The following happens the night Bella goes to the movies and has her first Edward vision
Chapter 6
Surprisingly despite his relatively dangerous and anxiety filled life, fear itself is not something he feels terribly often. Or rather more accurately, fear is not something he has neither the luxury nor the time (keep going, can't stop, protect protect protect) to allow himself to feel.
Fear is a mind killer (Fright Knight, blade to the chest, soul shredder) it makes you react. He's not a juggernaut, he can't afford to be reacting, he has to be able to think, plan, analyze. If he can't think then he makes mistakes and it's not just him who pays for it (red eyes, family trapped, Danielle melting, Valerie raging, pain, pain pain).
Isabella Swan is scaring him right now.
"So… you didn't go see FacePunch?" he asks awkwardly, it's a terrible question, but he's afraid and reacting, and grasping at whatever he can reach.
There's a moment of silence
"…Jess didn't want to see it" Iz finally mumbles, it takes her forever to respond and hardly seems aware of the words that fall out of her mouth; the despondency in her voice does not abide his fears.
It's nearly five a.m., he stayed up all night for her call(sunrise, is she safe, protect, protect, protect) he aches and feels physically sick and a part of him somewhat hates her for making him lose the little amount of rest his body will allow him to claim, for rousing his obsessions(protect protect protect) like this, for having him so wrapped around her though he knows Iz couldn't possibly know who she's reminding him of so badly right now ("you can try", "whatever you say TeenAngst", "I got you").
Her answers are stilted in a way that they hadn't even been back in the oh so painful beginning; the beginning where it was a chore just to get her to say her name, the beginning where he had to talk like his mouth was on fire cause he had no idea what was bothering her and he needed to find something, anything, that would connect with this kid, the beginning when his obsession tagged her as something that was in desperate need of his help and protection(broken, kitten, sandpaper voice, protect protect pro-)
"Wanna hear about the time my sister accidently shot me?" he asks a little desperately, for the shock value, because no one sane can ignore a statement like that no matter how distracted; words like 'shoot', 'shot', 'gun', 'sex', 'money' are conversational trigger words.
He dares not interrogate her out right, because he knows if he just straight up points out that something is wrong she'll clam up tight and never open up again. She might not even call him up ever again, and then his obsession will take over and he'll act like a crazy stalker boyfriend and ask Tuck to track her down and that's after he blows up her phone and gets himself restraining order.
This isn't the first time this has happened, he once tried to help little Danielle with her own psychosis, after he stopped being silently disturbed by her presence, and she in turn indulged in one of her own obsessions and took off to the wind. It had taken them months to get over that and even then the only reason she'd come back was the rational human part of her mind needed to have a few weeks of having a home (closet) and feeling safe.
Fear made people react in ways that could be basically boiled down to fight (yelling, screaming, tears in the eyes, "Why won't you tell us where you're going!") or flight ("I hope we can still be friends", "You're not my Dad, Danny!", "I have to, they'd tear me apart molecule by molecule")
Terror on the other hand makes people freeze, there is no reaction and people just let outside forces take control of the situation because they're mind can't comprehend how to proceed, because fight and flight have been neutralized as options.
For Danny terror means turning off that human part of his mind, it means a creature of obsession and emotion takes control, it means shit so bad is happening that the boy who uses witty banter even when a gun is pointed to his face can't even think.
"… That's great Danny" Iz says in a tone like people, the world, and life itself is nothing but a distraction
He can't help but think about the last time he talked to that someone that he knew was in trouble like how Iz is in trouble (I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine) sounding so distracted.
…police department are you friends with… alcohol…news… we're sorry…
And Danny feels terrified
