The Love Letter Lovelies

by Glee-chan

12.

Sora's wet feet echoed off the titled walls as she finished rinsing off her body and joined Shiho into the small pool sized tub. Shiho had admired the girl while they bathed, but was happy that once they were naked her own body wasn't too out of Sora's league. Sora had a bigger chest, but Shiho had better abs, which the pretty girl openly admired. Sitting in the tub with such a beauty was a threatening idea before entering the bathroom, but once they actually stripped naked and got on with it, Shiho's pride for her body took over any embarrassment.

"It's been a while I shared a bath with someone." Sora admitted, sitting close to Shiho. There was enough room that she could sit further away, but she didn't. "The last person to share a tub with me was Kae."

Shiho turned to the pretty girl. "You mean you and her actually went that far?"

Sora raised her hands laughing with an embarrassed laugh. "Not in the tub!"

So they did have sex. Shiho felt like an amateur. She never even kissed anyone. She wondered if Makoto and Kaede were doing it right now. The thought made her stomach turn.

"Have you ever gone out with a girl before?" Sora asked causally.

"No. Mako-chan was the first girl I've ever asked out." Shiho freely admitted, noticing they weren't talking about Kaede again. Sora was fishing for more information on Makoto.

"Was she the first girl you liked then?"

"I thought girls were cute in Middle School. But I didn't have the courage to approach them." Shiho blinked, wishing she had her glasses. "I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't be so timid in High School, so when I saw Mako-chan I decided I'd just jump into the deep end."

"I admire you." Sora smiled her crooked smiled. "When it comes to matters like that, I'm pretty shy. Kae was the one who asked me out in Middle School." She stopped and looked at Shiho who was leaning forward slightly. "Hmm, looks like got your interest there."

"Sorry. I thought you were finally going to start your end of things."

"I guess I can." Sora looked bashful. "Hmm… could you… could we…"

But she didn't finish what she was saying. She moved where she was sitting so that she was sitting behind Shiho, then she pulled the other girl close so that her back was pressed against her chest. Shiho felt embarrassment as Sora's arms wrapped around her to keep her floating body still.

"Wha-"

"I don't think I can talk about it if you're looking at me." Sora's voice came from behind her. "Is this okay?"

With Sora's chest pressing against her back, her body feeling hot. Shiho pretended it was nothing. "It's fine."

"Second year in Middle School," Sora began. Her arms clutched Shiho tighter as she started. "I started noticing Kae. Everyone did, really. She sort of stands out, doesn't she? But I thought she was more than just cool, I thought she was cute. I looked at her so much I could tell what every small gesture on her face meant emotion-wise. Slowly during that year, I realized my heart would beat faster around her… but I didn't know what I was feeling. I just knew I wanted to know her more. Then one day I saw her smile, and that's when I realized that I had fallen for her."

All this was very nice, but Shiho wasn't sure how any of this mattered. "So why'd she ask you out if you were the one with a crush?"

"There's something you should know about Kae. She's quiet and unassuming, but don't let that fool you. She sees and hears everything. People give away themselves so easily if you just sit and watch them. Kae knows everything from people she cares to know. She noticed me looking at her very early on, and knew how I felt about her before I did. Maybe you've noticed something similar?"

Shiho did. It often seemed Kaede had the upper hand in their arguments. She even got jealous over Makoto before anyone made a move. One thing she was dead wrong on though was Izumi. She thought Sora might have Kaede pegged, but too much faith in her observation skills.

"Anyway, mid-way though second year she came up to me after class and just went 'Let's go out.' Just like that. She's so straight forward. After that we spent time in classes together, went on a few dates, spent the night at each other's houses. She's pretty quiet even then, I have to say. But her eyes just make you fall for her. It's like she's reading your mind or else can see through your clothes. It's addicting. I found that after we became a couple, while she asked me out, I took the lead in everything else. She just likes being around you, you see. If you ask her what she wants to do, she doesn't have any input. So I was the one who picked what we did, and I was even the one who kissed her first."

While a lot of that was over glorifying the kendo-girl, Shiho was learning more about her. Makoto herself was a bit indecisive, so she wondered how a unresponsive Kaede would work well with that. There might be hope yet. As she started to think on that, Shiho noticed that Sora's hand was moving up and down her stomach. It had been doing that a while, and she hadn't realized it before. When she was about to say something Sora continued.

"One night I was at her house. She lives in an Onsen Inn, which is really cool. That night her parents allowed us to use it. Have you ever bathed out in the stars with a really cute girl?"

"No." Shiho answered, paying more attention to Sora's groping hands.

"It's so romantic. When we were done, we went into her room and… and that's when we had sex for the first time. I started it, of course. She was too busy watching me. She told me that she liked looking at my body. The only time she breaks her calm face is during moments of passion."

Sora's hand was cupping Shiho's breast now. She seemed unaware of it. Shiho was trying to think of a way to stop her politely, knowing that she wasn't doing it on purpose, but Sora was so into her story that Shiho could have been anything.

"There's nothing better in life than getting Kae to express her emotions openly. It's really hot when she moans too. She kind of has a squeak."

Shiho was closing her eyes. Her body was getting hot from the attention she was getting. She had to stop Sora now, there was no polite way around it. Reaching up, she grabbed Sora's hands. Sora gasped and retracted her hands on Shiho's touch.

"I'm so sorry!" Sora hugged her from behind, the side of her face resting on Shiho's neck. "I didn't realize I was doing that."

"I know… Don't worry about it."

"Talking about Kae makes me lose myself." Sora went on. "I get worked up."

"It wasn't too long so it's okay." Shiho lied.

Sora sighed. "I shouldn't have been using you as a Kae-replacement. I'm pretty horrible."

