Levi POV

Everything hurts. My hands, my head, my body. Oh God just make the pain go away.

Well I suppose there is a way... but at what cost?

I once thought the world was black and white but now everything is gray. I can't just choose anything without it costing me.

Eren, is he even my Eren? I always knew what he was and after sometime, I learned to accept him. All of him. He accepted me from the moment we met, until he discovered the truth.

Shit I've ruined everything, I can't do this on my own. I don't know what to do. Do I risk the chance of becoming a vampire to live long enough to be with Eren. Or do I let fate take over?

My brain starts to throb and its clear to me, that no matter what happens, I'm going to die either way.

It seems like a lifetime passes by before Eren comes back. But when he does, he sits me up and makes me drink water.

"Have you chosen?" His voice is low, he only talked like this when we were talking about serious things. I lift my hand up to touch his cheek but I barely make it to his shoulder.

"I- I need to talk to someone human. Send in John." My lungs squeeze in a way they shouldn't, causing me to burst into a fit of coughing. Fuck, that hurt.

Eren frowns, then leaves me to find John or whatever his name is.

The brown haired boy comes in soon after, looking a lot happier than the last time I saw him.

"You wanted to see me?" His voice is shaky, didn't he say I was his role model or some shit like that?

"If you were hurt, would you, could you even consider drinking their blood to heal faster?" My left eyes starts to lose focus of John and completely turns black. Oh shit.

"Well could I? No, I saw my mother drink vampire blood and I know what happened to her. But would I? If it meant that I could stay around Marco longer then I would in a heart beat. Vampires aren't like us Levi, once they fall in love, they can't fall out of it like humans. It kills them if they move on. Eren loves you so do the right thing. Fuck the Survey Corps, what did they ever do for you? They used you as a weapon, made you take cases you didn't want to do, and ignored the fact that you are a human being too." John takes a step towards me then backs away.

"I don't know, do whatever you want but don't be a dick. Eren needs as much respect as he can get. Don't make him look weak." With that he leaves, making me question all the training I went through to be Humanity's Strongest.

TEN YEARS AGO

Red covered everything, my hands and her head. She used to look so pretty with all that red hair but now. Now she just looks like a fragment of who she used to be. "Isabella, don't leave me!" I cried as I took her in my arms. She's so small and weightless. Like a bird she jumped not knowing if she was ready to fly. Unlike a bird, when she started to fall, she had no wings to lift her back up.

"Ackerman!" Erwin calls for my attention. I stare straight ahead, "yes, sir?"

"Use the silver whip this time," he steps out of the dark room, "don't stop until I say." He calls from the hall as the door closes. The sound of the metal door sealing hisses. A light flickers on, revealing the vampire I had to torture. The one who took everything from me. The one that took my little girl, my sister, from me.

To my left is a silver table with various weapons on it, I choose the whip like I was told to. Its cold and heavy but I can get used to this feeling. I wrap it around my right arm and pull back before slashing forward towards the vampire. Her screams fill the small dark room. Smoke comes off each of her wounds and blood covers my whip, disgusting.

"Alright Ackerman, good job, that's enough. I think she's learned her lesson, don't you?" Erwin takes the whip from me, when did he get in here? Two men come in and start to untie the girl. How dare they? I'm not done with her!

But when I try to leap forward to stop them, Erwin holds me down.

"Erwin! She took Isabella from me! Let me kill her please!"

Erwin spins me around to look me in the eyes. "That is Isabella, don't you remember? A vampire turned her, that's why you're here."

Present

"Hey Levi, wake up." Eren shakes me lightly, his eyes reflect the ocean. Pulling me in only to toss me back out.

"Eren, I thought you left me for good." I try to smile but its been so long. Too long.

"What are you talking about, I was in here earlier. Well, never mind that, I brought you something to eat." He hands me a bowl of soup, which looks like tomato soup. I go to pick up the spoon but my hand fails me. Eren notices and shakes his head.

"Let me take care of you, I won't spill any of it, I promise."

He broke his promise but I shouldn't have expected anything less. After the all the soup was completely gone, Eren decided that he would sleep with me. It is his bedroom so I didn't even try to argue. But I didn't think I'd be sleeping next to a shirtless Eren anytime soon.

"Oh, yes," my body shakes with pleasure. "Don't... Stop!" Sweat mixes into the sheets, a smell that I'll remember later. His hands course down my body, little sparks ignite all my nerves. His hot breath on my neck, while he whispers sweet nothings against my skin. If only he would touch me there. There were I haven't felt anything since he last touched me.

"L-levi," his moan, Jesus Christ, rings in my ear. I bite my lip, silencing myself.

"No, don't stay quiet. Nobody is here, inside here, its just us. Please let me hear your beautiful voice." His lips press against mine, prying at them until they open. His lips connect with mine, an action that just feels so natural now. I can't believe I went so long without this, without him.

"Eren, tell me something," I huff out, without breath. His eyes flicker open showing me that amazing shade of blue and green. I don't believe I'll ever get over that sight.

