A/N: Here is the next chapter that a few people have been asking for on Twitter. It gets a little Rate R - so in FanFic its rated M. Enjoy and please leave me comments after you have read the chapters. The more comments I get the more I will post. Thanks - Em
Chapter 4:
The next morning I woke up in a happy mood, I went into the kitchen and Kelly was on his phone with someone. He hung up just as I walked in.
"Good morning, how did you and Kelly Junior sleep?"
"Great it was the best sleep I have had in a long time. Want to ride to work together?"
"I can't this morning, I have to go pick up Casey at the hotel I dropped him off at last night and bring him to his truck. I was just getting ready to head out."
"I can come if you want."
"I don't think that will be a good idea. Matt needs to get his life figured out and he looked like crap last night. You don't need to see him that way. Plus there won't be much time to talk since I will already be cutting it close to getting to work on time."
"I guess your right." I said with a pout. "At least he knows I am trying to get in touch with him. Hopefully he will call me or text me."
Kissing me on the cheek, Kelly grabbed a muffin and was out the door.
I ran upstairs and got ready for work. I am hoping this week goes by fast since the gala is coming up on Friday. I am really excited for that. The Academy dinners are my favorite functions to attend. I get to wear a pretty dress and look like a female. Don't get me wrong I love being a firefighter but wearing bunker gear isn't the most sexy thing in the world. I was thinking I would text Matt later on today. After he had a chance to go home and think about how his life is going to go.
Once at the firehouse, the guys were called out on several calls right in a row. I didn't get a chance to talk to Kelly to see how Matt was this morning. I decided I would text Matt a little bit before dinner time.
Gabby: Hi Matt, I have been trying to get in touch with you can you please text or call me back. Please
I sent this message and now I waited. Within 15 minutes I had a response
Matt: This isn't a good time I will call you later
Gabby: Are you on shift?
Matt: No
Gabby: Hope everything is ok
Matt: :(
Gabby: You need a friend to talk to I am here
Matt: Thanks
Gabby: Can we meet for breakfast after I'm off shift?
Matt: I don't think that is a good idea
Gabby: Why
Matt: Because I am with Beth
Gabby: Duh, I know that
Matt: this is really bad time I will call you later k?
Gabby: Whatever
I wanted to scream with frustration with this man. How did he become such a coward. I really just want to talk to him and let him know about the baby. I get up off my bed and walk toward Kelly's office. He is at his desk working on a report.
I knock and open the door. "Hey you got a sec?"
"Of course! What's up?"
"I was just texting with Matt and it didn't go good." I said frowning
"What do you mean it didn't go good?"
I showed him the texts and Kelly started shacking his head. "I honestly don't know what to tell you. This morning when I saw him, he was all about going home and talking to Beth. He wanted to let her know that it wasn't working out. Maybe you caught him when he was talking to her or when they were just finished talking, fighting, yelling."
"I know but why would he make a point to tell me he is with Beth?" I said with tears starting to form in my eyes.
"I don't know Gabs. I will try calling him later or texting him later to see if I can get anymore information on how it went. How does that sound?"
"I love you Kelly! Thank you!" I gave him a quick kiss on cheek and walked back out to my bed. I decided I needed to talk a quick nap.
Kelly's POV
After Gabby left my office, I shut my door and immediately grabbed my phone. I dialed Casey's number and it went to voicemail. I left a message for him to call me. I went back to my report and then still didn't have a response for Matt so I decided to text him.
Kelly: How did it go when you got home?
Instantly Matt responded
Matt: It was world war 3
Kelly: Beth was pissed huh?
Matt: That's putting it mildly
Kelly: why didn't you answer my call?
Matt: Beth is in the same room with me, I can't talk when she is here of course
Kelly: Ahhh – Did you change your password on your phone?
Matt: Yes I did that last night after you dropped me off at the hotel. Thanks again for that
Kelly: That's what friends are for
Matt: Thanks man! When I got home Beth accused me of sneaking around with Gabby
Kelly: Seriously?
Matt: I even told her I was with you at Molly's and she didn't believe me. Said you would lie for me and that you were a shitty friend.
Kelly: Umm okay
Matt: I wish I was with Gabby last night… no offense man
Kelly: None taken
Matt: I asked her to see pregnancy test and of course she got all defensive. She then told me she has her first doctors appointment on Friday at 5pm. Funny that is the same time the Academy dinner is at and she knows I can't miss that or be late. So then I can't go with her to the appointment.
Kelly: I am doubting she is really pregnant, when she cornered Gabby in the bathroom at Molly's she said you were going to get married and start a family. Made it sound like it was already something you guys had planned out.
Matt: Fuck no! We haven't even been together for 3 months. We never even mentioned marriage or kids, this came out of the blue. Funny that all this started happening after the whole Molly's night and my eyes on gabby.
Kelly: She is crazy, I can see why Pridgett divorced her
Matt: don't tell anyone but me too! I feel so stupid I put my career on the line for her.
Kelly: We all make mistakes hopefully this one is going to go away soon and she is lying about being pregnant.
Matt: I sure hope so! I can't imagine having to share custody of my child with her.
Kelly: So is she speaking to you?
Matt: not really. She is now trying to have make up sex, but I just can't bring myself to get close to her. The last time we did have sex was like 4 or 5 weeks ago and of course I called her Gabby in the middle of a hot make out session and that ended badly. I ended up taking a cold shower and sleeping on my own couch for a week.
Kelly: Ha ha – I was wondering why you were on the couch when I would sneak home to change clothes
Matt: It isn't funny. I thought you never knew that.
Kelly: I just didn't want to rock the boat and not have a place to live. Beth already hated me and I didn't know who you would side with.
