Sorry this chapter has taken a while. I started writing another story called 'Matty' which some of you might have read. It's still in the early stages and hopefully I'll continue with it. Meanwhile, hope you enjoy this latest chapter. Best Wishes Mx

I quickly drag my jeans back on and making my way down the stairs two at a time I pull a t-shirt over my head. The house is quiet and there doesn't seem to be anyone around but I know that I won't have been left alone. I go in and out of all of the rooms but there's no-one. Finally I go to dad's study. He's not facing his desk but has turned the high swivel chair round; he's still reading the newspaper as I can see the edges are out and open.

'Hi dad, where is everyone?' I say as I enter and make my way over to his desk. He turns the chair round and I gulp, shit I don't want to be here.

'Surprised to see me?' Christian asks. I nod. I don't know what to say and am trying to see what sort of mood he's in. Why does he intimidate me so much? His eye doesn't look too bad from a distance. 'Have you got anything to say?'

'S S Sorry.' I manage to stutter. 'I'm sorry.' I repeat. Shit. He's looking at me through his narrow gray eyes and they're not giving anything away.

'Are you scared of me?' he asks. I nod again; my heart is beating so fast. 'Why? You have no need to be.' I shrug my shoulders. 'Matt, please talk to me.' He says more gently this time. I look at the door. 'You'd rather go somewhere else and talk?'

'Yes' I say quietly. He stands and puts the paper on the desk and we walk out of the study together. As we enter the kitchen I'm still tense. Christian goes out into the back yard and I follow.

'Jetty?' he asks.

'Yes' I say and we walk down the garden in silence. Once on the jetty I roll my jeans up and as I didn't put any shoes on I sit down and dangle my feet in the water. I look up at Christian who is stood next to me.

'You want me to do the same?' he asks.

'Yes.'

'Will you talk to me now?' he asks sitting next to me and putting his feet in the water.

'Yes. Where is everyone?' I ask.

'They all went to the mall, Sawyer is with them. They were going to meet with Mia and Kate and then they're going to meet Elliot at my club at the Colombia Tower for dinner.' He says.

'Are we expected to meet them?'

'It depends on a few things.' He says uncomfortably and I look at him questionably. 'Matt, I should have spoken to you on the phone this morning, instead I took Ana on The Grace but she could tell I wasn't enjoying the sail and that my mind was elsewhere so we came back. She said I needed to sort out everything between the two of us. I then spoke to Elliot and he said pretty much the same thing, in fact he had a bit of a go at me and said if I didn't sort it out today it was highly likely that you wouldn't come to the wedding. Matt you will come won't you.'

'Only if both you and Ana want me there.' I say quietly

'Of course we do, why wouldn't we?' he asks.

'Because of last night. I really am sorry; I don't know why I did it. Ana looked so shocked that I'd done it. Even Taylor was a bit off with me when he collected me from your office.'

'Only because it's his job to protect me. He said you were sick but you wouldn't let him call me. ' he says.

'I was so ashamed of myself. I didn't even speak to mom and dad when Taylor dropped me home. So what does dinner out depend on?' I ask.

'Whether we've sorted out our differences properly this time. Mom wants us back the way we were a few weeks ago when we didn't fight or argue with each other, when we spoke to each other or saw each other every day and were the best of friends.'

'I'd like that to.' I whisper.

'So would I.' Christian says 'What do I need to do so that we can achieve that?'

'Give me some space and let me become my own person.' I say.

'Only if you have security with you.'

'OK I can handle that.' I say and looking at him ask 'What do I need to do?'

'Learn to control your temper. Consider your actions before acting impulsively.' He says and then adds 'I'd like you to go and have a chat with Dr Flynn before you go away.'

'Will he help?' I ask.

'Yes. He's someone to talk things through with about anything you want. At the moment you speak to either me, mom, dad or Elliot and then we usually speak to one another about it depending on what it is. Whatever you say to Dr Flynn stays in the room with you and him.' He says gently.

'OK, I'll try and see if it helps. I've got a hospital appointment tomorrow morning but then I'm free the rest of the day. Can you make an appointment for me or give me his number?'

'I'll make the appointment for tomorrow and then leave future appointments up to you.' He says.

'Thanks. Christian I tried to log into the office earlier but couldn't get access. Have you changed my password?'

'I had Barney do it.' He says and I look at him questionably. 'When I found out you were going away for a break I wanted you go away and enjoy your time with Hannah. I don't want you thinking about work and getting yourself lost in the laptop. I know what you're like and you can lose yourself for hours. I want you back totally rested.'

'Oh, I thought you didn't want me working for you anymore.'

'Jeez Matt, you're a genius. I'd be stupid not to have you working with me.' He says.

'What about this?' I say, moving slightly to shove my hand in my pocket and take out the car to show him. He takes it from me.

'I'll have it back now thanks. When you gave it to me with the keys you put on the note about it belonging to someone special. When I said it was too much you told me I was 'That Special' and I left you this to show you that you are 'That Special' to me. Matt since the day you were born when I saw you when you were a few minutes old you've always had a special place in my heart. Nobody can take that away from you.' He says and looks at me with total love.

