Hello

To whoever will read this. I have a few things I want to ask. As you should have noticed, I did not edit, any of my story. I wasn't doing this to try to be the best, I published my story because it made me happy. I didn't care about if it was publish worthy. However going back over it, I want to edit and adjust it. Everything will stay the same, but I want to make the first few chapters smoother and I am trying to find a balance with Rev!Edd not being so dick headed to Kevin but still being as flirty as I have made him to be. If you have any suggestions, or think that I shouldn't change anything, please let me know. Once I finish I'll be going back over and editing and fixing things. I'm also thinking about doing another Kevedd story, where the roles aren't reversed, but I'm still on the edge. I don't want to go half way then stop for 3 years (like I did with this lol)

Also, please give me feedback, negative or positive.

Thanks! (sorry for the wait!)

Chapter 22

Kevins POV

They sat in silence for a long while, Kevin could feel his nerves settling down, and his body beginning to relax. After…they were left alone in the kitchen, Double D carried Kevin upstairs to his room and placed him on his bed, while Edd took a spot next to him, pulling Kevin closer to his body. Kevin couldn't help blush at that, but after a moment, Kevin realized Edd had fallen asleep. Now it was just him, looking up at Edd's sleeping face, in his room, while laying on his bed… Kevin knew his face was turning red steadily, but knowing Edd couldn't see it made him less anxious to cover it. Kevin wasn't upset that Edd fell asleep after their...rendezvous, if anything he expected him to sleep. After sleeping longer than needed, a handful of people usually feel less energized than if they had only slept 8 or so hours. And they did just...use a lot of energy not that long ago. Kevin let his eyes wander around Double D's room. It was funny because he has never stepped foot in his room before, however it was exactly like Kevin thought it would be. Uncannily clean and everything labeled. His room was mostly empty except for a few science posters and a desk that held some plants, loads of papers and a lamp. It was probably the messiest thing in the whole house to be honest.

Kevin turned back to Edd, his eyes still closed and his chest moving up and down steadily. Kevin almost laughed out loud, though not 20 minutes ago he felt the exact opposite of how he did now. Kevin couldn't help but let himself relax into Edd's bed and body. He silently agreed with Double D about his nap, and silently thanked him for letting them both relax for a moment. So much had happened this school year, today...20 minutes ago… His mind felt tired, and if he allowed his desirable thoughts to continue, he knew he would fall asleep. Kevin gently pulled his arm around and gingerly set it on Edd's chest, he moved the slightest upon his touch. Kevin could feel Double D's breathing, he could feel his heart beating and his warmth radiating into Kevin's arm and body. Kevin had hugged Edd plenty of times, but this felt different. Every time they touched it was like lightning, now it was like a vibration that ran through his whole body. It wasn't scary or harsh, it was gentle, child-like almost.

Kevin felt Edd tense for a moment before moving his head so that his face looked at the ceiling and his eyes fluttered open smoothly. In a way Kevin felt better because Double D was now awake, but he couldn't help wish that he could see Edd's sleeping face for a moment longer. Edd looked over to him then and smiled calmly. Kevin felt Edd's arm wrapping around him tightly, pulling him closer to him, Kevin's heart jumped for a moment, but he didn't let it make him feel anxious, instead he relaxed into Edd's embrace, and hugged him back. The more Kevin spent time with Edd, the more he felt his nerves being washed away. He laughed to himself silently, after such excitement, they both calmed down pretty quick. Kevin smiled to himself wholly, and pulled Edd closer, silently thanking him for being in this moment with him.

Edd tensed again and Kevin looked up, watching him. For the longest moment they hadn't talked, they just held each other, and now Edd was going to break the silence.

Edd closed his eyes, his face looking worried, "I'm sorry…for oppressing you, mocking you, and treating less than I should have." Kevin brought his face higher to see Edd's, they were so close on the bed, their faces basically touched, it made Kevin's heart beat faster. Kevin's face contorted with Edd's words, "Edd…can I ask, why did you act like that?"

Edd's face twitched at his words, and Kevin was about to apologize when Edd spoke again, "I was…frightened, panicked, confused… I didn't want to admit to myself my true emotions for you." Kevin was listening to everything Double D was telling him, but several times he second guessed if he was actually awake. Edd sounded so honest, sincere and soft, it was incredibly uncharacteristic of him, it almost made Kevin worry.

