I lie on the bed watching Hannah sleep, she is so beautiful. I could watch her all night. Sleep still doesn't come to me so I get my ipad and do some stuff on it for a while. Eventually I feel tired enough to sleep but it's only for a couple of hours before the alarm wakes me. I shower, dress then wake Hannah.

'Morning baby' I say as I kiss her. She smiles at me. 'If you still want a lift this morning into the city we need to leave soon, shall I pack you a small weekend bag whilst you shower?'

'Hmmm, that would be good, I'll get up now.' She says. I pack her a few items and add my ipad to the bag to surprise her with later.

When she emerges from the shower I quickly hug her. 'I'll meet you in the kitchen; I'll go and make us some breakfast.' I say as I take her bag downstairs.

Mom and Mia are already sat at the table. I hug mom sitting down next to her and then help myself to pancakes and bacon.

Mia smirks at me, I eye her warily. 'Matt, will you help me and Lily tomorrow sort out some things for Christian's birthday.'

'It depends what it is and what I'm up to.' I reply sullenly not really wanting to get involved with the pair of them.

'Last night you said you would do anything.' She says smiling sweetly.

'That was last night.' I reply grumpily.

'Mom, last night Matt drank…' Mia starts

'Mia, that's enough. I know what happened.' Mom says sharply. 'Stop trying to get Matt into trouble, the poor boy was up most of the night because he was worried I would be angry with him.'

Mia glares at me, her eyes blazing with anger. I look down, concentrating on eating my food. Luckily Hannah arrives; Mia fusses over her as if nothing has happened. I hear the phone ringing in the hallway; mom excuses herself and goes to answer. She's not gone long.

Sitting back down next to me she says, 'That was Christian, please can you switch your phone on Matt he was trying to get hold of you.'

'Sure mom, did he not want to just talk to me. He knows how much I hate my mobile.' I say as I switch it on. It vibrates into life. There are a few texts from him, the last one saying 'Where the hell are you? We had a breakfast meeting at 8am.' Oh shit, even from a text I can tell he's angry with me.

'Mom, was Christian mad on the phone?' I ask her quietly.

'Yes, I think I managed to calm him down though.' She replies gently with a smile.

'I'd better go to work and face him. He's angry with me.' I say.

'Hey, Christian is always angry, don't worry about it Matt.' Mia says and actually smiles at me. She even gets up to hug me and whispers 'Sorry about last night, stop worrying.'

I hug her back, then hug mom before saying goodbye to them both.

'Are you ready Hannah?' I ask, she nods and we grab her bag from the hallway and head to the car. Putting her bag in the trunk I then open her car door before going round to the driver's side. I put some music on quietly in the background and set off for the city.

'What's the matter with you?' Hannah asks, direct as ever.

'Nothing, why?'

'Are you worrying about facing Christian?'

'Yes.'

'Oh Matt, what's the worst he will do to you, he'll shout and have a tantrum tell you not to work for him and then ten minutes later he'll regret he's said it and will be all sorry and dump a huge amount of cash in your bank account.'

'When you put it like that it sounds almost funny.' I say looking at her and smile.

'It is. So what else is wrong?' she asks. I look at her quizzically, so she continues. 'You've hardly spoken to me or touched me this morning, a quick kiss and quick hug. Have I done something wrong or upset you?'

'No, it's me. Last night when I was rough with you, I don't know what came over me. I'm scared to come near you in case I hurt you. I think I must be some kind of monster.' I whisper, keeping my eyes firmly on the road, too scared to look at her.

'Hey, don't beat yourself up about it, we're still learning about each other's bodies and sometimes things will hurt, but as long as we let each other know before things go too far we'll be fine. I love you Matt Grey and you being rough once in a while won't scare me away.'

I look at her now, smiling with the look of love in my eyes. 'I love you too baby, I'm sorry about last night.'

'Don't worry; we'll make up for it on Sunday.' She replies, grinning at me and placing her hand on my thigh.

