As Christian switches the engine on the music bursts into life making him jump. I don't know why I'm smiling he's going to be angry again.

'If I ever catch you driving with the music that loud again I'll rip the speakers out of the car. How can you concentrate with it like that?' he says after he has switched it to quiet.

'Don't be so grumpy, you're worse than dad, Elliot doesn't mind, in fact he has it louder.'

'Since when did you copy what Elliot does, are you going to be a builder like him?' he asks.

'He has his own construction company and he's doing well so maybe. He seems happy with what he's doing.' I reply. Perhaps now isn't the best time to be having this conversation.

'Jeez Matt. Are you trying to make me angry again? You've just been offered a place at Harvard and you're thinking of following Elliot into construction,' he exclaims.

'What's wrong with that, I'm not even sure about going to university. You dropped out, I can still remember how angry dad was with you and mom was so upset. It's not as if you've done badly for yourself. Remember I've looked at your accounts, though to be honest I think you could do better. I don't think some of your investments are making as much profit as they should be.'

Christian looks at me almost shocked 'You've worked for me less than a week and you can already tell that. I know you worked the Edwards issue out pretty quick but are you some sort of genius with figures. Maybe you should skip university and come and work for me?'

'I like looking at figures and spread sheets, they're fun and math isn't hard is it? Besides I might have to graduate just to go one better than you, I've always pushed myself to be like you but you've always had the edge over everything. Perhaps mom would like a son who graduates'

'Mom will like you whatever you do, why do you doubt that?'

As we pull into the garage at Escala I go silent and don't answer immediately, then as Christian switches the engine off I whisper 'You know why'

Christian holds my shoulder with one hand and tips my chin up with the other so that I'm looking into his eyes that are full of compassion. 'I thought we got over that issue a long time ago'

I shrug and turn away to open the car door. We travel in the elevator in silence, then we're stood together in the great room. Christian looks at me, waiting for me to make the first move. I go straight to the piano and start to play. Christian leaves me to it; he probably understands the piano playing better than anyone else in the family as this is what he needs at times as well. The tunes vary today between sad and angry, eventually they become calmer then happier. It's only then that I feel Christian's presence and once again we play together side by side.

As we go to the kitchen to get some juice, Taylor and Mrs Jones return from the supermarket. Mrs Jones hugs me; Christian looks on with bemusement as Taylor smiles.

'It's so lovely to see you again here' she says. 'I saw your car in the garage but didn't expect you as well. Are you staying for lunch?' I look at Christian and he nods so I reply 'that would be good Mrs Jones, any chance of my favourite?'

'Is that OK with you Mr Grey?' she asks and he raises an eyebrow so she says 'Lasagne and salad, tomato ketchup on the side is currently top of the list.' He laughs and replies 'That's good for me but without the ketchup.'

I then thank Mrs Jones and Taylor for taking good care of me last week but they wave me away almost embarrassed saying 'Anytime'. Christian and I take our juice to the TV room and settle next to each other on the sofa. Christian switches on the television but only as background noise. It worked last week in here as we chatted and I think this is why Christian has brought me in here again so that I'm relaxed as we talk.

'Christian, how did you know I was at the mall with Hannah yesterday? I know you can track my phone and car but how did you know it was her?'

'Mrs Lincoln saw you and called to say you were with a girl, she has just opened up one of our spa's there. Barney then looked at the CCTV and sent me an image of the pair of you so I could see for myself who you were with.'

'Oh, will you always have people reporting to you what I'm up to whilst I'm in Seattle?' I ask.

'Only the people that work for me' he grins.

'But that's most of the city so I'll have to find a company that you don't own or move away.'

'Most companies in the city are glad to be connected to GEH. There's only one company that won't let me have any shares or let me invest anything. It's protected from any outside money investing in it, yet it is hugely profitable throughout the world.'

'Do you find that frustrating that you can't invest in it and tap into their profits?'

'Yes, but I respect the executives at the company for keeping it like that, they won't let me in but it also means they won't let anyone else in.' he says. I frown at him not understanding why he respects them and then he says 'Dad will explain it to you one day.' I don't have time to think about his comment because he changes the subject and goes direct to the point from earlier. 'So the issues are still there about mom?'

'Yes, I don't know why they still surface after all these years. I know she loves me but I just feel a burden on the family, she got to choose you, Elliot and Mia but she didn't have much choice with me, my parents die and all of a sudden she has another child to look after.'

'But Matt she never missed any chapter of your life, she went through the pregnancy with your mommy, she was the one who delivered you when you arrived two weeks early at home, she saw you almost every day until you came to live with us. You were already a huge part of our lives before the accident, I think having you there made mom's life easier because she had just lost her best friend.' I gulp; no-one had explained it like that before. Christian continues, 'In fact you probably made all our lives easier because we were all so focused on looking after you and making sure you were OK that it helped the grieving process for all of us. Your mommy and daddy were like our extended family, mom and dad kept us on a pretty tight leash especially me with all my anger issues but your parents were there to support me, giving me somewhere to go to take time out and they listened. They were great fun to be around as well. When they were killed I'd just had my fifteenth birthday but I went pretty much off the rails, I kept that hidden from you but I was drinking heavily and getting into fights at school and even got expelled from a couple. I think that's why I've been so strict and controlling with you throughout so teenage years. I don't want you making the same mistakes that I did. It's one of the reasons I lost it with you last week, I'd warned you about staying away from Olivia but you still defied me.'

I don't think Christian has opened up to me like this before, but it's what I need to hear. I know my family love me but hearing why makes it easier on my conscience that I'm not a burden to them.

'Christian, who was the girl last week? Mrs Jones seemed to know her.'

'She was an ex of mine from about three years back'

'You had an ex, but I thought Ana was your first girlfriend.'

'I've had a few girls but Ana is the first one I'm serious about, if she'll have me back that is. I'm happy that you're with Hannah though; you've known her for ages. Don't ruin the friendship you have if you're just going to play around.'

'Oh Mr Control Freak is back, I didn't know you'd played around with a few girls, I thought that was Elliot's department. I don't intend to play around, I'd thought I'd model myself on you and wait for the right girl to come along before asking her on a date.' Christian has a coughing fit. I ask 'Are you OK?' he nods so I continue. 'Everything just feels so right with Hannah; I feel relaxed, comfortable and can be myself because she knows me so well'

'So the condoms will come in useful any day soon then' Christian teases.

'I've told you that it's none of your business, you and Elliot might have talked about that sort of stuff when you were my age but I'm not sharing this with either of you. It's between the two of us and will remain like that, the only thing I will tell you is that it won't be soon as we're taking this relationship slowly, I'd already decided that I didn't want to ruin the friendship before you even warned me.'

'Listen to you taking control and telling me what for, I'm not sure I like this role reversal. You are so much stronger as a person than you were two weeks ago.' He says.

'I know' I say as I go to wrestle him putting a halt to the conversation. We end up kickboxing, I'm on form today and Christian can't get me down, he ends up on the floor quite a few times. He looks like he's getting angry and then Mrs Jones appears shouting 'Boys that's enough its lunchtime'

We grin at each other, then Christian in an amused voice says 'Boys! Gail. I'm your boss'

'Well act like it then instead of rolling around on the floor like a ten year old' she says and Christian laughs out loud and she adds to him 'I'm glad you two are friends again, this is a much happier home when Matthew is here.'

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