Matt: I am so sorry! I fucked up so many times
Kelly: Don't beat yourself up about it.
Matt: I am on shift the next 2 nights, I picked up an extra one just to be away from her. I am going to buy a pregnancy test and have her take it in front of me. I am hoping to do that before the academy dinner.
Kelly: Are you bringing her?
Matt: I don't want to, but she informed me tonight that she is going to be coming after her doctors appointment and I can't take no for an answer. I am afraid she will cause a scene there.
Kelly: Hopefully you can boot her ass to the curb before then.
Matt: I hope so
Kelly: Praying for her not to be pregnant
Matt: Me too
Kelly: Bells are going off I gotta go
Matt: Be safe I am going in to relieve the Lt. Who isn't feeling good now anyway so I can get away from the apartment.
Kelly: also please text or call gabby back – she showed me your convo and she was upset.
Matt: Shit – I thought you were on a call
Kelly: Just pulling up Bye
The bells went off and all the guys ran out to the trucks, I was now wide awake and walked back over to my desk to do a little bit more paperwork. I then got a text from Matt 30 minutes later.
Matt: Gabby I am so sorry for being short earlier. My life is a complete mess and I know Kelly told me he told you what's been going on. I fucked up my life with a one night stand trying to get over you but it turned into something more. My life is spinning out of control. I am trying to get everything back in order. I want to break things off with Beth but it's complicated. I don't want to go into details right now. I do want to have breakfast with you, but I have picked up an extra shift so I can be away from Beth for a while. I will be on shift for the next 48 hours then off for 24 and back on for 24. I am hoping we can have some time at the gala. I miss you! Love Matt xoxox
As I got done reading the text I was shaking. What was he trying to tell me? Does he still love me or is that the regret talking?
Gabby: I do miss you too, but is that the regret talking? I miss our friendship. I do have something really important to discuss with you.
Matt: What is it?
Gabby: I would rather do it in person. You deserve that much.
Matt: At the gala, you and me can talk. I want to have at least 1 if not the whole night of slow dances with you. I miss you in my arms.
Gabby: Matt… Why are you doing this to me?
Matt: What? Telling you how I feel?
Gabby: You left me, gave up on our relationship because of your job, then you almost ruin your career for a quick fuck with a known bar slut!
Matt: Gabby please don't be like this. I really do miss you and I know I fucked up.
Gabby: Lets start by being friends and you trusting me.
Matt: What's that suppose to mean?
Gabby: You thought I attacked Beth in the bathroom at Molly's that night and then you accused Kelly of sleeping with me.
Matt: I was just jealous of him and I know you wouldn't do that to Beth, but I was so frustrated. You looked so fucking hot at Molly's. Then you kept rubbing up against me and touching my arms. I wanted to take you home and make love to you like it was our first time.
Gabby: Matt please stop!
Matt: Why? Are you getting all hot and bothered? :)
Gabby: ummmm
Matt: You are aren't you
Gabby: yes
Matt: I want to kiss you and strip you naked so I can worship your beautifully body. I want to suck on your perfect breasts and hear you moan. Then I want to run my hand between your legs and feel how wet you are for me. Then I will make you scream my name in passion as I insert my dick so deep inside of you. I want to make love to you like you've never been before. I want to hear you scream and moan.
Gabby: Matt please stop!
Gabby: You can't talk to me like that
Matt: Why not! I love you!
Gabby: Please please just stop! This is going way to far. You have a different women sleeping in my apartment in my bed that we bought together. This isn't fair to me. You can't talk to me like that and assume it's okay to be living with Beth.
Matt: I am so sorry Gabs! I wish to God this hadn't gotten this messed up! We were on hold I should have respected you more. I know I don't deserve you. But I love you so much baby. Please please don't give up on me. I am trying to fix things. I promise!
Gabby: Show me don't tell me. Prove it.
Matt: I will baby! I miss you and just want to talk like we use to
Gabby: Me too
Matt: I do love you! I always have!
Gabby: I still love you too but I am really hurt and broken.
Matt: I get that and I know I messed up.
Gabby: thanks for sexting with me tonight – I haven't been with anyone since I moved out. I am a little horny.
Matt: Gabs…. Don't talk like that to me.
Gabby: What I can't play a little dirty?
Matt: Dirty? I love when you are dirty
Gabby: Shit I can't believe I am going to do this.
Matt: What?
Gabby: Imagine me walking into your office at 51 in a trench coat and high heels. I close the blinds and you look up from your report. I walk over to you and unzip your pants and pullout your huge cock. I untie my coat and shake it off. I am standing naked in nothing but my high heels. I kneel down on the floor and take you in my mouth. I give you the best blow job of your life. You are about to cum, but say wait, I want to be inside you. You lift me up and I straddle you on your chair and you are instantly inside of me. Oh my God you feel so good. I start riding you, you grab my tits and suck hard making me moan. We start moving faster and faster and we both cum at the same time. I collapse into your arms and you start kissing my neck and move to my lips.
Matt: my dick is so hard right now, I need to go into the bathroom and finish myself off. I can't walk around with a chuuby for the rest of the day.
Gabby: Sorry I shouldn't have done that.
Matt: No it's perfect baby. I would love for that to happen.
Gabby: Maybe one day if you play your cards right.
Matt: I am groaning over here in anticipation.
Gabby: We can't talk like this anymore. We need to work on being friends. Get rid of Beth please!
Gabby: Can you please do that for me?
Matt: I am working on it baby. Please give me some time.
Gabby: Ok, I miss you.
Matt: I gathered that from the trench coat and the blow job.
Gabby: Blushing
Matt: Why? It was hot!
Gabby: Think we can work things out?
