Touch My Heart - Chapter 7
A/N - First of all, I would like to thank everyone for the kind heart felt comments and reviews for this story. Keep them coming! I have a few special thanks to send out for this chapter starting with Christina Phillips for "Will's Day dream sequence she wrote in this chapter. It's amazing and exactly what I was lokking for. I would also like to thank Jen (Rescuemama2007) for her help with one of my POV's that I was blocked on. Thanks for filling up those empty lines I left behind. And most of all, thanks to Amber for doing an amazing Job with Jackson's (Sonny's coming soon) POV's and making them original and his own. I couldn't do this without you. And last, I hope this chapter will start answering a few questions that I've been asked about what happened to Will a few years ago. It's slowly gonna start coming together in the next chapters, so I will need you to be patient for a little while longer! So, this is it! Here is Touch My Heart chapter 7 - Roxy and Amber.
(Sonny's POV)
I was sitting in my literature class getting a head start on the final paper that is due at the end of the year. As I was writing out the paper my thoughts kept going to Will and the day I first held his hand. If I had known that it was going to feel as awesome as it did then I would have done it sooner. The feeling of his soft skin on mine was amazing and also the hugs always made me feel safe.
I shake my head to end the daydream that I was having so that I could focus back on my paper. Today seemed to be a harder day for me to focus because my thoughts kept going back to Will so when the bell rang I left the classroom after the last person left. I missed Will so much that I couldn't wait until lunch time to see him. I had memorized his schedule so that I could find him if I really needed him.
Once I reach his classroom I see that all the students have already left and I was worried that I might have missed him but I heard his voice inside the room, "Um, excuse me sir? Is everything alright?"
I peeked around the corner.
"Oh, yes Mr. Horton. Everything is great."
The teacher looked over Will's shoulder and saw me.
Will still didn't turn around, "You sure? I mean... No offence, but you're acting a little weird Mr. Murphy."
Mr. Murphy looked back at Will, "Oh, I'm sorry Mr. Horton. It's just, I think someone is waiting for you by the door."
Will spun around and his eyes landed on me, he whispered, "Jack..."
He walked over to me, "Hey there gorgeous. What you doing here? Did you miss me already?"
He reached out and took my hand in his and I sighed in relief. This is what I was looking for and I didn't really know it until now. I smiled at him and nodded my head.
"You know, Alex is gonna flip out if he knows you came looking for me. Come on, let me take you back to your next class before he finds out."
I didn't think my smile could get any bigger but it did.
We left Will's class together and headed down the hall toward my art class. Will was silent on the way there but that was okay but I was holding his hand and I was happy with that. After a little while I saw him pull out his cell phone and send a few texts before putting it back in his pocket.
We reached my art class faster than I had wanted too, "Alright, here we are, buddy. You gonna be okay?"
I nodded and went inside my classroom. I was so happy that I got to spend a little more time with him.
(Will's POV)
The bell finally rang marking the end of another very tortuous class with Mr. Murphy our math teacher, who never seems to be able to end class when bell rings. He just keeps going and going...
"Alright class, you have until Thursday to finish up the assignment on fractions and we will have a pop quiz on Friday", he continued and every one just grabbed their stuff and left without even paying attention to him. I however, always waited behind until everyone left the class room so Mr. Murphy didn't feel bad for everyone ignoring him. I think he always knew I did it just to make him feel better, because every time I did, he would smile and say thank you before I left.
As I picked up my books and placed them in my bag and started to head out of the classroom, for the first time ever, Mr. Murphy didn't smile back, "Hum, excuse me sir?", I asked politely, "Is everything alright."
"Oh, yes Mr. Horton. everything's great", he answered and looked over towards the door, which I found very odd. It almost felt like he was telling me to leave or something. Weird!
"You sure? I mean... No offence, but you're acting a little weird Mr. Murphy."
"Oh, I'm sorry Mr. Horton. It's just, I think someone is waiting for you by the door."
As the words left Mr. Murphy's mouth, I turned my head over and saw Jack who was standing by the door looking inside, "Jack...", I whispered softly and walked up to him, "Hey there gorgeous. What you doing here? Did you miss me already?", I asked as I reached out and took his hand into mine.
Jack grinned and nodded a few times.
I couldn't help but smile at the thought of Jack missing me, because deep down inside, I guess I really missed him too. Even though it's only been less than forty minutes since the last time I saw him earlier, "You know, Alex is gonna flip out if he knows you came looking for me. Come on, let me take you back to your next class before he finds out", I offered and Jack gladly accepted with a huge smile.
On our way there, I noticed Chad was watching us both from a distance. He smiled briefly, got up and left the area rather quickly. I couldn't help but wonder if his sudden departure had anything to do with seeing me with Jack. Maybe Chad wasn't okay with me the idea of me hanging out with the younger Kiriakis boy. Chad and I barely kept in touch over the last few weeks. With graduation coming up shortly and me spending most of my time with Jack, I felt kinda guilty for neglecting my best friend for so long. It was then I realized it was time for me to take the first step and text Chad and ask him to meet up with me later today. I took out my cell phone out as we walked and decided to send him a quick text.
- Hey Chad, Wanna hang at lunch?
Sure, man. Meet you out front by the bench?
- Sounds Great!
"Alright, buddy. Here we are", I said to Jack as we reached his math class, "You gonna be okay?"
Jack nodded in accord and happily went inside.
I left Jack in his class room and headed towards my next class and bumped into Alex along the way, "Hey, Alex. What's up?", I asked him when I noticed he looked worried.
"It's Jack. Have you seen him? I've looked all over for him. He wasn't in his class when..."
"Yeah, sorry about that", I quickly cut him off and tried to explain what happened, "Jack kinda made his way to my math class to find me."
"He what? Is he insane?"
"Alex, Calm down. He's fine. Everything's fine. I would never let anyone hurt him, okay?", I said to Alex as I tried to calm him down.
"I know...I'm sorry for over reacting like that. I just..."
"Worry?"
"Yeah...I'm sorry, Will. Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. There's been a change of plans for tonight. My dad's gonna be working later than he originally planned, so I wont have a choice other than to skip both my meetings tonight, so I guess you wont have to pick up Jack after class after all."
My heart just about broke in half when I heard those words come out of Alex's mouth. I was really looking forward to spending this time with Jack tonight in order to sort through some of my feelings and see if there's actually something happening between us, or if it's only something that I've been imagining all this time or am I just confusing my friendship with Jack with something that isn't friendship at all. What if..., "Oh, okay...", I said to Alex and tried very hard to hide the fact that I was completely crushed by this latest turn of events.
"Hey, you look disappointed?", Alex caught on right away, "Did you plans with Jackson tonight? Or am I missing something here?"
"Well, I was kinda hoping to watch a movie with Jack. I was gonna ask your dad if I could bring Jack over to my house after school so I could grab a quick shower before heading back to your house with Jack, and maybe have dinner and watch a movie or something, but it's fine. I get it. Maybe some other time. I gotta go", I explained and tried to get away from Alex before he started making a big deal out of nothing.
"William Horton, get your ass over here, now!", Alex said and made it very clear that he wasn't gonna take no for an answer.
I stopped, "What?", I asked and let out a deep sigh.
"Will, I asked you a question and I didn't really get and answer. Did you or did you not have plans with my brother tonight?"
I took a deep breath before answering, "Yes..."
"Okay, them why didn't you just come out and say so, Will."
"I don't know. I thought maybe you would get the wrong idea, or maybe you would approve of me spending time with Jack after school."
"Will, as much as I hate to admit it, I can't control who my brother likes and dislikes, and I know one thing for sure is that he likes you. A lot actually."
"He does?", I asked Alex in surprise.
"God help me I have no idea why, but yeah. He does. So, I guess if my dad says it's alright with it, then I guess I'm alright with it as well."
"Really?", I asked again just to make sure I heard Alex correctly.
"Yes, really. But, I do have a question that I would like for you to answer before I ask my dad about this", Alex made clear before he continued to speak, "Will, is this like, a date?"
I almost passed out after hearing Alex ask me that question. My heart started racing at the idea of my night with Jack being an actually date. did I want it to be date? Was I ready to admit this to Alex?, "I, hun..."
