I'm too hot as I wake in a tangle of arms and legs with Hannah, she's still sleeping. I watch her for a while and then careful not to wake her untangle myself before throwing on some pyjama bottoms. I could do with a swim but can't really leave Hannah in the apartment on her own. It's still early; I go to Christian's study and fire up his computer to do some research. That doesn't make me feel any happier. After gulping down some orange juice I go to the piano, I put the lid down so as not to disturb Hannah, then I start to play and am soon locked in my own world.

Hannah startles me as when I finish a piece she is behind me, she waits until I move my hands from the keys and then hugs me from behind, kissing my shoulder.

'Sorry, did I wake you?' I ask.

'No, you just weren't there, come back to bed.' She pleads, then bites my shoulder.

'Ouch, that hurt.' I say

'Softie!' she teases 'How about this?' and she kisses my shoulder once more, I'm sure she'll be leaving another love bite. I put her hand on my erection. 'Oh, you're definitely not a softie.' She says and takes me by the hand back to the bedroom.

I drag my pyjama bottoms off on the way to the bed and help Hannah with her t-shirt. I am soon lost in her body once more, me on top kissing her breasts, fingers inside her. Her taking control and on top of me, this time she rips open the foil packet and puts it on before putting me inside her, and then she's moving fast, up and down and I match her thrust for thrust. I'm lost in the sensation as it builds 'Come for me Hannah' I plead, she arches her back and explodes over me, setting me off I come inside her. Totally spent Hannah collapses on top of me, out of breath she snuggles up on my chest and we must fall asleep.

It's light outside when we wake again.

'Morning, beautiful girl. Are you hungry?'

'Yes.' She says and grinds her hips on top of me.

'I meant for food, shall we shower first, have breakfast and then I'll drop you home, unless you just want to collect your dress and you can get ready with me later.'

'That sounds good, won't your mom mind though because the house will be busy with all the helpers sorting out things for tonight.'

'She'll be fine, I've never really noticed before but I think by this stage she just leaves everyone to get on with their jobs. It wouldn't surprise me if she's at the salon with Mia.'

We shower together, washing each other down again. We kiss and it's as frantic as ever. Will I ever get enough of her? I have her pinned against the wall, pressing my erection into her hip. I'm desperate to be inside her but will not risk being in there with no protection again.

'Matt, I want you inside me.'

'I know baby but we can't risk it again.'

'Please.' She pleads.

'No.' I pull away switching the water off and turning my back on her I leave and dry myself. She follows and I silently hand her a towel. I look at her cautiously.

'Are you sulking?' she asks. I shrug and walk into the bedroom to dress. Again she follows and I toss her some clothes.

'Get dressed we'll stop and get something to eat on the way back to Bellevue.'

'At least you're speaking. Matt I'm sorry. I shouldn't have put pressure on you.'

'I'm sorry too, I'm so desperate to be inside you but we need to use condoms. We can't take any risks again. I was doing some research earlier and you can become pregnant the first time. Jeez Hannah what if it's too late already.'

'Is that why you were playing the piano earlier, trying to lose yourself in the music?'

'Yes, I think we should ask my mom about the morning after pill, she will help us.'

'Matt no, not your mom. I won't be able to face her again.'

'She's a doctor; she's used to this sort of thing. Have you got a better idea? Your mom would stop us seeing each other, Mia would tell the whole of Seattle, Elliot isn't here to help and let's not even think about what Christian would do, we'd be lucky to still be alive.'

'OK' she whispers quietly.

I hug her. 'Come on let's go, the sooner we sort this out the better.'

We stop at the deli to eat, I call mom to see if she's home, she's not going out until after lunch so I tell her we'll see her soon as we're on our way. Hannah is very quiet as I drive.

'Do you want to stop and get your dress or would you rather I dropped you home while I speak to mom?' I ask her gently.

'Can we see your mom and then go back to mine, I'd rather see what her reaction is first, she might not want me in the house.'

'Don't sweat it, as I said earlier she's used to seeing this all the time.'

'Not with her own son though.'

'Hmm, you may have a point.' I reply.

We continue the rest of the journey in silence. I pull up on the drive and give Hannah a hug then go to open her door. As she climbs out I kiss her cheek. 'I love you' I whisper. She looks at me as if she wasn't expecting those words.

'Still' she whispers

'Of course, this isn't going to change anything.'

