rib. He was in the hall just now," Edd paused, his voice getting more and more shaky, "his appearance made me reason he was going to pass out, he looked like he was in a great deal of agony."
The women didn't speak for a while, "is this Kevin?"
Silence.
"I will do my best for him Eddward, go back to class."
Edd paused, "Dr. Jamie…I have been suspended." A pause again, they seemed very familiar with each other. Did they know each other? That seemed unlikely considering Edd didn't like people.
"I see, you wouldn't leave his side?"
"I couldn't!" Edd didn't yell, but his voice was rather loud.
She paused again, "Eeeeeddward….tsk tsk you got it bad." It sounded like she was smiling, while Edd was pouting. Got it bad? They were talking about him.
"Again Doctor, you have surprised me with your knowledge of affection." Edd sounded like he was smiling, but Kevin couldn't tell, "is he passed out?" Edd sounded worried.
Kevin wanted to moved or say something to let Edd know he was ok, but he was too tired. As he could do was lay there and listen. There was a pause before Dr. Jamie spoke, "…yes. He will be ok Eddward." Kevin became confused, a women with a doctrine should be able to tell whether a person was passed out or not. Kevin may not be a doctor, but he knew he wasn't passed out. He felt a hand pressed on his chest then disappear. The hand was much smaller than Edd's, he assumed it was the nurse. Kevin realized it then, she was telling him to stay as he was, pretend.
Kevin would have nodded if you could, but he was much too tired. She spoke again, "come on Eddward, I know you very well…I think you're in love." He heard Edd chuckle, "I don't do 'love'."
"Edd, love isn't something you do, it's something you feel…how do you feel about Kevin?" Her voice was very soft and gentle, very soothing. Her voice helped Kevin's heart not pound against his chest as he eavesdropped.
Edd paused before speaking, "I…sense that my stomach is constantly in knots. Every time I'm alongside him is like, a new day for me. I wake up and I'm essentially and truly happy because I know Kevin is there. It's different now, I don't know what it is…" Edd's voice was low, and he spoke slowly. There was another pause when the nurse spoke again, "would you do anything for him?"
"Without a doubt." Kevin's heart was on fire, Edd didn't hesitate.
Another pause, "have you too…kissed?" A pause, "once or twice, I hardly see why that is necessary to ask?" The nurse chuckled, "what about then, when you two kiss…what is it like for you?"
Another pause, Kevin was really about to pass out this time, it felt like an eternity before Double D spoke. He heard a chair 'fump' and he assumed Double D had sat down then.
"It's like…fire. I can't really describe it but, I feel like I'm on fire. My…core, it's like…twisting around so much it will rupture. I actually feel nervous. Dr. Jamie, from experience, you realize I do not feel anxious, ever. I try and supress my emotions. When I kiss him, I don't-I can't let go. I'm worried if I do…I'll stop breathing."
Kevin started breathing heavily, he try to restrain it, he wanted the conversation to continue. This is what Double D felt like, Kevin knew Edd liked him he told him that…but this was… fanatical.
He heard Dr. Jamie's heels hitting the floor as she walked away from Kevin, "Eddward, I have been married for a while now, and if you're telling me that what you're feeling isn't 'love' then I'll get a divorce." Silence again.
"Alright Dr. Love," Edd was being sarcastic, thought Kevin could tell how scared he sounded, "should I be in love with Kevin…what do I do? I don't…books and papers don't cover this subject. This is not something I can investigate and analysis on. I don't want to ruin it with Kevin, I don't want him to leave." Kevin felt much better now, he felt like he could move and talk now, be he kept still.
She walked again and stopped, "Exactly Eddward," she paused, "in here, it's something you feel. You would do anything for Kevin right?" A pause, "good, if you kept that mindset everything will be ok. I promise." There was another pause before she walked over to him, "Alright, leave so I can look after him. He will be alright, I'll send him out in a few."
"Am I not able to linger?"
"No, now leave." Her voice was a bit harsh and her heels clacked against the hard floor as she walked to the door and closed it. She sighed and walked back over to Kevin, "I knew he would never tell you that while you were conscious. I'm hoping that that will open him up more. You can move now." Kevin hesitated before opening his eyes. A young women, maybe 23, stood in front of him. She was extremely beautiful and she had long curly blonde hair. She smiled at him, she had red lipstick on that made her green eyes pop. Kevin was stunned, Edd got a lot of girls attention, he wondered if the nurse ever found Edd attractive.