"Will? I need an answer before I can agree to this."
"I don't know", I answered honestly and waited for Alex to reply back.
"Okay. Fair enough. But, Will?"
"Yeah?"
"Don't hurt him, alright? He's doing better lately and I don't want anything to change that, so please...Don't hurt him", Alex said as he reached inside his jean pocket and handed me over the keys to his house, "I'll tell my dad about you watching Jackson tonight. I should be back by nine."
"Alex, thank you for not...Never mind, just...Thank you for letting me do this, and I promise, I won't ever hurt him, ever."
"I know, Will. I know..."
"Oh, Alex? One last thing?", I asked before he left.
"Yeah?"
"Are you free at lunch to watch Jack today? I wanted to catch up with Chad, but if you can't it's fine. I'll just catch up with him some other day."
"No, I'm free. It's fine. I actually wanted to talk to Jackson anyways."
"Great! Thanks!", I said to Alex as I headed off in the other direction.
(Alex's POV)
Just as Will left, I saw Joey heading towards me.
"Someone looks happy? What's up with him?", Joey asked as he pointed towards Will who was practically skipping through the hall way towards his next class.
"You sure you wanna know?", I asked and grinned.
"Well, yeah."
"I think Will and Jackson have a date tonight", I admitted and frowned at my little brother.
"Seriously? That's great! Are you sure?", he asked and looked a little to happy about the idea of Jack and Will possibly dating.
"Well, Will didn't come out and say it, but I saw it in his eyes. Joey, I think Will's falling in love with Jackson."
"You say that like it's a bad thing."
I took a deep breath, "It might be. What if he breaks Jackson's heart, Joey? Jackson's grown very fawn of Will and lately, I can see in the way that Jackson looks at him that he's also falling for him, hard."
"I see...Does dad know about this?"
"Yeah, I think he does."
"And?"
"And he's alright with it."
"Alex, maybe it's time that we let Jackson make his own decisions for once. If he likes Will and if he's happy with him, who are we to stop him from being happy. You have to admit it, Alex. Jackson's never been so happy before. He's smiling, laughing, and most importantly, he's opening up to Will."
"I know..."
"Plus, Will's a totally babe", Joey added.
"Joey!"
"It's true. Have you seen the guy? Every time he walks into a room every damn girl at Salem High stares at him. With that blond hair and those blue eyes...", Joey went on, "He's hot!"
"Do you have any idea how gay you sound right now?", I said and laughed.
"Yeah, so? Just stating the obvious."
"Whatever! Let's go before we're late again."
"Always the good brother!", Joey pointed out and smirked.
"Someone has to be. Hey, Joey? I'm watching Jack at lunch. You gonna join us?"
"Sure, where?"
"Jackson's math class."
"Alright! Meet you there. Later, Alex."
Joey was right about one thing though. Will was indeed a very good-looking young man. And that worried me some. With ninety percent of the Salem High ladies flaunting over him, I couldn't help but wonder how could Jack ever measure up to that? Would Jack be enough to finally snatch the young Horton's heart? Or was Jackson just a phase that Will would grow out of once he got bored? Now more than ever, I need to have that talk with Jackson, before something happens between them and I'm the one who's left with picking up the pieces of my younger brother's broken heart. Guess only time will tell...
(Sonny's POV)
Math class was sort of a revelation for me because I learned something about myself that I didn't fully know before. It all started when I walked into class and heard these two girls behind me talking about their boyfriends, "Megan I can't even begin to describe my feelings toward Adam. He makes me feel all safe and comfortable in his presence."
I frowned thinking that is the exact way I feel about Will. He made me feel safe and also comfortable.
Megan laughed, "I know exactly what you mean. Heath makes me feel the same way but he also makes me smile all the time. Both when he is with me and when he is not with me. I can't help but have a smile on my face at the thought of him. Does Adam make you feel the same way Sarah?"
I didn't hear anything so I looked to my left so that I could see her from the corner of my eye and I could see that she was nodding her head vigorously, "I can't help but think about him all the time too. It's like he has made a special little place in my head and also my heart."
There was a pause before she spoke again, "I also get this fluttery feeling in my stomach when I see him."
Soon their words were drowned out by the thoughts flying through my head. All of what these girls were saying also consisted with me. Like, I thought about Will all the time now and I also smile whenever I see him or think about him. And like I said before he also made me feel safe and comfortable. But I wasn't sure about the fluttering thing because I never paid attention before so I guess I will have to pay attention next time.
Throughout the rest of the class my thoughts were on Will again and I wasn't even sure what the teacher was even talking about.
(Will's POV)
Lunch time finally came around and it felt kinda weird not having lunch with Jack today. I've spent all my time with him lately and I felt like I needed some time to sort through my feelings and see things from someone else's point of view. I just hope I can get myself to bring up the subject with Chad and see what he might think of this whole situation with me and Jack and everything else...
As I was waiting for Chad, I kept going over and over what I was actually going to say to him when he got here. I've dealt with so much over the past few weeks, that I've kinda lost track of our friendship. Chad's always been there for me, through pretty much everything shitty that I've ever been through. He's probably the only person who's always stood by my side no matter what. Even after what happened at camp two years ago after my dad flipped out and wanted to send me to military school. Chad somehow convinced him that it wasn't the right thing to do at the time, and that I was confused and scared, and for me to stay here in Salem with my grandma was best. God only knows where I would be right now if it hadn't been for him. I practically owe him my life, because if Chad wouldn't have done the things that he did, I would have never met Jack, which is my other dilemma. The feelings that I'm developing for Jack is beyond my ability to control It's getting harder and harder with every day that pass to hide them. And to be honest, I'm not sure I want to hide these feelings any longer, but how can I sure? How do I know if Jack's the one I've been waiting for all my life...
"Horton", Chad screamed out and pulled my out of my thoughts, causing me to almost have a heart attack.
"Fuck! Man, you trying to kill me? God... What the hell, Chad?", I asked and then started to giggle after the initial shock.
"I'm sorry, man. You seemed so lost in your thoughts, that I just couldn't help myself", Chad giggled and playfully started teasing me, "You know, you still scream like a girl, Horton."
"I do not scream like a girl! Well, maybe a little", I admitted and laughed and decided to get straight to the facts and the reason I wanted to speak to Chad, "Yeah, man. Thanks for meeting up with me", I said to Chad as he walked over and sat next to me on the bench, "I wasn't sure if you would", I admitted and turned my eyes over to the ground.
"Why would you ever think that?"
"I don't know, maybe the fact that I've practically been avoiding you for the past few weeks", I shamefully admitted and looked over at his expression.
"Listen, man. I'll always be here if you need me, not matter what."
"Thanks, I guess that's the reason I needed to talk to you today. I need a friend to talk to."
"What about? You looked like you were a million miles away when I got here. What's up, man? Talk to me?", he asked and waited for me to start talking to him.
I wasn't sure how to bring up the subject without putting everything all out in the open. Well, at least until I'm one hundred percent sure of what my feelings are for Jack. So, I decided to take a different approach to make it seem like I need advice, and not help with dealing with my feelings for Jack, "Chad, have you ever been in love?"
"Wow! Is that a trick question?", Chad laughed and at the same time, looked baffled by my question.
"Come on, Chad. I'm being serious here. Have you ever been in love?", I asked again and waited for his response.
"Well, let me see...To answer that question I would have to say, no."
"No?"
"Nope! Never found the right woman to win over my heart. But trust me. you'll know when you find her."
"How will I know when I find h...", I asked, almost giving away my secret, but somehow, I managed to recover quickly, "I mean, the one."
"Alright, okay, well...Where should I start? First of all, to me, love is when you wake up in the morning and you can't stop smiling, because all you do is think about her. And when you see her, you get this overwhelming feeling of that flows through out your entire body."
"Like shivers?", I asked and then felt stupid for asking, "Sorry..."
"Don't be, it's fine, but I would say more along the lines of lightning."
"Lightning?"
"Yeah, lightning. It's like your whole body reacts to them. You heart beat starts beating fast, then your palms get sweaty. You feel an intense heat building up inside, which is good, by the way", he pointed out and continued, "Then your knees get weak and your breathing rapidly, and then, suddenly, you get hit with intense bolt of lightning that runs through out your body and suddenly, you pop a boner and..."