Matt: Yes!
Gabby: Thanks for texting with me. I miss this.
Matt: Me too!
Gabby: The guys are back from their call I better go.
Matt: I love you babe! XOXOXO
Gabby: ) Love and miss you too! Text or call me soon, even if you are on shift and bored.
Matt: I will definitely. You can count on that. The sexting was great! Can we do it again?
Gabby: Maybe….
Gabby: No…..
Gabby: yes maybe…..
Gabby: who am I kidding of course ;)
Matt: Have a great night XoXo. I am really going now. Tell the guys hi for me.
Gabby: Will do! Xoxox
I put my phone down with a smile on my face as the guys all walk in. They look tired and I asked them if they want me to make them some dinner. I was on a high right now and everyone was asking me what is going on. I just said "I am in a good mood, I would like to cook. If you guys want, Cruz can cook or you can order out too. I fine with anything."
Mouch walks over to me and hugs me "Bless your heart! Can you make your famous Chicken Mac and Cheese? Please." He says batting his eyelashes at me.
"How can I resist that face?" I said laughing. "Trudy must be a sucker for that face." Everyone in the common room started laughing.
I walked over to the kitchen to start making dinner. I was grabbing ingredients out of the fridge and pantry when I turned to the counter I had Hermann to my left, Severide to my right and Brett standing right in front of me staring at me on the opposite side of the counter.
"What?" I say half laughing at them.
"You are in a good mood." Kelly said elbowing me. "It doesn't have to do with a certain lieutenant does it?"
"Maybe" I say grinning at them
"Did you tell him about Kelly Junior?" Hermann asked
"You too Hermann! And No, I didn't tell a certain lieutenant about the baby. We just were texting back and forth while you guys were out on the call. He opened up about him and Beth and wanting to break up and we are going to talk more on Friday at the gala."
"Look at you all lite up like a Christmas tree!" Kelly said
"Hey that was Shays line to me when I asked Casey about fixing my window a couple years ago when he was broken up with Hallie and I asked him if he wanted me to make him dinner or a 6 pack of his favorite beer as a payment. Damn I miss her." I said wiping tears from my eyes.
"Just be careful and don't jump back into his arms Gabs, that man needs to really grovel on his hands and knees to get you back. You are way better than that."
"Oh I know that Brett! Don't worry, I will not do that. I just miss our friendship and we have a baby on the way." Right now after I said that, I felt like I was lying to my friends. If the way Matt and I's texts are I can only imagine what will happen when I see him in person. That man has a special hold over me.
"Have fun making dinner kid and what Brett said, we are just watching out for you."
"Thanks Dad" I said sarcastically
After dinner was done, the guys were out on a call, and I was sitting on my desk working on paperwork for the chief when my phone dinged with a text.
Matt: Hey Beautiful
Matt: Question why did you say earlier that the guys were coming back from their call and you were at the firehouse? I was looking and dispatch and saw that both Truck and Squad were called out to that call.
Shit Shit Shit I said out loud
Gabby: Hey stranger, I had a migraine so Hermann told me to stay here and rest
Matt: Is it better?
Gabby: Much since I texted with you :)
Matt: Gabby can I tell you something?
Gabby: Always
Matt: I haven't slept with Beth for over a month.
Gabby: Ummm.. I think Kelly and I walked in on you to getting busy the other week.
Matt: She was trying because of how I was with you at Molly's. JEALOUS is what she was. I kept telling her no.
Matt: The last time we were starting to get intimate, I called her Gabby and I ended up on the couch and I haven't been into her. I knew then where my heart was but I felt I messed up so bad.
Matt: I love you Gabs! I always will! You are the one for me!
I sat there staring at my screen. I got up and walked to the bathroom and cried. It's the hormones I keep telling myself. It's so hard to hear he slept with her even though I know it's happened, but to hear that he has been over her for a month makes my heart melt. It must be the pregnancy hormones making me loose my mind. I can't believe I am ready to jump back into his arms. I know it is wrong to even think about it after all that has gone on, but we have so much history together.
Matt: Gabs are you there? I haven't heard from you for 15 minutes. Are you ok?
Matt: it's been 20 minutes you are worrying me
Gabby: I am here
Matt: Are you ok?
Gabby: Yes I think so
Matt: I didn't mean to upset you, I just wanted to be honest with you
Gabby: Thank you, is just hard to hear you talk about having sex with someone else
Matt: Are you crying
Gabby: Yes
Matt: Please don't I hate that I upset you.
Gabby: It's ok
Matt: No it's not, I should never make you cry.
Gabby: It's been happening a lot.
Matt: Why? Because of me
Gabby: Yes and other things
Matt: What other things?
Gabby: I don't want to talk about it
Matt: Gabby please trust me
Gabby: I am trying
Matt: That's all I ask
Gabby: I better get going it's getting late and I want to rest before the next call comes in
Matt: Ok, I love you! Sweet dreams
Gabby: Thanks I will text tomorrow maybe
Matt: It's a date ;)
I set my phone on my desk and picked up the last of the files on my desk and put some paperwork on the Chiefs desk. I walked back to the bunk room and sat on my bed. My hand instantly went to my stomach. I don't know what I am doing with Matt right now. I feel like I am leading him on in a way while we are texting that we are going to get back together once he kicks bar slut out of the apartment. I know I should make him grovel like Hermann, Brett and Severide said, but I miss him. I want him to be apart of our babies life and of our pregnancy. He needs to be at the ultra sound appointments and holding my hair back when I am having bouts of morning sickness. We should be creating our baby registry together and decorating the nursery together. But will we be able to do that and just be friends. From our hot sex texting I don't think that will last more than a day or two. I don't know what I am going to do. I just miss him, but with my hormones acting all crazy I might jump him the first time I see him at the gala too.