Kevin sat up, the pain was gone, thank goodness, "thank you." She smiled again as she looked him over.
"I'm sorry if that made you feel uncomfortable, I was only trying to help." Kevin sat still as she checked him over. She took all the precautions, temperature, blood pressure, the whole thing. Dang, she really did looked after him, Edd would like that.
"No no, that helped a lot actually…" He frowned and she looked at his expression, stopping.
"You feel the same about him I hope…?" Kevin stared at her and he blushed, looking away. Of course he did.
"It's the same basically, except…" he paused, trying to find the right words, "it's a different feeling, being with Double D now, and not seeing him as a bully…it's odd." He looked up at her, she seemed confused, "Double D?"
Kevin chuckled, "A nickname he has always had. He spells his name with two 'D's, so it's like, 'Double D'." She smiled and laughed, 'Oh next time I see him, I must call him that." They both laughed.
She took a seat next to him then, she acted more like school girl then and professional nurse, Kevin thought it a bit strange, but said nothing.
She smiled, "alright, I must know everything. Edd had NEVER had a crush on someone like this. It's amazing, tell me everything!" She grinned at him enthusiastically; Kevin couldn't help chuckle, she really was a bizarre person.
"Um, I don't entirely know what you mean…?" Kevin blushed her, she was actually sitting rather close to him. She pouted, "I mean like, how does he act! What does he do? Has he been treating you good?" well, Kevin silently corrected her.
He smiled, "He does, it's funny, instead of him being a bully, he's now saving me from them." Kevin thought back to the locker room, seeing Edd saving him. He blushed and turned away from the nurse.
"Oh my God, you two are too cute!~ But…Mr. Barr," Kevin looked at her, he was Mr. Barr now? "I do not know you as well was Eddward, "he was Eddward, but Kevin was Mr. Barr? Kevin couldn't understand her in the slightest. "I can tell that Edd is in love with you," Edd pushed away and stared at the door, WOMEN, IF I EVER GET MY HANDS ON YOU, he placed his ear back on the door. "but I do not know about you…what do you feel?" Edd pressed against the door harder once more. His heart pounding in his ears, did Kevin feel the same for him?
Kevin laughed nervously, "I assume you want to know because you don't want me to hurt Double D?" Silence.
He sighed, "alright…being with Edd, well…that's the thing…I'm not with him." Edd stopped for a second. Kevin sounded hurt, and upset. Edd hated hearing Kevin sound so hurt, what's worse was that Edd had caused him that emotion. Edd felt a twinge of guilt as he looked down at the floor, upset with himself.
There was a pause, "I want to be…I feel like he doesn't want to be in a relationship. I mean, I can see Edd being like that. His past few girlfriends, even when they were dating, they were never together. And when they were Edd looked bored and kind of annoyed." Edd pushed away from the door again, staring at it for a while. Kevin…wants to be with him? He really did?! Edd couldn't help a smile crawl across his face, he didn't feel so nervous about the rooftop anymore. He placed his ear against the door once again.
"…same as Eddward explained it?" Dr. Jamie sounded soft again and Kevin hesitated.
"Yeah, except one thing. I agree with Edd that…I'm on fire. I mean, my entire body just feels like its 100 degrees hotter, and I'm melting, but…what I mean is that," he paused, "time stops. It all stops, it's just Edd, right there, no one, nothing else. All I can focus on is Double D, his hands, his lips…" Edd's heart slammed against his chest, and he couldn't help his face getting pink. He quickly pulled his sock hat over his face. God he must look pathetic right now, he never blushed. But after hearing what Kevin felt like when they kissed, he couldn't help but feel elated.
Kevin took a deep breath and continued, "every time I'm with him, I'm either flustered or smiling. I say some of the stupidest things, I can't think when he's around, and I'm nervous. It's a very odd feeling for me. I know I'm not as smart as him, NO ONE is. It's just…I want to impress him, and I can't."
She smiled up at him as Kevin started blushing even more. He never talked about his feelings for Double D out loud, it was alien to him. Well, actually it was alien for him to feel this way. Kevin had had a crush before, he knew what it was like to, 'like' someone, but this was beyond how he ever felt.
She stood, "well, I'm sure Eddward…Double D," she grinned, "oh yes, I like that. Anyway, I suspect he is waiting for you. You are perfectly fine, no running," She became serious then. "No over-exerting yourself, no EXCITEMENT, and lots of rest," she smiled and showed him the door. Kevin stood and looked for his items.