"Chad, man? What the hell? I asked for you for your opinion on love, not how to pop a boner...Geeze!"
"Sorry, guess I got lost in the moment there for a second", he chuckled, "Anyways, as I was saying..."
As I was listening to Chad's take on how you know you've found the one, I noticed someone looking out the window from the class room just above us. I smiled when I saw who it actually was. It was Jack.
"...Then he looks at you with those big gorgeous eyes and you have to remind yourself how to breathe, because he just takes your breath away. Or the way he smiles when he sees you looking at him and you pretend that you're not looking, because it's the little things that you notice about you that person that makes you fall in love with them even more. It's something special that only the two of you share. Like for instance, when you say his name and for some reason you can't stop smiling. Or when you see him across the room looking sad or afraid, and all you wanna do is go over there and make sure he's okay. You want to hold him and protect him from the world, to take care of him...You sacrifice everything for him, because without him, your life means nothing. And when you find it, you will know and you will fight to keep it and nothing or no one will every be able to come between the both of you because you love him with every fiber of your being."
"Chad, why do you keep referring to this as him all of a sudden?", I asked, confused because it seems like Chad's trying to make a point here that I'm not sure I'm ready to admit, "What Are you getting at?"
"Will...I know who you're talking about and you don't to keep hiding this from me", Chad admitted and waited to see how I would react to his confession.
"You have no idea what you're talking about. I just asked for your opinion, not to make assumptions about me. You don't know anything about me. Forget I ever said anything... ", I angrily said as I picked up my back pack and started walking away.
"Will, I'm not making assumptions about you. You do realize that I've been sitting here for the last ten minutes watching you stare up at that window while I talked my ass off? I saw Jack watching you. I see the way he looks at you, the way you look at him...", he tried explaining and ran after me, "Will, would you please stop and listen to me for a minute?", he asked and grabbed my arm and pulled me towards him.
I stopped and turned towards him, "Why Chad? So you tell me how stupid I am for letting myself fall for someone who's not only sick but for someone who's also a guy? So you can tell me that this is fucking messed up and that I need help? Trust me, I already know all of this. My dad made sure of that before he left me behind two years ago", I said and broke down and fell to my knees on the ground, "I'm a sick person, Chad", I cried out, "I'm sick..."
"You are not sick!", Chad made clear and lifted me off the ground, "You listen to me, that's not what I was going to say to you", he said and wrapped his arms around me, "I was gonna say that I'm here, Will. No matter what."
"What am I gonna do, Chad?", I sobbed on my best friend's shoulder, "What in the hell am I gonna do?"
"You really care a lot about him, don't you?"
"He means the world to me, Chad. He gets me...", I explained to Chad.
"I see", Chad tugged my arm forward, "Come with me", he gestured and brought me back over to the bench we were sitting at, "Can you sit down and listen to what I have to say before you go all nut case on me again?", he asked and I simply nodded, terrified of what was going to be said or what was going to happen next.
"Will, I would never say or do anything to make you feel like you're a sick person for having feelings for Jack. Just because he's guy, doesn't mean shit to me. If you love him, well you love him. The rest of the world can just go fuck themselves for all I care. This is your life, Will. Not mine, not your dad's, not anyone else's. Yours..."
I smiled inwardly at Chad's words, "But, what are people gonna say if they find out? God, I don't even know if Jack feels the same way about me?"
"Oh, trust me, he does."
"How do you know?", I asked.
"Have you see the way he looks at you? God, he's like totally in love with you, Will."
I blushed, "Yeah?"
"Oh, yeah. And let me just say this before we get ahead of ourselves here. The first thing you need to do before even thinking of pursuing this further with Jack is to asked yourself these questions, and I'm not saying this to freak you out or anything, I'm just saying this to make you realize that this isn't gonna be easy for neither of you."
"Okay, so?"
"Well, you need to ask yourself if this is really what you want? Because if it is, you have a whole lot of stuff to deal with and you will both have to deal with this one thing at a time, but first things first. You will have to figure out if Jack feels the same way about you. You Will have to be ready to face what come with being in a relationship with another man", Chad said and gave me a sympathetic look, "You're gonna have to come out of the closet, Will. And not run back and hide at the first chance you get. Remember what happened last time?"
I remind quiet for a few seconds while trying to process everything that Chad was tell me. It was quite overwhelming to say the least, but it made perfect sense that I would have to come out, for good. And not go back in hiding like I did when I was fifteen, "I know...", I sadly admitted.
"And when you do, there's no turning back, Will. You will also have to explain things to Jack's dad and make sure he understand that you only have good intentions towards his son. It's gonna be scary and people will talk and say things that you might not wanna hear, and call you names, but have to be one hundred percent sure you're ready to deal with all this when the time comes, because if everything works out the way I how they do, Jack's gonna need you even more."
I smiled, hearing my best friend, saying that he's rooting for me and Jack to get together, "I know, and I'm also gonna need him."
"You will both have each other to lean on. Plus...", Chad paused briefly, "You'll always have me in your corner."
"Thanks, Chad. I don't know what I would do without you"
"Don't thank me just yet, there's something else..."
"Something else?"
"Will, you do realize Jack has autism?"
"Well, yeah. Your point?", I asked.
"Have you ever considered how that would when the time comes for you become intimate with Jack?"
"Chad!", I screamed out in embarrassment.
"What? It's something you need to think about, Will. Do you even know if Jack knows what being intimate means?"
"I have no idea", I started freaking out, "We can figure that out when the time comes, alright?"
"If you say so, Will. But just think about it, alright? I'm not trying to change your mind about this, I just want you to understand that this might be harder than you imagined it would be. Jack's a great guy, Will. And he doesn't deserve to have his heart-broken by his first love because you might not be ready to deal with everything that you'll be faced with in the future. Just promise me this...Promise me, you will think things through completely before making a decision about this."
"I promise..."
Chad gave me a pat on the back and went back inside, giving me a moments alone before re-entering the school. I guess he figured I needed time alone to myself to think over everything that chad and I talked about. He was right about one thing, things aren't going to be easy because of Jack's autism. I know that spending time with Jack is a good starting point to see how things go from there. So maybe after tonight, I'll have answers to some of the questions I've asked myself for so long. Maybe tonight is the night that everything changes.
(Alex's POV)
"Hey, Jackson", I said as I entered his math class for lunch, "You ready to eat?", I asked as I placed our lunch over on the table.
Jackson looked around the room, scanning it looking for Will, "Jackson, Will's not coming today", I explained to him in the easiest possible way that I could so he could understand, "He's gonna have lunch with his friend Chad today. So, it's just gonna be you, me, and Joey. Isn't that great! The kiriakis boys all together once again", I pointed out to try to cheer him up because I knew he was gonna be devastated that Will wasn't gonna be here. And just as I suspected, Jackson got up off the chair and headed towards the window. He was being stubborn as usual.
"I take he's not happy about Will not being here?", Joey asked as he entered the room.
"Nope!", I replied and looked over at Joey, "This isn't gonna get any easier you know."
"I know, Alex. We just need to try to explain things to him, like the fact that Will can't always be around all the time. He's allowed to have a life of his own from time to time."
"You make it sound so easy?"
"It is actually. We just have to find a way to make him understand that Will still cares for him even if he's not with him all the time."
"I'm open to suggestions."
"Good, cause I have one and I think it just might work", Joey said and looked at Jackson who was standing up with peaking out the window, "What's he looking at?"
"No, idea. I'll go see."
I got up and slowly walked over to Jackson and saw that he was watching Will and Chad who were talking down below. I smiled because I notice a small grin appear on Jackson's face when he saw Will. I walked back over to Joey and sat down, "He's watching Will."
"He really has it bad for him doesn't he?", then suddenly, Joey starts teasing him, "Hey Jackson, do you want me to bring your lunch over there so watch lover boy? Through the window? You know that's kinda creepy. Even for you Jackson."
Jackson looked at Joey and blushed with embarrassment.
I got up and slapped his arm, "Joey, what the fuck?"
"Ouch! Sorry, I was just speaking the truth."
