'Mom, where's Hannah?' I ask her making her jump almost as she's looking out of the window.

'Christian took her back to Escala about an hour a go. You were both asleep when we arrived.' She says gently before coming over to kiss my forehead.

'I tried to stay awake, I wanted to say goodnight to her and goodbye.' I say angrily.

'Hey, darling boy what's the mood for?' she's stroking my head now to calm me.

'I've been asleep all day and hardly seen her in fact I've hardly seen anyone.' I mutter.

'That's because of the drugs, look they've taken the drips out now; you should be awake more tomorrow.' Mom smiles at me.

'Can I get out of bed? I want to move around.' I ask.

'I'll get the nurse and she can help you.' She says going to the door. The nurse appears straight away.

'Dr Trevelyan, can I help you?' the nurse asks.

'Matthew is getting frustrated and wants to be out of bed. Is there a chance that he can have a quick walk round with the two of us either side of him?'

'Sure, that should be fine. No more than five minutes though.'

I grin at mom and move the blankets, then I swing my legs out of the side.

'Slowly.' The nurse says 'Otherwise you'll end up doing more damage and staying here an extra day.'

I tenderly put my feet on the ground. Mom and the nurse are at each elbow ready to help me but I want to do this on my own. I stand up quickly and feel dizzy, sitting down almost straight away. I look at mom worriedly and she smiles.

'Impatient as usual, you were told to take it slowly. Try again but let us help you, once you're on your feet you'll be fine but if you feel light headed at all you must sit down again. You'll be like this for a few days so if there are no chairs around and you're on your own just lower yourself to the floor and sit until the feeling passes. Someone won't be far away so they'll be able to help you back up.' Mom says gently in encouragement.

I let them help me this time and gradually they leave me to walk to the window on my own. I stare out at the lights of the city. Mom comes and stands next to me and I turn to her and let her envelope me into a hug.

'Mom, why does it take so much effort to walk such a short distance? The top half of my body hurts so much.' I say as she continues to hold me.

'Darling boy, you will feel stronger each day but you've got to be patient.'

'OK, I need to use the bathroom and I could do with a clean t-shirt and pyjama bottoms.'

'You walk towards the bathroom and I will get them for you.' Mom says, though she's back by my side in an instant. 'Here take them, I'll give you some privacy but don't lock the door'

I wash my face and clean my teeth which makes me feel slightly better. Pulling the t-shirt over my head I wince at the pain in my chest. I catch a glimpse in the mirror and recoil in horror. There's an incision on my front that has been neatly stitched, it starts just below my left nipple and goes to halfway down my abdomen. 'No o o o' I shout.

Mom comes rushing in 'Darling what's wrong?'

'Mom, look at me' I say angrily 'Did Hannah see this? Is this why she was so scared the other day? She won't want me anymore.' I walk past mom pulling the clean t-shirt on to hide my chest and go back to lie on the bed and close my eyes.

Mom takes my hand in hers. 'Matt, it was just a shock to her the other day, you were hooked up to all sorts of machines and there were the drips into your arms and a tube coming out of your stomach. She was upset to see you lying there like that, we all were. You gave us such a fright but she's been in here all day today and she's much happier now, she knows you'll have the scar and it doesn't worry her. She'd rather have you here with a scar than not at all.'

'Did I nearly die mom?' I ask my eyes now open wide staring at mom.

'It was touch and go darling. It's not something I want to go through again with any of you.'

'I should be grateful that I only have this then and that I'm alive.' I say and mom nods at me. 'Mom, I take it I won't be able to go to California before school starts.'

'I don't think so darling, especially not to surf.' She says quietly. I look at her and she can tell I'm upset. I've been really looking forward to this trip with Hannah, Jonty and three other friends. I'm absolutely gutted that I won't be able to go.

'She'll find someone else; I won't be able to do anything for the rest of the summer.'