"I put my own fears above my true desires… and I allowed that fear to dictate my own thoughts and actions, and…" he paused, keeping his eyes closed still, "I caused you pain…" Edd held him tighter, his breath was steady yet firm, if felt like Edd was sure about everything he was saying.

Kevin never actually thought Edd would apologize to him for his actions, however it seemed more unreal that Kevin would forgive him for it. Kevin realized though, that he had already forgave Edd, when had he done that? He just knew he had already let go of his resentment for Edd, and who he was. Slowly Double D changed into someone less scary, and less violent.

"Double D…" Kevin hesitated, hoping Edd would look at him. He didn't, he actually shifted his weight farther down so that his face was in Kevin's neck, he could feel Edd breathing where his shoulder and neck met. It made Kevin shiver, it reminded him of Edd's lips sucking at his neck, his breathing was less harsh than his sucking, but it didn't make the feeling any less tingly. He never felt so close to someone, and this feeling was alien to him, it was as if the same thinking he felt in the kitchen, but less intense. He took a deep breathe, trying to ignore the satisfying feeling on his neck, "you know, I forgive you Edd. I honestly don't know when I did, I just… know I did."

He felt Edd relax momentarily, he barely turned in his spot. Their bodies were essentially intertwined, the feeling was already getting to Kevin's basic feelings, Edd felt soft and warm, it was an exquisite feeling to him, though unfamiliar still, he wanted to know it more, and did his best to keep his anxiety low.

"...Your feelings before, did they at no time vary?" Every time Edd talked it tickled Kevin's neck more, and it made him squirm in his position, holding his breathe. Kevin didn't want to lie to him, but he wasn't sure what the truth was. After rumors began to fly that Kevin was gay, he couldn't help feeling Edd was the cause of it all. Through that fact, Kevin knew he had become irritated with Edd, which eventually grew into fear.

Kevin paused before speaking, "they did," Edd squirmed but Kevin didn't stop, "I became scared of you for a while, I was afraid every time I saw you I'd be pushed into a corner and teased for being honest about my feelings. Yet, every time I saw you, I felt the same feeling I did the first time I realized I liked you."

Edd eased swiftly, "Why were your feelings ones of romance? Back then…" Edd's voice was low, and yielding. Kevin couldn't help think Edd sounded fragile.

"I looked up to you," Kevin paused, thinking, though Kevin was honest about his feelings back then, he couldn't remember many times he was so forthcoming. "You were always top in class, and you weren't as scared as me. If people asked you a question that was rude or mean, you would just answer them honestly. Every time I was given a question like that I would stutter over my words, making it seem I was scared and not in control. It was really cool to see someone as smart and bold, I can't really find a mix of those two anywhere else." Kevin's voice drifted off, Edd was still more relaxed than tense as he usually was. He smiled, that's good, he didn't like seeing Edd so apprehensive.

"..What If I stated differently, revealing my own real fear for those people, those interrogations…" His words were so soft, Kevin couldn't help wonder what was going through Edd's mind. Was he really as scared as he seemed now? Kevin almost chuckled, a scared Edd? He couldn't picture it, but it wasn't a weird feeling, it didn't seem wrong to think of Edd as scared, in a way it did make sense. How he was scared for other people's opinions about his sexuality. But Kevin wasn't turned away by this, by a scared Edd, though different, it wasn't bad. He thought for a moment about his answer.

"I would say we went about it differently. You weren't about to let people walk all over you forever, where as I didn't think I had a choice. I was always weak, and small, I wouldn't let something wrong happen just because I didn't have the strength to do something about it, but I didn't think I ever had the capability of winning a fight." They hadn't moved in a while, in the back of Kevin's mind, he thought about Cassandra, she would be coming back any moment, and see them laying here. He let the thought pass, coming back to Edd holding on to him. Edd stayed silent for a long moment, he bet Edd was just overthinking his thoughts.