"Well, I rather you keep you pine hole shut. Leave him alone!", I said and Jackson pulled away from the window, "Great! Now you've managed to upset him and make him feel like he was doing something wrong."
I gave Joey a dirty look and headed over to Jackson who was standing away from the window and looking into space, "Come on Jackson, come and sit with me. I wanted to talk to you about something."
Jackson hesitated before taking a few steps towards the table and finally agreed to sit down.
"Listen Jackson, I know you miss Will, but Will also likes to see his other friends sometime. He can't always be with you, buddy", I tried explaining and hope he would understand what I was trying to tell him.
Jackson looked sad after I told him that Will wanted to spend time with his other friends and not him. It broke my heart to see him taking this so hard, so I did my best to think of a way to make him understand that Will still wanted to spend time with him as well.
"Just because Will wanted to see Chad for lunch, it doesn't mean he's not excited to spend some time alone with you tonight."
After saying those words, Jack face lit up in excitement, "I hear you two have a movie night planned together, Is that right?"
Jackson, nodded shyly and I could see by the look on his face that he was nervous, "So, are you excited about that?", I ask and waited to see what his reaction might be.
He shook his head quickly and smiled, "I guess that's a yes! So, I do have to say this Jackson and trust me when I say that I wasn't looking forward to this talk for a few more years, but the way things are going lately with Will, I guess I have no other choice. Now I'm gonna need for you to pay attention to what I'm asking and saying Jackson. Can you do that?"
Jackson nodded and so I started, "I know that you're experiencing new feelings, Jackson. Is this right?"
Jackson nodded once, "Alright, and a lot of these feelings are happening when Will's around, is that right", I asked him again and Jackson covered his face with both of his hands, "Hey, now is not the time to hide your face. There is nothing to be ashamed about if you're having these feelings towards your friend. It's normal to feel like this way Jackson."
Jackson peaked out through his fingers. I could see him looking at me, because preferred to keep his face hidden for the time being, "Do you know what these feelings are, Jackson?"
Without take his hands off his face, Jackson shook his head from side to side, telling me that he doesn't.
"Okay, that's all right. So, I'm gonna explain it to you then. Now don't freak out, okay? This is what you feel like when you're starting to love someone. Sometimes you can feel your body responding in ways it never did before."
Joey started laughing, "What? Can you do better?"
"He's not ten Alex. He doesn't need for you to explain this to him with flowers and butterflies. It's just sex!"
"It's the birds and the bees by the way, and since you know so much about sexual relations, why don't you explain it to him", I got up and gave the floor over to Joey and stood back so that he could give it a shot, "This should be hilarious..."
Joey smiled and sat next to Jackson, "Alright, buddy. So this is what Alex was trying to explain. Sometimes, you may have the feeling that you're about to pass out when someone you like comes to see you. That's just your body's way of telling you that this person is someone you like. You may experience things that might be scary at first, but believe me, it gets better and it can even feel very amazing."
To my surprise, Jackson removed his hands from his face and listened carefully to what Joey had to say.
"So, as I was saying, it can feel very amazing. Do you feel that way when Will's around? Do you feel like you wanna hold him and be close to him in ways you never did before?"
Jackson shook his head saying yes.
"That's great! So, now here's come the hard question. Now, before I ask you this, please understand that you don't have to feel embarrassed about it, okay?"
Jackson gave Joey a weird look but nodded just the same.
Joey took a deep breath before speaking, "Jackson, do you feel that sometimes, you're...hun...you're penis feels weird and that it gets, how could I say this, hard where you're around Will?"
Jackson's eyes blew open, and his breathing got heavier as he tried to leave the table, but Joey managed to keep him calm, "Hey relax, buddy. I'm just saying that this is normal to feel like this and there is nothing wrong with that, alright."
Jackson quickly calmed down and sat back down and looked over at me before answering Joey with a simple nod of his head, and Joey continued, "So, does this mean you're having these types of feelings for Will?"
Jackson nodded his head twice.
"Great, so now that leaves me with only thing to say", Joey said to Jackson and looked up at me for approval, "If you feel like this is what you want and only if it's what Will wants, it's guess it's okay for you to wanna try things with Will. But, Jackson, just make sure Will knows how your feelings and that if the time comes and you both wanna do things together, like touch each other in places that you don't usually let other people touch you, that it's alright. Just make sure that you're comfortable with it and that Will's comfortable with and do what feels right. Oh and feel free to say no, or stop at anytime you feel scared or not ready to go any further, okay?"
Jackson, smiled and reached over and gave Joey a hug. Joey smiled and hugged him back. I'll have to that as much as I don't approve of my little brothers crazy ways of explaining things to people, he's done an excellent job at it with Jack. I'm very proud of Joey right now.
I wiped the tears away from the corner of my eyes before Joey noticed them and advised them it was time to leave and head back to our respected classrooms, "Alright you two, enough with the hugs. It's time to get back to class."
Joey got up first and headed towards the door. Jack followed right behind with a smile and hurried so that he could walk with Joey. I followed right behind them but kept a distance so that I could watch my two younger brothers interacting as they walked together through the crowded hallways of Salem High. And for Once, everything started to feel normal in our lives. And all this because of one person...Will Horton.
(Will's POV)
Sitting in class, listening to the teacher go on and on about something trivial was nerve wrecking. The only thing that I could think about was how soft Jack's skin was, how deep brown his eyes were, how amazing he looked when he was focused on his drawings. I sighed deeply and crossed my arms on my desk and laid my head in the crook of my elbow. I tried to focus on the words coming out of the teacher's mouth, but I was taken back to the day before, Jack's hand on mine drawing and my vision became blurry and I didn't hear anything except the sound of Jack's pencil running across the paper, trying with all his might to convey a message to me, a message that words couldn't quite come for him.
Then my mind carried me to this morning. Oh my God did he take my breath away. I remembered the feeling of Jack's hand in mine, and the way my heart skipped a beat when he laced his fingers around mine. I shivered and sighed deeper into my arms.
Then a scene flashed before my eyes. A scene in which Jack was smiling at me, looking up at me with those eyes that made my knees weak. Then he ever so slightly stood up and kissed me lightly on the lips. Even in my dream, his feather light kiss was amazing. I touched my lips with my fingers, as if I was trying to figure out if it were a dream or a reality...
I sat up quickly and gasped loudly at the realization that I was falling for Jack! A few girls giggled behind me as I looked around, shaking the day-dream off.
"Mr. Horton! How nice of you to finally grace us with your presence", Mrs. Jones said as she banged her hand on the corner of my desk.
Suddenly, my eyes flew open when I realized I had dozed off, "Shit! I'm sorry Mrs. Jones. I kinda dozed off there for a minute", I admitted and rubbed my eyes quickly and focused in on my surroundings.
"Day dreaming about your boyfriend, Horton?", I heard a voice erupt from the back of the class.
I turned around to see who it was and noticed at was T. I hissed right back at him, "Shut the fuck up asshole!"
"Make me!", he retaliated right back. This was really getting us nowhere.
"Alright boys! That's enough! I will not tolerate this behaviour or language in my classroom. Or else I will have to report this to principle Carver"
"Sorry Mrs. Jones. It wont happen again", I admitted and turned around and opened up my text-book and tried following along.
"Mr. Horton, I would like to have a word with you after class", she informed me and turned her attention over to T., "As for you Mr. Stevens, I will see you in detention after class."
"But, Mrs. Jones...I have base-ball practice after class", T, tried worming his way out of detention, but Mrs. Jones wasn't buying any of it.
"Well, I guess they're just going to have to continued on without you. Maybe next time, you should watch what comes out of your mouth Mr. Stevens."
T. Hissed and crossed his arms in defeat, "Yes, Mrs. Jones."
"Mrs. Jones?", I interrupted as she was passing by my desk, "I don't think I can stay after class today. I have to..."
Before I could even finish what I was about to say, Mrs. Jones took over, "I'm well aware of your current situation with the Kiriakis boy and I promise I wont keep you here very long", She insisted and continued on with her lesson, "Alright, please turn your text books to page 34 and read the first two paragraphs on movie adaptations of novels...", I didn't really pay attention in class that day. All I wanted to do is get out of this fucking class and pick up Jack before he noticed I was late. The last thing I ever want is for him to think that I would ever forgot about him, because I would rest of the class dragged along until the bell finally rang marking the end of the day.
