Alex's breath caught in her throat when she entered Mercy General's ER waiting room. For a second there she had to wonder who was guarding the mean streets of New York with how many cops were in the room. One by one they all turned to look at her. The look in their eyes made her want to shriek away and hide but the will power she used in the court room took over and she walked toward the officers.

"Do we know anything about Detective Olivia Benson's condition?" She asked the first one that she stopped at seeing his name tag read Salvador

"No ma'am we don't." He said with a forced smile "Let me get a doctor to look you over though ma'am."

"Thank you officer Salvador but I don't need a doctor."

"Ma'am you're covered in blood I need to make sure it's not from you."

Alex looked at him and then down to her clothes. That was when she realized why they had looked at her the way they did. Her panty hose were torn from where she had crawled on her hands and knees to Olivia. Her shirt and skirt was torn and covered in blood, Olivia's blood. There was dried caked up blood on her hands as well. Almost as if on cue she could taste the metallic taste of blood in her mouth. Suddenly she felt very weak and sick to her stomach.

"Ma'am" Salvador said as he reacted quickly and caught the blonde before she hit the floor "I need assistance over here now."

The registrar behind the county paged for a nurse and a gurney to the waiting room immediately. Within seconds the waiting room was a mixture of dark blue uniforms with duty belts that held a variety of tools for their survival and a sea of white and green scrubs with a stethoscope around their neck. Officers jumped out of the way while some pushed on lookers back.

"Does anyone know who this is?" A nurse asked as she checked Alex's pulse and breathing.

"That is ADA Alexandra Cabot." An officer said stepping forward "She's one of us."

The nurse looked up into the faces and noticed the change. Everyone suddenly stood erect almost as if ready to pounce. Two went to the door and posted guard not letting anyone in or out at that time. Another officer snatched the id card off of a nurse that was working on Alex and scanned it on the door while two others immediately stepped forward and held the door open for them. There was no denying what they were saying. Get your ass in there and save her. We refuse to have to bury two in one day.

The nurse kicked the brakes free on the gurney and shouted make way and get me a doctor to trauma room two immediately. If this blood on her belonged for her it wouldn't be long before she was coding.

"Get the clothes off her now." A doctor ordered as she stepped in and gloved up "We have to find her injuries immediately.

Everyone jumped into action and began doing what needed to be done. The clothes were cut off her body and another nurse began to wash her slowly and gently. An IV with saline was started and she was placed on a heart monitor. So far everything was looking good for her, other than a few cuts and scrapes there was no major injury.

"ma'am" A nurse said as Alex started to come around "My name is Jill Bennett. Can you tell me where you are?"

Alex looked around and saw everyone staring at her and she started to panic. She began to pull at the cords that were tying her down and screaming for Olivia.

"Ma'am I need you to calm down" Jill said as she stepped closer to her "You're safe and no one can hurt you back here."

Alex calmed down as she stared into the deep brown eyes that reminded her of Olivia's. They were so warm and caring and full of compassion. Something that brought her great comfort and extreme heart break at the same time.

"Ma'am, can you please tell me where you are?"

"Mercy General' She said in a voice that was cold and void of all emotion.

"Can you tell us your name?"

"I am Assistant District Attorney Alexandra Cabot."

"Ok Ms. Cabot." Jill said satisfied that she was lucent enough to answer questions "Can you tell us where you're hurt and who hurt you?"

"I'm not hurt" Alex whispered "The blood belongs to Detective Benson. I was with her when she was shot."

"Yes ma'am. You are suffering from shock though. We need to get your bodied warmed back up and some fluid in you. Just to make sure you suffered no internal injuries we will be taking some x-rays as well. This is just procedure."

"I don't need that I just need to know about Detective Benson." Alex ordered knowing everyone would know her secret with the x-rays.

"Are you family ma'am?"

"No I am not" Alex said staring at her hands as she realized that she would never be able to call Olivia hers. Not only because she thought Olivia was straight but because she there was a good chance she would die if she hasn't already. "Not blood anyways but I am work family."

"I understand that but we need to speak to a blood relative."

"I understand and know your protocols Nurse Bennett but I suggest you watch how you word that when you walk out to tell the officers in blue out in that waiting room. To them they are family and blood. That is liable to have you injured and this is New York no one ever see's anything."

"I know how officers are Ms. Cabot, my fiancé is on the force and my father retired from the department. We are waiting on her commanding officer to arrive with her paperwork so we can notify the family."

Alex felt the color drain from her face and the room start to spin. The nurse may not have realized what she said but the attorney in her picked up on it immediately. They needed her paperwork to notify her family. Olivia was dead. There was no denying that to herself as much as she tried. She had been there when she watched the life drain out of her after she handed her, her weapon. Alex should have realized then that she was dead. An officer is trained and believes their service weapon is an extension of themselves. They never surrendered their weapons until they are called to walk the streets of heaven. Then, and only then, would an officer willing pass their weapon on, or allow another person to take it and never a second sooner.

A/N: Thank you so much for the reviews. I know I left you with a cliff hanger last chapter and still haven't answered the question on everyone's mind. Yes, I know I'm still hated for the moment. The next chapter should answer everyone's question I promise.