I've been thrown in the air and dunked so many times. I thought I would be too big for this now but Christian and Elliot haven't given up on me. Mia has spent most of the time laughing and so has escaped the assault.

'Christian please.' I say as he grabs me once more. 'I've had enough, I'm exhausted.'

'Can you get out OK or do you need help?' he asks in his overly concerned voice.

'I'll be fine.' I say as I start swimming towards the steps. Elliot makes to chase after me.

'Elliot enough.' I hear Christian say. I climb out, only as far as the top step and sit to catch my breath. Christian and Elliot climb out in one simple move at the side, I haven't got the strength to do this at the moment. They grab some towels and Elliot passes one to me. I stand and drape it over my shoulders before sitting on the edge of a sun lounger. I'm still on the opposite side of the pool to Hannah and I look across at her. She's studying the camera and smiling. I stand and make my way over to her and sit behind her so that she's between my legs.

'Urggh, you're wet and cold.' Hannah says but turns and smiles before kissing my cheek. I wrap my arms around her middle pulling her closer.

'You're warm and dry.' I say as I kiss the back of her head. 'I'm sorry about earlier baby.'

'Matt it's fine. I've been sat outside in my bikini all afternoon in front of Elliot, Christian, Dr Richards and all of the security. You have no need to be jealous, they weren't looking at me.' She says.

'I know, I was just having a moment. Do you forgive me?' I say as I hug her tightly.

'Of course.' She says and puts her hands behind her back on my growing erection.

'Hannah, my brothers are on the other side of the pool.' I say.

'So. You're hidden from view.' She says with a smile.

'They'll know where your hands are though.' I say before adding. 'I'm not allowed to make love to you for a few days. I'm sorry.' She takes her hands away and whips her head round to look at me.

'Because you were so ill again.' She says.

'Yes. Apparently I did too much yesterday and it's my body's way of letting me know I've done too much. I have to build my strength up slowly. I was allowed that pool time just now and can't do anything else but eat and sleep tonight. Tomorrow I have a timetable to follow which involves mainly resting and then I'm at the hospital on Friday for the tests I missed today and a scan.' I say.

'We'll cope. It's only a few days and I'd rather have you well again.' she says as Mia approaches us with a tray of drinks.

'Orange juice.' Mia says and I gratefully take one from the tray as does Hannah.

'Thanks Mia.' I say. 'I'll drink this and then go and find some food. I haven't eaten all day but please don't tell Christian.'

'Matt, I'll go and get you some food once I've taken these beers to Elliot and Christian. Shall I make you a sub?' Mia asks.

'Yes please Mia, that would be really kind.' I say.

'No problem and I'll bring the phone. You need to call mom.' She says before setting off to take the beer to Elliot and Christian.

'Did you not want a beer?' Hannah asks.

'That's another thing I'm not allowed.' I mutter. 'I wonder what Mia wants, she's being so nice at the moment.'

'We had a good chat on the way to the mall and I think she appreciates everything you're doing at the moment. She's so happy to be here on holiday with us and she's really looking forward to university which she wouldn't have applied for if you hadn't have said to her. She also respects you for standing up to her for the mobile phone business at the dinner table last night and then she mentioned something about how she's always had money but it's little things you say that makes her appreciate all that she has. I think that's why she would only put lunch on your card and spent her own money in the other stores. She did offer me the card though but I said I had plenty in my account.' Hannah says.

'I think she's much nicer when she isn't hanging round with her so called friends. Hopefully she will make new ones when she's goes to university and it probably helps that she now has you, Ana and Kate to talk to and go out with.' I say. 'Please can I look at the photos you took?' I ask as I finish my juice.

'Sure' Hannah says as she hands me the camera. 'I love the one of all four of you mid-air. You all look so happy.'

'I should have worn a t-shirt.' I mutter. Hannah has done a good job with the photos but my mood descends into a black hole the more I look through.