I stayed back and waited until pretty much everyone left the classroom before approaching Mrs. Jones. I hesitated and slowly walked towards Mrs. Jones her desk. As if the rest of my day wasn't already shitty enough with the incident with T. this morning and in the classroom a while ago, staying back and getting lectured by the teacher was just adding on to it. By now, I was kinda use to getting lectured. I spend half my life being told how I should live my life. First my mom, then my dad, now I'm pretty much being told be everyone what to do. For once in my life, why can't I be the judge of what I can do and can not do?
"You wanted to see me Mrs. Jones?", I hinted without giving her the time of day. I wasn't about to sit down and make small talk, because I think I've already made that very clear that I suck at it. I was in hurry to pick up Jack and I thought that maybe if I mentioned it, it might move things along for myself, "I've got to be somewhere."
"I know. This will only take a minute. Have s seat Mr. Horton", she insist as she walked over and closed the door so we could have some privacy.
"Is this about my out burst in class Mrs. Jones? Cause if it is, I'm very sorry. It wont happen again. I swear!", I tried explaining myself to her and she started to giggle.
"Relax Mr. Horton. This isn't the reason I wanted to see you after class."
"Oh..."
"I've recently been informed by Mr Carver about the arrangement between the both of you. I'll have to say, Mr. Horton. I never in a million years would have imagined you agreeing to partake in the type of commitment."
"Well, it wasn't like I had any other choice at the time", I informed her and cracked a she smiled.
"And now? Do you feel like this was a wrong choice for your punishment?"
"No, . I don't", I happily answered her question.
"And why's that?"
"Because Jackson's probably the best things that's ever happened to me", I smiled inwardly and looked up at Mrs. Jones who was doing the same.
"Good! I'm glad you found something, or should I rather say someone that's keeping you out of trouble. I always knew you were a wonderful person Mr. Horton, and this just proves that I was right about you all along."
"Thanks Mrs. Jones. Not that I want to rush you, but I do have to pick up Jack", I pointed out to her as we were both getting side tracked away from the conversation.
"Of course", she said and sat down at her desk and opened up her grade book, "I'm not going to sugar coat this Mr. Horton, but after grading your last paper, I'm sorry to tell you that your failing this class."
"Wait! Don't I need this class to graduate?", I asked in a panic.
"Yes, Mr. Horton. You do. So this is why I wanted to meet up with you. I like you Mr. Horton and after seeing the progress you've made in the last few weeks, I've tried very hard to find a way to help you pass this class. I've spoken to Mr. Carver and he's agreed to let me make an exception for this one time because he really believes you deserves this chance."
"Alright, so...What do I have to do?", I asked optimistically, hoping there this chance Mr. Jones was talking wasn't as hard as it sounded.
"It's not going to be easy Mr. Horton, but I think you'll be able to pull this off. Mr. Carver as agreed to pass this class based upon your final paper. The paper will about the adaptation of a book series into movies. You will have to write about the one thing that you love the most in this world and will be due a week before graduation. Do you think you can handle that?"
I sat and thought about it for a moment, "I'll try...I'm not really great at writing papers."
"Word of advice Mr. Horton?", she offered and I nodded my head. Because at this point, I'll take any advise I can get, "Follow your heart. Write about what's most important to you. And you will see, the words will coming easily."
"Thanks Mrs. Jones. Thanks for giving me this chance even if I can't understand why?", I explained to her all the while still questioning her motives. No one as ever given me a second chance like this before, I could help but wonder why though.
"Well, it's because I think you deserve it. Now go, before Jackson thinks you bailed on him"
"Alright. Thank you Mrs. Jones. I'll try not to let you down."
"I know you wont. See you tomorrow Mr. Horton."
And with that, I left and headed towards Jack's class to pick him up.
(Sonny's POV)
After history class had ended, when all the students and even the teacher had left I went over to the window and sat down in the chair that was there. I looked out at all the students and that is when I noticed a couple leaning against a tree holding each other. At first I didn't recognize them but then I saw that it was Sarah standing in her boyfriend Adam's arms. I had seen couples kiss before here at school and also in the movies but I never really thought much about it. But now that Will has come into my life I see things differently. When the embrace turned a little more passionate my eyes widened and I smiled because I pictured doing that with Will. I was picture me and Will like that and it made my stomach feel weird. At first I thought I was just feeling a little sick but then Sarah's words from earlier rang in my head, ' I also get this fluttery feeling in my stomach when I see him.' So that must be what is happening to me now and I haven't even seen Will yet.
"Hey there gorgeous."
Will's voice scared me and I spun around quickly and saw him standing there. The fluttering in my stomach kicked up a notch and that was when I was completely sure that I was feeling toward him the same way that Megan and Sarah were talking about. But I pushed that aside for now and stood up. I took Will's hand and smiled up at him, "You ready to go?"
(Will's POV)
I watched him as he sat on a chair next to the window, waiting impatiently for me to arrive. I smiled, because that's what I do every time I see his gorgeous face. I walked in slowly, not to frighten him, because that's the last thing I would ever wanna do to him. As I got closer to him, I notice him looking out the window at a younger couple who were sharing an intimate moment. They were kissing each other passionately in ways that only couples do when they're in love. I watch closely as Jack's expression changed when he saw them embrace. His eyes grew bigger and his smile, well, his smile said it all. I didn't wanna interrupt him, because he looked so happy and peaceful as he watched the younger couple together, that I could help but wonder if he ever thought about it himself being in that position. Being happy and in love with someone who loves him just as much, and cares about him more than anything in this entire world. Someone...someone like me.
I feel like I'm stuck at a crossroad in my life where I know what I want, yet not ready to take that final step ahead to get there. Because when I do, there's no going back. And I have to make sure that I'm ready, and that Jack's ready, because when I do decide that it's time to take that last step, I'm hoping Jack's gonna be right there with me holding my hand so we both can take that last and final step together. But...There's is still one problem. I'm still not sure if Jack's feelings towards me are love, or just friendship.
"Hey there gorgeous", I whisper softly to make Jack aware of my presence in the room.
Jack quickly turns around and sees me standing only inches away from him. He smiles briefly and lifts himself off the chair and reaches out for my hand in which I gladly accept, "You ready to go?", I asked him, because I thought that's what Jack wanted and the reason why he wanted to hold my hand, but that wasn't the case. So, I decided to go with it and see what Jack intentions were. Jack smiled and pulled me closer towards him. I didn't say anything at first because I knew that Jack's way of communicating was different from mine. He could express himself openly and tell me what he was thinking about or what he was feeling. The only thing he could do is show me, with his touch.
(Sonny's POV)
I smiled and pulled him closer to me, I wanted him to see the couple. It was the only way I could think of communicating with him. I wanted to talk but I still wasn't quite ready for that yet. Someday I know it's going to happen but not at this moment. After I pulled him toward me I release his hand and look out the window to the couple. I looked back at him so that he knew that I wanted him to look at the couple. Will smiles at me and looks out the window at the couple and I do the same. I step closer to the window and watch them some more.
I watched as Adam lifts up his hands and cups Megan's face. He leaned in and gave her a soft kiss on the lips. My eyes widened as a I saw this and I smiled. I lifted up my hand and placed it on the window before I looked over at Will. I wanted to see if he wanted to do this with me like I wanted to do with him. I watched the couple some more, watching as they became more passionate til the point that a teacher came over and broke them apart. As they were leaving I turned back around to look at Will and that is when he stepped forward and pulled me into his arms, "Come here, buddy."
I greedily accepted and wrapped my arms around him and burrowed my nose into his neck. It always felt wonderful to be in Will's arms but I wanted more. So after a short amount of time I pulled back and looked up into Will's eyes. We stared into each other's eyes for a while hoping he would make the move that I was desperately hoping he would make.
Finally he lifted up his hands slowly and cups my face like Adam did to Megan. He leaned in closer and I was thinking he was going to actually kiss me. When I felt his fingers rub over my face I sighed and closed my eyes. It was the best feeling in the world and then when his fingers brushed over my lips they parted slightly at the sensation.