I sighed and started rubbing my very small baby bump talking him him or her. "Baby your daddy is something, I want him to know you and be around for you. But sometimes he confuses me! But no matter what, know that we love you so much and we haven't even met you yet, heck your daddy doesn't even know you exist yet. I can't wait to tell him about you and seeing his reaction."
With that I laid down and fell asleep. Around 2:30 am I woke up with the urge to throw up. I ran from my bunk to the bathroom, noticing that everyone from Squad was still out on the call and Brett was in her bunk next to mine and the I heard the truck guys snoring as I ran past them. I made it to the bathroom just in time. Once I was finished, I walked back to my bunk and grab my toothbrush and toothpaste and go back to the bathroom. Once I was finished I went back to my bunk but of course I was staring at the ceiling listening to the snoring of Cruz and Otis. Frustrated I got up and grabbed my phone and went into the common room and sat on the couch and turned on the tv. Flipping through channels I stopped on HGTV and started watching some fixer upper show. I was bored with it and grabbed my phone and decided I would text Matt.
Gabby: Hey are you awake?
Gabby: Crap you are probably sleeping. Ignore me, I can't sleep
Gabby: Sorry if I woke you up with texting you. I'll go back to watching tv
Matt: I'm here and no you didn't wake me up. Just got back from a call and I was working on my report. Why can't you sleep?
Gabby: Matt get some sleep the report can wait until tomorrow. Not like you aren't working a double shift and won't have time.
Matt: I was wide awake from the last call and I just wanted to get it done. I was going to try and sleep in a little bit. I was almost done.
Gabby: I will let you get back to it so you can get some sleep
Matt: No
Matt: Please I don't mind talking with you. I like it actually, it's been the highlight of my day lately.
Gabby: Blushing here….
Matt: Good… Why can't you sleep something on your mind?
Gabby: Always
Matt: Talk to me please
Gabby: Not right now, we will on Friday I promise
Matt: I am holding you to that
Gabby: Me too! I really do need to talk to you about something important.
Matt: Give me a hint….please :)
Gabby: It's about us
Matt: What about us?
Gabby: You will know on Friday :)
Matt: Good or bad?
Gabby: I think great!
Matt: Why are you being so cryptic? Just tell me!
Gabby: No in person!
Matt: Why in person?
Gabby: Because
Matt: Because Why?
Gabby: I said so that is why!
Matt: Well don't you sound like a mom!
Gabby: Umm yeah practicing I guess for the future! LOL
Matt: You are going to be a great mom you know that
Gabby: Someday
Matt: I am hoping I can be your baby daddy…. Someday
Gabby: Well
Matt: Well what
Gabby: Let's talk on Friday
Matt: that was already decided Gabs
Gabby: I know
Matt: I want to hold you right now and kiss you.
Gabby: I would love that if you could right now. I am so horny! I need to have sex
Matt: Gabs you are driving me nuts here. I would make love to you right now you know.
Gabby: Oh I am sure you would!
Matt: You sound so confident there!
Gabby: Oh I am!
Matt: Send me a picture of you
Gabby: I look like crap I just woke up a little bit ago.
Matt: So – go into the locker room and take a picture
Gabby: So you are saying you want a naked picture?
Matt: Ok if you insist!
Gabby: Matt no I am not going to do that right now.
Matt: Please Gabs
Gabby: No
Matt: Fine I will take a shower and use my imagination then
Gabby: Whatever it takes for you ;)
Matt: You are an evil woman!
Gabby: But you love me!
Matt: Of course I do!
Matt: What are you doing after shift?
Gabby: Going home and sleeping I am sure why?
Matt: Maybe you should take a drive to Logan Square and check out the firehouse. You could also check out the lieutenants office.
Gabby: I use to work at Logan Square and if I remember correctly, the Lt. Quarters were smaller than 51 and no blinds.
Matt: Why do you care about the blinds and how small my office is and how would you know the size of the Lt. Office?
Gabby: well I am assuming you want to help me with my dry spell and remember the Lt when I was there was a female :)
Matt: Well then, we could use the showers here. There is even a bench in the one! )
Gabby: Sorry to disappoint you but I can't.
Matt: Then we could have that "talk" then
Gabby: Yeah and in the middle of our conversation you will be called out on a call, that is typical for us.
Matt: I guess you are right, but you could come here and we could just have a hot quickie in the shower or even the ambo.
Gabby: Matt No! No actual sex until after you get rid of Beth – have you done that yet.
Matt: No I haven't been home
Gabby: Then no seeing me for a quickie
Matt: Fine! Can't say I didn't try
Gabby: Go take a cold shower and cool off, I know I have to after this
Matt: Great now I am picturing you all naked, lathered up in soap in the shower.
Gabby: Great image to go to sleep with
Matt: You can say that again! God Gabby what are we doing! I miss you so much!
Gabby: I miss you too, but there is a huge issue between us right now that only you can get rid of
Matt: I know you are so right, I am so sorry Gabs!
Matt: Gabs where did you go? It's been 5 min
Matt: Gabby? Please baby talk to me
Gabby: I'm here but…
Matt: you are scaring me honey
Gabby: Matt
Matt: Yes Gabs
Gabby: I want you to be my baby daddy too.
Matt: That makes me so happy to hear. Thank you! That means more than you ever will know to me.
Gabby: I'm glad
Matt: I have huge grin on my face
Gabby: Dork
Matt: You made my night or should I say day Gabs. It gives me hope for us
Gabby: There is always hope! Just need to get though some obstacles
Matt: We will, I have faith in us
Gabby: Me too
Matt: Baby I hate to do this now, but I haven't slept and it's almost 4am and I am exhausted and need to go take a quick shower.
