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As the nurse pushes me through the hospital corridors in the wheelchair I keep my head down. We stop suddenly and the doctor punches a code into a key pad to let us into the room where the scan is being done. There are more people in here. I hear the doctor give someone my name before adding 'Dr Trevelyan's son', he then comes to speak to me.
'Matthew, the nurse will give you an injection soon. It's just some dye that will leave a trace in your blood so that we can see if there's any leakage from the spleen.'
'OK' I mutter.
'This isn't going to hurt at all, but it can be noisy. You have to lie very still though.' he says smiling at me. 'That means not moving at all.' He's now smirking at me.
'Did mom tell you to say that?' I ask.
'Yes.' he smiles again. 'I've got to phone her in a minute, would you like to speak to her before we start.'
'Yes please.' I say smiling at him. He takes out his phone as a nurse approaches me and gives me the injection.
'Grace, I've got someone here that wants to say hello.' The doctor says handing me his phone.
'Mom' I say.
'Darling boy, don't worry. You're in good hands at the right place. Please make sure you lie still.' She says.
'I will mom, I've already been told that. I've just had the dye injection.' I say. 'Christian has taken Hannah for ice cream and they're going to bring some back for me. Mom when we decide on the family holiday for next year please can you put San Diego on your list as well so that we might actually get to go.'
'Oh Matt, you're so funny. I miss you.' She says with a sob.
'Mom, don't get upset, I'll be fine. I'll call you when the scan is finished. I love you.'
'I love you too darling.' She says and I hand the phone back to the doctor who walks to the other side of the room to continue the conversation.
'OK Matthew, we're ready for you now. Please can you come and lie down on this bed. You will then be moved very slowly into the scanner so we can take a look inside you. Please lie still.' One of the nurses says.
'OK' I say as I climb out of the wheel chair and go to lie down. Despite feeling brave when I spoke to mom I'm actually really nervous. I close my eyes and block out all thoughts as the bed starts to move. Shit its noisy and scary, I daren't even open my eyes, would that count as moving. Fuck I don't think I can stand this for five minutes let alone forty. I lose myself in my thoughts. Hannah. Family. Holidays. Work. Home. School. Anything to stop me thinking about the noise. I don't even know how much longer I'll be in this horrible thing, I should have kept my eyes open. Someone touches my shoulder and it makes me jump.
'Matthew, it's all over. You can open your eyes now.' The doctor says. 'Do you want the good news or bad news first?' I look at him and he must see the fear in my eyes. 'Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you. Even the bad news isn't that bad. We're going to get you back up to your room and take some blood for tests. The spleen is healing well and there's no sign of bleeding. Your head injury has not caused any problems.'
'What caused the blackout then?' I ask.
'We're not sure yet, it could be the trauma from the surgery or you could have had a reaction to either the anaesthetic or one of your drugs, that's why we're going to run some blood tests to find the cause and if it's likely to reoccur. We should have the results within the hour.'
'Thank you.' I say.
'OK, back in the wheelchair and the nurse will push you back. We're still not risking anything.' He says. 'Here, take my phone and call your mom. You can talk to her on the way back to the room.'
'Thanks.' I say smiling at him. I hit the redial button; he must have been talking to her whilst I was having my scan because it shows he's been speaking to her for a while. 'Mom'
'Darling, it's good to hear you again. How was it?'
'Noisy' I say.
She laughs and then says 'I know all about the scan, will you phone me with the blood test results.'
'Yes mom.' I say 'Though I wouldn't be surprised if the doctors aren't on the phone to you as they're testing it so that you know the results before I do.'
'If I do I'll call you.' She says.
'OK mom, I'm nearly at the room now. I hope Hannah and Christian are back with the ice cream.'
'Oh Matt, you're so easy to please. I love you.'
'I love you too mom.' I say before clicking off and handing the phone back to the doctor.
'Thank you.' I say to him 'I'm sure you don't do that for all your patients.'