'Stop torturing yourself like this. Hannah loves you. She's not going to California without you, in fact she's already phoned everyone to tell them and they've all decided to postpone the trip until you can go. Hannah knows that you won't be able to do much but she's looking forward to spending quiet time with you and she will do her portfolio whilst you sleep.' She says smiling at me. 'Are you tired?'

'No' I say looking at her intently then adding 'Mom, I had some dreams and I remember some things now. Did I wriggle a lot?'

'Yes all the time, in fact you were never still. You wouldn't hold anyone's hand preferring to run alongside us independently, if we went out you wouldn't sit quietly for long.'

'Mommy told me off for not holding her hand nicely, she said we wouldn't be able to visit you and that I'd have to go to bed.' I say grinning.

'I bet you stopped in the road and stamped your foot. You often had little tantrums.' She smiles lovingly at me.

'I went in the house with them; will you take me soon when we get home?' I ask quietly.

'Yes darling I will. Anything else?'

'Yes mom, we were in a helicopter. Daddy was flying and Christian was sitting next to him. I was behind with dad. I told him I was getting out and he told me I had to be patient and wait until we were on the ground. I was wriggling around lots then. Mommy was waiting when we landed.'

'That was the first time you all went together, you didn't enjoy it that time but soon got used to it. I was out with Mia that day but we all met up later in the evening. I think Elliot was away with school.'

'That's all I remember mom, it was nice dreaming those memories. I've never done that before.' I say.

'Thank you for sharing them with me darling.'

'That's ok mom. I'm tired now.'

'OK, sleep. I'll be here when you wake. I love you darling.'

'I love you too mom.' I say and fall asleep with a smile on my face.

When I wake its morning and I feel a lot better, I'm more alert today. Mom and dad are stood by the window, dad is dressed for work in his suit and he's hugging mom. He grins at me.

'Morning Matt, how are you feeling this morning?'

'Morning dad. Morning mom, I'm feeling good. Mom can I get up and go to the bathroom.'

'Sure same as last night, slowly.' She says smiling affectionately at me though she's still in dad's arms. I get out of bed more carefully than last night and make my way across the room. It does feel easier than twelve hours ago. When I've finished in the bathroom I make my way back into the room. Mom and dad have left discreetly leaving Hannah waiting for me. She stands shocked almost at the sight of me and I walk towards her enveloping her in a hug. It feels so good to hold her in my arms, I pull away slightly to look at her and she has tears pouring down her cheeks.

'Hey baby, what are the tears for?'

'I'm so happy. After yesterday when you slept all day I expected the same today but when I arrived and you weren't in bed I panicked. Your dad was hugging your mom and I thought something had happened to you but your mom said to wait and be patient and then they went outside and you walked out of the bathroom. I like that you can hug me again.'

'I like that I can hug you again and what it makes me feel' I say taking her hand and putting it on my erection.'

'Matt Grey, you can't be thinking of that already.'

'I can think about it, not sure when we'll be able to do anything about it though. I'm desperate to be inside you baby. I want to please you and make you happy.' I whisper in her ear, then kiss her cheek. 'I still can't even kiss you properly; I'm going to end up so frustrated.'

'We'll find a way to cope.' She says smiling and I pull her into my chest once more. Mom and dad come back after giving us some privacy. They are both smiling, happy to see us in each other's arms.

'Not too long darling, if you want to be home tomorrow you need to take it easy.' Mom says.

'OK mom, but I feel so good and my throats not as sore today. In fact I might even manage to eat some breakfast.' I say smiling at everyone. Christian was just walking through the door and he must have heard me because he pulls out his blackberry.

'Matts hungry, can you bring him some breakfast' he says and clicks off and then looks at me 'Should you be out of bed?'

'Good morning Christian, how lovely to see you on such a fine morning. It would be good to work out with you today.' I say cheekily. He looks at me and then the bed. 'OK, I'm going to get back into bed. Are you going to work soon?'