He looked up at her and she giggle, "I'm sure Double D has your stuff." Kevin nodded and walked over to the door, she opened it and he hesitated in the door way, thinking. She saw him wait and looked at him.
"I'm sorry I just…how do you know Edd? As far as I knew, he didn't like people." Kevin really was confused by this. He wanted to know what Dr. Jamie did to make Edd like her so much. But she only smiled, "I supposed if you bat your eyes and ask Double D nicely, he'll explain our relationship." Kevin frowned, that did not make him feel better. Nonetheless, he smiled at her and nodded, "thank you for everything today."
She stopped him, "no, thank you. I have never seen Eddward looking so…alive." Kevin blushed, Marie sort of said the same thing. What was Kevin doing that made Edd so different? He left then and she closed the door. Kevin looked around the corner to see Edd leaning against the wall, staring at the ceiling. He looked like he was deep in thought, but what caught Kevin's attention was his expression. Double D was smiling, and it was genuine. He wasn't showing teeth, but it was warm and…unlike Edd. At first glance, you usually see him as cold, but looking at him now. Kevin really could tell, something was different.
Edd's POV
Edd sat in the pool for another hour. He was sure Kevin wouldn't leave in the middle of class, and if he did he doubted anyone would be in the hallways during class. Even still, Edd was on edge, ready for anything. Thankfully, he did not receive a message or anything like that. So fifty minutes later, he dried off his feet with the extra towel he had in his locker, and made his way back to Kevin's classroom. This was his last class of the day, however the sun wouldn't set for quite a while. Edd was thinking about that. He didn't know what Kevin wanted to do, he thought he would ask him and they would both determine something fun to do. Edd chuckled as he arrived at Kevin's room. He walked farther along until he turned the corner in the next hall and waited.
The bell rang a few moments later and Edd poked his head around. Kevin stepped out and stopped. He looked around for a brief moment before frowning. The abruptly, fell into the crowd of teenagers, disappearing. Double D's heart jump started as he lost sight of him. He growled, realizing what Kevin was trying to do. He started to run, weaving in and out of teenager, pushing half of them over and apologizing every time he did. Edd pushed and fell against kids, awkwardly running through the crowd, his blood pressure rising as he felt his anger increasing with it. He finally broke through the crowd to see Kevin leaning against his locker, hand over his chest, clutching at his shirt. His eyes were screwed shut, as pain coursed over his face.
Double D felt fear replace the anger he had. He was next to Kevin's side in an instant, picking him up in his arms, he turned and found the nearest bathroom. He kicked the door open and set him down on the floor gently. Kevin forced his eyes open and looked up at Edd. His heart dropped, when he saw Kevin in the locker room, bloody and bruised Edd was scared. But this was different, Kevin was in pain now, he could see just how much he was suffering. In the locker room, Kevin was passed out, at least there he wasn't feeling pain, he was asleep.
"Kevin, Kevin breath slowly, it's ok I'm here." He knelt over him, he had read enough books on the human body and medical conditions, but seeing him in so much pain, his mind came to a blank. Edd felt himself getting more and more scared. He always knew what to do, he always knew how to help, and now he was coming up blank. Kevin started to breath deep slow breathes, and Double D could see Kevin beginning to relax. He finally released his sweater and Edd unwound bit by bit. He still couldn't think of anything to do, he concentrated, thinking about all the books he had read. He blinked, FINALLY something came to mind. He held out a hand, and very softly touched his chest, over his sweater. Kevin snapped to attention and Edd pulled away.
"I'm sorry! Did I harm you?" Edd looked at Kevin looked hesitantly until Kevin shook his head. Edd waited before making absolutely sure Kevin was ok. "Tell me if it hurts." Edd moved his hands around Kevin's chest once again. He kept looking at Kevin's face, searching for any sighs of pain. Edd continued feeling his chest for a while. Edd felt relaxed, he started thinking about what it would feel like if Kevin wasn't wearing his sweater. Edd pulled away and blushed, OMG did I really just have that kind of thought?! Edd looked at Kevin who had his eyes closed as he shook his head no. Double D relaxed, thank you for looking away from me.
Edd gently pulled him forward so he was leaning against him as he moved his hands in the same motion on his back. Kevin clutched Edd close to him then and winced. Edd stopped immediately, now what? Edd scooped him up his arms and Kevin relaxed against Edd's chest, his eyes fluttering open. Kevin looked so tired and relaxed, he felt warm. Edd waited before heading to the best person he knew that would help. Edd grabbed Kevin's items and made his way down the hall, clutching Kevin close to him. The students were now in their classroom so the hall was deserted. Edd sighed in relief, he was glad no one saw Kevin looking vulnerable and Edd carrying him. Kevin was breathing but barely, his mouth as warm against his chest. Thought Edd was scared, he was happy to have Kevin so close to him.
