Alex raised her hand and lowered it for the fifth time since she stopped outside Huang's door. She was truly terrified to step into the office and discuss her darkest secrets. Cragen and the guys only knew the icing on the cake. If she walked in there and started to tell Huang she needed to be totally honest with him and tell everything, everything that she had worked so hard to erase and forget. Then again if she wanted to be the type of woman that Olivia deserved she had to empty her closet of all her demons.

"You know it helps if you actually knock on the door." Olivia said from where she was standing.

"Olivia what are you doing here?" Alex asked after she was able to calm her heartbeat down.

"I'm here for support Alex." Olivia said taking a small step toward Alex "I know how hard it is to take that first step. I'm pretty sure the first time I ever arrived to talk to him outside of a case I stood where you stood for close to an hour. At one point I even left and was heading out of the building but turned around and came back."

"You're…you're going to go in there with me?" Alex asked suddenly terrified there were things she never wanted Olivia to discover and if she walked in there with her she would discover them.

"Not unless you want me to."

"No." Alex shouted out quickly but the corrected herself "I mean not yet anyways."

"Then I won't" Olivia whispered as she reached out and caressed the side of Alex's face "I'm just here to support you and that's all. If you want me to walk away and pretend I never saw you here I will. I will go home and wait for you. If you want me to knock on the door for you and walk away I will. If you want me to stand right here till you're done then I will. That Alex is a ball you have to play. Now what part of the court are you going to throw it in?"

Alex glanced at Huang's door and then back to Olivia. She leaned forward and placed a gentle kiss on Olivia's lips. She couldn't help but think how Jess wouldn't give her the options she was just given. Jess would force her way into the meeting to monitor what was being said and how much was being said.

"Will you wait for me?"

"Where do you want me to wait?" Olivia asked

"Right here."

"Very well" Olivia said reaching out and pulling a chair to her "I will be right here waiting on you. But I want you to do something for me?"

"Ok"

"When you're done I would like you to join me for a night out on the town."

"Last time we tried that Jess attacked me." Alex choked out suddenly terrified and glancing in every direction.

"This time you will not be left alone at all." Olivia said trying to catch Alex's eyes "I promise you with my life that I will not let her near you."

"Where do you want to go?"

"I was thinking a nice dinner and then maybe some dancing or a movie." Olivia said "But we can do anything you want to do. It doesn't matter to me."

"You dance?" Alex asked shocked. She had never once seen or had ever had Olivia hint at dancing.

"Not well but enough to leave the women wondering." Olivia said knowing the old saying that how you move on the dance floor showed how you moved in the bedroom.

"Olivia I hate to break it to you but one look at you and the women wonder what type of lover and partner you are."

"Do you?" Olivia asked as she slowly backed Alex against the wall and laid a gentle kiss on her neck.

"Do I what?" Alex asked as she stumbled over her words her hands flattening against the wall to brace herself.

"Wonder what type of lover I am? What type of partner I am?" Olivia asked as she nipped at Alex's ear lobe.

"No" Alex said as confident as she could.

"I think you're lying to me." Olivia whispered into Alex's ear

"I'm not." Alex said feeling her confidence develop even more.

"Why is that?" Olivia asked

"Because Olivia" Alex said pushing her back so she could look into her eyes "There is no doubt in my mind that you will be as gentle and as caring with me in the bed as you are with me out of the bed."

"Why do you feel that?" Olivia asked knowing that she was probably pushing Alex too far too fast.

"Because."

"Because isn't an answer." Olivia said stepping back "I want to know why. You know why, I know why, but I want to hear you say why."

"Because you're not Jess." Alex finally said knowing that she never would have to worry about her safety with Olivia no matter what. God lord Olivia had proven that time and time again even when she had trouble controlling her anger in the beginning. No matter how bad or violent Olivia got she knew she would never be hurt by her. The safety she felt with her scared her and amazed her at the same time.

"Thank you." Olivia said as she kissed Alex knowing full well what it took for Alex to confess that too her and what it took for her to do so "thank you."

"I guess I need to go have a conversation with Huang." Alex said trying to keep eye contact with Olivia but feeling unsure of not only herself but what she was about to do.

"You do Alex" Olivia whispered as she took a seat "Remember you control the conversation. If you don't feel like talking about something or you're not ready to fully discuss something with him you can stop it. If it gets too much I will be right here to help you fight the demons."

"Thank you." Alex said taking a deep breath as she raised her hand and knocked on Huang's door. This was certainly going to be a test of her ability to keep herself composed. One that she hoped she could pass and wouldn't have to rely on Olivia for. With a finally look over her shoulder she received the last bit of encouragement from the smile she gave her as she turned to the sound of the door opening.

A/N: Two updates in two days. I know its been a long time since that has happened. I'm sorry but the criminals do insist on taking my time at times. I'm glad that everyone loved the last update and I hope that everyone will love this update as well.