Gabby: Say no more, I am actually pretty sleepy myself.
Matt: Sweet dreams babe!
Gabby: I will dream of us! Love you!
Matt: Love you too! I will text you tomorrow or should I say later on today :)
I walked back to my bunk and grabbed my overnight bag and thought what the hell, why not and walked into the the locker room. I needed to show my baby daddy what he was missing. I brushed my hair put on some lipgloss and took off my shirt and was standing there in my bra. I adjusted my boobs to show some more cleavage and I snapped a quick selfie. I was looking at the picture and realized my boobs looked a lot bigger. The joys of pregnancy! I was silently thanking myself for putting on my hot pink lacy bra this morning. I texted the picture to Matt quick.
Gabby: Enjoy the pic, it's not a completely naked picture but this should get you by until I see you! XoXo Gabby
I grabbed my bag and went back to my bed and laid down. Just as I rolled over I heard a ding on my phone. I grabbed it off the nightstand and smiled as I read his latest message.
Matt: Hot damn you are beautiful. One sexy mama! Thanks for this! Your boobs look bigger? Maybe just the bra right? Get some sleep and I will text you later if I am not too busy with work on calls! Xoxo Matt
Sleep came really quickly and the next thing I knew I was being woke up by Kelly.
"Wake up sleeping beauty are you ready to go home?"
It was the end of shift. I sat up quickly rubbing the sleep out of my eyes.
"Yes give me a minute I'm feeling a little nauseated at the moment."
"Take your time, I will be waiting in the common room."
"You don't have to wait for me Kelly, I drove myself remember. You had to go deal with a certain friend of ours before shift."
"Ha you are right, I've just gotten use to carpooling with you these last couple of weeks. I will see you at home."
"Sounds good, I might run some quick errands before I get home. I want to stop at Babies 'R Us to start looking at all the fun baby stuff."
"Want me to come with you?"
"No I just want to start looking and wondering and getting ideas of what we will need for Kelly Junior."
"Ok if you want me to come with just let me know. I will be more than happy to go shopping with you and keep you company."
"Thanks Kelly but you need to go home and sleep. I was up from 2:30 to a little after 4am and you guys were still out on a call so that means you got hardly any sleep in the last 24 hours. Go home and get some sleep." I said kissing him on the cheek and giving him a quick hug.
"You are so right! I am exhausted. I will talk to you later. Bye."
I walked over to my car and got in. I started driving toward Logan Square, telling myself that is the closest Babies 'r Us. I of course drove by the firehouse to see if I could get a glimpse of Matt outside on the apparatus floor. No such luck as the trucks were out on a call. I pulled into the parking lot and parked my car. I decided to send Matt a quick good morning text.
Gabby: Morning sweet thing. I am off work and going to do some shopping for a bit. Hope you have a good day. Text me when you get a chance.
I got out and walked into the Babies 'r Us. It had been a long time since I had been in that store and to say I was overwhelmed with what I saw was a huge understatement. I grabbed a cart and started down the aisles looking at everything from Bibs, pacifiers, bottles, to diapers & Wipes to pack and plays to car seats. I walked through the furniture and looked at the cribs, changing tables and dressers. Then I found the perfect one I knew I had to have. It was a dark cherry sleigh crib with a matching changing table, dresser and glider rocker. It was beautiful; I snap a picture of it quick. I then proceeded to look at all the crib bedding sets. I looked at the girls and boys everything from butterflies and flowers to bears and footballs. Toward the end of the back wall with all the themed bedding sets I found the perfect one. It was fire truck themed in a light pastel yellow and baby blue with fire trucks on it. It would be perfect for a boy or a girl. It was a complete set and it included everything we would need. I also found the matching lamp and mobile to finish the theme. I loaded up my cart with everything and continued walking through the store. I found myself myself walking through the baby clothes looking at all the adorable clothes. I found a couple pairs of pajamas that were of course firefighter themed. I then found the perfect onesie. It says 'My daddies truck is bigger than your daddies' and there is a image of a fire truck. I instant grabbed it and decided right there that is what I was going to use to tell Matt I was pregnant. Just then my phone dinged with a text.
Matt: Good morning beautiful. Hope you are having fun shopping. Shouldn't you be in bed sleeping? Someone kept you up for a couple hours in the early morning today.
Gabby: I am having a really fun time. I am actually in Logan Square shopping.
Matt: Where are you shopping?
Gabby: Babies 'r Us
Matt: Why?
Gabby: I am picking up a gift for a friend
Matt: Who's having a baby? Anyone I know?
Gabby: It's a friend of Laura and Antonio, I don't think you have ever met her.
Matt: Are you going to be done soon?
Gabby: No I only just really started shopping. This store is huge and very overwhelming.
Matt: I can't wait until you and I can go shopping there together when we start our family
Gabby: Matt don't jump ahead of yourself.
Matt: Sorry I am just finally feeling happy about things.
Gabby: Did you talk to Beth yet?
Matt: No I want to talk to her in person and I don't want that to be done while I am at the firehouse. She will cause a scene I am sure of that.
Matt: Tomorrow I am going to talk with her. Maybe go out to lunch or something so it will be public. I don't want anything broken in the apartment.
Gabby: I don't blame you, I am sure she can throw some major temper tantrums.
Matt: Oh yes she can. I can see why Pridgett was glad to be done with her. Spoiled brat is what she is.
Gabby: Hate to say everyone told you :)
Matt: I know! But I should let you get back to your shopping. I need to work on my latest incident report. We just got back from a call.