'Only ones who have moms that have saved thousands of lives.' He says smiling at me, I grin back at him. 'Your mom is one special lady.'
'I know, I'm very lucky to have her as my mom.' I say as the nurse wheels me into my room. My heart sinks, I'm disappointed not to see Christian and Hannah here, I thought they'd be back and waiting for me. I climb out of the chair and onto the bed.
'This won't take long.' The nurse says as she finds a vein in my arm. As each plastic tube fills with blood she changes it to put a new one on. How many does she need? Eventually she says all done and disappears. The doctor is still here and is writing some notes on my chart.
'OK Matthew, we've done what we can for now, I'll be back as soon as we know the results of your blood tests.' The doctor says.
'Thank you' I reply. I climb off the bed and look through my bag for my phone. On finding it I call Hannah but her phone goes straight to voicemail. I call Christian and his does the same. Where are they? I call Elliot but he doesn't answer either. Mia answers on the second ring.
'Hi Matt' Mia says
'Mia where are you?' I ask.
'I'm just leaving the mall and heading home.'
'When did you last speak to Christian?' I ask her.
''About an hour ago, he left a garbled message on my phone. It was something about leaving the hospital and getting ice cream but I didn't understand it. Why?' she asks.
'He took Hannah for ice cream whilst I went for a MRI scan. They were supposed to be back to meet me but they're not here and neither of them are answering their phones. I can't get hold of Elliot either.'
'OK, I'll drive straight to you. I'll see you soon.' She says and clicks off. I sit in the chair staring out of the window. Ten minutes later my phone rings. It's Mia.
'Matt, where was Christian taking Hannah for ice cream?'
'I don't know. Why?' I ask.
'I've had to park a block away from the hospital, I'm walking to you as I speak but a couple of roads have been closed because of something. I'll try and find out more on my way.' Mia says.
'OK, I'll see you soon.' I mutter and click off. It rings again immediately.
'Matthew, just to let you know Christian and Hannah are OK. I can't tell you anything else at the moment because I'm not sure what has happened. I'm trying to get to them now.' Taylor says calmly. Shit what has happened to them. 'Matthew, are you OK?'
'Yes Taylor, I'll be fine. Mia is on her way and is coming to see me. She said some roads were closed and she's had to park the car and walk.' I say.
'Thanks for letting me know, as soon as she is with you call me so I know she's safe.' Taylor says and clicks off. I don't have long to worry on my own as Mia is soon with me. She envelopes me in a hug as soon as she sees me.
'Are you OK?' she asks.
'Yes, did you find out anything?' I ask.
'Only that a bus lost control and crashed into the Italian restaurant that's near here.' She says.
'The one next to the ice cream shop?' I say.
'I think so.' She says as I take out my phone to call Taylor.
'Taylor, Mia is here safely. She said a bus has crashed into an Italian restaurant. We think it might be the one next to the ice cream shop that's on the block next to the hospital.'
'Thank you Matthew. I've just arrived and parked in your mom's space. I can't get any further in the car so will walk and try and find them. I'll keep in touch.' He says ending the call before I can say anything else. I hug Mia again.
'Thanks for coming Mia. I was getting worried, no-one would answer their phones and I didn't want to bother mom when she's away.' I say.
'That's OK. Let's sit back down by the window and you can tell me about the scan. Did you have blood taken because your arm has bruised really badly, is it supposed to do that?' she asks.
'I don't know, it does look a bit odd though.' I say looking at my arm. 'The scan was really noisy and a bit scary. They kept telling me I had to lie still and I'd closed my eyes when it started and then I daren't open them again in case they said I'd moved. Everything was OK though so they've now taken the blood for testing and the results should be here anytime.'
'Oh that's good. Hopefully you'll be able to go home soon then. Matt I'm sure that bruise has got bigger.' She says.
'It will be fine.' I tell her.
'Well I'm just going to ask the doctor.' She says and gets up to go out of the room. The doctor comes in immediately.