"What exactly, Levi?" He bends back down and nips my earlobe. I smile and release my breath.

"Tell me how you survived without this, survived without feeling me and you. I can't believe I did." He comes back up and grins.

"I dreamed about doing this every." He leans back down and licks my nipple.

"Single." His tongue slides down my stomach, leaving a hot trail of wet saliva.

"Night." His breath, so fucking hot, hits my cock making me twitch.

"H-how come you didn't just c-come see me?" I claw into the sheets, my back rising up with each breath he exhales.

"How come you keep asking stupid questions? Just shut up and let me love you." And that is when the bell breaks.

"Um Levi," hands shake me back to reality. My head lifts up, trying to shake off my dream.

"Eren?" The bed feels so warm and comforting. Why is he waking me up?

"I, um, needed to wake you up. This wasn't on purpose but you kinda dragged me into your dream... I saw everything. So... you can go back to sleep I'm just gonna go sleep downstairs or with Marco. Just anywhere but here." He murmurs the last part as he climbs out of bed. I manage to grab his hand, he stops knowing that I need to say something.

"Eren, don't go. I meant it, I don't know how I survived without you." Did I really just say that?

"And I meant what I said, stop asking stupid questions and shut up. I brought you here, laid my ass on the line for you, and loved you unconditionally. You're the one that fucked everything up and you just keep fucking things up. Stop being so scared of us, we drink blood but that doesn't make us monsters. Humans are the real monsters, you all pretend to be something better but in the end. You're just heartless. You know what? If you want me to stay then do something about it, I'm done. You may be sick and almost dead but that has never stopped you." Eren rips his arm out of my grip and storms off.

How do you stop a wildfire? You just don't light a match I guess.

My mind tells me that I need to try and heal. If I let Eren give me blood then I'm just as bad as them. But my heart wants the complete opposite. Oh Eren, what do I do? Lose you and accept death as a human or live and die as a vampire?

My enemy, my sole purpose for surviving, to wipe the Earth of all the vampires. Can I really just let go of my old self?

Laying in Eren's bed has made me think about everything. I'm wasting time just laying here but until I decide... what else is there for me?

When Eren comes back to feed me, its not Eren. One of the vampires comes instead. The Brunette walks in with a tray of soup and a glass of water.

"Hello, I'm Sasha. It's nice to meet you! Eren would not stop talking about you when he first moved in. It makes me sad that you two are fighting but don't worry. Me and Connie fought when I first asked him to join me as my inamorato." She moves over to me and lays to tray down on the night stand. Her eyes shine in the sunlight that pours in.

"I'm not sure fighting is the right word. We did break up, I think." My temple starts to pound, what is with all these emotions?

"Oh trust me, things will get better. He really loves you, I know its hard to see that with how he's been acting lately but you need to remember that being a vampire is all Eren knows. In Eren's mind, being this, its what gives Eren purpose. He was able to kill his mother's murderer by having this strength. You should really consider that, if you do love Eren, then letting him heal you won't mean you turning into a vampire but you becoming close to him." She presses her lips together, like she wants to say more.

"Thank you Sasha, but-"

"No buts! Either say yes to him or get out. Everyone is tired of running into the city to get you soup only for you to treat Eren like a sex doll." Sasha rushes out, her pony tail bobs side to side as she goes.

"Nice chat," I say to myself.

"That's Sasha for you." Eren leans in the door way, making me jump at his surprise visit.

"Is it really a surprise visit? This is my room." He takes a step forward and takes a drink from the cup in his hand. His eyes start to glow.

"What are you drinking?" The question leaves my mouth before I have time to stop it. Dumb question, what else is he drinking?

"Would you believe me if I said Hawaiian Punch? Probably not, but it was worth a shot. I'm drinking blood so that if you do decide to say yes then I won't lose a lot. I get a little, overbearing, when I'm hungry." He sets the cup next to my tray and seats on the edge of the bed.

"When's my deadline?"

"Now." Eren leans back and smirks.

My throat seems to swell, I can't breath. N-now. Do I give him my humanity? Allow him to taint me. Fuck this.

"Eren, I want you to-" the rest of my sentence dies. I try to speak again but nothing comes out. Fuck.

"Levi, you've lost your voice. I was afraid this would happen. You're not getting any better, so just think of your answer."

Think of my answer? This shouldn't be hard.

Yes.

Was that enough? Eren starts to shake, his hand comes up to cover his mouth. What's wrong?

"You," oh Eren's laughing. At me. Well its not my fucking fault I lost my voice!

"Oh God, mr. dramaqueen is getting all sensitive on me. Just shut up for a second and open your mouth." I open my mouth, feeling a little awkward just laying here.

Eren opens his mouth and bites down on his index finger, a drip of blood runs down his finger into his palm. He holds his hand to my mouth and nods at me. I lean up and take his finger into my mouth. The taste of iron hits me at once, oh god its so strong. I suck on his finger, wanting to just get all of it until. Until I'm sucking on his finger wanting more. Why didn't anyone say it tasted so...

Delicious.