Chapter Twelve

As we walked out the theater through the back exit we were all laughing, except Leah, who was slightly smiling. We had just finished watching About Time and we loved it. As we got closer to the car it started to dawn on us that the sun wasn't out anymore. Leah put her arm around Emily trying to speed her up as much as possible. Leah made sure to park my car next to a Hummer to ensure that the only way you could see us was if you pulled into the parking lot and carefully looked around. When we got to the car Leah unlocked the door and quickly helped Emily into the passenger seat while Kim and I hurried into the back seat. Driving back home wasn't as fun as leaving. Everyone one was on alert especially Leah. Leah drove at the legal speed and tried not to draw any attention to us. She kept checking the rearview mirror and scanning the forest.

The closer we got to La Push, the more nervous I got. I kept waiting for Edward's Volvo to appear and try to cut us off. We just passed the Thanks for Visiting Forks sign and my stomach was still in knots. There's no way that Edward didn't know that we used the card so why didn't he come find me? I smiled to myself and thought that maybe he was finally listening to me and giving me the space I asked for. This gave me hope and made my heart swell with joy that Paul was wrong. Once Edward and I worked out the bumps in our relationship, things were going to exactly like I envisioned it. Us, together forever and me finally being his equal. My happy feeling vanished as soon as I saw Emmett's huge Jeep blocking our way. Emmett's Jeep is so big that it takes up our lane and half of the other. Leah could have gotten past but with Edward their it was unlikely. There was nowhere for us to go. I can't get past him." Leah said.

"We're stuck" Kim whispered. "Just turn around," Emily said in a panicked. "That's exactly what he wants," I said. Edward got out of the car and walked halfway towards the car and stopped. Kim grabbed my hand shakily. "We need to talk, Bella," Edward yelled. Leah's hands tightened on the steering wheel. "Don't bother trying." "You won't get past me, " he said menacingly to Leah. She was livid. "Leah, calm down," I said. There was only one way Edward was going to get out of our way and that was for me to go with him. I didn't want to but I had no choice. "I mean it, Bella, come out." A tear slid down my cheek. I wiped it away and grabbed hold of the door handle. "You can't go out there, " Kim said grabbing my hand tighter. "It's going to be okay, guys."

"You better not, Swan" Leah growled at me. "What other choice do we have?" "I just want to talk." Edward walked closer to the car and everyone tensed up. "Stop" I yelled to Edward. "You win I'll come out just give me a minute." Edward smiled and nodded "Bella..." Emily said but I stopped her. "This stress isn't good for the babies," I said. I'm really sorry I ruined our girls day out." I said without taking my eyes off Edward. I took a deep breath but I refused to cry. I pulled my hand away from Kim's. I got out of the car. Edward steps closer but I put my hand up to stop him. "You said you wanted to talk so stay right there." He frowned. "I'm sorry Bella for everything." "I know I messed up but I need to know if... you ever plan on forgiving me," he said. I didn't know what to say. If I was being honest with myself there was a small part of me that wanted to stay in La Push forever. "On August the 13th will... you be there or not," he said in a trembling voice. I looked at him and I know if he could cry he would. "Edward I love you." I always have but why did you do it." He looked at me for a few minutes. Like he was trying to find the right words. He opened his mouth to say something but closed it again. "We're out of time". " What'" I said confused. I suddenly could hear a car fast the sound of tries sqealing. I turned around and saw Paul stepping out of Sams truck. He looked furious. "Oh crap, I mumbled. Paul walked towards me and right between Me and Edward. "Get the fuck out of our way" Paul yelled.

"This doesn't concern you."Hows that when you're blocking our way like some psycho" he growled. Listen here you mongrel. No, you listen to me asshole." Either you leave now or this time I'll rip you into pieces and set you on fire." Paul calm down I said grabbing his arm. He pulled his arm away from me. Edward walked closer and got in Pauls' face. I tried to pull them apart but two arms wrapped around me and pulled me away. I could see Edward lips moving but I couldn't hear what he was saying. Paul never backed down nor did he look afraid. "Edward turned to me. "Decide what you what Bella." "I have: said. "Then come with me," he said as he takes two steps towards me. I froze.