Edd arrived at the nurses and laid him on the cot, he began to search for a pillow when he felt a hand grab at him. He turned and saw Kevin's hand grab his hand. Kevin's grip was weak, and he didn't move until Kevin let go. Edd stood there watching him breathing until he heard a familiar voice.
"Eddward?" He turned and saw Dr. Jamie coming out of her office looking puzzled. His chin was healing well, and he knew she would notice that.
"Dr. Jamie…I don't know what to do. I have studied a large amount of books but I do not consider my work very well done." Edd's voice was shaky, he remembered reading many books on this subject but he kept drawing a blank.
"What happened?" She walked closer to him and Kevin. She pulled Kevin's face to the other side and looked at him. Edd stiffened.
"Yesterday various kids got a whole of him, a-and they delivered him a bruised rib. He was in the hall just now," Edd paused, he could feel himself getting angry as he talked about Kevin getting hurt, "his appearance made me reason he was going to pass out, he looked like he was in a great deal of agony." Edd thought back to the boy's bathroom ad he clutched his shirt, Edd frowned helpless.
Dr. Jamie paused before she looked at Edd, "is this Kevin?"
Edd paused, sheepishly looking away, then nodding.
She grinned and looked back at him, "I will do my best for him Eddward, go back to class."
Edd paused, "Dr. Jamie…I have been suspended." She snapped her head up at him, Edd grimaced. Him getting suspended was like the world coming to an end. She thought for a bit, looked at him, then at Kevin then back at him, before realizing the situation. She smiled and tended to his wounds.
"I see, you wouldn't leave his side?"
"I couldn't!" Edd couldn't stop himself. He already felt himself on edge. And it was true, he couldn't leave Kevin's side, not after what happened. He clenched his fists, and took a deep breathe. She looked at him for a long while before a light bulb went off in her head. Edd raised an eyebrow at her curiously.
"Eeeeeddward….tsk tsk you got it bad." Edd's body relaxed then as he stared at her, she was being serious. Him? In love? Come on, he really really liked Kevin and wanted to be with him, but, love is something Edd never knew. Edd couldn't help but look at her flabbergasted.
"Again Doctor, you have surprised me with your knowledge of affection." Edd looked down at Kevin, he didn't look like he was breathing, and Edd didn't want Kevin to hear him talking about this sort of stuff, "is he passed out?" Edd's eyebrows furrowed.
Dr. Jamie looked at Kevin, touching him and moving him slightly, before checking his pulse. She waited before speaking, "…yes. He will be ok Eddward." Edd looked away then. Edd didn't trust a lot of people, but he trusted Dr. Jamie. If she was looking after Kevin, he knew he would be ok. He relaxed a bit while looking back at her. She was watching him closely with a soft smile on her face.
She stood and looked at him a little closer, "come on Eddward, I know you very well…I think you're in love." Double D couldn't help laugh at her joke. Edd knew that she knew Edd wasn't like that, "I don't do 'love'."
"Edd, love isn't something you do, it's something you feel…how do you feel about Kevin?" She sounded very comforting, like she always did. Dr. Jamie knew Edd the best, and Edd felt comfortable around her. Edd wasn't used to talking about his feelings, EVER. The only time he talked about his feelings was when Marie would Marie would yell at him for not being a good boyfriend. Edd watched her before contemplating his answer. He did trust her, and if was going to go to anyone on relationship advice, she was one of his best options.
Edd hesitated, "I…sense that my stomach is constantly in knots. Every time I'm alongside him is like, a new day for me. I wake up and I'm essentially and truly happy because I know Kevin is there. It's different now, I don't know what it is…" Edd spoke really slow, trying to find the right words and trying not to blush at the same time. That's what Edd felt like when he was kissing Kevin, and being with him, and talking to him. Edd could feel his heart already going like crazy talking about this stuff with Dr. Jamie.
She crossed her arms, "would you do anything for him?"
"Without a doubt." Edd didn't hesitate, he knew the truth, he would do anything for Kevin, he knew that.
Dr. Jamie smirked, "have you too…kissed?"