When it didn't seem like he was going to kiss me soon I opened my eyes and looked at him. He seemed to be arguing with himself and so I decided to do what he was doing to me because I might make him finally make the move. So I lifted up my own hands and mimicked what he had done to me. I started with the sides of his face and then I felt a little more bold and I brushed my thumbs of his lips. My jaw dropped at how soft they felt and I wanted to feel them even more with my lips.
I opened my mouth to tell him just how much I wanted this but nothing came out. I was still to freaked out to even talk and I was getting frustrated. So instead of talking I closed my eyes and started to lean closer to Will, "Jack? What are you doing?"
I could hear a little bit of fear in his voice but I could feel him leaning closer to me. This was going to finally be happening soon and I was going to be the happiest person ever. We were so close to kissing but suddenly there was a loud noise and Will jerked away from me, "Shit."
I was really confused because I thought he wanted it as much as I did but apparently not. He looked apologetic, "Jack, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that."
He took a step back, "Come on. We have to go."
Will turned around and headed toward the door. I frowned as I picked up my bag and followed him. The frowned stayed on my face all the way to Will's car.
(Will's POV)
Jack slowly released my hand and looked out the window at the couple who were holding each other and then looked up at me with his wandering eyes. It was almost as if he was trying to tell me something, but without words. Sometimes it's hard to know exactly what's going on in his mind. I smiled at him and looked down at the couple below us, and realized that maybe Jack's trying to tell me something. That maybe this is Jack's way of telling me that, "Hey! I'm here! I want you to hold me!", but how can one be sure that this is what he's trying to convey?
He approaches the window and continues to admire the young couples every move. I see his facial expression change as the younger male reaches out and cups the younger women's face with his hands and pulls her in for a soft kiss. Jack's eyebrows raised with curiosity. He smiles briefly before letting his hand reach out to touch the window and then turns over to look at me.
When did my feelings change for Jack from friends to more? Or was there always more, even from the very first time we met? We have always had a special connection. Watching him watch that couple, I knew what I wanted; I wanted to kiss him. I wanted desperately to know how his lips would feel on mine, I wanted to know if everything I had felt for him was reciprocated. But what if kissing him scares him? What if he has no clue what that really means? What if I invade his personal space and end up ruining all the progress we've made together over the last month? Was it worth it to take this chance?
I took a step forward and without thinking, I pull him towards me and wrap my arms around his waist, "Come here, buddy", I said in a barely audible whisper, but Jack heard it just fine.
Jack complied and wrapped his own arms around my body and buried his face in the crock of my neck. We both stood still for a few minutes, just holding each other closely without a care in the world. Jack slowly lifted his head and looked right into my eyes. I swallowed hard and for a moment, I got lost in those gorgeous brown eyes and forgot everything else that mattered in this cruel world,because right now, all that mattered was me, Jack, and this perfect moment we were sharing together.
I slowly lifted hand and placed them both, one on each side of his face and leaned in a little closer. My heart started racing when I realized that his face was nearly only a few inches away from mine now, and all I can think about is how much I would love to close in on the small gap between us that separated our lips from connecting together. With my fingers, I gently traced the contours of his face, and then his lips...His eyes closed and his mouth remained slightly opened as brushed my fingers over both of his perfect pink plump lips that has never been kissed before. To feel what it would be like to feel his lips pressing up against mine was driving me crazy to say the least and all I could think about was that I wanted to be the first person to kiss those perfect lips.
Jack opened his eyes. He stared at me for a few seconds before lifting his own hands up and mimic my every move. He started by brushing his fingers gently along both sides of my face before reaching the contours of my lips. His jaw dropped a little when touched them for the first time. He stared at them curiously as if they were something new that he was trying to figure out. His mouth opened slightly like he was trying to say something to me, and yet, nothing came out. I could feel his frustration when I noticed his chest raising a little with quick breaths. Just like when your about to kiss someone for the first time. When the nerves and anticipation starts to become too much to hand and you're about to lean in closer to that person and...
"Jack? What are you doing?", I asked when I saw Jack close his eyes and started to lean in towards me slowly closing the short gap between us.
Before I could even stop myself, my body started leaning closer towards him and there was nothing I could do stop it. I wanted this. I wanted to kiss Jack.
Suddenly, a loud noise from the other room erupted and brought me back to reality and stopped me from doing something that I would probably end up regretting for the rest of my life, "Shit", I cursed at myself when I realized what the hell I was about to do.
Jack stood there confused, "Jack, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that", I tried explaining, but the Jack probably had no idea what I was talking about anyways, "Come on. We have to go", I said and turned towards the door pretending like nothing what just happened. It was the right thing to do for the time being. Jack doesn't need to be dragged down in my drama for now.
Jack turned around and picked up his bag and followed behind me with a frown. I knew this wasn't going to be easy to start with, but having such strong feels for someone without knowing how they feel about you is a lot harder than I ever imagined, and today just proved that I was right all along. That I do, actually have real feelings for Jack. Strong feelings that are getting the best of me. I'm starting to have seconds thoughts about tonight. Maybe spending time alone with Jack isn't a very good idea. Because I'm not sure how long I'll be able to keep my emotions in tack. It's only a matter of time before I slip and do or say something that I might confuse Jack even more than I already have, cause after what just happened today, I'm almost positive that Jack feels the same way about me. And for some reason, that scares me more than it ever did before.
(Sonny's POV)
The car ride home was very quiet and I don't mean the fact that neither one of us was talking. It's more like an awkward feeling in the air that was definitely the result of what happened at school. I was completely confused about what all happened. It seemed like we were really going to kiss and I could practically hear Will's heart beat fluttering frantically in his chest but then he pulled away like he had done something wrong.
Maybe I was wrong in my thinking, maybe he didn't want me the way I wanted him. So that is why I knew that the awkward silence wasn't normal because Will usually talks to me whenever the silence gets too long and he hasn't said a word since we left school.
As we got closer and closer to my house the angrier I got, so when we finally arrived at the house and Will unlocked the door I just walked past him without acknowledging him, "Jack..."
I almost stopped when he called my name but I was able to keep walking, I was too upset to stand there and listen to his excuses.
(Will's POV)
As we drove up to the Kiriakis estate, I looked over at Jack who was sitting there quietly looking out the window. I didn't say much to him at the time, because I didn't want to make him feel more uncomfortable that he already looked. SO I said nothing for the time being, because right now, it feels like it's the right thing to do. We both got out of the car and headed towards the front door. I reached inside my pocket and took out the key that Alex gave me earlier and unlocked the door. Jack walked in momentarily and dropped off his back pack, "Jack...", I said as he walked right by me without recollection and headed straight upstairs without even looking at me.
It broke my heart to see him acting this way towards me after everything that has happened between us. The moments we shared together, his first touch, his first hug, and now...an almost first kiss, "God, you're suck a fucking idiot", I said to myself when I realized that Jack wasn't being like this to spit me or to try to prove a point. Jack was being like this because he probably felt like I didn't want him anymore for pulling away from him, he felt rejected, "Shit!, I need to fix this...", I whispered softly as I walked into the living room to try to figure out a way to make this up to Jack before it's too late for us and I lose him forever.
(Sonny's POV)
After I had finished my routine I slowly walked down the stairs because I was debating with myself. I was trying to decide if I should just follow through with the movie or should I just be stubborn and stay in my room. I wasn't even sure that Will was still here, he could have taken off once I got into my room. So when I step up to the doorway of the living room I see that Will is still here and he is about ready to put the DVD in. I was a little surprised that he was still here but the fact that he was still here made me decide to watch the movie with him.
I wasn't standing in the doorway long before Will turned around and looked at me, "Jack..." He paused, "Come, I was just putting in the movie. Alex said you liked Vampires. So I figured, maybe we could watch Twilight?"
My eyes widened when I heard his movie choice because it was my favorite movie ever. It touched my heart that he asked Alex what it was and decided to watch the movie with me. I was really excited to watch this movie so I walked over to the couch and sat down at the other end away from Will.
The movie started and that same tension that was in the car earlier started to happen again. But this time Will didn't stay silent, "You enjoying the movie, buddy?"
