Chapter 19

As usual I don't own Ian or Lucy :(

Alright Hazan, there is something sexy in here that should cheer you up after all the heartache you've had from the previous chapters! Enjoy ;)

Ian's POV

It's the morning after Lucy's near breakdown. Lucy is still fast asleep in my arms cradled to my chest granting me the ability to twirl my fingers around the ends of her luscious tresses. I study her face in curiosity as if I stare deep enough I'll know exactly what is going on in that head of hers. Her chest rises and falls in a smooth rhythmic motion. Lucy appears to be fully relaxed and at ease right now, though, I have a feeling once she wakes up that calming exterior will wash away and she will fall back into the panicked unsure state she was in last night. I have no idea what happened last night but I do know I am not letting her leave this bed until we have talked everything through and she explains to me what is going on. I'm worried about her, so much that I can't and I won't wait for her to come to me, I just can't do it. I let myself fold last time and gave into her pleas—this time I cannot take no for an answer. Despite my reluctance, I did as she asked last night and made love to her until she was in a state of oblivion and dozing off. Not being able to wait any longer, I lean down to press my lips against hers gently. It isn't long until my lips coax her awake.

"Morning baby," Lucy chirps cheerfully. Her fingers toy with my wayward hair while sporting a smile on her plump lips.

"Lucy," I sigh softly. "We need to talk… about last night." I instantly notice her face drop, all happiness now gone.

"I know," Lucy whispers back in response.

"I can't ignore this anymore Lucy. I've been patient and had every intention of waiting this out until you were ready to come to me about whatever is going on. But last night… After whatever happened last night I cannot sit by silently anymore. I can't watch you suffer and not do anything about it."

By the time I finish voicing my feelings to Lucy I see she has tears spilling over her cheeks. I watch as she bites her trembling bottom lip.

"I know, I'm sorry." Lucy whimpers softly.

"I don't want you to be sorry Goose, I just want you to open up to me. Please."

Lucy and I resituate in the bed. I am now sitting up leaning against the headboard. Lucy rests in my lap curled up against my torso with her body loosely wrapped with the bed sheet. My arms hang around her body gently to caress her, yet still allowing her space.

Taking a deep breath Lucy begins to recount everything that has been bothering her these past few weeks. I sit here in pure shock at everything I am hearing. Ever since that stupid interview with that asshole who brought up the kidnapping and made the allegation that I was not my little princess' father Lucy has been having this horridly vivid nightmares about Daniel kidnapping her once more as well as what he would do if he still had her.

I feel awful for not knowing what was going on. I can't believe Lucy had to suffer through all of this without me there to be her stability. And that night of our fight. God dammit! The first time she had the damn nightmare was when we were fighting and I had been a complete ass to her. If we hadn't of been fighting then maybe Lucy wouldn't have had that first nightmare. If she had been sleeping safely in my arms in a happy state of mind rather than an upset one, then maybe this wouldn't have happened. Thank god all this stress she's been under hasn't affected Brea though!

"I'm so sorry Lucy. I wish you'd told me. I just… I feel awful."

Lucy shakes her head rapidly. Her delicate little hand reaches up to wipe my tears away. "No. No Ian. You have nothing to be sorry for! If anything I am sorry I didn't tell you earlier. I was just scared of telling you. The images were horrid in my mind, I didn't want you to have the same images in your head. I didn't want you anymore upset about the incident than you already were."

"Are you going to continue to see Dr. Collins despite telling her everything last night?" I ask curiously. I personally feel she should remain going, even if it is just for a few more sessions. However right now I don't feel as if she has reached a positive enough level on her emotions before she should decide to quit attending.

"Yes I am. Even though I told her everything last night we still need to discuss everything and talk about how it's affecting me. She definitely helped relive a huge weight off of my chest last night though. Talking to her and working through everything has definitely made me feel more at ease. Plus now that you know I think that will help me vastly both mentally and emotionally."