Edd looked at her a bit stunned before turning away, blushing, "once or twice, I hardly see why that is necessary to ask?" Edd looked back her as he crossed his arms. His expression indifferent, Dr. Jamie chuckled, "what about then, when you two kiss…what is it like for you?"
Edd raised an eyebrow at her, she only grinned determined to win. Edd won a lot but when it came to Dr. Jamie, she was just as stubborn as Edd. Double D sighed and feel back in a chair, he figured this would take a while. Edd thought about it for a while, he had to find the right words, he couldn't just describe it willy nilly.
Edd sat forward then, and held his hands up, trying to gesture and motion what he was saying, "It's like…fire. I can't really describe it but, I feel like I'm on fire. My…core, it's like…twisting around so much it will rupture. I actually feel nervous. Dr. Jamie, from experience, you realize I do not feel anxious, ever. I try and supress my emotions. When I kiss him, I don't-I can't let go. I'm worried if I do…I'll stop breathing."
Edd's heart was pounding, that really is how he felt around Kevin. Edd leaned back in his chair, trying to relax. Talking about this was hard for him, he wanted to talk to someone about it, but he didn't know where to go.
Dr. Jamie walked over to him and sat across from him, she held his hands. Edd looked at her with a raised an eye brow, as if to say, what are you doing? "Eddward, I have been married for a while now, and if you're telling me that what you're feeling isn't 'love' then I'll get a divorce." Edd watched her, she was being very sincere with him, and her eyes looked concerned for him. Edd let her word's sink in. She HAD been married for a rather long time, she was very beautiful and she was a girl. Edd still didn't think he loved Kevin, but Dr. Jamie knew more than he did.
"Alright Dr. Love," Edd wasn't always sarcastic, he wasn't good at it being sarcastic, and it wasn't something he really liked, "should I be in love with Kevin…what do I do? I don't…books and papers don't cover this subject. This is not something I can investigate and analysis on. I don't want to ruin it with Kevin, I don't want him to leave." Edd watched her intently, he was starting to feel scared. 'Love'…love had been out of the question for him. He had no idea what it was like or how it felt, when his second girlfriend told him she loved him, Edd just kind of nodded, and she broke up with him because of it. Now that it was Kevin, everything was different. Edd didn't have the first clue about love, he just knew he wanted to be with Kevin.
She shuffled her feet closer to Edd, and pointed to his chest, "Exactly Eddward," she paused, "in here, it's something you feel. You would do anything for Kevin right?" Edd nodded, "good, if you kept that mindset everything will be ok. I promise." Edd looked down, she was telling him not to worry when that was the only thing he could do. He sighed and sat back in his seat. Dr. Jamie stood and walked back over to Kevin, "Alright, leave so I can look after him. He will be alright, I'll send him out in a few."
Edd looked up, startled, "Am I not able to linger?"
"No, now leave." She stood and began to push him out, she was like Kevin, weak and small and he could have easily overpowered her. But he gave in and let her push him out, but Edd wasn't leaving like that. He pressed his ear against the door and covered his other ear, the voices were a bit muffles, but over all he could hear just fine, "…would never tell you that while you were conscious. I'm hoping that that will open him up more. You can move now." Edd's eyes flashed open. Kevin heard everything he had said! Edd's heart immediately thundered against his chest. And what's worse is Dr. Jamie KNEW! Edd felt himself getting angry, he wanted to open the door and confront her, but he waited. Trying to control his anger and listen to the conversation.
"No no, that helped a lot actually…" Edd pressed his ears more to the door.
"You feel the same about him I hope…?" He voice when she was talking to him, at least she was being nice. Kevin paused before speaking.
"It's the same basically, except…" he paused, "it's a different feeling, being with Double D now, and not seeing him as a bully…it's odd." Edd felt down casted, he shouldn't be surprised that Kevin saw him like, but he didn't want him to anymore.
Kevin chuckled, "A nickname he has always had. He spells his name with two 'D's, so it's like, 'Double D'." She laughed, 'Oh next time I see him, I must call him that." They both laughed and Double D frowned, now she was going to call him that all the time. He would have to stay away from her office for a while
"…Edd had NEVER had a crush on someone like this. It's amazing, tell me everything!" He heard Kevin laugh, at least he was sounding normal.
"Um, I don't entirely know what you mean…?" Edd laughed, he was sure Kevin was blushing. Dr. Jamie spoke then, "I mean like, how does he act! What does he do? Has he been treating you good?"
Edd frowned, well. He would have to scold her on her English. He listened carefully, he prayed Kevin didn't tell her everything.