'Wow Christian. I didn't realise I meant that much to you.' I whisper.

'Always.' He adds. 'I know how much I mean to you, when you said a few weeks ago about how you'd rather have me as a brother than all of the businesses and other assets you have that meant an awful lot. You've also told me over the years how much you love me. From the innocent 'I love you's' when you could first talk to you telling me that you'd do anything for me. I know you'll always be there for me.'

'Always.' I say.

'Come on, we'd better make a move. Taylor will drive us into the city. Sawyer has your SUV because he took everyone to the mall, he'll bring you all back later and then Ryan will have it from tomorrow when he picks you up in the morning. What time do you want to fly on Tuesday?' Christian asks.

'I was going to look for a mid-afternoon flight.' I say.

'Matt, you can use the jet. I told you that.' He says with a snort.

'Thanks, I didn't expect to after yesterday.' I say. 'It will be easier for us to use it.'

'Good, I'm glad that you are. Shall I tell Stefan about 2pm?' he asks.

'Yes that would be good. We're staying at my house there.'

'Really. Did you tell Hannah it was yours?'

'Yes but that's it, I've still not told her the rest. I almost told Elliot earlier. He was going on about how we all went on holiday there once and stayed in an amazing house. He said the housekeeper was a good cook and that he spent all week in the water surfing.'

'It was a good holiday. You kept everyone entertained with your funny antics. I think the housekeeper was upset to see you go because you charmed your way into her good books and she spoilt you.' He says smiling.

'Apparently she's looking forward to seeing me again.' I say as we approach the house.

'She still lives there. Matt, you'll be spoilt all week. Ah, now I know why mom will let you go, her husband was a doctor.' He says.

'Yes she's being over protective as usual.' I mutter.

'At least you can go away though, how long are you staying?' he asks.

'I don't know, maybe a week or two but we'll be back a few days before you get married.' I say.

'Matt, I was wondering if you'd be my best man.' He says looking at me expectantly. I look back horrified.

'Wouldn't Elliot do a better job? I'd have to make a speech, I'd rather sing.' I say.

'Ana will be delighted.' He says smirking at me. 'Are you sure?' I nod slowly. 'OK, I'll ask Elliot. He won't mind though I dread to think what stories he'll make up about me.' I sit on the bottom stair putting my shoes on. Jeez what have I let myself in for?

'Come on, let's go find mom and make her happy. Did she tell you we went inside the house next door?' I say.

'No' he says and is totally surprised.

'I have my own piano and there are still the stars on my bedroom ceiling. It's a big house.' I say.

'Plenty of room for lots of little Mattys.' He says teasing me. I freeze. 'Matt what's wrong?'

'Nothing.' I say. 'I'll talk to Dr Flynn about it.'

'Are you sure?' he asks looking concerned as we climb into the back of his SUV.

'Everyone called me that didn't they?' I whisper.

'Yes.' He whispers back. 'I'm sorry; I didn't mean to upset you.'

'You didn't. I'm just starting to remember things that I shut out for so long. In the hospital I had a dream and mommy was holding my hand. She called me Matty boy. I was having a tantrum about something.'

'You had lots of those. You were funny because you would just stop and stamp your foot.' He says smiling to himself. We sit quietly for a while.

'Christian, can I ask you something?'

'Of course, fire away.'

'Is sex the same for everyone?' I blurt out.

He coughs like he's choking and then says 'Why did you ask that?'

'I don't know, is it the sort of thing I can talk to Flynn about?' I ask.

'Matt, are you having problems with sex?'

'No.' I say to him looking horrified. 'It's just that… oh shit I can't talk to you about it I'm too embarrassed.'

'Matt, believe me I've probably done it all so you shouldn't be embarrassed.'

'Well….those handcuffs you lost years ago….I used them on Hannah…and I quite liked that she couldn't touch me. She'd made me jealous and I wanted to beat the shit out of her. I think there's something wrong with me. Can Dr Flynn help me with that?' I say.

He smirks at me. 'Matt, there's nothing wrong with you and I always wondered which brother had nicked them.'

'It could have been Mia.' I say.

'Don't even go there. Matt you're young and you and Hannah need to experiment with each other's bodies. As long as you don't hurt each other and you both consent then everything you do is right for the pair of you. Every couple is different so what I do with Ana and what Elliot does with Kate is right for us but it might not be for you and Hannah. Talk to her especially when you're away, do what's right for you both and have fun.'

'Thanks Christian, you won't tell Elliot will you.'

'No, I won't tell anyone.' He says and I know I can trust him. 'Come on we're here, let's go and face the family. They should have had the small plates so we'll be straight in at the entrees, are you happy with that.'

'Yes but we haven't ordered.' I say.

'Matt, you don't need to order, you always have the same thing and Ana was ordering for me.' He says smugly.

'Maybe it's time I changed and started experimenting with different things.' I say.

'Matt, are you talking about food or sex.'

'Both.' I say and we both burst out laughing as we exit the elevator onto the clubs dining level.