Alex instructed Fin to her upper Manhattan apartment. It wasn't until they were in the elevator and almost to her pent house floor that she started to become nervous. She had not allowed anyone into her sanctuary since she moved from her old apartment. She could only imagine what he would think of her once he saw her apartment. She already knew they called her ice princess when she wasn't around and thought she was using them to achieve political greatness. Well she was until she met Benson and got to know her.

Fin couldn't help but notice the change in Alex once the elevator doors closed. He got as close to the opposite wall that he could thinking that his close proximity was the problem. But he noticed that the closer they got to her floor the more nervous she became. That's when he realized what was terrifying the blonde.

"Alex I will wait outside your apartment, if you like." Fin said breaking the silence.

"What" Alex almost screamed as she flew against the wall scared.

"I'm sorry" Fin whispered as he carefully turned to face her "I didn't mean to scare you."

"It's ok" Alex croaked out trying to regain her composure but failing miserable "I was just lost in my thoughts."

"I was saying I will wait outside your apartment if you like."

"That's ridiculous Tutuola you are more than welcomed to come in."

Fin tried not to cringe hearing his full last name. He didn't care how many times he reminded her to call him Fin she still addressed him as Tutuola at times. He was coming to realize it was done when she was scared.

"Alex, I can see that you are nervous about having me in your apartment." He answered as he heard the elevator ding signaling their destination "in light of everything you are probably terrified to have anyone in your apartment. I understand that and I have no problem waiting for you outside your apartment ok."

"Thank you but please do come in." Alex whispered with as much as fake courage as she could muster.

"Are you positive?"

"Yes it will be easier believe me."

Fin nodded as Alex unlocked her door. She stepped in and motioned for him to enter but he stood where he was.

"What is it now?"

"I'm waiting for you to move from the door." He answered smiling "I don't want to scare you anymore than what you are when I pass by you."

"Thank you" She answered shakily as she quickly darted across the room. As hard nose as he came off and appeared to be it was times like this that reminded her of all the compassion he had hidden away.

"I'm just going to shut the door" he said as he slowly closed it silently praying she wouldn't freak out when she heard the door click "Would you like me to lock it as well?"

"Yes please never leave it unlocked."

Fin felt a fresh batch of anger run through him hearing the terror in Alex's voice at the thought of an unlocked door. He carefully closed the door and started to lock it when he stopped. Alex had a total of eight different forms of locks on her door. Exactly how bad has this Jessica bitch been terrorizing her?

"All of them?" He asked chancing a look over his shoulder. Alex stood against the wall as pale as she could be with her arms wrapped around herself in a protective manor. One look into her eyes told him she was caught in her own flashback. He turned carefully and stayed where he was while calling her name.

"Alex I need you to look at me" he said in a voice that even he didn't recognize. As god as his witness when he got his hands on Jess he would kill her and Olivia owed him two months worth of on call's for not filling him in. "Please look at me."

"No please don't' Alex sobbed out as she slid down the wall "I promise he's just a co-worker please don't."

Fin grabbed his weapon and scanned the area thinking he missed something as he entered. He was pretty sure he didn't. He saw the baseball bats she had in each corner of the room discretely hidden. There was probably a knife or two under the couch cushions. Lord only knew what she had hidden around her bedroom.

"Alex you're having a flash back focus on my voice please."

"I'm sorry" Alex cried as she flinched as if she had been hit.

"Alex its Tutuola and you're having a flashback. Just listen to my voice." He said re-holstering his weapon "We are at your apartment so you can shower and change. I am your protective detail and I promise you she will have to kill me to get to you. Take a few deep breaths and attempt to relax."

He breathed a small sigh of relief when he saw her doing as he instructed. That meant he was penetrating the flash back.

"It won't happen again I promise."

"It's ok Alex. Just listen to my voice. We are here so you can shower and change. Everything is ok and Jess can't get to you."

Fin's breathe held in his throat when those blue eyes so full of terror connected with his.

"Tutuola?"

"Yes, Alex. It's just me and you here. That's all I promise you."

Alex's eyes darted around the room. She had brought someone home. Jess always told her if she ever brought some one home she would kill them and then make her pay.

"You have to get out of her." She said jumping up suddenly panicked "If she knows you're here she'll kill you. Please I can't be responsible for two officers shot."

"Good thing I won't hold you responsible then and I am not leaving." Fin said with a slight smile. "I'll take my chances."

I would rather take my chances with this woman than the Captain or Olivia he thought to himself.

"But." She started to say and was stopped by Fin.

"Alex she can't and won't get to you here while I'm with you. I will protect you with my life. That is what a protective detail does ok. Right now I need you to relax. Tell me, short of me leaving, what I need to do, for that to happen. Tell me and I will make it happen."

"Can you check the apartment please?"

"Sure" Fin said as he made his way up the stairs. He cleared each and every room shaking his head at the number of bats and other weapons he found hidden in different locations. The only thing he didn't locate was a gun which he wasn't sure if he was thankful for or fearful for.

"All clear." He announced as he bounded down the stairs careful not to scare her anymore than what she already was.

"Thank you detective" Alex said standing from the couch and heading toward the stairs "I have made coffee if you would like some. Creamer is in the fridge and sugar is on the counter. Help yourself to anything you find in the fridge or cabinets to eat."

"Yes ma'am." Fin said as he watched Alex walk out of his line of vision and reached into his pocket for his phone as he headed for the kitchen.

A/N: Again thank you so much for the reviews. I truly can't say it enough especially with this story. I was afraid that it wouldn't take off with Alex being a victim of abuse, the way I have portrayed her. It is hard enough for someone to come forward with an allegation of abuse when they are in a position that she is in but it is even harder when it is a same-sex abuse case. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. As always reviews are welcomed.