'Behave' I tell her as I pull into the parking lot.

'At least you're in a good mood now to face your brother, as he's shouting at you just think about what you're going to do to me in bed on Sunday.'

'You're such a bad influence on me. Come on, you can wait in my office whilst I'll go and see him.'

As we enter Grey House Hannah looks around her in awe, I press the button for the elevator as her eyes move around taking everything in. We're then in the elevator and I move to kiss her, I want her desperately but am not even prepared as we've no condoms left, fortunately the elevators in this place move so fast that we're soon at the nineteenth floor. I grab her hand and pull her into the office.

'Come and look at the view.' I say, and she follows me. Her jaw drops as she stares out of the window.

'Wow Matt, I could look at that view all day.'

'I know, it's good isn't it, go exploring the other offices as well, this whole floor belongs to me, well for the next ten minutes it does. I'll be back to see you soon.' I say as I give her another passionate kiss.

I make my way up to Christian's floor. I can see he's still in a meeting.

'Morning Matthew, Mr Grey is in a meeting. Do you want to wait for him?' Andrea asks.

'Yes, I'll wait Andrea; can I wait in his office?' I ask politely.

'Sure, I'll let him know that you're here.'

'Oh don't worry about telling him I'm here, I'll wait for as long as it takes, he's so angry with me right now.' I say with a smile.

'I'm sure he's not angry with you.'

'Well just wait and see how loud he shouts.' I say cheekily smiling at her, then enter Christian's office. I go and sit in his chair by his desk and swivel it round so that I'm looking out of the window. I'm lost in thought, staring at the view and I'm not sure how long I've been here but I feel him enter the office and the door clicks behind him. I turn the chair round slowly, he's walking calmly towards me but his gray eyes are the giveaway, they are emanating anger. Despite my bravado with Hannah and Andrea earlier I am scared of him. I gulp. I should get out of his chair but I am frozen to the spot.

'Where the hell were you this morning?' he shouts.

'I'm sorry, I didn't realise.' I stammer in reply looking at him, he must see the fear in my eyes.

'It's too late to be fucking sorry; I needed you here at eight this morning not just rolling up when you fucking well feel like it.' He shouts even louder.

'Please don't be angry.' I whisper.

'Please don't be angry, I'm beyond angry and you know it, and what the fuck are you doing sat in my chair? You're not the CEO here.' His voice is even louder now. I stand and move to the side of the desk, not really sure what to do or what to say. I look at him again, I will not cry in front of him but the tears are there and I will them to stay where they are, I don't want to be here with him right now. He's staring straight back, his eyes piercing right through me.

'Well, what excuse have you got this time?' I shrug, I can't talk.

'Oh that's right, just do what you always do, go into your own little world and stop talking to the rest of us so that we all feel sorry for you then by the time you decide to speak we've forgotten what we were angry with you about in the first place.' he shouts in anger. I freeze, that hurt. First Mia last night and now Christian. They hate me.

'I'm sorry.' I whisper. I'm still staring at him unable to move.

'You've already said that. Mom said to go easy on you but hey guess what that's what we've always done, it's time you got in the real world and took some responsibility.' He says, not quite as loud as before. I look at him in shock, again there are similarities with him and Mia and their comments about mom.

'Do you all hate me?' I ask. He looks at me bewildered almost, probably wondering why I'm asking. 'It's things you've just said and what Mia said to me last night.' I say in way of explanation. I'm hurting and I want to leave. 'Shall I go?' I ask. Christian continues to stare at me.

'Are you still going to Portland today?' I ask.

''Yes, Taylor is picking me up in an hour.' Christian replies.

'Do you still want me to come with you?' I ask.

'I don't know.' He says quietly, looking at me to see my reaction.

'Ok, I'll be in my office, let me know what you decide, I'll respect your decision either way.' I say and then walk out of his office, straight past Andrea and into the elevator.