We arrive home and I get the keys for the Saab for Sawyer, he then gives me the keys for the Audi and bids us goodnight. We join mom and dad in the family room; they are just about to go to bed as mom has another long shift tomorrow.

'Hi Matt, Hi Hannah, did you have a good night?' mom asks.

'Yes thanks mom, we went for pizza and then to the sports bar but only stayed for one drink. It's still early so we might watch some TV if that's ok.'

'Sure that's fine; we'll leave you to it, night.' She says and kisses me on the cheek, I hug her back. Dad follows her out but I think he's going into his study for a bit.

My phone buzzes, it's Christian, what does he want now? It's only just after nine but he should be with Ana. 'Name of the guy you punched?' is all it says. Oh shit, how did he find out? I text back 'Jordan West' and leave it at that, he doesn't reply again. Hannah has some texts as well; they are from friends that were in the bar. All of them were supportive of me saying that Jordan deserved what he got and someone should have done it a long time ago. It doesn't make me feel any better; I still shouldn't have done it.

'Hey Matt, don't beat yourself up about it, you were protecting me and everyone knows that. Are we watching TV or should we go straight upstairs?' she smiles at me. I grab her hand and we head for the stairs.

I lock the door and stand there; I'm not sure what I'm feeling. I want Hannah but feel disgusted with myself over my behaviour. I go and sit on the edge of the bed. Hannah sits beside me and gives me a hug.

'What's the matter?' she asks.

'I just feel really shitty with myself about what I did earlier, I shouldn't have done it. What does it make me look like?'

'Like someone who is in love with his girlfriend and was protecting her.' She smiles at me. Then she kisses me tenderly before I deepen it. I groan, I want her more desperately now than I did earlier. Hannah pulls away and starts to unbutton my shirt, moving to the zip on my trousers and then her hands are on my erection. I move away this time and take off her dress and underwear before standing out of my trousers and boxers. Pulling the duvet off the bed we tumble onto the middle of the bed together. It's frantic, kissing, touching, feeling. We eventually separate. I'm sitting on top of her, pinning her arms above her head.

'I was so jealous earlier when he touched your arm, you'd laughed at something he said' I say 'Did you try to make me jealous on purpose?'

'No, I'm sorry. I didn't realise.' She replies quietly. 'Are you angry with me?'

'I don't think so, I'm not sure how I feel but I want to bury myself in you.'

She raises her hips to my groin and smiles. I jump off the bed and root around in my closet for something. I find what I'm looking for and move back towards the bed. Hannah looks shocked.

'Where did you get those and what are you going to do with them?'

'Give me your hands.' I say and fasten her hands to the bed post with the handcuffs. 'I pinched them from Christian years ago, I didn't really realise at the time what he wanted them for but it was funny watching him search frantically for them. He could hardly ask mom if she'd seen them. Now I've got you where I want you, you can't escape and make me jealous now.' I kiss her, first on the lips then move down her body, her breasts, her stomach. hips, thighs. She wriggles beneath me. 'Keep still or I will cuff your ankles as well.' I tell her. I insert a finger, she so wet, warm and ready. Taking a foil packet I rip it open and roll the condom on and finally I lose myself in her, ramming into her hard. This will teach her for making me feel jealous.

'Come for me baby. 'I hiss at her. She does and then I follow her. I collapse on her, then undo the cuffs, massaging some feeling back into her arms.

'Do you feel better?' she asks.

'Yes. I got lost in you, was that ok? Did I hurt you?'

'It felt like you were punishing me but it felt really good.'

'I'm sorry baby, please let me make love to you.' I say and kiss her lips gently. She kisses me back and soon we are lost in each other again, this time at a slow gentle pace.

'Sleep baby' I say, pulling her close to me, I lie with my arms wrapped round her, my front to her back.

It's 1 a.m. I'm wide awake and can't get back to sleep. I leave Hannah in bed, careful not to disturb her. Going downstairs I make my way to the piano and play a few tunes quietly. I'm more relaxed now but still not ready to sleep. In the living room there are the photo albums that mom had promised to get out for me. Her and dad must have been looking through them earlier.

I open the first one, I gasp as mommy and daddy are staring back at me, they are on a boat looking young and relaxed in each other's arms. I turn the pages, hundreds of pictures of them together, happy in them all. Some are with mom and dad. The next album is still before my time but there are a few pictures now with Elliot and Christian. Moving on to another Mia makes an appearance, there are lots of group shots, it seems like they spent so much time together. My brothers with my mommy and daddy is a recurrent theme, they look so comfortable together.

I finally make an appearance in the last album. Me with mommy and daddy, me with mom and dad, me with Elliot, Christian and Mia. It's like we were one big family even then. We're in the garden here, on a boat, on a plane, in the garden at the house down the road. In other houses I don't recognise. In other countries. There are tears rolling down my cheeks. There's so much I don't remember. I must sit here for the rest of the night flicking through, back and forth but still I don't remember any of it. This is how mom finds me.

'Darling boy, are you OK?' she asks gently. She hugs me and kisses the top of my head then sits down next to me. 'How long have you been sat here?'

'All night.' I murmur. 'I don't remember mom, it hurts.' She envelopes me in a hug once more and my tears fall again.

We sit there for ages, not speaking, mom just holding me in her arms.

'Mom, you're supposed to be leaving for work.'

'They will understand if I'm late, you need me.'

'I'll be fine. I'll go for a run and then shower. Hannah is still asleep so I'll leave her be. Mom, I did something really stupid last night, Hannah's ex was so unkind to her so I punched him.'

'Was Hannah OK?'

'Yeah, she was good about it, said I only did it to protect her, but I still feel bad.'

'How's your hand, let me see.'

'Slightly bruised but otherwise OK.' I tell her as I show her.

