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When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

Chapter 10

Aaron rubbed his head.

He knew why Morgan told him not to go out with her colleagues. They could party hard and hold their liquor a whole lot better than him.

In the past two months, they had been out nearly every week. Usually on a Friday to the local pub.

Aaron now knew why he had avoided the tavern for so long.

"Are you okay light weight?" Morgan whispered.

"With all the years that I have been alive, you would have thought i would have gotten over this." Aaron said at the same volume as her. It was just on the edge of being to loud but Aaron could just about put up with it.

"Come on sit up and take these."

Aaron lifted his head from the pillow and took the paracetamol and glass of water.

"Please don't tell me I have to work tonight." Aaron said as he flopped back down.

Morgan smiled. "Luckily this time you choose a Friday that you didn't have work on the Saturday. But get over it as you have got work tomorrow."

Aaron sighed. "I didn't say anything stupid did i?"

"You almost told everyone that you had magic and that you had lived for a very long time. I read you mind and stopped you."

Aaron opened on of his eyes. "How I managed to keep it for Arthur for so long I will never know."

Morgan sat on the bed. "I never know how to address you when talking about the past."

"If any of my names, please call me Merlin."

"Then Merlin, what did you mean about me staying away from Mordred or whatever his name is?"

Aaron opened his eyes. "What did I say and when?"

"You just told me to stay away from Mordred and then you passed out. It was when we were home."

"The boy you were with on the first day back. What's his name?" Aaron waved his hand in the air to try and remember the name.

"Hugo?" Morgan said

"Yep him. He is Mordred, he wants to finish what you guys started."

"What? Like Camlann?"

"He blames me for everything. And he always managed to take you away from me."

Morgan stood up. "So Mordred came back as well."

"Yer, strong magic and all that."

"Why didn't you tell me that?"

Aaron looked up at Morgan.

"Please don't throw me out."

Morgan smiled. "I won't. Just tell me why you didn't tell me?"

"I have debated about it for ages just there never seemed a right time. After I knew that you wouldn't leave me, it just got harder to tell you." Aaron sighed. "I know that he will try at anything to get you onto his side. Please Morgan can you stay away from him."

"Aaron, I cant just … I cant just leave him when I said I would help him. He has had problems in the past. Maybe it's because of his magic." Morgan sighed. "But it cant be because I cannot used magic."

Aaron turned over. "But he always has been able to and he has always remembered. You have never remembered and now you cant use your magic." Aaron stood up slowly. "The triple goddess must have not wanted you to remember until I found you first. She knew the destruction it would cause if you remembered when you were with Mordred."

"So Mordred has come back each time."

Aaron nodded. "He has been many things to you. You have been many famous people."

"Like who?"

Aaron rubbed his head. "Ummm … Christine de Pizan, Queen Isabella, Mary Wollstonecraft, Margaret Fuller and the last Tsarina, Alexandra."

"I was two queens." Morgan said smiling.

"Of course. Gwen was right when she said that you were born to be queen."

Aaron smiled at the memory.

"Who is Christine de Pizan?"

"Oh … an Italian French medieval author. She was a court writer for many dukes and was in the royal court of Charles VI. She was a very well known and highly regarded poet in her day."

"You also said Tsarina Alexander?"

Aaron smiled at that. "I suppose you have heard Rasputin by Boney M."

"Of course. I don't a single person who studies history that doesnt."

"Well then the lyrics 'Ra Ra Rasputin, Lover of the Russian Queen was too wrong."

"Rasputin was my lover? I heard that he was actual really horrible."

"Hey that stuff does hurt."

Morgan looked at Aaron.

"Well how else are you going to cure haemophilia."

Morgan laughed. "You were Rasputin."

"Yes and being poisoned, shot 6 times and then thrown in a river wasn't nice"

Aaron stopped joking and became serious.

"Mordred was actually Alexei, the Tsarevich."

"Why didn't you just let him died then? It would have got him out of the way without you raising any suspicion."

Aaron sat down again. "Because you asked for me to save your son and I couldn't watch you, watch him die. You have always been my weakness and I have done everything you have asked me to do."

Morgan sat down next to Aaron and held his arm.

"You haven't forgiven yourself. I still don't believe that you have forgiven yourself now."

Aaron turned to Morgan. "How can I when I am still hurting you?"

"How are you hurting me?"

Aaron couldn't help but stare into her green eyes. They had grown older in the past few months but they were still as beautiful as ever.

"I am asking you go against your nature. The way that you will try and help anybody that needs it. I am asking you to leave a boy that doesn't fits into this time period as well as I do. We both stick out like sore thumbs and that is probably why he has changed schools." Aaron grabbed Morgan hand. "After a while people notice that you haven't aged and that is the time to go and find somewhere else to live. Mordred does age but he never lives to very old. When he was Alexi, he was 13. To begin with I tried to work with Mordred. When I found out he had remembered, I thought the goddess had given me a chance to right my wrongs."

Aaron just shock his head.

Morgan lent her head against his shoulder.

"Don't beat yourself up Merlin. It was ages ago and if Mordred cannot learn to forgive you then he is the fool."

Aaron just smiled. "I am going to have a shower." He got up and stumbled across the room.

Morgan just sat there and thought over what Aaron had said.

She was right. If Mordred didn't want to forgive Merlin then he is a fool. Merlin has at least tried to repair their friendship but he is the one to throw it away.

She may need to speak with him on Monday.

Morgan dismissed her class.

Hugo had stayed behind as she was still trying to help him settle in.

Morgan sighed. "I know who you are."

Hugo dropped his bag on the table.

"Emrys told you didn't he? I don't know why he can't keep his nose out of my life. Why can't he leave me alone?" Hugo was getting angry and Morgan could feel his magic starting to react.

"Hugo, please calm down. He asked me to stay away from you but he knows that I won't because it isn't in my nature. What I want to know is why you have so much hatred for Merlin."

Hugo smiled and laughed. "So he is Merlin now is he? When did you get so friendly with him? He is your doom."

"Look Mordred, I never wanted to tell you because I knew that you would react like this."

"So now you use my old name. Well done Morgana for catching on so quickly."

"Mordred, I am in love with Merlin and have always been." She shouted at him.

Hugo stopped and stared at her.

"What?"

"Before Camlann, you asked me where I was. I told you I was out practising magic. I wasn't, I was in my hovel with Merlin. We were saving the last few minutes before we knew we would have to kill each other."

"But he killed you." Hugo said, his voice dark.

"That's because I asked him out of love. Look we weren't any closer to our goal than Merlin was."

"Do you still love him?"

Morgan stopped. She was glad that no one had walked down the corridor as this may have seemed weird.

"Yes of course I love Aaron but ..."

"Aaron?" Hugo said. "You called him Aaron before. Why?"

"Come on Hugo, how many people today are called Merlin? We needed to lay low so that we could have the life that we never had."

Hugo looked down at her hand.

"You are engaged to him."

Morgan followed his gaze. "Hugo, I will help you at school. But you cannot expect me to be the same person I was back then. I am someone different and I will not turn into that again."

Hugo grabbed his bag.

"Tell Emrys that he may have won this once but never again."

Hugo left and Morgan fell into her chair.

She had just argued with a pupil over things from the past.

"You look like you need a coffee."

Morgan looked up and smiled at Mrs Jennings.

"Make it a strong one please."