"I'm not about to say I don't want to be with you because of that Double D… I don't care about it." Kevin was surprised at how calm he felt as he talked. He felt content being able to talk to Edd like this, he felt bonded. Edd took a moment before finally lifting his head, meeting Kevin's eyes. Kevin was stopped for a moment, Edd's eyes had never looked so kind and light. Kevin debated in his head about touching his face. He wanted to, but he was afraid Edd would push him away. Psh, was that as silly of a thought as it sounded? Timidly, Kevin moved his hand back to his chest, and deftly touched Edd's chin with his index finger. Electricity ran through his finger, but it was the same spark that he felt before, a low vibration throughout his finger and hand.

The moment stilled between them and Kevin would add more fingers to Edd's chin, Kevin could only hear his thoughts, meet Edd's eyes, touch Edd's face, and smell Edd's own fragrance, he wondered if Edd thought and felt the same...

The sound of a door disrupted them both, Kevin was about to move when Edd pulled him back and required Kevin's lips to meet his own. Kevin could feel himself getting used to the feeling of Edd's own mouth on his, his breath was hot and steady. Kevin could feel himself relaxing more and more into their embrace, their lips becoming more messy with every move. Edd's hand found the back of Kevin's head and his fingers weaved through his hair, he was holding Kevin sternly. Kevin tensed at his touch, he could feel Edd shifting his weight around, bringing his other arm to the other side of Kevin, Edd was basically moving on top of him. Kevin's breathing began to stagger as his nerves peaked, when Edd finally moved away from him. Then they both heard footsteps on the stairs, Edd gracefully dived off the bed, making little noise. Kevin staggered off as Double D turned around his door and looked down the hallway. Kevin noticed Edd relax, which he thought amusing because he hadn't had realized he had tensed back up.

"Ooo, what are you boys doing?" Cassandra's voice came through the door, Edd tensed again, Kevin couldn't help feel embarrassed though he knew they weren't doing anything like that. Having Edd's mom think they were was flustering enough. She pulled her head around the corner and found Kevin standing there awkwardly.

"I speculated dad's arrival, I required confirmation." Kevin could tell Edd's voice was more normal now, more of the edd everyone thought he was; cold, hard, angry...not like who Kevin thought Edd was now. He wondered when people would start to realize what he had about Double D.

"Of course, and what would you have done should he have arrived, and seen the situation?" Cassandra's voice was full of sarcasm, yet Kevin would be lying if he said her voice was tense or strained. She sounded carefree, and he smile was relaxed. Kevin silently laughed to himself about how different Edd was to his mother.

"I suppose I-" She cut Edd off, "I'm only playing with you Eddward, come downstairs, I'll make you boy's dinner." She smiled and turned to go back down the stairs. Kevin looked back up to Edd's face, and his heart skipped. Double D's expression was one of comfort and appeasement, his mouth was just curled into a smile, so faint that if you didn't know what Edd's usual face was, you wouldn't have been able to notice a difference. His eyes suggested he was tired, similar to how they frequently looked, now they matched his smile, old Edd but with a hint of joy.

Edd's POV

Edd shut his eyes, breathing in and out through his nose. He wrapped his arm around Kevin who was laying next to him silently, breathing heavier than himself. He smiled wickedly at himself at the thought, and let his mind wander back not a few minutes ago. Down the stairs, around the corner, and back into the kitchen… He could feel Kevin squirming around him but essentially paid no mind. They both agreed they needed a break, to lay down, calm down… Edd must have been thinking hard because he barely noticed Kevin place his hand on his chest, he didn't smile physically, but in his mind he could see Kevin laying next to him, blushing. He breathed a bit deeper at Kevin's touch, it definitely made his heart smile.

Edd let himself relax against Kevin and his hand, he could feel Kevin tense and relax smoothly. Edd silently wondered what he was thinking, maybe Kevin was asleep. He didn't know if Kevin squirmed while he slept. He felt Kevin turn his head possibly, in his own direction? He wasn't paying as much attention to his movements, he still had lewd thoughts skipping in and out of his mind. He waited for Kevin to move before falling back into his mind. Edd was back to his thoughts momentarily after Kevin hadn't moved in a moment. Then he came back to himself thinking… how unusual of him. He didn't seem to deny his sexuality Freshman year, after him and Kevin separated to different schools. They weren't even in the same place anymore, yet he accepted what he was. He wasn't scared or, "in denial" about making Kevin feel so much pleasure just moments ago. Edd let his mind deepen, thinking back to when he dared Kevin to kiss who he liked, to when he realized he liked the idea that Kevin liked him, and back to when his questions became more frequent.

