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As we sit and wait in the car I think that Christian will go thermonuclear when he finds out what has happened.

'Matt, don't worry. It wasn't your fault.' Mia says.

'I know.' I mutter.

'You're worrying about Christian's reaction.' Mia says.

'How can you tell?' I ask.

'Because you've gone quiet on us.' Mia says.

'Sorry.' I say quietly. 'What if it wasn't random though?'

'We'll find out soon enough.' Mia says.

'Call Christian now or is it too late?' Hannah says. I look at my watch and then take my blackberry out of my pocket before hitting speed dial. It goes to voicemail.

'Hi Christian, just to let you know we are all OK and have had a great afternoon and evening. I'll call you tomorrow.' I say and then click off before turning to the girls. 'He didn't answer. I'm sure Sawyer will tell Taylor so I'll leave him to tell Christian.' I say and smile at them.

'At least you tried.' Hannah says.

'Here's Sawyer coming now, the sooner we get out of here the better.' I say as Sawyer opens the door and slides into the driver's seat. I look at him expectantly.

'It was a random guy and you were right he did have a knife. The police are on their way but I'm going to take you home. They might want to interview you at some point.' Sawyer says.

'Shit.' I mutter. 'Christian will freak.' I feel a hand squeeze my shoulder and assume it's Hannah but I don't turn to see.

'I've already told Taylor, he was very calm about it all though he was going to get Welch to do a background check to confirm the details. He will inform Mr Grey for you.' Sawyer says as he starts to drive.

'Thanks, I tried to call Christian but there was no answer.' I say. We sit in silence as Sawyer drives and it doesn't take long to reach the house. Sawyer punches in a code into the panel by the gate and then they swing open. As Sawyer parks by the front door I climb out and opens Hannah's door whilst Sawyer does the same for Mia.

'I'll bring the shopping in for you Matthew.' Sawyer says.

'Thanks Sawyer.' I say as I lead the two girls inside. 'I could do with a beer but will have to make do with juice. Do either of you want anything to drink?'

'Will you have some wine with me Hannah?' Mia asks.

'Yes I'll get yours. You get the DVD's out of the bag and get them ready.' Hannah says and takes my hand as we walk to the kitchen. I pull her into a hug.

'Wine?' I question.

'The tiniest drop with soda water, but I'll just have to make sure that I get them all evening.' Hannah says. I smile at her.

'Clever, I'll help you.' I say and kiss her cheek. I get the glasses out of the cupboard as Hannah gets the wine and makes the drinks. As we're about to take the drinks into the TV room my blackberry vibrates. I pull it out of my pocket and sigh. 'Christian.'

'I'll take the drinks in, you speak to Christian.' Hannah says and kisses me before she leaves.

'Hi Christian.' I say.

'Hi Matt, are you and the girls OK? I was at the theatre with Ana, mom and dad and Taylor has just told me what happened.' Christian says in a gentle concerned voice.

'We're all good.' I say quietly. 'Ryan and Andrews aren't back yet though.'

'They were just sorting out everything with the police and should be there soon. Are you sure you're OK?' he asks.

'Yes honestly I'm fine. I was more worried about your reaction than what actually happened.' I say.

'Matt it wasn't your fault, it was just a random guy. I would only be cross if you put yourself deliberately in danger. You even had security in with you whilst you ate which turned out to be a good thing.' Christian says.

'Well they needed to eat as well.' I mutter and I can tell he's smiling.

'I had an email from Mia. She said you know how to spoil her and that you'd actually eaten a burger. Is that true?' he asks.

'Yes, I had burger and fries and I enjoyed them. I also tried two new flavors of ice-cream and I spent a fortune on the girls and myself.' I say.

'That's great news, you're really trying with everything.' He says.

'Yes though Flynn said I would have some better days than others and today was a good one so we'll see what tomorrow brings.' I say optimistically. 'Does Mia email you everything?'

'I don't think so, she just said that you'd all had a great afternoon and that you took security so seriously as you made one of them follow her to the restroom.' Christian says and I know he's smiling again.