'I thought… in the shower earlier…. you didn't want me anymore'

'Oh baby of course I do. I love you so much. We should never have got carried away, but we'll sort this out and then everything will be fine. OK?'

'I love you Matthew Grey.' She says and hugs me.

I take her hand and we walk up the steps to the front door. As I open it I see mom straight away, she's stood in the hallway, phone in hand texting someone.

'Hi mom' I say going to give her a hug.

'Hi darling boy, is something wrong?' how does she know?

'Mom, can we talk to you privately? Where we won't be interrupted.' I ask her

'Sure, let's go into the living room.'

I take Hannah's hand and pull her behind me, I sense her reluctance. Mom looks at us worriedly.

'Mom, we stayed at Christian's last night, he wasn't there. We need your help, we sort of got carried away and we didn't use any protection.' I say, red in the face with embarrassment.

'OK, I'll help you, I'll stop by the clinic when I'm out with Mia later and get Hannah the morning after pill. Is that OK with you Hannah?'

'Yes, thank you Mrs Grey.'

'Hannah would you mind waiting in the kitchen with Mia whilst I have a word with Matthew.' Mom says, not looking at me, shit what does this mean, she hardly ever calls me Matthew.

'Of course Mrs Grey.' Hannah leaves and I'm alone with mom. I look at her, she's seething.

'How could you be so stupid?' She says quietly, the anger clear in her voice. 'If the condom split I could understand but to use no protection at all is so irresponsible. Did you not think about the consequences? I don't understand how you could get so carried away that it just went out of your head. I'm so disappointed in you; I thought we'd brought you up better than that. I'm going out now; I will see Hannah with the pill later when I return.'

Mom turns and leaves and I'm left standing there. I don't remember mom ever being angry with me before, she has always been my protector when everyone else was angry with me. Hannah is back at my side.

'Everything OK?' she asks.

'Let's go, we'll stop by your house and get your dress. Mom is pretty pissed with me at the moment. Did Mia ask any questions?'

'No, she's so wrapped up with the ball that she doesn't notice anything else. She was showing me the seating plan, I am sat next to her date Sean with you on my other side and you're supposed to be sat next to your mom.'

'Oh great, that could be awkward. Maybe it would be better if we don't go.'

'Everyone would ask questions then including my mom.' She says as she hugs me. 'Come on let's go.'

My phone buzzes as we're getting in the car. It's Christian calling.

'Matt, have you got security with you?'

'I think so, to tell you the truth I'd forgotten about them.' I look round me as I speak. 'Yes they're here.

'OK, make sure you keep them close today. I'm on my way back to Escala with Ana. I'll see you tonight.' And he switches me off.

I drive away, knowing that we will be followed by the black SUV. As we pull up on Hannah's drive I ask her if it's ok if I wait in the car as I have a couple of calls to make. First I call mom, but it goes to voicemail. I leave a message 'Mom I'm really sorry, Please don't be angry. I'll understand if you don't want me there tonight, I don't want to spoil the evening for you.'

Next I call Mia, she answers straight away.

'Hi Mia, what are you doing at the moment?'

'I'm in the car with mom; she's driving us to the salon. Do you want to speak to her?' Mia asks.

'Err no, Mia would it be easy to rearrange the table if Hannah and I didn't come tonight?'

'But Matt, why wouldn't you come? Hannah is really excited about it all and has even offered to help in the auction.' I can hear mom's voice in the background and then Mia speaks again 'Mom just said you will be there and she won't hear another word about you not going. Do you understand?'

'Yes, I'll see you later.' I sigh as I hang up.

Hannah comes back with everything that she needs for later and I drive though I'm not entirely sure where I'm going. Eventually I head back to my house, at least mom isn't there. We dump all the stuff in my room and then go to the back yard. It is a hive of activity as everyone is getting everything set up for later.

'Let's go for a walk on the shore.' I say.

'Are you still upset about what your mom said earlier?'

'Yes, it's probably the best contraceptive ever. Stern words from my mom.' I say, Hannah giggles; we race each other to the water's edge and spend the afternoon talking about the future and just kissing-nothing else.

Late afternoon we stroll back to the house so that we can get ready for the ball. As we pass through the kitchen mom hands Hannah a small bag with instructions about taking the pill. I look at her, she must see how sorry I am but she chooses to ignore me and looks the other way with no acknowledgement.