I mentally sigh in relief. I reach my right hand up to run my fingers through her wavy hair. Grasping her head gently, I lean forward to kiss her slow and soft. The kiss is very sweet and gentle; something we both needed desperately. After breaking the kiss minutes later we both mutter "I love you" while our foreheads rest against one another. We both decide to put the recent events behind us and move forward from it.

Not wanting to waist our day or have it dragged down by the morning's heavy emotions, we agree to spend a quiet day in cleaning the house since it's gotten pretty cluttered. We've been buying stuff left and right for Brea yet we haven't found a place for everything or gotten any of it temporarily put away. We spend the next half hour in bed snuggling and enjoying the peace and quiet before beginning our busy day ahead of us.

Many hours have passed since mine and Lucy's comfortable moment of relaxation in bed this morning. So far we have gotten the entire main floor of the house cleaned up and in proper order. We made the bed first thing this morning, though that was more of a way to ensure we didn't crawl back in bed to deem a lazy day. All we have left is the laundry. So far we've washed all of our clothes; all we have left is the vast amount of clothing we've bought for Brea already.

Lucy is currently downstairs switching another load of laundry over as I am up in our bedroom folding clothes and putting them away. Currently I am folding a load of Lucy's delicate clothes that I have been strictly informed never ever to even so much as think about washing myself. I've already hung up all her tops in the closet now all I have left is her lingerie. Walking across the room I open the dresser drawer which holds all of her lingerie. Returning to the dresser with the lingerie in hand, I begin putting everything away. However, when I look inside the drawer I notice I opened up the wrong drawer. Two of the drawers in our shared dresser house her teddies/baby doll night gowns and the other one belongs to her bras and panties. Just as I'm about to shut the drawer in order to open the proper one, I pause when my eyes catch something. I sit the lingerie that currently lay in my hands on top of the dresser to further inspect the drawer.

My eyes flicker between the pair of black heels and the red lace teddy that is clearly see-through for the torso section, well aside from the cups for her breasts. It has loose flowing fabric for the stomach area. Upon picking up the teddy I find a matching thong.

"Ian what are you doing?" Lucy asks when walking into the room to see me rummaging around her lingerie drawer.

"What's this?" I ask in a teasing tone while I hold the teddy out in front of me for her to see.

"That would be lingerie, I know you're highly familiar with such a thing." Lucy smirks at me before turning to continue over to the bed to plop the clean basket of fresh laundry that needs to be folded on it.

"But it's red and I haven't seen it before nor have I seen these lovely shoes that are hiding in here as well." Lucy typically wears black lingerie. Sometimes there is a splash of different colors but Lucy typically keeps red lingerie only for special occasions because the red riles me up so much.

Lucy abandons the basket on the bed, in turn walking over to me. "This teddy," Lucy says as she takes the lingerie from me. "This was a surprise for you. I had planned on dressing up for you a while ago to give you a nice little surprise however you were a bad boy and lost your surprise."

With a glorious smirk on her face, Lucy turns on her heel to tuck the lingerie back into the drawer as well as her bras and panties into their proper drawer. Meanwhile I stand here gawking at her. When I try to question her about said surprise as well as the topic on if and when I will be receiving it in the future, she simply grinned in return telling me it wouldn't be a surprise if she told me. With Lucy's refusal to give me any more information about the very sexy outfit I found we return to the laundry. It takes us a while to sort out all of the clothing for Brea and organize it all into the proper piles. Thankfully all the furniture we purchased will be arriving tomorrow throughout the day so we will be able to get the room set up and put all these clothes away. Not to mention the bags full of toys we have downstairs as well.

Lucy and I just have a quiet night in. We ordered take out to eat in bed snuggled together with the company of Mochi, Bailey, and Jack on the bed with us as we watched movies until we fell asleep. Many may say it was a dull night, but I loved it because I got to spend time with my wonderful wife.

I know this chapter is much shorter than usual and I apologize for that. The reason it isn't as long as my normal chapters is because I didn't want the time jump to be halfway in a chapter. I prefer the time jump take place at the start of chapter 20. But I think the great length of the previous chapter makes up for this one.

Ian rummaging around in her lingerie drawer... Thoughts ;)

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