Gabby: Ok have a good rest of the day. I will chat with you later. Love you! Xoxox
Matt: Love you hot mama! Xoxox
Smiling I put my phone back into my purse and continued shopping. I found the gift wrap and found a plain mint green gift bag and bought some tissue paper. The more I thought about how I was going to tell Matt about the baby the more excited I got. I might even stop at the firehouse on my way home and surprise Matt with lunch. I still had another hour to kill so I went back to shopping. I also found 2 bibs to add to the bag saying 'My daddy's is a hero' with a firefighter helmet and the other one said 'My mommy is a firefighter' with a fire truck on it. I looked a the time and realized it was getting close to noon. I made my way to the checkout and quickly paid for everything and walked out to my car. After everything put into the trunk, I put everything I bought for Matt in the gift bag and added the tissue paper. I set it on the passenger seat and headed to the deli that we have eaten at many times when we have been in the area. Once I pulled into the parking lot I notice the line was long. Grabbing my phone I sent a quick text to Matt.
Gabby: What are you doing?
I was waiting in line and didn't get an answer, figuring they were out on a call. When I got up to the lady, I placed our "usual" order and went to wait for the food to be ready.
Matt: Just walked back in from a run, well false alarm run. Why what are you doing?
Gabby: Grabbing some lunch
Matt: alone?
Gabby: I am getting it to go.
Matt: I am starving our candidate is taking a shower then going to start making lunch.
Gabby: My food is ready I will TTYL
Gabby: xoxox
Once my number was called and I had the bag of food in my hand, I got back in my car and started driving toward Logan Square firehouse. My stomach was in knots, I was hungry all of a sudden and thought of seeing Matt and telling him he is going to be a dad was putting my anxiety level at an all time high. As I pulled up to the firehouse I noticed both trucks and ambo were both inside.
After sitting in my car starting at the firehouse trying to calm my nerves I grabbed the bag of food, the gift bag and purse and quickly got out and walked up the driveway. As I walked through the bay doors onto the apparatus floor I noticed my old partner from Ambo stocking the rig and I walked over to her.
"Aren't you a sight for sore eyes"
Turning around slowing, Ella screams "Oh my God is that the one and only Dawson!"
"The one and only gracing you with my presence."
"It has been way to long since I have seen you. What are you doing slumming it at Logan Square?" She asked with raised eyebrows.
"I am here to see a friend actually."
"Are you referring to the hot blue eyed Lieutenant form 51 that is filling in for Lt. Peters while he is out on medical leave? And the one and only man that is staring at you right now?"
"Shut up Ella!" I said smacking her on the shoulder
"Seriously Gabs have I ever lied to you?"
It was like time stood still and all of a sudden I heard his voice. The one I could pick out in a room full of hundreds of people in a pitch black room. Then I smelled his cologne. The one I have loved since the day I walked into 51. "Gabby! What are you doing here? This is a wonderful surprise."
Turning around as slow as possible, I hold up the bag of food. "I brought lunch and since I was in the area and I knew you loved Mario's Deli, I picked up your favorite along with mine. I was hoping you would like to have lunch with me?"
As he was walking toward me he was reaching for me and pulled me into his arms giving me a long over due hug. As everyone's eyes are on us, he whispers in my ear "You look hot and I want to kiss you so bad right now, but with all the eyes on us I can't."
"I say I understand and I'll take a rain check." We pull apart and he says to everyone, "This is my good friend Gabby, she is a paramedic turned firefighter on Truck 81 from House 51. We are going to go and enjoy lunch and get caught up. We will be in my office if you need me."
He grabbed my hand and pulled me through the firehouse. As soon as we got around the corner by the locker room he pushed me up against the wall, wrapped his arms around me pulling me close to his body and gave me a proper I have missed you, good to see you again kiss. I dropped both bags I was holding to the floor. It felt so good to be in his arms again. The kiss started off slow, but it escalated into a full out battle for control within seconds. We finally pulled apart and looked him with a smirk "You really know how to welcome a girl Casey."
Pulling me close he whispers in my ear knowing he is driving me crazy "There is way more where that came from, give me a chance to show you sometime soon baby."
"Oh you will have that chance soon" just as my stomach started growling with hunger.
"Sounds like someone is hungry, let's go eat."
"I like your way of thinking I said, grabbing a fist full of his shirt and pulling him into me again for another passionate kiss.
"Gabs as much as I want to keep kissing you, we have to stop we will get caught if we keep this up."
Reluctantly I pulled away and agreed running my right hand down his shirt and brushing again the noticeable bulge in his pants.
"Dirty dirty Gabby! Pay backs suck! I will get you back!"
"I was hoping you would say that." I said matter of factly grabbing the bags I dropped on the floor and started walking toward the officers quarters with Matt following behind me.
"Got some fries to go with that shake?" I heard him say laughing
"Nice line Lieutenant, quit looking at my ass!"
"I can't it's a nice ass and it's been a while since I have seen it"
"You are such a sweet talker." I said as we walked into Matts office.
He pulled out and extra chair from by the desk and the pulls out his desk chair and sat down, looking at me and said "where's the trench coat and high heels? Feel like acting out that text?"
"Not here but maybe when you are back at 51 you will get lucky" smirking at him as I opened up my sandwich, handing his to him.
"I might get lucky back at 51 huh"
"Play your cards right and we will see."
All of a sudden Matt leans toward me and runs his thumb across my lower lip and takes his finger and puts it up to his own lips and licks his finger. "You had some mayo on your lip"
"Ahh thank you"
"I wanted to kiss it off your face but then thought there are too many eyes around here and we don't need to start any rumors. People here are still under the impression my girlfriends name is Beth. I don't want to have a cheater rap within the house here. I don't know how much longer I will be here. I talked to Boden yesterday and he is thinking he will be gone for another 2 more months. Donna is getting annoyed with him, but he wants to spend as much time with baby Terrance as he possibly can. Babies grow up way to fast and this will be his only son."