He tensed, he could have gone to Marie, but he didn't because he had denied that it could happen. He denied that that was who he was, Edd wasn't interested in learning whether or not he was gay, he was concerned with his studies, learning about more important things in life. A thought ran through his head, and he moved his head so that he was facing forward, and he let his eyes flicker open. He turned to Kevin to see him already staring at him, and Edd smiled considerately. He wrapped his arm around Kevin, and pulled him close as he shifted to his side, they were chest to chest. Kevin felt much more relaxed now than usual, he even felt him wrap his own arm around him, his hand just below his neck, touching his shoulder blade. It made Edd grin, he took note about how relaxed he was, he should ask him later. As Edd pulled him tighter, he remembered the first day he saw Kevin this year. He stiffened at the memory of Kevin's face, hiding behind his notebook, face full of red shades, and eyes shut tight… He opened his eyes for a moment, not meeting Kevin's. Though he loved seeing Kevin's face of embarrassment, he knew he had hurt Kevin for his own pleasure.

He found Kevin's eyes and watched him for a moment. Kevin's eyes were ridiculously green and vibrant, Edd's thought's stopped for a moment… forgetting where he was and what he was doing. He closed his eyes and let his face fall, "I'm sorry…for oppressing you, mocking you, and treating less than I should have." Edd could feel Kevin move his head, his breath was just touching his chin, it made Edd unwind and purr. Kevin sounded a bit off the first time he spoke, but he didn't sound scared or upset, "Edd…can I ask, why did you act like that?"

Edd twitched at his words, "I was," he paused, "…frightened, panicked, confused… I didn't want to admit to myself my true emotions for you." Edd's mind began to feel numb, he felt sincere and, scared at the same time, he wanted to be honest with Kevin...open with him. He felt free on the rooftop, and in the pool, and with Kevin.

"I put my own fears above my true desires… and I allowed that fear to dictate my own thoughts and actions, and…" he paused, keeping his eyes closed still, "I caused you pain…" Edd held him tighter, his breath was steady and yet grounded, Edd wasn't going to back down now, he had made up his mind.

Kevin hesitated with his words, and Edd couldn't help feeling anxious because of it. "Double D…" Edd felt a blush rise in his face, and he shifted farther down, moving his head to Kevin's neck. It was a funny feeling for Edd, being under Kevin instead of above him. Though the fact he could feel Kevin's feet just below his knees made him chuckle softly. Edd shuffled his face closer to Kevin's neck, he could feel his breathe bouncing off of his neck. Edd's mind began to wander to the lewd thoughts he had been thinking about before, but shook them away. Kevin took a deep breathe, "you know, I forgive you Edd. I honestly don't know when I did, I just… know I did."

Edd loosened at his words, twisting his legs closer with Kevin's own. Edd wanted Kevin to forgive him, he didn't really believe it would happen, but he wanted it. For Kevin to say he had already decided it, made Edd almost run through his mind of 'why's', and 'how's'.

"...Your feelings before, did they at no time vary?" Edd could feel Kevin tensing lightly at his words on his neck. Edd, not the time to think about that… He squirmed in Kevin's arms, and he stiffened his grip on Edd's back.

"They did," Edd squirmed, I suppose I knew that... "I became scared of you for a while, I was afraid every time I saw you I'd be pushed into a corner and teased for being honest about my feelings. Yet, every time I saw you, I felt the same feeling I did the first time I realized I liked you." Kevin's words hurt, but Edd listened to everything. He knew he scared Kevin, he knew all this, he couldn't deny or change that.

However, Kevin kept his feelings of desire… "Why were your feelings ones of romance? Back then…" Edd was almost afraid to ask, why had Kevin devoted feelings for him? They weren't friends back then, if anything Edd was never really nice to Kevin. He pursed his lips at the thought, regretting the memory.