I still didn't feel like communicating much right now so I didn't respond but Will kept on talking, "It's kinda chilly in here tonight. Wish I had a someone sitting next to keep me warm."
I could see that he was shocked at what he just said and I couldn't help but laugh, "Oh, now he smiled! You think this is funny now don't you?"
I smiled and looked over at Will, "Maybe you should try if you think you can do better than me."
I knew he was trying to make me feel better so that I would sit closer to him but I was still hurt from what happened earlier. I looked him in the eyes trying to convey to him of my struggle. Plus I was confused at how much he seemed to want me to sit next to him when it seemed like earlier he couldn't get away from me fast enough.
Will closed his eyes and I knew he was trying to figure out what he did wrong. Maybe he didn't know that what he did hurt me and I felt a little guilty for ignoring him like that. So while he kept his eyes closed I scooted over and wrapped my arms around him. Finally, after a while, Will opened his eyes and we were just looking at each other; we weren't even paying attention to the movie. The more we moved around and got comfortable the closer we got. At one point my head was laying on his lap and he was running his fingers through my hair. He swiped my bangs from my eyes and we looked into each other's eyes.
(Will's POV)
While I waited for Jack to come down stairs from his daily routine of showering and getting changed, I started getting things ready for movie night with Jack. I kept playing out different scenarios in my head to figure out where I went wrong with him and why he was being so closed off all of a sudden, but my mind kept wandering off to the exact moment when I slowly started to lean forward towards Jack but then stopped when I heard the noise from the other room. As hard as I tried to forget about what happened, and believe me I tried, I could stop thinking about what almost happened between me and Jack in his class room. The almost Kiss that is. I can't help but wonder what would have happened if the didn't pull away? Would I have actually kiss him? Or was this fate trying to tell that it wasn't the right time or moment for it to happen?, "Time will tell...", I whispered softly as I tried to push away my thoughts for the time being and continued preparing myself mentally for the long night that was ahead of us.
Just as I was about to put the pop in the DVD, I felt some one's presence in the room. I slowly turned and there he was standing near the archway shyly, "Jack...", My heart fluttered at the sight of his beautiful face, "Come, I was just putting in the movie. Alex said you liked vampires. So I figured, maybe we could watch Twilight?", I asked knowing clearly that this was his favorite movie of all times.
His eyes grew big. I could see he was excited about my movie choice and I guess in a way so was I. Because I knew how much Jack loved this movie and seeing him this happy made me happy and that's all that mattered right now.
Jack slowly walked over to the sofa and sat at the far right corner and waited for me to start the movie. I watched him from the corner of my eye as the movie started. Jack was excited all the while keeping his distance from me, "You enjoying the movie, buddy?", I asked him as I tried to figure out what was going on in his mind. Jack usually loved so sit next to me and I couldn't figure out why he was holding such a strong grudge because of what happened this afternoon; probably being stubborn. That's all. It's a Kiriakis trait.
So, I decided to try one more shot at it before giving up, because I really didn't wanna push him away farther then I already did. I l cleared my throat before speaking, "It's kinda chilly in here tonight. Wish I had a someone sitting next to me to keep me warm."
As soon as those words left my mouth, I mentally cursed myself, "Fuck! What the hell was that?"
Not only did that sound inappropriate, it also sounded like the lamest pick up line I ever heard. Jack looked over at me and let out a sigh and chuckled lightly, "Oh, now he smiles! You think this is funny now don't you?"
Jack smiled and watched me squirming on the opposite end of the sofa, "Maybe you should give it a try if you think you can do better than me", I challenged him secretly hoping this would encourage him to get closer to me.
Jack looked at me with apologetic eyes and grinned. I could see it in his eyes that he wanted to come sit closer to me, but something was still stopping him from giving in. But what? Was it me? Did I do something to make him feel like I didn't wanna be close to him? And once again, my mind when back to the what happened earlier with Jack in the classroom and how close we were to kissing each others. I closed my eyes briefly to relish the moment we shared only to be pulled out of it by a warm pair of arms wrapping themselves around me.
I kept my eyes closed because I was afraid that if opened them, that I would realize that this was just another one of my daydreams, and that it actually wasn't Jack's arms that were holding me tight. Slowly, opened them up and looked down at Jack who was nestled comfortably with his head leaning against me chest. My heart skipped a few beats at the sight of him laying their looking so comfortable, so peaceful and yet so innocent. How could someone not fall in love completely and utterly with this perfect young man?
I admired him for the longest time when I noticed that neither of us was paying attention to the movie anymore. We were only paying attention to each other. We shifted positions a few times only to find each other closer that we ever were before. His head now rested on pillow that I had placed on my lap so he could rest his head comfortably, while my fingers gently stroked his hair back so I could get a better view of his eyes. I swear to God those eyes are gonna be the death of me someday.
(Sonny'sPOV)
When it was approaching the end of the movie I knew that he was going to have to leave soon so I closed my eyes to look like I fell asleep. I was just expecting him to stay in my arms a little long but what I wasn't expecting was his confession, "I wish things were more simple for us, Jack."
He pulled me closer to him, "You know, I was fine right before I met you, Jack?"
He ran his fingers through my hair again, "No one could ever hurt me or control me, and then, I met you, then... Everything's changed. I just wish I would've known..."
There was a long pause and it gave me a little time to think. This felt like earlier at school and it completely confused me and also made me so happy. Soon he started to talk again, "Why does everything have to be so complicated for us?"
In my head I said, 'Why do you think it's complicated because I don't think it's complicated?'
"You're so perfect, Jack. How dare you be so fucking perfect? What did I ever do to deserve someone as perfect? I'm sure if you could talk you would probably be telling me to shut the fuck up."
I felt a little offended that at his earlier statement but then the last thing he said I completely agreed with him, he needed to shut up, of course without the swear word in it.
I didn't want him to keep putting himself down all the time so I shifted around, hoping that it would keep him quiet. When we were done getting into a new position I was snuggled up to his side with my face in the side of his neck, "You know, when I first met you, I tried hating you?"
That was news to me, I never got that feeling from him but I guess when he first started to hang out with me I didn't understand a lot of feelings that other people were feeling.
"But I couldn't...I couldn't, Jack. God help me I tried. Ask anyone who knows me and they will tell you how screwed up I really am. But I couldn't help myself, Jack. I never asked for any of this. It just happened. I couldn't help but fall in love with you..."
I felt frozen in my spot, so Will does like me the same way that I do but he was just so scared to say it to me in person. A part of me was glad that I pretended to be asleep because I got to hear all of this but I was also a little upset because I can't just let him know that I feel the same way without letting him know that I was listening to this whole thing.
We stayed like that for a little while but then Will started to move away from me and I was sad by the loss of his warmth. Once he was off the couch he stayed kneeled next to me and continued to talk, "I'm sorry I waited for you to be asleep so I could tell you. I guess that makes me a coward, because I'm not ready to tell the whole world just how much I care about you, because I do, Jack. I really care about you. More than I was willing to admit to myself actually, until now..."
I wanted to shout out to him that I didn't think he was a coward but that I thought he was the bravest person I know. I could feel the words want to force themselves out which shocked me because it never got this close. Maybe I was starting to be more comfortable with Will that it made me want to talk.
Will moved around a little bit before he laid a blanket over me, "There! I hope this keeps you warm, buddy. I wish I could've kept you warm all night, but someday, Jack. Someday, I will hold you in my arms all night. Consider this practice for when the time comes."
Next thing I know Will cupped the side of my face and I thought that he was going to kiss me on the lips but instead he kissed my cheek. It's not exactly what I wanted but it was still nice that I got to feel his lips on my cheek, "I promise you I'll get there someday, Jack...Just wish you could tell me how you feel. Things would be so much easier if I would know how you feel about me. Good night my Angel..."
He let out a heavy sigh before he stood up and I could feel him walking away. The urge from earlier to shout out came back full force. I couldn't hold it back anymore but I was able to whisper it instead of shouting it out like it wanted to and all I could say was his name, "Will…"
I couldn't say anything else, just his name. I wanted him to stay next to me and keep saying such wonderful things but I guess I will just have to wait until he was more comfortable with talking with me. So I just let him walk away promising myself and him that I was going to make him admit to me, face to face, that he loved me.
