A month had passed a very long one at that, Caroline had watched Kate tread on egg shells it made her feel guilty she knew how bad Kate felt, and yet she couldn't wholly shake the anger at her betrayal.
They had tried their best to get back to normal and most days they succeeded well but others it was if they were strangers, neither willing to admit that everything had changed, neither willing to let go of the hope of getting back to what they had. As the days passed each one becoming more normal, easier Caroline knew they would get through this. She loved Kate and Kate loved her and nothing else mattered.
Caroline found her growing awareness that she couldn't loose this woman, that's she wouldn't survive the loss of the woman who was undoubtedly the love of her life. Slowly she was learning to let it go, albeit a little frustrated she couldn't just forget it And move on But it still hurt deeply. Come on Elliot it meant nothing, you love her your happy it's the past she chose you, she wants you. She would catch herself watching Kate across the kitchen, in awe of her beautiful face, her caring words to her son Across the breakfast table her heart swelled. As Kate kissed her cheek she found herself pulling her closer needing more, she smiled as Kate relaxed into her kiss. "Umm that was nice" Caroline smiled "ummm yes", she ran her hands up her back reveling in feeling her shiver her need obvious. "Later" Caroline winked as Lawrence entered the room.
Before they had much of a chance to talk about things everything had started moving so quickly. Since Kate giving her statement and Caroline speaking to the solicitors the ball was moving they hadn't had chance to dwell on much. It was a week until the trail date and it had been a focus for the last few weeks, in some ways Kate was greatful as it had forced them to keep plodding on. She was acutely aware of what her actions had done and often caught Caroline looking overly sad and wondered what she was thinking, concluding it was probably her fault. But they had been united with the trial looming, working together building bridges, becoming stronger. she knew Caroline hadn't totally forgiven her but she understood a little more, and Kate had used the trial to show Caroline how much she loved her. She was determined to be strong support Caroline, fight for her job and show her just how much she needed and loved her. They had day by day been regaining their closeness both feeling safer more relaxed once more with each other, not treading so much on egg shells. She was back to taking the Micky and Caroline teasing her it felt normal!
"Caroline I'm scared" "it will be ok" Caroline soothed her Kate nodded rushing to the bathroom once again it had been stressful with the meetings with governors about Caroline's job, whispering at work for Kate in Caroline's absence. And with the impending trail in the next few days it was understandable they were all stressed. But Caroline couldn't help but worry as Kate had kept throwing up the last week or so, she felt guilty that shed allowed this to go to court knowing the effect it was having on Kate.
"Kate darling are you ok" Caroline rubbed her back soothingly as she stood over the sink "I'll be fine just stressed a little", "you don't have to do this Kate". Kate looked outraged "yes I flipping do the bastard will not get away with any of this, jumped up little prick". Caroline couldn't help but laugh "sure, no one is going to make you".. Kate placed a delicate finger over Caroline's lips. "I'll be fine, it will soon be over and we can get back to normal" she smiled calming Caroline instantly. "Go and have a lie down then, I'll make you some lunch and we can have it upstairs Caroline suggested. Kate smiled "don't be long" she smirked as she left Caroline, she lay on the large double bed surprised at how tired she felt, she couldn't wait for this to all be over.
Lawrence walked into the bedroom "mum said would you like a toastie or normal sandwich?" He smirked "mum she's asleep" Lawrence called down the stairs "don't shout then you numpty" she called back a little softer.
Caroline made Sandwiches for everyone and took hers and Kate's to their room, she pulled the covers from under Kate and pulled them over her to keep her warm. Caroline put the television on low and began to eat her sandwich, she watched Kate sleeping god she's so beautiful. Her hand found a stray hair across her face as she swept a soft finger across her face, she saw Kate smile. "Afternoon sleepy head" Caroline smirked "ummm" Kate replied sleepily "you sure you ok Kate" Caroline's face etched with concern. "yep" Kate smiled "maybe you should go to the doctors just to check" Caroline offered, I'm fine Caroline, stop worrying".
"I'll stop worrying if you go to the doctors" Kate laughed, "Ok if your stop fussing I'll go", "good" Caroline smiled leaning down to touch her lips against Kate's. "You still tired?" Caroline asked suggestively "nope" Kate smiled pulling Caroline down to meet her lips more passionately. Kate's hands slipping under Caroline's shirt, she heard Caroline's soft giggles. "Shh, Lawrence will hear", "stop bloody tickling me then" Caroline tired and failed to look sternly at a adorable pouting Kate.
Ok some Caroline and Kate alone time in next update as all been rather angst last few updates :)