I´m so sorry

"Where is the damn thing?" I asked, more to myself than to anyone else. I was searching my room for dad´s roundel. It was not that I needed it. I just wanted to have it, I was gonna put it in a special place, even though I wasn´t sure where yet. I searched through the pockets on dad´s old jacket, took a look at the outside on it, searched on the floor in the wardrobe, and in all of the drawers under the desk and in my bedside table, any place it could possibly be. But at last I had to give up. I walked out of my room, and half ran down the stairs and to the kitchen.

"JESS." I shouted when I saw her by the table. "Where is my roundel?"

"I have no idea." She said indifferently.

"Jess." I grabbed her shirt, and pulled her closer to me. "If you don´t give me my roundel now..."

"Then what? You´ll run off to Mike and tell him I´m mean…" Okay, this was it, I could not take it anymore, when Jess spoke up again.

"At least I didn´t wish my own parents dead, just to have my brother." I took a step back, how did she know? I could not breath, I could hear my heart pounding when blood flashed through my head, while I took two steps forward and pulled Jess onto the floor, everything I could think was, I really wanted her to feel the same pain she made me feel.

Mike pov

I half- ran towards the kitchen when Harry had warned me about that Emma and Jess would start fighting when I heard the shouting, I ran into the kitchen, and spot Emma and Jess on the floor, Emma was on top, I ran forward, and grabbed her shirt, but at the same time Rick was trying to pull her away from Jess from the back, and Jordan pushed her from the side, with the conclusion that with a loud bang. Emma was thrown head first into the kitchen counter.

Emma pov

"EMMA." Mike was next to me, right after I was pushed by Jordan. "Emma lay still okay." I sat up and got up on my feet.

"I´m fine." I said, because I was and then turned around and walked out of the kitchen.

Mike pov

"This was Jess´ own fault!" Rick said. While Jess held an ice- bag to her head. "She talked about Emma´s family, claiming that she would never wish her parents dead if that meant she could have her brother."

"You did WHAT?" I looked to Jess. "Jess, that is very seirious, I don´t know what the rules were where you were before, but here, at Elm Tree House, we do not, speak bad about each other´s families. There is no excuse for that, and I don´t know where you got it from that Emma would wish her parents dead."

"I heard them talking about it," Jess nodded to Gina.

"Doesn´t give you an excuse to use it against her," Tracy said.

"And you can´t actually say that you´d choose our parents before me, it´s not like you ever knew them."

"Gus?" I looked to Gus who had been sitting by the table all along. "Can you tell us everything that happened?"

"Yes, Emma came running into the kitchen, she slowed down when she came in, and started shouting at Jess. She asked Jess where her roundel was"

"I haven´t got her stupid roundel, why would I have it?" Jess muttered.

"I´m not finished." Gus continued. "Jess answered that she had no idea, that means she doesn´t know. Emma said Jess´ name again, then she grabbed Jess´ collar, and pulled her so she held Jess´ face quite close to her own, that´s what someone does when they want to fight. And Emma continued with if Jess wouldn´t giveEmma her roundel now, she never finished that sentence. Because Jess interrupted Emma and said, then what? Will Emma run off to Mike and tell him Jess is mean. Emma seemed to be really angry then, but Jess spoke again, and said, at least she didn´t wish her own parents dead just to have her brother. Emma started fighting with Jess and got her down to the floor, then you, Mike came running, you grabbed Emma´s shirt and tried to pull her away from Jess, at the same time that Rick pulled in the other direction and Jordan pushed her really her, that´s what caused Emma to be thrown into the kitchen counter then there was a loud bang, end of story."

"Thank you Gus," I said. "Gina, Tracy, go to the office, I´ll go check how Emma´s doing then I´ll be there."

"Are you gonna kick us out?" Jordan asked. I sighed and put my hands in my pockets.

"No, we´re not gonna give up on you."

Emma pov

"Emma, are you in there?" I could hear a knock on my door and Mike talking to me. I sat on my bed with my back against the wall and my arms around my knees.

"Yes." I said.

"Can I come in?"

"Sure," I hid my papers with the calenders I had made under my pillow. Mike opened the door and came in.

"You´re okay?"

"Yes."

"Sure, you seemed to hit your head quite hard."

"Really, I´m fine Mike, promise."

"I really was fine, though even I could not understand how I could be thrown into that counter without getting a headache. I should have understood I would have a seizure later, should have understood that the lack of headache was too good to be true. Just about half an hour later, I walked down to the lounge, I looked around the place, Jody sat with Harry in the sofas, watching some kids´ programme, Rick and Tyler were playing pool, Carmen and Lily sat by the table, the rest I did not know where they were, I started turning around to go somewhere else, but I never got so far as the headache hit me with full power, though this didn´t feel like a seizure usually would, and I collapsed, while pain flashed through my body.

Mike pov

I was still in the office with Gina and Tracy, when Emma´s screams echoed through Elm Tree House. I stood up and with both Gina and Tracy after me, I ran to the lounge where the screams came from. Emma was on the floor seizuring, but this wasn´t as it usually was, Emma had her eyes open, and I could see just by looking in her eyes, that she was fully conscious and awake. Though I had kept looking at her eyes for a bit too long,and hadn´t spot that Jody sat on her knees next to Emma, and for a second when Emma wasn´t seizuring.

"JODY…. NO." I took a jump forward to push Jody away, but too late, Emma started seizuring again, and her hand was clentched, the seizuring made her loads stronger than she had been when she wasn´t seizuring, and now Emma wasn´t the only one screaming of the pain. I ran forward and tried to pull Emma´s hand open so she´d let go of Jody before she broke her fingers. But I wasn´t strong enough, and I turned around to meet Rick´s eyes.

"Rick," I said. Trying to stay calm. "Have you got your phone?" Rick nodded and pulled out his cellphone.

"Call 999, tell them we need an ambulance, and that we´ve got one epileptic seizuring awake, and one girl with a possibly broken hand. You can´t speak in the phone in here, so go pout in the garden and call okay?" Rick nodded and ran out of the room. I grabbed Emma´s hand once more to trying to make her let go of Jody. For a split second Emma stopped seizuring, at least in her hand and Jody could pull her hand out of Emma´s. Tracy and Gina was next to Emma so I started checking Jody´s hand.

"Oh no," I looked up and saw Jordan and Jess by the door, Jordan was the one gasping. "What have I done?"

"Oh come on Jord´ Jess said. She´s faking it, can´t you see she´s faking it."

"All right Jess, that´s enough." I said. "First, it´s very clear that she´s NOT faking it. Second, she would never do that and you know it. THIRD. If you haven´t got anything else to say, then LEAVE."

"Chill out old man," Jordan stood still, but Jess turned around and walked away, at the same time Rick came running.

"I´ve still got the SOS service on the phone," he said. "But an ambulance it´s on its way."

"Good…. Good Rick." I sat down next to Jody in the sofa and comforted her for her hand and fear, while Harry as well came running to me, obviously very afraid. Gus was in the corner, writing everything in his notebook, Lily and Carmen sat by the table comforting each other. Tyler and Rick stood by the pool table, they both looked really scared, Rick had his arm around Tyler´s shoulder. Frank and Jordan stood in the door, and it sounded like Frank was trying to confince Jordan that he wasn´t the one to blame about this. And though everything that was going on, I could not help to feel proud of my kids, for the fact that they were there for each other.

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