"Oh I totally understand that and I don't want to be known as the home wrecker either. Some of these people were my family for a couple years too. I wish Boden was coming back sooner, everyone at 51 really misses you. Hell I miss you and having your office to sleep in to so I don't have to listed to Crotis snoring every night."
"So you miss me for my office huh? Not the stolen kisses or hiding in the firehouse having quickies trying not to get caught?"
"It's mostly for your office of course! A girl needs her beauty sleep!" I say rubbing my hand on his inner thigh.
"Gabby you are playing so dirty right now!"
"Oh I know I am, remember I haven't had sex in almost 5 months. I want to have sex so bad. Can we please go find a place? You mentioned the showers with a bench?"
"Gabby are you serious? I don't want to take advantage of you. I haven't held up my end of the deal. Beth is still living in my apartment. I want to make sure we are doing everything like we talked about."
"Matt I am so sure right now, I am getting really hot right now and my panties let's say I might need to leave without them on."
"Gabby you are so fucking hot right now, I want to take you right here right now!"
Suddenly Matt is grabbing my hand pulling me to stand up. He grabs my ass pulls me toward him. I reach for his bulge in his pants and run my hand over it and give it a gentle squeeze. Groaning I hear "God I have missed you. Let's go to someplace more private."
I didn't have to be told twice and just as we are about to walk out of the office toward the showers, I heard the voice I wasn't expecting to hear. I stopped suddenly and Matt runs into my back and I feel his hard member pressed into my ass. "Why did you stop?" He whispers.
"I thought I heard Beth talking in the common room." I said pushing my backside closer to him.
Groaning and pulling me closer Matt speaks into my ear in a hushed voice "Gabs she doesn't come here, she only has been here one other time, I doubt today she would stop by just to say 'Hi' to me."
I rub up my ass up and down to turn Matt on a little bit more and to get myself more worked up when I reach up and pull his lips close to mine and whisper "If you say so." Finishing off with a quick peck on the lips.
We almost run to the lock room when we are about to run past the common room when we both look in and see Beth sitting at the table talking with Ella and her partner.
"Shit! What the fuck is she doing here?" Matt says angrily to me
"I am not sure but she can't see that I am here. She will cause a scene. Thank you for the little make out session and for showing me what is to come. I guess I will take another rain check on the hot sex. I am so frustrated right now…. You have no idea baby." I sighed in frustration.
"I am sorry again and I am frustrated too. Seeing her was a quick way to loose the bulge in my pants though."
"Are you trying to make me feel better? Because it's working! I am going to run back to your office and grab my purse and bag. I will sneak out the back. I will text or call you later."
"I love you! Thanks for lunch"
"Anytime" I called over my shoulder as I sprinted toward Matts office to get my stuff. I needed to get out of there before Beth saw me. Just as I was turning around with my purse and bag the door opens to Matts office and is slammed shut.
"Why the hell are you here at the firehouse in my boyfriends office?"
Slowly turning around I look at Beth and tried to walk past her without saying anything. She grabs my arm and yells "Again why the fuck are you here?"
I tried yanking my arm away but her long manicured nails were digging into my wrist. "Let go of me right now or I will scream and cause an even bigger scene that you are causing right now, The proof is already on my arm by the imprint and bruise that is already starting to form from you. Who will they believe? I hate to break it to you Beth, but I have worked with most of the people in this firehouse for a few years before moving to 51. I don't owe you an explanation as to why I was here, but I will tell you to just to shut your fucking mouth up so you don't ruin Matts reputation and possible career at this firehouse too. I was in Logan Square shopping and decided to bring lunch to my friend Matt. We finished our lunch and I was just getting ready to leave. So if you so kindly will remove your hand off of me and move out of my way, I will be leaving."
I tried to pull my arm away and she grabbed harder "If you think you are going to get your hands back on Matt you have another thing coming you little slut! He choose me over you so you better just leave him the hell alone. You are not allowed anywhere near him! Do I make myself clear?"
As she let go of my arm and give it a shove toward me. I grabbed my arm and started rubbing the nail marks.
"You think you are so sure of yourself huh Beth!"
"What is that suppose to mean?" She snapped
"Oh I don't know, why don't you think of what you just said!" I smiled
"I don't get it!"
"You are dumber than you look then!"
"Tell me what you mean by that you little bitch!" She said her voice getting louder again.
"Seriously Beth resorting to name calling? Are you that insecure that you have to put down others to make yourself feel better?"
"Matt loves me not you! He told me he never loved you! He was with you for just the sex." She was yelling at me.
"Keep your voice down! Just then people started walking toward the office I noticed out of the corner of my eye.
"I will not, I have more right to be here than you do! Quit trying to come between Matt and I! You are not welcome in his life!"
Just then Matt came around the corner, he smiled at me and said "Beth who the hell are you to say who can and can't be in my life?"
Beth whipped around so fast and ran to him running her hand around him into a hug. "Thank God you showed up when you did, Gabby was yelling at me and calling me names. I just don't want her to be around us anymore baby."
"Are you serious, you are playing that card again? Beth you need to leave and I will talk to you later at home." He said pushing her toward the door.
Turning to me, "Gabs I am so sorry she attacked you and caused a scene."
"It's alright, I feel bad that you have to clean up her mess and deal with this at work. It is so disrespectful for a signification other to come into a firehouse like that. Her out of everyone should know since her ex husband is a chief." I said staring right at Beth
"Whatever Gabriela! You keep talking all high and mighty, the truth will come out!"