"I told you it's fine." Shiho lowered her eyebrows. "Just finish your story. If you grope me again I'll tell you."

Laughing Sora squeezed her. "You're kinda cute, you know."

"Yeah, I know." Shiho joked.

"Anyhow… Things went like that until towards the end of our third year in middle school. When we were testing for high schools, it was clear Kae didn't have the grades she needed to go to the school I was going. So she thought practically, as she always does. She said we should consider breaking up. At first I was against it, but I kept thinking how hard it would be on us to be in a relationship where we never saw each other. She kept pointing things about it that in the end she actually sold me that it was the best thing for both of us. So I agreed. We decided to remain friends. But when we officially parted I knew it was a mistake."

Sora was hugging Shiho closer again. She could feel the other's heart beat on her back. Unconsciously she leaned her head against Sora's in a form of support.

"Kae seemed happy to be broken up. So I didn't tell her how I felt. I think towards the end of our relationship she was only going out with me because I wanted to be with her, not the other way around. I could be wrong about that… Anyway, she seemed just as pleased to be friends. I was able to live with it until… until she texted me about that Makoto girl. She really liked her. She was being… being emotional even when she wasn't in the throws of passion. I wanted to make her jealous so I told her I met someone too, a boy. But she didn't care. She didn't even care."

Sora started sniffing. Shiho could tell she was trying not to cry. Trying to be supportive, she wrapped her arms around the hands hugging her. Sora clutched Shiho's hands, and leaned her head even further on Shiho's neck.

"You might know the rest. I tried to fool Kae into going back out with me. But she saw through that. I thought maybe if I kissed her she'd remember what we had. She pushed me away. I kissed her again. She let me. I was so happy. Then I opened my eyes and saw that same cold face she has for everything else. She felt nothing. I keep kissing her, I poured everything I had into those kisses. But she felt nothing at all."

"Hmm… sounds like her." Shiho murmured bitterly.

"How could a kiss like this mean nothing?" Sora said, then pulled Shiho's face to her own and pressed her lips into her.

The shock of actually being kissed stopped Shiho initially from stopping Sora's kiss. But once she became aware of it, the kiss felt so good that Shiho couldn't stop it. Sora's eyes were clothed. She was pouring her heart and soul into that kiss and those waves of emotions flowed into Shiho. She clutched Sora's hands and melted into it. Her mouth opened and readily accepted Sora's tongue. She felt like she was tingling and floating at the same time. Her body was shivering yet hot. Her mind went numb. When Sora pulled away Shiho didn't want it to end.

"I know you felt that." Sora breathed in. "I can feel your heart from here." But even as she said that her hand was pressed against Shiho's chest.

"S-She must be … must be a cyborg." Shiho tried to act cool. Her legs were shaking.

"She used to respond like you just did… she's so into Mako-chan she felt nothing."

On hearing Makoto's name Shiho regain part of her mind. She felt like she betrayed Makoto somehow. How dare she enjoy a kiss from someone else? They both were wrapped in their own thoughts for a while when Sora seemed to realized what they had been doing.

"Oh no, I did it again."

"Hmm?"

"I just went and kissed you without asking." Sora looked embarrassed.

"I could have stopped you if I wanted." Shiho lied again. It was all to obvious that Sora didn't believe her.

"That was your first kiss wasn't it?" Sora turned Shiho around in the tub so they faced each other. "You told me you never asked a girl out before. So you haven't kissed, right?"

"I've been out with boys before." Shiho quickly said. She left out the part where as far they got was holding hands.

"I'm sorry for stealing your first kiss." Sora told her sincerely. "I just get lost in the moment and don't think."

Shiho gave up trying to act cool. "Well it was a nice kiss so I'll let you off the hook."

"It was nice, huh?"

"Ozawa-san is missing out." Shiho scrunched her nose slightly.

Sora looked away for a moment then ventured. "So is that Makoto girl. You kiss pretty well yourself."

"No I don't." Shiho blushed.

"Wanna do it again?" Sora asked.

"I thought you were supposed to be shy." Shiho point out, trying to dodge the question.

"We already kissed so I'm feeling bold. Besides, some kissing will help us forget about those girls." Sora gave a smirk. "You said you were in some sort of lesbian club, right? You're there for other lesbians when they need help? Well maybe we can help each other out."

"You wanna just make out?" Shiho was all to aware of the hunger in Sora's eyes now.

"I know you still like that Makoto girl, and I still love Kae… but we can still help each other. Just pretend I'm her."

Shiho stood up. She wasn't liking that idea at all. It made her feel dirty. The thought of Sora kissing her, touching her, pretending she was Kaede. It made her feel sick. Sora stood up herself. She was about the same height so their eyes reached each others. Those soul searching eyes. She grabbed Shiho's hand, pressed it against her own body and slid it up until it cupped her breast. Her hand tingled from anticipation

"You can do whatever you want to this body." Sora eye contact never broke. "Kiss me."

Dropping her hand, Shiho turned around fighting the fire burning in her body. Sora once again was pressing her body to Shiho's back, wrapping her arms around her.

"Am I not good enough?"

"It's not that… I don't want you to touch me and pretend I'm someone else." Shiho gritted her teeth. "It makes me feel like garbage."

"You say that, but your body wants me to touch you." Sora whispered in her ear, then gave a tentative lick.

Shiho's toes curled under the water from this, but she pushed herself away and climbed out of the tub. "I'm not Ozawa… you're not Mako-chan… this is wrong."

Sora followed her out. "You're right. They're with each other, leaving us alone. Why can't we comfort each other?"

"We can, but not like this."

"Then kiss me as Sora… not as that Makoto girl." Sora looked at her with a pleading look.

"No way. You'll just be thinking of Ozawa while you touch me. I can't take that." Shiho crossed her arms around her midsection. "I think I should go home now…"