'Is that a bit over the top. I wasn't sure but I thought that because they hadn't checked out the place then someone should go with her, that's why I got them to eat in there as well. Am I being too cautious?' I ask.

'Not at all, you'll soon learn when they can wait in the car for you. Things will get easier once the media relaxes over you. I'm really happy that you're being extra cautious at the moment, I know that you're taking your safety seriously.' Christian says and this time it's my turn to smile.

'Thanks.' I mutter.

'Matt I'm really proud of you, the way you're handling everything from security to going on holiday on your own to trying new things. You're like a different person.' Christian says.

'I'm hardly on my own.' I say.

'You know what I mean, no mom or dad.' he says.

'How is mom?' I ask.

'She's good, though I think she missed having you sat next to her at the theatre. In the interval she kept saying 'Matt would have liked this or Matt would have liked that'. Are you still missing her?'

'Yes.' I mutter quietly. 'I knew it would be hard and everyone says it will get easier but sometimes I just want a hug and the ones from Mrs Richards aren't the same.'

'You hug Mrs Richards?' Christian exclaims.

'Yes just like I hug Mrs Jones if I'm at Escala and mom isn't there.' I say.

'But Matt they're staff.' He says.

'Staff that care that I just need a hug sometimes and I see them more as an extension of family that we happen to pay.' I say.

'Why do you miss mom so much?' Christian asks gently.

'Because she has been the one constant in my life since the day I was born. She's has always been there whatever I have done, always encouraging but never forcing me to do anything. She helped me pick up the pieces when mommy and daddy died, just her gentle presence was enough to help me through each day.' I say.

'Hey I know. The day I was found and taken to the hospital she was just so gentle with me, so caring, she saved my life.' Christian says with emotion. 'Jeez you've got me going now, even I need a mom hug.'

'I'll leave you to go and find Ana to hug you. I'm going to find the girls, they're going to watch a DVD and I'm going to build some lego that I bought.' I say.

'That will annoy Mia, you rattling around the lego as you search for a piece just like when you were smaller.' Christian says.

'Perhaps I'd better save that until tomorrow then and maybe play on my new PS vita.' I say.

'With the sound off.' He says and I can tell he's grinning at me. 'I'll speak to you tomorrow, enjoy the rest of your evening.'

'You too.' I say before Christian clicks off and ends the call. I make my way to the TV room.

'Was Christian mad?' Mia asks as soon as I enter the room.

'No he was great. Thinks I'm taking security and our safety seriously. Totally suckered him in.' I say and grin at her. 'He was impressed that one of them followed you to the bathroom. I told you it would work, we just have to play him at his game.'

'Cool baby bro.' Mia says and high fives me.

'You're not going to do anything stupid are you?' Hannah asks.

'No but we just go along with everything for an easy life. He was overly concerned with how we all were and I expected him to shout but I think it's because Sawyer put in a good word for us.' I say. 'Are you going to watch a DVD now?'

'Yes and you're not building your lego in here.' Mia says.

'Mia it's OK, he can do.' Hannah says.

'No he can't, we won't get any peace because he'll be rattling all the pieces together to find the one he wants. What are you grinning at?' Mia asks me.

'Christian has just said the same thing. Don't worry I bought a new handheld games console so I'll play on that.' I say.

'Sound off.' Mia states and I burst out laughing. 'Don't tell me, Christian said that as well.'

'He sure did. You two get settled and start watching. I'm going to do a few things and I'll come in here later.' I say as I go to kiss Hannah's cheek and then whisper in her ear 'I love you baby.'

'Me too.' She says back shyly. 'Stay with us.' She adds and takes my hand.

'You'll end up getting cross and annoyed with me.' I say. 'Everyone does.'

'Apart from mom.' Mia adds in.

'You know what mom's like she hardly ever gets cross.' I say as I leave the room. I climb the stairs and go and find the bags that Sawyer has left in our room. Taking out the PS vita I lie on the bed and start to play a racing car game but I must fall asleep.