'Oh that is an impressive bruise.' He says. 'I'm just going to get you hooked back up to the machine to check on your pulse and blood pressure. Can you get back on the bed now?'
'Sure. Where's my sister Mia?' I ask him.
'She got a phone call. I'm sure she will be back in soon.' The doctor says as I climb back onto the bed. A nurse is now in the room and is connecting all the machines. 'Matthew, are you allergic to anything, we have nothing written in your notes.'
'Not that I know of, I've never had a reaction to anything before.' I say.
'OK, I'll chase up the blood test results. Your blood pressure and pulse are OK. I'm not sure why you've bruised so badly this time, we might just have caught a weak vein. It happens sometimes and as we've used a few in the last week it could just be bruising coming out from them all. I'll be back as soon as I have news.' He says and disappears. The nurse records more data on the charts and she also leaves the room. Great I'm stuck on my own again and can't move off this bed. I close my eyes, I'm tired again but I try so hard not to fall asleep but fail miserably.
When I wake Christian is sat beside the bed.
'Hey little bro. how are you feeling?' he asks.
'Hungry but my throat is so sore again. Why won't it get better?' I croak.
'Because you have a long list of drugs you're allergic to most of which have been pumped into your body all week so they've made you more sleepy but not made you better. The drip you're on now is just fluid to flush your body full of nutrients and then they'll start again on different drugs. We should be able to leave here in a couple of hours. I've called mom to tell her.'
'What time is it?' I ask.
'Eight o clock.'
'Oh, so I've slept for a few hours. Where's Hannah?'
'Escala.'
'You're talkative. What happened earlier?'
'Matt, let's concentrate on getting you out of here. How was the scan?' he asks not looking me in the eye. Something has happened.
'Noisy.'
'Blood tests.'
'Fine'
'Now who's talkative.' He says smirking at me.
'I got a huge bruise from the blood tests so they hooked me back up to these machines. Happy?' I say. 'Did you call Mia?' I ask.
'Yes.' He says and I look at him. He stands and goes to look out of the window.
'Christian please tell me what has happened.' I say quietly. He turns and looks at me shaking his head. 'Is Hannah OK?'
'She will be.' Christian whispers.
'Tell me.' I say angrily. He looks at me in shock.
'Matt, please stay calm.' He says moving back over to the bed. I stare at him and close my eyes. 'Matt.' I ignore him. 'Matt, please.' I still ignore him. 'You can be so fucking stubborn when you want to be.' He hisses. I open one eye and glare at him.
'How many times in my life have I been stubborn?' I ask.
'OK, you win. I'll tell you. I took Hannah for ice cream. We talked about your obsession with San Diego zoo, your holiday to Hawaii, you singing for her, I didn't know you could sing.'
'I can't, she was easily impressed.'
'Matt, she raved on and on about it so you can't be that bad.'
'OK I can sing but don't tell anyone else in the family especially Elliot, he will tease me.' I say. 'Did you just talk about me?'
'Yes, she was scared about coming back here in case it was bad news and you needed another operation. She freaked out so badly last time and she didn't want it to happen again.'
'Did she cry?' I ask. He nods. 'Did you hug her and tell her it would be OK?' He nods again. I close my eyes, fuck I'm jealous. Jealous that my brother hugged Hannah when I wasn't there.
'I kissed her forehead and pulled her close and she cried into my chest.'
'Shut the fuck up, I don't want to hear anymore.' I say. 'I so want to punch you right now.' I look at him warily. 'Please can you go, I don't know what I'm feeling at the moment but I don't want to be in the same room as you.'
'Matt' he pleads.
I put my hands over my ears. 'I'm not listening.' I say.
He carries on. 'Hannah stopped crying and we went to the counter to get you some ice cream. As we were waiting the building shook. We tried to get out but the door was jammed, we could see a bus had crashed into the restaurant next door.' He says looking at me; I stare back at him, willing him to continue. 'Are you jealous?'