(Will's POV)
Time flew by and before I knew it, the movie was getting close to the end. I noticed Jack had fallen asleep in nestled up in my arms. It felt so good having him so close to me. It made me realized just how much I've been missing out on all these years. To feel this close to a person without having to hide it, "I wish things were more simple for us, Jack", I admitted and pulled him closer to me so his head was now resting comfortably on my chest.
"You know, I was fine right before I met you, Jack?", I said to the sleeping boy as I brushed my fingers gently through his hair carefully so I wouldn't wake him up, "No one could ever hurt me or control me, and then, I met you, then... Everything's changed", I whispered and let out a deep sigh, "I just wish I would've known..."
My mind wandered off to the conversation Chad and I have earlier today and deep down inside, I knew Chad was right. The things we talked about all made perfect sense now. I know I had to come to terms with a certain things before I could open myself out completely to the possibility of being in a relationship with Jack. It also made me realize that a relationship with Jack is exactly what I wanted, because no one has ever made me feel the way that Jack does and I mean no one. So, I guess tonight did help me in many ways. I now know that without a doubt, I want to be with Jack. No matter what the consequences are, I just wanna be with him, possibly forever...
"Why does everything have to be so complicated for us?", I asked myself as I continued staring down at his beautiful face. Because that's what he truly was, beautiful...amazing...wonderful...
Once I summed it all up into one word, the only word I could come up with is...Perfect, "Your so perfect, Jack. How dare you be so fucking perfect?", I asked the him even though I knew he would be able to hear me or even answer the question, "What did I ever do to deserve someone as perfect? I'm sure if you could talk you would probably be telling me to shut the fuck up", I giggled, because I guess I was probably just being silly, because Jack would never say something like that. He would probably some along the lines of "you deserve this, we deserve this". Just by the way he looks at me sometime, I know he feels the same way. He has to...
Jack started tossing around, so I laid myself back a bit further and cradled him next to me so we were now laying next to each other with my arms still wrapped up around his body. His head rested in the crock of my neck where I could feel the warmth of his breath brushing up against my skin every time he exhaled, causing my heart to beat a little fast with every breath he took. This moment was perfect, "You know, when I first met you, I tried hating you?", I shamefully admitted and went on anyways because I had to let it out, "But I couldn't...I couldn't, Jack. God help me I tried. Ask anyone who knows me and they will tell you how screwed up I really am. But I couldn't help myself, Jack. I never asked for any of this. It just happened. I couldn't help but fall in love with you...", I said to him as the tears started free-falling from my eyes.
I wiped the tears away with my free hand and looked over at the television set and noticed the end credits rolling in. I knew it was getting late and Alex would be getting here shortly. The last thing I wanted was for him to ask questions about the position Jack and I were in at the moment. So, I thought it would probably be best if I wasn't so close to his brother when he came in. I slowly pulled my arm from under Jack and placed him comfortably on the couch and got down on my knees next to him a few more minutes before I had to leave, "I'm sorry I waited for you to be asleep so I could tell you. I guess that makes me a coward, because I'm not ready to tell the whole world just how much I care about you, because I do, Jack. I really care about you. More than I was willing to admit to myself actually, until now...", I said to Jack as I pulled the duvet cover off of the chair that was next to the sofa and placed it over his body to keep him warm, "There! I hope this keeps you warm, buddy. I wish I could've kept you warm all night, but someday, Jack. Someday, I will hold you in my arms all night. Consider this practice for when the time comes", I said as I cupped one side of Jack face and placed a soft kiss on his cheek while being careful not to wake him up, "I promise you I'll get there someday, Jack...Just wish you could tell me how you feel. Things would be so much easier if I would know how you feel about me. Good night my Angel..."
I let out an agonizing sigh and got up off the floor and headed towards the kitchen and stopped when I could have sworn I heard someone whispering my name. I made nothing of it and continued on into the other room when I noticed Alex standing in the entryway, "Hey!", I greeted him but found it strange that I never heard him come in.
"Hi, Will. Where's Jackson?", Alex asked as he removed his jacket. Alex looked uncomfortable for some reason and was acting rather strange and I honestly no idea why.
"He fell asleep on the couch. I didn't wanna wake him up so I covered him up with a blanket and came out here to wait for you. You alright?"
"Oh, I see. Yeah, I'm fine. Did you two have fun?"
"We did...Thanks for this Alex. Thanks for letting me spend time with Jack."
"Don't mention it."
"Well, I have to go, it's getting late. So, I guess I'll see you tomorrow, then?"
"Yeah, of course. See you tomorrow", Alex said and went inside the living room to check up on Jack.
"That was weird!", I thought to myself as I grabbed my Jacket and headed out the door.
(Alex's POV)
I got in earlier than I expected and didn't wanna make a noise to frighten Jack, because I knew how much tonight meant to him and Will and I wouldn't wanna be the cause for screwing up their night together. So I slipped inside and did my best not to make a sound. As I go closer to the living room, I heard a voice speaking softly which I found rather odd, because usually when Jack watches a movie, he likes it to be very quiet. So I took a few step closer towards the loving room, but stopped when I heard the voice speak again, "You know, when I first met you, I tried hating you?"
When I heard the voice again so I stopped. I knew it was coming from Will, so I decided to listen in on what Will was saying. I know, I know, it's wrong to eavesdrop, but for what it's worth, I'm just looking out for my brothers best interest here, "But I couldn't...I couldn't, Jack. God help me I tried."
"You and me both, buddy!", I said to myself, because I really did try to hate Will. But then he goes and does the impossible. He gets Jack to open up to him when none of us could. How can you hate the guy after doing something like this?
I felt so guilty listening in on what was supposed to be a private conversation between Will and Jackson, but how could I not listen? Will was finally opening up to someone and I wanted to know how he felt about Jackson and this was the perfect opportunity so find out for myself once and for all. I took a peak inside the living room and saw Jack laying there all nestled up in Will's arms sleeping while Will ran his fingers through his hair. My heart swelled at the sight of my brother nestled up so close to Will. He looked so comfortable in his arms. I swear to God I almost cried. But, then Will said the something to Jackson, and that caught me off guard, "Ask anyone who knows me and they will tell you how screwed up I really am. But I couldn't help myself, Jack. I never asked for any of this. It just happened. I couldn't help but fall in love with you..."
As soon as I hear Will say he was in love with Jack, I pulled away and headed back in the opposite direction. My heart started racing and I started to freak out. Yes! I Alex Kiriakis am freaking the hell out!
Suddenly, I heard foot steps coming in my direction and I started to panic even more. What if Will realizes that I've been here all this time and that I've listened to his private conversation?, "Shit! Stay calm!", I said to myself as I Will walked into the entryway, "Hi, Will. Where's Jackson?", I said as I took off my jacket and pretended to just walk in. I'm so going to hell for this!
"He fell asleep on the couch. I didn't wanna wake him up so I covered him up with a blanket and came out here to wait for you. You alright?", Will asked. I think he noticed I was acting a bit off.
"Oh, I see. Yeah, I'm fine. Did you two have fun?", I lied, because I felt like it was the only thing I could say. What was I suppose to say to him, "Oh, hey there, Will. Nice to see you. Do you know that I've been here the whole time listening to you tell Jackson that you're falling in love with him?" I don't think so!
"We did...Thanks for this Alex. Thanks for letting me spend time with Jack", He looked a little uncomfortable, like he was about to crawl out of his skin.
I felt bad for him because he seemed to be struggling on the inside about his feelings for Jack so I tried to lighten the mood, "Don't mention it."
Will scratched the back of his head and started to walk to the door, "Well, I have to go, it's getting late. So, I guess I'll see you tomorrow, then?"
I wanted to stop him and talk to him, but I couldn't do that without letting him know that I heard what he had said earlier. So I just let him go, "Yeah, of course. See you tomorrow."
He walked out the door without looking back and I watched him drive down the driveway. I turned back around and walked to the living room so that I could be there when Jack woke up so that I could explain to him that Will left to go home. I wasn't looking forward to that conversation.
To Be continued...OXO