"…it's funny, instead of him being a bully, he's now saving me from them."
She squealed, "Oh my God, you two are too cute!~ But…Mr. Barr, I do not know you as well was Eddward, I can tell that Edd is in love with you," Kevin blushed, "but I do not know about you…what do you feel?" Kevin looked at her strangely, she looked concerned while looking like a twelve year old girl reading a love novel.
Kevin laughed nervously, "I assume you want to know because you don't want me to hurt Double D?" She nodded swiftly.
Kevin sighed, "alright…being with Edd, well…that's the thing…I'm not with him." Kevin couldn't help looking downcast, they weren't dating, he didn't know what to say.
She looked at him surprised, "you two aren't dating?" Kevin looked at her briefly before turning and shaking his head, "I want to be…I feel like he doesn't want to be in a relationship. I mean, I can see Edd being like that. His past few girlfriends, even when they were dating, they were never together. And when they were Edd looked bored and kind of annoyed."
She shook her head and looked at the door, "I must yell at him next time I get the chance.' Kevin chuckled and she turned back to him.
"Kevin," back to first names? "When you two kiss, is it the same as Eddward explained it?" Kevin looked at her and blushed.
"Yeah, except one thing. I agree with Edd that…I'm on fire. I mean, my entire body just feels like its 100 degrees hotter, and I'm melting, but…what I mean is that," he paused, "time stops. It all stops, it's just Edd, right there, no one, nothing else. All I can focus on is Double D, his hands, his lips…" Kevin stopped and turned away, he was shaking a bit. He always got nervous when thinking about Edd, but saying it out loud was a lot harder.
Kevin took a deep breath and continued, "every time I'm with him, I'm either flustered or smiling. I say some of the stupidest things, I can't think when he's around, and I'm nervous. It's a very odd feeling for me. I know I'm not as smart as him, NO ONE is. It's just…I want to impress him, and I can't." Edd couldn't help smile, Kevin didn't know that every day, Kevin was impressing him more and more.
Edd heard her stand, "well, I'm sure Eddward…Double D," Edd frowned, she was neer going to forget that, "oh yes, I like that. Anyway, I suspect he is waiting for you. You are perfectly fine, no running," She paused. "No over-exerting yourself, no EXCITEMENT, and lots of rest," Edd narrowed his eyes, he was sure she said that loud enough so he could hear it. He sighed, he was almost 100% sure she knew he was at her door. Edd hear them walking towards the door and his heart quickened. He turned awkwardly as he tu*** and leaned against the wall, trying to look casual. At first Kevin didn't come out, he assumed they were talking in the door way. As much as he wanted to eavesdrop, it would be more difficult, so he waited for them
He looked up at the ceiling, thinking about Kevin's words. He smiled again as he heard Kevin's words in his mind. Kevin wanted to be with him, and Edd wanted to be with Kevin. Edd knew Kevin liked him, Kevin blushing wasn't just coincidence, and Kevin already admitted he liked him. Double D just didn't think Kevin would want to be in a relationship with him, after all he was right. Edd was bad with relationships and he had often been called a bad boyfriend.
Edd looked down at his feet, Kevin's items were still next to him. He smiled and looked back up at the ceiling. He was hoping Kevin wouldn't ask about this, 'love' stuff, Edd didn't want to ruin what he and Kevin had…whatever they had, or would have in the future. Edd smiled wider, he thought about Kevin and being able to hold him and be with him all the time, he relished the thought. On the rooftop, afterwards, he promised to take Kevin out. Take him anywhere he wanted to go, just so it could be an official couples date. Edd smiled again, he never felt this happy in so long, he only felt like this when he was with Kevin. It was always Kevin that made him like this.
Edd remembered always feeling tired and depressed and…empty. Edd remembered always being alone. Waking up to an empty house, and his body feeling hollow. Double D knew that the sunset and the pool was the most he felt before Kevin, but…now it was like Kevin was his sunset. He could look at Kevin and instantly feel relaxed and happy. Kevin was also his pool, he felt alive and free every time he was with him. Edd relaxed against the wall, he was getting soft, but it didn't matter, he had Kevin. Edd loved this feeling, he knew he would never feel like this when he was in the pool or looking at the sunset. Kevin gave him a much more profound feeling, and he was determined to never let it go.
He stopped, and grinned. Edd noticed his expression and watched him quizzically. Kevin looked up at him, and smiled broadly, Double D, I FINALLY found something I can win at!