She kisses my knuckles and just says 'Boys' before getting up. 'Go for a run, you'll feel better then. I'm leaving for work now so will see you later.'

'Ok mom, I'll see you tonight.'

I run along the coast road, it feels good to be out early. After an hour I'm back home and head for the shower. Hannah is still asleep, how can anyone sleep that solidly for so long. When I'm dressed I kiss her gently on the forehead, she stirs.

'Hey baby, it's time to wake up. I'm going to make some breakfast.'

'Morning Matt, what time is it?'

'Just after eight but if we want to go out this morning you need to get up.'

'I'd rather stay in bed with you.' She says and grins at me.

'No, up you get. We don't want to waste the morning, we only have a few hours and then we both have to work. I want to show you something.' I tell her.

'OK, for you Matt Grey anything.'

I leave her to get ready and go and make breakfast. Dad is just leaving for work, he asks if I'm feeling OK and I nod. Mom must have told him about earlier. Hannah appears just as the pancakes and bacon are ready. After we've eaten I grab her hand and then take her outside. We start walking along the road.

'Hey Matt, where are we going, is it far?'

'No, we're nearly there.' I say as we stop at the gates. They are locked but I climb over the wall helping Hannah do the same.

'Matt, what are we doing. Suppose someone sees us we're going to be in so much trouble.'

'Don't worry; we're just going to walk round the grounds.' I take her hand and we wander down the drive.

'Wow, this house is huge, who lives here?' she asks, I shrug, and we continue past the house into the back yard. The garden is massive; people must come and attend it still as it is immaculate.

'Matt, this place is beautiful, I thought the house you live in now with your mom and dad was my ideal home and would want to live there but this is a place you can only dream about.'

'I know.' I whisper. 'Come on let's go this way.' I tell her as I pull her towards a group of trees by the water's edge. It's as I remembered, a seat hanging from a branch. We sit on it side by side and make it move gently. It feels relaxing. Memories come flooding back, I used to sit here with mommy. She used to sing to me.

'Matt. This is heaven. I don't think I've been anywhere as nice as this.' She says and looks at me 'Hey Matt, what's the matter?' she asks. I realise there are tears trickling down my cheeks.

'I used to sit here with mommy.' I mutter. She looks at me not understanding what I mean. 'In the summer of an evening we would sit here waiting for daddy to come home and she would sing to me.'

'You lived here?' she asks, totally surprised.

'I was born here and this was my home until I was five.' I look at her, she looks totally shocked. 'My mommy and daddy were killed in a car crash; I went to live with mom and dad as they were my godparents.'

'I'm shocked, I didn't realise.' She says. I hold her hand and continue the swinging motion on the seat. 'Since I have known you, you have always lived with your mom and dad and been a Grey.'

'I know, does this make a difference to us?'

'No, not at all, you're still the same person that I've always known.' She replies. I kiss her gently on the lips and she deepens it. I pull away and get up off the seat.

'There's something else I want to show you, if it's still there' I say. I haven't been back here since the day that they were gone but some memories are beginning to appear. I hold her hand and she walks with me, we're on the other side of the garden now, there's a huge climbing frame with swings, slide, tunnels, bridges, any child would be thrilled with this.

'Wow Matt, you were truly spoilt. This is awesome.' She says as she starts climbing, I follow her and soon we are little kids again chasing each other round. I catch her and kiss her.

'Come this way, there's more.' I say. We're both slightly out of breath from the running around and the kissing. I hold her hand now as we're stood by the summerhouse; it's big, and faces the water with a spectacular view across to Seattle. The door is unlocked and we enter.

'I thought you could paint here.' I whisper 'No-one would disturb you.'

'What about the owners, won't they mind?' she asks

'I own it.' I say

'Really?'

'Yes really, I'll need to get the keys to the gate from mom so you don't have to climb over the wall. What do you think?'

'It's perfect Matt. I love you so much.'

'I love you too. Also I'm going to pay your share for the California trip so you don't need to save. I know you'll still want to work for your mom but there will be no pressure on you to get the money together so you can reduce your hours if your mom's happy with that.'

'But Matt, can you afford that.'

'Yes, Christian is more than generous with what he pays me. I want to make us work Hannah; I want us to go to Pullman together. I can work my socks off to get there but you need time and space to get your portfolio together so that we can do this. Can you do that here?'

'Yes I can, I want so much for us to go to university together as well. This will give me the opportunity to get myself sorted out. Thank you so much.'

'You're welcome baby.' Kissing her once more I realise how happy I am. We haven't been inside the house and I won't be ready to do that for a long time but being here with Hannah just feels so right. My hand moves automatically to her breast and she moans. Her hand is already inside my jeans, feeling my erection. I move mine down towards the edge of her skirt and then her panties.

'Oh Hannah you're so ready.' I whisper as my fingers move inside her.

'For you, always.' She says. We move towards the sofa at the far end and taking a condom out of my pocket I hand it to her. She rips the foil packet open as I free my erection for her to then roll it on and then I am inside her. I kiss her desperately as I move at a fast pace, she matches me. I look at her, 'Come for me baby.' I whisper and she does so that I can follow. I pull out of her and collapse by her side.

'Well prepared' Hannah says with a huge grin on her face.

I smirk back at her. 'I need to be with you.'

'When I paint here I'll be able to think of the two of us on the sofa' she smiles.

'Shall I collect you from work tonight and we could move some of your stuff across then. It will give you a chance to speak to your mom this afternoon.'

'That would be good, are you sure it's OK for me to use this.'

'Of course, I'm not ready to go into the house just yet but soon we will. One day we will live here.'

'Matt, I can only dream of living somewhere like this.'

'Well I'm here to make your dreams come true. If you like it then we will live here one day. Come on, let's go now. I'll drive you to the florists.'