"Alex" Huang said as he opened the door glancing over her shoulder to Olivia and then back to Alex "Is everything ok?"

"I need to talk to you." Alex said taking the final steps needed for recovery.

"Please come in" Huang said stepping to the side to allow her to pass "Olivia are you coming?"

"No Huang" Olivia said as she stretched her legs out and laced her hands behind her head "I'm only here as support this is all Alex."

Huang looked from Olivia to Alex and then back to Olivia. He had been read in on the case concerning Alex but was instructed to have no knowledge of it if ever asked. He had agreed never once questioning the order coming from Elliot as he had towered over him in his office that day. The loyalty that the unit he was assigned to astounded him on a daily basis.

"I will get you if we need you." Huang said as he shut the door softly behind him. "Alex please have a seat."

"Thanks but I prefer to stand if you don't mind "Whatever makes you comfortable" Huang replied as he took his seat and watched her with his eyes. He could tell that she was nervous and really wasn't sure where to start "Alex before you begin I need to ask you something."

'OK" She said as she stopped pacing and looked at him.

"Why are you here?"

"Why do you ask me? Think about it why else would I be here outside of a professional capacity."

"I meant are you here for Olivia or are you here for you."

"Does it matter?"

"Yes"

"How"

"Because if you're here for Olivia we will accomplish nothing and you will only tell me what I need to know and I want be able to treat you for the full issue at hand. If you are here for you then you will be totally honest with me and we will be able to accomplish plenty. So again I will ask you are you here for Olivia or are you here for you?"

"Her, Me, well both actually."

"Which one is tipping the scale?"

"For me." Alex said after taking a deep breath and being totally honest with herself "But I'll be the first to tell you Olivia is pulling a close second. I do mean very close."

"I can see that." Huang said with a smile and then laughed when Alex spun around and gave him a deer in the head light look. "Alex don't look so shock, I maybe a doctor but I am also an agent and we are taught to be very observant. Now start when you are ready.'

"I met Jess at a bar one night." Alex finally said almost so low that Huang had to strain to hear her "There was something that drew me to her. I do mean her Huang. I am gay I just don't exactly advertise it."

"Great I am too" Huang said with a knowing grin "Maybe one day you can meet my boyfriend and we can all go to dinner."

"Oh ok" Alex said unable to mask the shock on her face "Anyways. There was something that drew me to her and we talked until the club closed. When we went to part ways we swapped phone numbers which allow me to point out that is something that I never do. I never pick up at a bar."

"I'm not here to judge." Huang stated

"About a week later she called me. We met for coffee and really hit it off without the added benefit of alcohol. Pretty soon we were having regular dates and everything seemed great, almost perfect like. You know like every woman dreams of thanks to Hollywood but never get."

"How so?"

"She would hold the door open for me, pull my chair out, take my jacket or assist me getting it on. She treated me like I was a princess, her princess. No one had ever done that before and I was starting to think I may have found the one. You know after years of coming to the conclusion that I would be alone forever or spend my life with Mrs. Right now not Mrs. Right."

"What happened?"

"Everything, I do mean everything, was perfect to the point that I had told my parents I had met someone and wanted to bring them home over thanksgiving. That's saying a lot there."

"When did it change?" Huang asked trying a different method of questions. I had came home after a long day of work and she was standing in my living room. I thought she was there to surprise me. She had done that on several occasions. Been there waiting on me usually with a candle light dinner or a nice hot bath ran for me. I was so happy to see her that I walked up to hug and kiss her when she smacked me. She smacked me so hard that I fell on the couch. The hate and anger I saw in her eyes and face terrified me to my soul."

"Did she say anything when she hit you?'

"Wanted to know why the hell was I trying to kiss and hug her when it was so obvious I wanted dick that I was playing her and making her look like a fool to all her friends. I stumbled backwards scared and ordered her out of my house and to never comeback."

"But she did come back and you took her back." Huang said pointing out the obvious.

"Yeah later that night. She woke me up beating on my door. I tried to ignore it but she kept getting louder and louder so I finally decided to answer it before she woke the whole damn neighbor hood. When I opened the door she stood there soaked to the bone crying her eyes out. She begged for my forgiveness and explained that she had shown up at my work to surprise me for lunch. She had seen me talking to a male co-worker and apparently I laid my hand on his arm and laughed like I did with her. She told me that the longer she sat at my house and thought about it the madder she became. That by the time I finally made it home she was so furious that she couldn't even see straight, that when she looked at me she saw him and me together. That when she really smacked me she was smacking my co-worker, God I can't believe I was so weak." Alex mumbled as she wrapped her arms around her body.

"Alex you weren't weak and never was weak at anytime she was abusing you. You did what every woman who was abused has done. You took her back hoping and praying that it was a onetime event and if I know abusers you probably thought it was."

"You have no clue. It was a magical month.' Alex said as she smiled at one of the few good memories she had of Jess after the abuse started "She showered me with so much love and kindness I had forgotten about the incident. I really and truly thought it was a onetime event."

"It wasn't was it?"

"No. I had to work late one night. I had been so engrossed on preparing for trial that I lost track of time. When I realized what time it was I quickly threw everything in my briefcase and rushed home. As soon as I walked through the door she knocked me into the wall. I struggled to get to my feet as she told me she should have known that a slut like me would have to work late. Now she knew how I was a top notch attorney. I slept my way to the top. I told her to get out and if she came back I would call the cops. She told me I wasn't calling anyone as she shoved me back into the wall and choked me till I passed out."

Huang followed Alex with his eyes as she paced the room.

"When I came to she had me handcuffed to the bed. The look on her face made my blood run cold when she told me that she was going to make me hate men, show me what I was missing."

"Alex what did she do?"

"She She raped me repeatedly" Alex said breaking down in tears and crumbling to the floor. "I begged and begged for her to stop. It was like the more I pleaded the harder she went. The more she seemed to enjoy it. When I became quiet and decided that this was my fate she became so rough. She would slap me and thrust so hard that I would scream in pain."

"Alex we both know that a rapist thrives on control and anger."

"I hurt so bad the next morning and couldn't stop bleeding. I knew I needed to go to the hospital but if I did they would insist on a report. She told me that if I told anybody that it would be even worse. That I would wish I was dead. I was so weak."

"Alex you were far from weak." Huang said as he stood and made his way slowly over to Alex so not to scare her. He could tell that she was teetering on going into a flashback. "Alex I think we have covered enough for today. I would like to see you again on a regular basis."

"I don't think I can do this." Alex whispered in an almost childlike voice.

"Ok When you are ready to continue you know where to find me." Huang told her as years of experience had taught him that forcing someone to talk was never helpful. "Let me help you up and to Olivia."

"Thank you" Alex said accepting his help. She smiled when he opened the door and she saw Olivia in the same position she had left her. To anyone who didn't know her it would appear as if she was asleep and unaware of her surroundings. To her the slight almost unnoticeable raise of her eyebrow told Alex differently. One look at Olivia and she knew that as much as she dreaded it and thought that she couldn't continue with the therapy that she had to.

"Same time tomorrow?" Alex asked.

"That will be fine." He told her with smile on his face as he watched Alex willingly go into Olivia's open arms.

A/N: My deepest apologies for taking so long to update this story. I want to thank everyone for being patient and staying with me through the gaps of updates. I am so thankful and grateful that you take the time out of your day to read my stories. Thank you.