'Hey.' Hannah says. I stop focusing on the camera and look at her. 'I'll delete them all if this is how you're going to feel whenever you see them. Matt they're happy photos, you all look so relaxed together. To be honest I was slightly jealous watching you all, I've never done anything like that with my brothers and we're not as close as you four are. Your two brothers have just spent six hours on a jet so that they can spend one day with you before flying back home. Don't let a scar on your chest take anything away from the fact that you're so damn lucky to be loved this much. Look at the photos again with me.'

'Ok.' I say quietly as I switch the camera back on. Hannah smiles at me and kisses my cheek.

'Look at the face Elliot is pulling in this one. Here's Mia giggling at you, I think that's all she managed to do. Look at you flying through the air. I love this one of you, Elliot and Christian together, you look like you're all up to mischief and as I said before I love this one of the four of you. Matt, you can hardly see your scar. Look at the whole picture.' Hannah says.

'I am and you're right. These are great photos Hannah, thanks for taking them.' I say.

'You're welcome. Here comes Mia with your food and the phone. I'm going to call my mom if that's OK.' She says.

'Of course it is. Come and find me when you're finished though I'll probably be asleep somewhere.' I say as she kisses my cheek before she goes.

'Here's your sub little bro.' Mia says.

'Thanks Mia. Do you want to look at the photos Hannah took?' I ask her.

'Sure.' She says and takes the camera from me before sitting on the edge of the lounger. 'Oh Matt, these are so good. I think mom would like the one of you with Christian and Elliot. You all look so happy together. I like the one of the four of us as well. Do you think we should get some printed and framed and they could take them back for her tomorrow?'

'I don't know, why don't you go and ask them now before they go surfing or whatever else they were going to do?' I say. 'I'm going to call mom now and then I'm going to sleep.'

'You need some sun cream. I got some new stuff at the store today, you just spray it on. I'll get it for you when I've shown our brothers the photos. Say hi to mom for me.' She says and then gets up to walk to the other side of the pool. I dial mom's number and she answers straight away.

'Hi Mom.' I say.

'Hi Darling. It's so lovely to hear your voice. How are you feeling now?' mom asks.

'Tired but I've just spent the last hour in the pool being dunked and thrown in the air. I had a great time mom.' I say.

'You're supposed to be resting. I've been so worried about you today darling.' Mom says.

'Mom I slept for seven hours and felt great. Dr Richards said I could go in the pool. I have to rest now though until tomorrow but I might be able to surf for an hour in the afternoon if I'm feeling OK.' I say.

'Darling be careful otherwise I will insist that Christian brings you back on the jet first thing tomorrow.' Mom says.

'Mom you're not supposed to say that, you're supposed to encourage me to stay here.' I say.

'I know but I'm missing you.' She says.

'Me too but despite spending all day asleep I'm having a good time. Mom I found some pictures of Emily last night, that's why I didn't sleep and was such a mess this morning.' I say.

'Oh Matt darling. I wish I was there to hug you. Did you tell Christian?' mom asks.

'Yes, in the middle of the night when he called to ask why I wasn't asleep.' I say.

'So that's why he was so insistent on coming to see if you were OK and then when he found out how ill you were there was no stopping him. He wouldn't tell me why when I tried to stop him, he just said he thought you needed some support for twenty four hours.' Mom says.

'He cares mom.' I say quietly realising how much Christian has done for me, not just coming here today but all my life.

'He more than cares darling, he loves you so much as do we all.' Mom says.

'I know mom.' I say as I look up and watch my three siblings talking and laughing as they look at the photos on my camera. Hannah walks down the garden and goes to join them. Mia stands to hug her and is followed by Christian and Elliot. She is still wearing that small bikini but I realise I was being silly before and am not jealous, I'm happy that they have all accepted Hannah and welcomed her into the family.

'Darling, are you still there?' mom asks.

'Yes mom, sorry, I was just watching the others. They're on the other side of the pool.' I say.