'Extremely.' I mutter.
'There's no need to be. It's only like when you're with Ana.' He says.
'What do you mean?' I ask.
'Last Friday when I came home and you were wiping away her tears, sitting at the end of the jetty splashing your feet together, sitting there later in the day and she had an arm round you. Yes I felt jealous of you but Ana pointed out that she cares for you like a younger brother; she loves you because you are my brother. I care for Hannah like a little sister and love her because she is with you and making you happy.'
'Oh when you explain it like that it's easier to take. I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you jealous I just wanted Ana to be OK when you weren't there.'
'That's OK, I didn't want to make you jealous either but we have to take care of the girls when one of us isn't around. Now for the difficult part. Matt how long were Hannah and Jordan together?' he asks, I look at him wondering where he's taking this conversation.
'Two years.'
'That's a long time. Did they…' he looks at me awkwardly.
'No.' I say pre-empting his question.
'Still to be together for two years she obviously loved him.'
'Christian, is there something I should know?' I ask quietly, not really wanting to know the answer.
'Did you know he was stalking her?' he asks.
'What? No. I hadn't a clue. Is that why he just happened to be in the same bar the other night?'
'Yes. Mia went back to Escala with her earlier, that's why I phoned. Ana left work early to meet them there. I came to you. Hannah is in shock because he had followed us today but didn't come into the ice cream shop, we were the only customers so he couldn't have hidden. He was waiting outside the restaurant next door. Matt he ended up being crushed by the bus. When we got out of the ice cream place Hannah saw him. He was still alive and screamed her name when he saw her. She went to him and he did apologise for following her. He died in her arms. I'm sorry Matt. She's upset and in shock.' He says. I don't know what to say. I close my eyes. Fuck I'm hurting. However much I didn't like Jordan he didn't deserve this. We'd been at school together for years.
'Christian.' I say turning and opening my eyes to look at him. 'I need to be there for her.'
'I know. You will be soon. A doctor has been and given her something to sleep. Ana and Mia are there for her now and we'll be there soon.'
'Thank you for telling me.'
'I didn't want to.' He mutters.
'It's best I know.'
'Yes I suppose it is. I'll be there if you need any help, you only have to ask.'
'Thanks.' I mutter as the doctor walks in. Christian stands and shakes his hand.
'We've managed to find an anti-biotic that you are not allergic to so you will be able to leave once the nurse has unhooked you from the machines and taken the drip out. You know the procedure now, any pain in your abdomen, chest or back you need to come straight back here even though the spleen looked good on the scan you're still not totally out of danger with it, hopefully it will be fine in a few weeks. If you get any dizziness or feel faint I also want you to come back in at the moment. Otherwise I'll see you for a check up on Monday. I might be being over cautious but two days at home followed with a check-up and we'll see how things are. Please take it easy though over the weekend.'
'Thank you doctor.' I say. Christian also repeats his thanks and shakes his hand once again. As the doctor leaves the nurse appears and starts disconnecting me from everything. Finally I am free once more and as soon as she has left I climb from the bed. Christian finds me some clothes and once again I dress quickly in the shirt, jeans and converse.
'Ready' he asks picking up my bag. I nod. He takes his blackberry out of his pocket 'Taylor we're on our way out. We'll see you in five.'
We walk the corridors in silence. Just as we exit the hospital Christian says 'Matt, the next couple of days even weeks might be difficult. We'll all be there to support you and Hannah. Just give her time.'
'I will' I say quietly. 'We've only been together for a few weeks and it feels so special. They were together for two years, she will be hurting and I need to be there to help her get rid of the hurt. I'll give her all the time she needs but I just want to see her and hug her right now. Even though they had split up she would have still had feelings for him, you don't go through two years and feel nothing at the end. I'll respect her feelings and be there to help her.'
'I'm so proud of you.' He says as we approach the car and Taylor gets out to take my bag.
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