"I looked up to you." Edd stopped. "You were always top in class, and you weren't as scared as me. If people asked you a question that was rude or mean, you would just answer them honestly. Every time I was given a question like that I would stutter over my words, making it seem I was scared and not in control. It was really cool to see someone as smart and bold, I can't really find a mix of those two anywhere else." And then he smiled, realizing Kevin's perception of him was exactly what he strived for, for he really wanted to be who he was with Kevin. It was what he wanted everyone to think of him before, smart and tough. But, now he had tricked Kevin, and now he had to be honest with him about who he really was.

He hesitated, "...What If I stated differently, revealing my own real fear for those people, those interrogations…" His words were so soft, Edd was afraid he'd have to repeat himself because Kevin couldn't hear him. He wiggled in his spot nervously, trying not to be noticeable about it. With every silent moment Edd's fear grew bit by bit, and he tried to let his mind relax, wandering to other desirable thoughts. Edd had just told him something so personal and real, something he had kept secret so long.

Edd held his breath while Kevin answered him, "I would say we went about it differently. You weren't about to let people walk all over you forever, where as I didn't think I had a choice. I was always weak, and small, I wouldn't let something wrong happen just because I didn't have the strength to do something about it, but I didn't think I ever had the capability of winning a fight." I felt the same way, Edd thought. He couldn't bring himself to say that however, saying everything he had was already tough. Edd let Kevin's words flow through his mind, he thought they took different actions for the same problem, Edd couldn't disagree with that.

"I'm not about to say I don't want to be with you because of that Double D… I don't care about it." Kevin sounded so relaxed every time he spoke, it seemed atypical of him. Edd let his words soak in his mind before lifting his head to look at Kevin. What Kevin said sounded like he was ok with Edd being that...frightened. Edd's heart was beating so fast, he began to worry Kevin could feel it. Edd finally relaxed into his eyes, Kevin seemed so calm, his eyes were so big behind his glasses. Edd had the strong desire of moving them out of the way when Kevin began to bring his hand up to his face. Edd felt Kevin's finger touch his chin delicately, it sent jolts through his whole body. Every moment or so Kevin would touch his chin with another finger, and every time it sent another jolt through his being, Edd couldn't pull his face away from Kevin, his eyes, his touch, Double D's mind was racing now, watching Kevin watch him. Everything else fell, and it was just him and Kevin in the room, Kevin's eyes looking at his own, his fingers caressing his frame, his smell marking its presence on Edd's own possessions. Edd had never felt this feeling before, calm...content...magical.

The sound of a door disrupted them both, Edd felt Kevin pull away quickly then, but he couldn't help pull him back to him. Edd found Kevin's lips and poured his emotions into it, his desire, his joy, his thoughts. Edd's mouth was making it's way through Kevin's, and he realized just how calm Kevin felt right now. Kevin didn't feel shaky, or scared, he was wanting him back, and not hesitant to show it. It made Edd wild, and he pulled his hand around the back of Kevin's head, spreading his fingers through his ginger hair. Edd couldn't help but let his mouth and hands tense around Kevin, he shifted his weight so that he was hovering over Kevin, his other hand holding him up from his bed. Kevin's breathe began to stagger , and Edd could feel his desires growing. However he pulled away the moment he heard footsteps, they were just about to ascend the stairs. Edd flew off the bed and landed on the floor as silently as he could manage. If it was his mother and she heard him running around, she would probably assume they were having sex, if it was his father...well he didn't care about that. He cared about making sure Kevin was safe. He quickly turned his head around the corner to see himself face to face with his mom. Her smile wide and wicked, Edd immediately relaxed upon realization his father was still nowhere around.

"Ooo, what are you boys doing?" Her voice was humorous and bubbly, yet Edd sensed she was being petty and controlling "I speculated dad's arrival, I required confirmation." Edd sounded bitter and he winced, he didn't mean to sound as mean as it had.

"Of course, and what would you have done should he have arrived, and seen the situation?" She was being more sarcastic now, and Edd tried to not let his anger rise as he usually would. His eyebrows knitted together as he spoke, "I suppose I-"

She cut him off, "I'm only playing with you Eddward, come downstairs, I'll make you boy's dinner." She smiled and turned to go back down the stairs. Edd watched her before grinning modestly, perhaps he didn't need to be so apprehensive with everyone he knew. Maybe he could finally relax, and not be as alone as he always felt, with Kevin by his side, Edd didn't see it as impossible anymore.