"That's what I thought," He said then he disappeared. A second later Emmett's jeep was speeding back towards Forks. "Get back into the car Bella," Leah said in my ear. She let me go and we walked back to the car and got in. The drive back to Emily's was tense. No one said a word. I was so confused. I didn't notice we were there until Paul opened my door and pulled me out. He guided me inside with Kim and Leah help Emily. We all sat down at the kitchen table and waited for Paul to start yelling but he never did. We just sat there and he just stood there and glared. Ten minutes later Sam and Jared came.

"We're sorry" Kim, Emily, and I said at the same time. "It was my idea," Emily said. Please don't be mad at Bella I talked her into it." "Figures you would be the ringleader," Paul said. "I'm sorry I didn't think Edward would find us." Sam sighed. "It's my fault," Sam said. "I know you were up to something when I left this morning but I ignored it." "I don't care whose fault it is" Paul yelled. "The next time you four want to sneak off the res make sure it's not on my day off. I opened my mouth to tell him that was the whole point in me going but decided against it. He was already mad enough. "You all should go home," Sam said. "okay," Kim and I said jumping up. "Flat leavers" Emily mumbled.

"Who wants a ride," I said ignoring her. Paul looked at us with disgusted and left. I sighed. Let's get going" Jared said. We headed to the car. Kim and Jared sat in the back and Leah sat with me in the front. As I drove I could hear Kim whispering to Jared probably about how sorry she was. I drop off Kim and Jared first. I didn't bother pulling into her driveway. As they got it started to drizzle.

They said goodbye and rushed inside. Since Leah lived across the street I turned around and got closer to her house. "Did you know that Paul was following us?" I asked before she could get out. No, she nodded. "I missed her," Leah said. I was surprised that she would admit that she missed Emily. Especially to me. "Like you, I don't have any friends." "Not that I can blame them but people don't like being around me." "She missed you too," I said smiling. I ignored her comment about me not having friends. I figured why it was pointless to ruin a genuine moment between us. She opened the door and was about to got out when she suddenly stopped and faced me. " You better not tell anyone I said that got it, Swan." "No one would believe me," I said with a smile. She rolled her eyes and shut the door. I started home and suddenly it started raining buckets. "Really you couldn't wait until I got home. I yelled at the rain. I drove very slow as I could. Which was really hard in this car. the slightest tap on the pedal would make this car go from zero to thirty. Suddenly I could see someone standing in the road. It was Paul so I stopped. He walked over to my window. I rolled it down.

"Paul what are you doing in the middle of the road," I said. "Let me drive you home," he said" I was in shock. I went to say something but he stopped me. "Just let me drive you home." He opened the door and pulled me out. The cold rain hit and it made me shiver. He walked me to the passenger side and opened the door for me. I got in and he ran to the other side and got in. He drove with saying one word to me and I watched him the entire time. "When are you going to decide," he asked.

"There's nothing to decide anymore I already chose Edward." We pulled in to Bill's driveway. He turned and looked me. "Listen here Swan this isn't about you choosing a life with Jacob or a life with Cullen. Even if Jacob came back tomorrow what was between you too is gone." "You broke it," he said. His words felt like a slap in the face. This is about you choosing yourself or Cullen. "I love him" I whispered. "But you don't love yourself right."

"When you love someone you do your best not to hurt them and he hurt you, Bella." Tears sprung to my eyes and I hung my head. "In one of the worst way someone who said they love you can." I started to cry and no matter how hard I tried to stop I couldn't. Paul put his hand under my chin and forced me to look at him. "It's okay be confused that's what it means to be human but you can stay confused forever." "Time waits for no one so decided already." With that, he got out of the car and disappeared into the forest. I sat in the car and cried until there were no more tears for me too cry. as much I hated to admit Paul was right. I had to decide.

Authors Note: Sorry for taking so long. It's almost been a year since I last updated and I know I'm a jerk for it. I'll try and do better. This chapter gave me a hard time. I went back ten different times to change something. I still feel like my writing is crap but I also feel like I improved a little. Thank my gorgeous and highly sophisticated beta and sister Ally but she goes by the name Rainbow Pimp in the hood. She's a real G. Lady in the streets, freak in the sheets. CHI TOWN SHOW SOME LOVE WOOT WOOT! HER WORDS NOT MINE. Please leave a review and tell me what you think.