I double back on myself and grab the guitar from the side of the lounger where I left it before heading to the living room. I start to strum the tune that has been going round in my head the last couple of days. It's the one that I was supposedly singing in the shower that Christian then played on the ipod.

Dragon tales and the water is wide
Pirate's sail and lost boys fly
Fish bite moonbeams every night
And I love you

Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Godspeed
Sweet dreams

The rocket racer's all tuckered out
Superman's in pajamas on the couch
Goodnight moon, will find the mouse
And I love you

Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Godspeed
Sweet dreams

God bless mommy and match box cars
God bless dad and thanks for the stars
God hears "Amen," wherever we are
And I love you

Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Godspeed
Godspeed
Godspeed
Sweet dreams

When I finish singing I look up and Hannah is watching me.

'You were supposed to be going for a rest.' She scolds but is smiling.

'I know but I couldn't get that song out of my head.' I say.

'I've never heard it before but as soon as Mia and Mrs Richards heard you at the start of the song they hugged each other and have been in tears ever since.' Hannah says.

'Both of them, Mia never cries.' I mutter.

'Well you've well and truly made her cry today.' Hannah says.

'My daddy used to sing it to me, I didn't remember it until we came here and it's just been there all the time. I feel better now I've sung it. I'll leave Mia and Mrs R to sort themselves out before I go and find them. Can I sing you a song, it's one I've been working on for Christian's wedding but I would be playing it for you.' I say.

'Sure.' Hannah says and sits down next to me.

How long will I love you?
As long as stars are above you
And longer, if I can.
How long will I need you?
As long as the seasons need to
Follow their plan.

How long will I be with you?
As long as the sea is bound to
Wash upon the sand.

How long will I want you?
As long as you want me to
And longer by far.
How long will I hold you?
As long as your father told you,
As long as you can.

How long will I give to you?
As long as I live through you
However long you say.

How long will I love you?
As long as stars are above you
And longer, if I may.

We're all traveling through time together
Every day of our lives.
All we can do is do our best
To relish this remarkable ride.

How long will I love you?
As long as stars are above you
And longer, if I may.

As I finish I look at Hannah who has tears running down her cheeks.

'I'm sorry baby, I didn't mean to make you cry.' I say as I put the guitar down and pull her onto my knee to hug her.

'It was beautiful.' Hannah says through the tears. 'I love you so much Matt Grey, don't ever forget it.'

'I won't.' I say and smile at her. 'I love you too.'

'I know.' Hannah says.

'Photo time, I need to go sleep.' I say.

'I think you need to check on Mia and Mrs Richards first.' Hannah says as we stand together.

'Oh yes and Mrs R wants to check my shoulder out, though it feels ok at the moment.' I say. As we walk out of the living room Mia is stood waiting with Mrs Richards.

'You two have got it seriously bad.' Mia says as she sobs.

'That's great English Mia, did you graduate from High School.' I say cheekily but it gets her smiling.

'You wrote that song for Hannah.' She says.

'Yes.' I mutter shyly. 'But it made her cry.'

'Only because it was so beautiful.' Hannah states.

'That other one made you both cry.' I say.

'Your daddy used to sing it to you all the time.' Mrs Richards says.

'I remember him singing it as well.' Mia says.

'It's been in my head the last couple of days, I didn't remember him singing it until we came here.' I say.

'Oh Matt.' Mia says and hugs me. I hug her back.

'Photos.' I say to her. 'I need to get my shoulder checked out if that's OK Mrs R.' I say.

'Of course.' Mrs Richards says as I follow her back into the living room.

'I'm sorry if I upset you.' I say as I sit down and take my polo shirt off. She starts to manipulate my shoulder and the top of my arm.

'It's just all the memories that I'd buried are coming back to the surface after all these years. Everything seems so fresh with you here. It's like going back in time and having a young version of him here again.' Mrs Richards says.

'Will you be glad to see us go home then next week?' I ask.

'Far from it, I will be counting down the days until you return.' She says. 'How does that feel?'

'Good, so much better than yesterday.' I say. 'We will be back as much as possible, I do like it here.'

'That's good news.' She says as she finishes and I put my shirt on.

'And the other good news is you've finished for the day and can go home. I'm going to sleep for a bit and the girls will be busy with the photo albums.' I say.

'I'll call round later when I see you're back from dinner so that we can call your grandma if that's ok.' She says.

'Thanks.' I say and as I stand we hug each other.

'Matthew I don't want to speak out of turn but Hannah is worried about how it will look when the news breaks about her condition. She thinks people will think that's she's trapped you for your money.' Mrs Richards says.

'That's silly, we loved each other before we knew about the money and she got pregnant before we realised the extent of it.' I say.

'I know that and so do you but other people might be quick to judge and that's what she's worried about. The person she's most worried about finding out is your mom.' She says.

'Same for me.' I mutter. 'Hopefully she'll be pleased for us but if she's angry then I'll give her space until she can accept it even if it means moving out of home.'

'Matthew…' Mrs Richards starts.

'Hannah and the baby are my future, I've got to concentrate on them now. I can't continue living in the past, I've spent fifteen years blaming myself for mommy and daddy's crash instead of just getting on with things. It's why I have so many hang ups, am frightened of change and will only eat certain foods. My life is about to change and in a big way so I must get on with it. It's not just about me anymore.' I say. Mrs Richards hugs me once more. 'I'm sorry I shouldn't have taken it out on you but sometimes I get so frustrated with myself.'

'I've already told you I'm here for you, whatever you want to say.' Mrs Richards says. 'The car crash wasn't your fault, how can it have been?'

'I wriggled out of mommy's arms when they were saying goodbye to me at school. I just ran off to play. If I'd stayed they wouldn't have been on the bridge until a few minutes later.' I say. 'I only recently told mom and she said it wasn't my fault but the guilt is still there.' I say.

'Oh Matt, I wish I'd known.' Mrs Richards says as she brushes away a tear from my cheek. 'I blamed myself for a while until I chatted with Dan about it. I was flying back to England and was changing flights at Seatac. I was going on the flight with your daddy to New York before catching the next plane. I was waiting for him at the airport when Carrick came to tell me about the crash.' Mrs Richards says. 'I knew he'd be conscious that my jet had landed and I was waiting and that he was rushing your mommy to work so I blamed myself as if I hadn't been there he wouldn't have driving to the airport then.'

'It wasn't your fault.' I say easily.

'I know that now, just like it wasn't your fault. It was just an unfortunate accident.' Mrs Richards says.

'Will the hurt ever stop?' I ask.

'I doubt it. Your parents were pretty damn special, just like you are. You and Hannah together remind me of them. Make sure she knows how special she is.' Mrs Richards says.

'I will and thank you for talking to me.' I say.

'Anytime remember.' She says as we hug once more. I leave the living room and pop my head round the door of the dining room. Mia and Hannah are both sorting out the photos that they have already printed.

'I love you.' I whisper in Hannah's ear as I hug her from behind. 'Don't ever forget it.'

'I won't.' Hannah says quietly as she turns and blushes. She looks at Mia.

'Do you want me to leave you guys alone?' Mia asks.

'No Mia we're fine. Matt is supposed to be going for a sleep.' Hannah says.

'I'm going now, I just wanted to see you before I went upstairs.' I say as I kiss the back of her neck. 'Wake me in two hours.' I add before leaving them alone. Once in the bedroom I undress and climb under the duvet and plugging myself into my ipod I close my eyes in the hope that I'll sleep.