"Again I believe I said you are not allowed to call me that and if you threatened me again like you have the past couple of times I have seen you, I will put a restraining order on you so fast."
"You can't do that."
"Yes I can, and I have connection in CPD too! I am not afraid to use them either!"
"Matt do something!" She whined
"I did, I told you to go home. I will talk to you later. You are making this even worse for me. Now get out of the firehouse or I will have the chief escort you out!" Matt yelled.
Turning she left with a huff and pushed past the group of onlookers that had gathered outside of Matts office.
"Everyone please go back to what you were doing. I apologize that you had to see that."
We heard a bunch of "No worried Lieutenant" and "We don't know what you are talking about" "We've all been there" and a "Good luck when you get home!"
"Thanks guys!"
After everyone had went back to what they were doing, Matt grabs by hand and pulls me into a hug. I loose it then and let the tears fall that I was holding back.
"What are we doing? We can't do this, she attacked me Matt!" I said showing him my arm.
He picked up my arm and ran his fingers over the bruise and gently kissed it. "I can't believe that bitch did this to you! I am so sorry, I should have distracted her while you were getting your stuff."
"Umm yes, where did you go?"
"Someone had me pretty excited and hard and I had to go to the bathroom and take care of things before I walked up to Beth. I didn't need to walk around with a huge bulge in my pants, these super sexy polyester officer pants don't leave much to the imagination babe!"
"I can't believe we were going to have sex in the showers. It's probably a good thing we didn't actually. Imagine if she would have walked in on us having sex. Both our careers would be over in the CFD." I started crying again!
"Gabs, please don't cry, after this shift I am going to talk with her I promise. I want her out of our life. I want to fix things with us. You deserve so much more and I have been such an ass. I don't deserve you." Matt said with tears in his eyes kissing the top of my head and pulling me into his embrace.
Sniffing, I looked up at him and smiled "We can do this, you and me!"
"Yes we can! This is just a bump in the road, we will get through this!"
"I better get going this time. I am really tired and need to get some sleep. I have to work at Molly's tonight!"
"Oh man, so that means no sexting tonight huh?"
"I am afraid not Lieutenant, but I bet the guys from 51 would love it if you could swing in even for 5 minutes between calls."
"I might just have to do that so I can sneak you in the back and have a hot make out session between the beer kegs, just like old times."
"Keep talking like that lieutenant and we will be taking a walk to the showers again."
I lean up and pull him into a quick kiss, not caring if anyone walks by and sees us at this point. I just needed Matt to kiss and hold me. The quick kiss turned into a hot makes me go weak in the knees kiss. Matts hands slides down my back and grabs my ass and he pulls me even closer to him. I gasp as he is picking me up and I wrap my legs around him. He walks me back to his bed and lays me down never breaking the kiss. I finally pull away and notice the gift bag sitting by my purse and was brought back to reality of why I was really there.
"Matt we need to talk about why I stopped in the first place."
"I am all ears" he said grabbing my hands and pulling me into a sitting position on the bed.
I take a deep breath and I all of a sudden got hit with a wave of nausea. I put my hand to my mouth and ran to the garbage can by his desk and started to throw up. Matt was behind me just as fast rubbing my back and holding my hair back asking if I was okay. Shaking my head yes, asking for him to give me a minute. He hands me a bottle of water and I stand up. He pulls my hand and we go sit back on the bed. Matt sitting as close to me as possible our legs touching.
"Gabs what was that about? Are you okay?"
"Yeah I think so, I just started feeling nauseous all of a sudden. Must be because of my lack of sleep and the stress and excitement we just experienced. I am fine now." I said rubbing my hand on his leg.
"If you are sure." He said with a expression that said he wasn't buying what I was saying.
"Anyway so what do you want to talk about?"
"Well I got you something, it will start the conversation going on what I want to talk to you about." I said standing up and going to retrieve the gift bag.
I walk over and start to hand the bag to Matt. "Promise me, you won't be mad or upset with me please!" I plead.
"Gabby you are scaring me! Please just let me see what is in there!"
"Ok" I noticed my hands are shaking when I go to hand Matt the gift bag.
Just then, like clockwork "Truck 77, Ambulance 21, House Fire 2122 W Armitage Ave"
"Damn it!" I groan and snatched the bag out of Matts hands.
"Shit! Gabby you called it! Damn Bells!"
"We will talk later! I promise babe! Be safe!"
"Always." And with that he turned and ran out of his office toward the truck.
I sat on the bed for a few more seconds collecting my thoughts before I got up and left the office and walked out to my car. Just as I got outside on the driveway, the truck pulled out of the bay door and honked at me. Just then my phone dinged with a text
Matt: Nice Ass Gabby, that was me honking the truck horn at you! I can't believe the damn bells went off!
Gabby: Ha ha! I figured as much! The bells go off at the wrong time all the time. We know that!
Matt: I will talk to you soon! I love you! Xoxoxo
Gabby: Be safe! I am going home to crash. I will be at Molly's at 6pm tonight.
Matt: I have a lot to lose if I am not safe. I gotta go and get ready we are pulling up the fire, it looks like a big one. Xoxo
I put my phone back into my pocket and got into my car tossing my purse and the gift bag on the passenger seat. No sense in texting back because he won't get it and I don't want to distract him from doing his job. I put my car in drive and headed home. After parking my car, I grabbed my purse and walked into the house and upstairs to my room. I was glad Kelly wasn't anywhere to ask me how my morning went. I was too tired and exhausted to even think about it. I changed into a pair of CFD sweats and one of Matts old CFD T-shirts that I love to wear and crawled into bed. I think I was asleep before my head hit my pillow.