Chapter 8

It'd been five months since their bereavement. Andy had taken leave for about five months because he really couldn't work with Sharon after all that had happened between them. The two hadn't seen each other for months and it was a severe punishment. Although Sharon still blame Andy for the loss of their baby, she loved him with all her heart. Yes, she couldn't forget the pain but she couldn't deny the fact that her heart belongs to Andy. She was unhappy, since he'd decided to not work. She wouldn't want to be a reason for his desertion. A few weeks later, Andy was back at work. The whole team and especially Provenza were very happy to welcome Andy in the department without knowing what was the reason for his leave. But Andy had taken a very important decision. He was almost convinced that this will be the best solution to his problems with Sharon. He immediately went to talk to Chief Johnson.

"Lieutenant Flynn, are you sure that you want this?" she asked, confused, looking at his papers to move to another division. Andy took a deep breath and nodded slightly.

"Absolutely chief. I think that's the best solution to all my problems. You know what happened lately and how hard-days we have. So I'd like to move to another division. I want you to sign these papers." he said firmly. Brenda shrugged.

"Flynn, I'm not sure. Sharon knows about this?" she asked sharply. Andy closed his eyes for a moment and put his hands in his pockets.

"No, she doesn't know and I don't want to tell her because we don't see each other almost five months after this terrible loss, I think that she doesn't need to know. However, we are like two strangers." he said sadly and swallowed the lump in his throat. Brenda doesn't think so. She squeezed his shoulder and gave him the papers back.

"I won't sign these papers. You want to move, but don't forget the fact that there is someone waiting for you, anyway. Look, Sharon suffered a lot. She needs to know about your decision. It may be more good to talk to her and when I convince myself, then I'll sign your papers. " Brenda said firmly. Andy sighed wearily and nodded slightly. He left the office and sat down at his desk thoughtfully. Provenza approached him with a smile.

"Well, Flynn, you're already here. I hope that you won't decide to go away again." he said sarcastically. Andy rolled his eyes, dissatisfied and handed his papers to him. Provenza took the papers and reading, he fell into shock. He couldn't believe that his friend really wants to move to another division.

"Flynn, you're an idiot! You want to move to another division ?!" he almost shouted. Andy grabbed his papers and looked angrily at his friend.

"I don't want to listen to your nonsense. To solve my problems, I have to move to another division. I still have no intention to retire, but I have to move." Andy said firmly. Provenza gritted his teeth in anger. Andy made mistake after mistake. At the same time, Sharon and Brenda had a conversation in the office about Flynn and his desire to move to another division.

"Sharon, Andy is already here." Brenda said quietly, waiting for her reaction. Sharon barely react. She gave a cold glance and shrugged.

"That's his job." she said indifferently. Brenda took a deep breath and approached her.

"Sharon, I should tell you something important. A moment ago, Andy came to me and asked me to sign his papers for his transfer to another division." Hearing this, Sharon almost fainted from shock.

"What? Andy wants to move to another division?" she asked, more confused than ever. Brenda nodded slightly.

"Absolutely. When I asked him why, he told me that this was the only way he can solve his problems. But I think that he doesn't want to work with you after everything that happened lately. He feels guilt and he can't forget about your loss. Sharon, talk to him. He belongs here. He must stay here. " Brenda said firmly. Sharon pursed her lips and shook her head. She didn't know how to talk to Andy five months later. This was probably the hardest thing for her. All afternoon, Sharon avoided Andy, until finally, her anger made her talk to Andy. Andy wasn't surprised that she wants to talk. They went to the break room and locked the door. They stared coldly at each other without speaking for several minutes.

"What will we talk, Captain?" he asked sarcastically. Sharon grabbed his papers with anger.

"You're very clever lieutenant. I can't believe that you want to move to another division! Why do I have to learn this from Chief Johnson? Why didn't you tell me?" she almost shouted. Andy took a deep breath.

"Because we're not talking almost five months and I decided there is no need for you to know about it. Look, Sharon, this is my life. I can make a decision. I want to move." he said firmly. Sharon broke his papers, surprising Flynn even more.

"Maybe now you understand what I mean. ''

"You're crazy! Why are you so interested? Who am I to you? Sharon, stop acting like a child." Andy said unhappily.

"Stop repeating my name." she said angrily.

"What? That's your name. I'm sorry, but I'm not going to call you using your rank, especially after everything that happened between us." he said with anger. Sharon swallowed the lump in her throat.

"It's your fault. You don't know what sleepless nights I had over these five months. My pain doesn't disappear." Sharon said with bitterness in her words. Andy closed his eyes for a moment and approached her.

"Sharon, I haven't forgotten our pain. I also feel pain. I didn't want you to lose our baby." he said sadly. Sharon's eyes filled with tears, hearing how sad he was talking about their lost child.

"You would want this child?" she asked softly. Andy nodded and squeezed her shoulder.

"Of course. Perhaps it would be another chance for me. A chance to fix my mistakes. Moreover, this baby was yours, ours. I didn't want you to lose." he admitted and wiped his tears. Sharon bit her lip and smiled sadly.

"Andy, I wanted to forget everything. I wanted to forget my pain, but it wasn't easy because you weren't with me. I was dying every day in your absence. But now if you decide to move to another division, then I will do the same. I still love you. I love you. " she said quietly, tears were streaming down her cheeks, silently. Andy shushed softly and wiped her tears, looking at her green eyes that were filled with disappointment.

"Sharon, I love you. I can't live without you. I am ready to do everything possible to be able to forget the pain of our loss. We have to overcome this pain together." he said firmly and hugged her tightly. Sharon wept on his shoulder and snuggled in his arms. She didn't want to let him go again. She wanted to be with him forever, whatever happens...

~~~ TBC ~~~