'Why, so that you can do as you please. I might move the office here today so that I can keep an eye on you.' He mutters, his eyes are dark.

'Darling.' Mom interrupts, obviously sensing a stand-off between us. 'Matt has been out of bed for five minutes, he's fine to do that now.' I sit on the bed and mom says quietly to Christian 'If you want him to stay with you this weekend you need to give him space, it's going to be difficult enough without you watching his every move.' I don't think I was meant to hear that but she looks at me concerned and then back at Christian.

'Sorry Matt, good morning. It's good to see you up and about but I'm afraid I'm too busy to work out with you today. I've got back to back meetings and one of my employees is trying to take advantage and claim he's sick.' He says smirking at me.

Taylor arrives with my breakfast and asks if I would like anything else. 'Please could you take Mr Grey to work, he is supposed to be very busy today but for some reason he has time to bother a sick employee.' Taylor's mouth twitches, he's trying so hard not to smile.

Christian laughs though saying 'Oh I think you'll be ready to work tomorrow. See you later little bro.' and he hugs me before leaving for work. Dad also leaves saying that he's due in court.

Mom gives me a hug 'Take it easy darling, I'm going home for a few hours but will be back to see you later. You can get out of bed but not for long and make sure someone is around.' I hug mom back and then she is gone. At last I'm alone with Hannah. She pulls the table round for me so that I can sit in bed and eat.

'Come and sit on the other side of the table, there's loads of food here. Will you eat with me?'

'I'd love to.' Hannah says grinning. We sit demolishing the food, after not eating for almost five days I am making up for lost time. When we finish and Hannah has tided the things so that they can be collected later we arrange the pillows so that I am propped up on the bed and Hannah comes and sits between my legs. I wrap my arms around her and pull her close, her back to my chest. I kiss her head.

'Baby can I ask you something?' I murmur.

'Sure Matt.'

'When you saw my scar what did you feel?'

'To be honest Matt I didn't really look at it, I was too freaked out by the machines you were attached to.'

'Can I show you now? I was horrified when I saw it last night. You might feel the same.' I say and she turns to look at me. I pull my t-shirt up to my chin and she looks at my face before looking down at my chest. She touches me gently and runs her finger down the side of the scar before planting a kiss on my left nipple. 'You don't mind it?' I ask her quietly.

'No Matt, it doesn't change the person I fell in love with. Every time I see it I will thank god that you are still alive and will eventually be healthy.' She says as she settles back down with her back to my chest. I move a hand to her breast but she slaps my hand away. 'Not here, someone might walk in on us; we'll have the rest of the summer together. Matt can I ask you something now?'

'Sure baby.'

'Ana, Kate and Mia are planning a girl's night out for this evening and they've invited me to go as they say that you'll be fine here with Christian and Elliot. Would you let me go? I'll stay here if you prefer.' She asks.

'Of course you can go baby, just don't let them lead you astray. Though I can't imagine Ana getting up to anything as Christian is bound to know or he will find out'

'We will have security with us; apparently Christian won't let us out otherwise.'

'Good, I'm glad to hear that. Have a good time baby and enjoy yourself. Have you got enough money to go out, I think my wallet is in that bag, you can take my bank card if you want.'

'Matt, Christian transferred some money to my account. He said that you would worry otherwise as to how I was managing. He was a bit too generous though, I don't think I'll have to worry for at least a year about my bank balance and he also paid the bill for Dr Greene.'

'I told him to look after you before we left for the hospital on Sunday. You'll get used to having the money and it's easier to just accept gifts from Christian. Baby, I'm sorry but I'm tired already. Will you sit here a bit longer so I can hold you in my arms?'

'Let me get your ipad out, I can sit here with that whilst you sleep. It was a good surprise finding it with my bag last week and I loved your playlist.' She says getting up and going to her bag before getting comfortable again between my legs.

'I wanted to make you happy baby.' I say hugging her tightly and closing my eyes.

'You do, all the time.' She says as I fall asleep.

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