'Do you want to go and join them?' mom asks.

'I will soon but I need to sleep again.' I say.

'Matt you will take care of yourself won't you?' mom asks.

'Yes mom, I've had a scare today and don't want another. I promise I'll get plenty of rest and listen to what Dr Richards has told me I can and can't do.' I say. 'Mom, they were lots of videos on the shelf as well.'

'I thought that's where they would be, they're of you when you were little.' Mom says.

'There's a lot, I don't know if I'll watch them though.' I say.

'Matt you know they're there. You might not watch them on this holiday but one day you will be ready to. Just take things one day at a time.' Mom says gently.

'I will mom. I feel like I want to find out everything now and get it over with but then sometimes it gets a bit much. My emotions were so raw last night with the photos but a video will bring everything back to life and I'm not sure I'm ready to cope with that.' I say quietly.

'Oh Matt, I want to be there for you right now.' Mom says with a sob.

'Mom I didn't want to make you cry.' I say.

'I'm being silly darling.' Mom says.

'No mom you're not, maybe I shouldn't have told you and then you wouldn't be upset.' I say.

'No darling, I'd rather you did.' Mom says.

'Is dad there to give you a hug?' I ask.

'He's in the shower, Ana and Kate are due anytime for dinner.' Mom says.

'I thought you were going out.' I say.

'No change of plan, they're coming here so that we can finalise all the details like where Ana wants the marquee on the wedding day.' Mom says.

'OK, I'll let you get going then mom. I love you.' I say.

'I love you too darling, take care of yourself and I'll speak to you tomorrow.' Mom says.

'OK mom, bye.' I say before finally clicking her off. I lie back on the lounger and close my eyes. I don't really want to speak to anyone just yet. I feel Hannah running her fingers through my curls and then kissing my forehead.

'Are you OK Matt?' she whispers quietly. I open my eyes and look at her.

'Sort of.' I say quietly. 'I miss my mom.'

'I miss my mom too.' She says and we hug each other tightly.

'We'll be home in nine days.' I say. 'We'll have to get used to it if we're going to London and then university next year.'

'Hopefully it will get easier.' Hannah says.

'Hopefully.' I say. Elliot and Christian have wandered over to us.

'Are you both OK?' Christian asks. We nod at him. 'We're going down to the beach to either paddle board or jetski if you're happy with that?'

'I'm going to go to the terrace to fall asleep on the lounger.' I say.

'Christian would you mind if I came to the beach to take some photos?' Hannah asks.

'That would be good Hannah. We really liked the photos you took earlier and we're going to get some printed up tomorrow to take back for mom.' Elliot says. Christian is watching me and I look away.

'Only if you're happy with that Matt.' Christian says.

'Yes.' I say quietly and stand to walk away.

'Matt…..' Christian says.

'What?' I mutter grumpily.

'Jeez, your mood is all over the place today. We'll only get the photos for mom if you're happy as well.' Christian says. I shrug.

'Matt, we talked about this.' Hannah says and looks worriedly at Christian.

'I'm happy, get them printed. I don't care.' I say and start to walk. Hannah pulls me back and Elliot puts a hand on my shoulder to stop me going any further.

'You have issues about them.' Christian says. I look at all three of them warily and they stare back at me.

'I'm sorry.' I say eventually and add more calmly. 'I'm happy if you get the photos printed if you think mom would like them.'

'She'll love them, little bro.' Elliot says.

'Good, can I go to sleep now?' I say.

'Yes. We'll surf and then wake you for dinner.' Christian says. 'See you later, have a good sleep and wake up in a better mood.'

'We'll see. Have a good paddle or ski.' I say with a smirk before heading towards the terrace. Hannah goes to get my camera and then follows my brothers to the beach. Mia comes and fusses over me, spraying me with sun cream before saying that she'll head to the beach as well and leave me in peace. Finally, I can go back to sleep.