The car travels on, onto the bridge, it's busy as it weaves its way between the traffic. Two trucks come out of nowhere and one pulls across not seeing the car in its blind spot before crushing it against the other. There's screaming and shouting and then I feel myself being pulled and there are arms around me.

'Matt, Matt it's OK. It's just a bad dream. Hush now.' Someone says. I'm sweating and my heart is racing and I don't know where I am.

'Mom.' I say.

'Hush, it's OK. You must have fallen asleep. We were still downstairs watching TV.' I realise it's Mia that has got her arms around me and is talking to me in hushed tones. 'I came as soon as I heard you.'

'Was it me screaming?' I ask now.

'Yes it's ok.' Mia says.

'Hannah.' I mutter.

'I left her to switch the TV off and tidy up. She'll be up soon.' Mia says. I flop back down on the bed.

'Oh shit, I haven't had one for a while I thought I'd be OK.' I say and close my eyes. 'Fuck, what did Hannah think?'

'She was worried about you but I said I'd come up. Go and have a shower, you're all sweaty. I'll wait here.' Mia says. 'Don't be worrying though.' I head to the shower and once I'm washed and dried make my way back to the bedroom.

'Thanks Mia.' I say when I see her sitting in the chair.

'No worries baby bro.' she says as she stands to hug me. 'Here's Hannah, I'm going to bed now. See you both in the morning.'

'Hi.' I say to Hannah shyly. She comes to me and hugs me, I hug her back tightly as I kiss the top of her head.

'You ok?' Hannah asks.

'Embarrassed.' I say.

'Matt don't be, are you ready to go back to bed?' she asks. I turn and look at it and shiver. 'Come on, I'll be with you, it will be OK.' As we climb into bed I pull her close.

'I haven't scared you away then.' I say.

'Don't be silly.' She mutters.

'I'm sorry. I didn't mean to fall asleep. I just came up here to play on my video game. The next thing I knew Mia had her arms round me.' I say.

'As soon as she heard you she ran to get to you as quickly as she could.' Hannah says.

'Now you know why I brought her.' I say. 'I'm so sorry.'

'Matt stop staying that. It will be OK. We've been together for weeks and I'm guessing that's the first one you've had unless I sleep so soundly and have missed them.' She says and smiles at me.

'That was the first one for weeks.' I say.

'Do you want to talk about it?' Hannah asks.

'No, I want to forget about it as quickly as possible.' I say and close my eyes before opening them again and looking at her. 'This is why I've never slept over anywhere or gone on school residential trips. I hardly sleep, waking most nights to read or play the piano.'

'Does your mom worry that you don't sleep?' she asks now.

'Yes all the time though I tried to keep her in the dark as to how bad it was. She's there when I have the bad dream and she knows I don't sleep a lot but she doesn't realise how much reading I do when everyone else in the house is sleeping.' I say. 'Pretty fucked up isn't it.'

'Hey, it's not that bad. You've slept well since I've been with you.' She says.

'But that might be because of the glandular fever.' I mutter.

'But you're getting better and stronger.' She says.

'Hence the returns of the nightmares.' I say.

'Do you know what triggers them?' she asks. 'Tonights could have been to do with the incident at the burger place. You can always wake me in the night and we can do something to make you sleepy again. Oh you're so ready now.' She says as her hands reach under the duvet.

'I've been ready since earlier today and you lying next to me even with your clothes on is enough.' I say and grin at her. She jumps out of bed and undresses in record time before diving under the covers and taking me in her mouth. The sensation builds all too quickly. 'Hannah.' I groan as I come.

'Wow that was quick, record time I'd say.' Hannah teases.

'Embarrassed again.' I say but am smiling at her. 'I told you'd I'd been waiting. Seriously though it is a bit embarrassing but I just couldn't help it, it's what you do to me. It's your turn now.' I add and insert a finger inside her. 'Jeez Hannah you're so wet.'

'I can't help it, it's what you do to me.' She says and giggles.