Touch My Heart - Chapter 10
A/N: Happy New Year! Wow! It's 2014 already and we are ready to bring you more chapters of Touch My heart. This story has been outlined to be 20 chapters. So this is chapter 10 so that means 10 more before the story is over. It's been a great first half and I'm sure that the second half is gonna be just as amazing! Just a little note that in the upcoming chapter 11, Jack will be referred to as Sonny. You will see why near the end of this chapter in Alex's POV. I don't want to confuse anyone with this, so I just wanted to let you know that the change is coming. Once again, I want to send great thanks to my co-writers, Amber (Valorie818), who is doing an amazing job on Sonny's POV (Jack's), To Jen (rescuemama2007) for her Beta services and her help with Will's POV's, and last but not least, to Christina, for helping me write a few POV's for Will. This story wouldn't be possible if not for all of you, so thank you all my lovely ladies and cheers to you! Hope you all continue ready our story and I hope you all enjoy the next 10 chapters of Touch My Heart! Love you guys. - Roxy
(Alex's POV)
When I turned over and saw Will and Jackson walking in together, I knew something had changed between them. Maybe it was the way Will had his arm wrapped around my little brothers waist, or maybe it was the way that they looked at each other that made me see things differently this time, but Something changed. Something big and I think we're all about to find out what it is, "Good morning you two. Sleep well?", I asked out of curiosity, not wanting to give them the third degree about what happened on their date last night even though I am a little curious. Okay, I'm a lot curious. Who wouldn't be? This was my little brother's first real date! Can't blame me for wanting to know every single detail about his evening after the man who took him on his date ended up spending the night as our place. In his bed! Did I forget to mention in his bed? "Okay, Alex. Deep breaths...", I said to myself and looked over Will.
Will was smiling as he looked over at Jackson who seemed a little nervous. Before answering, he took his right hand and gently lifted Jackson's chin so that he could look into Jackson's eyes. Jackson returned the smile as Will pulled Jackson chair a little closer towards him before, "We slept very well", Will said emphasising on the word "we" as it rolled out of his mouth.
At that moment, I knew what that meant and I knew what could happen to Jack if this goes sour. I tried my best to keep my concerns hidden for the time being, because it wasn't my place to jump to conclusions about Will and Jackson being in a relationship together. Who knows? Maybe Will is Jackson's fairy tale ending? Only time will tell I guess..., "So, what are you two up to today? Any plans? A second date maybe?", I asked, hoping Will would give in and give us a little idea of how serious him and Jackson are actually getting.
"Well, Alex. We were kinda hoping to talk to your father", Will said nervously and shifted a little on his seat, "There is something Jack and I would like to tell him."
The way Will was acting kinda threw me off guard. I never seen him acting like this before. Will was usually the one person that always seem to have everything under control. So, it's kinda strange to see him squirming. Wonder what that's all about?
"Yeah, he should be down in just a few minutes. He was just getting dressed and I think he said something about making a few calls before joining us for breakfast."
Will took a deep breath and looked over at Jackson. Jackson nodded and gave Will a reassuring smile and placed his hand over Will's. Will swallowed hard and turned pale. Okay, so now I know something is definitely up with him.
"You Okay Will?", I asked because he looked like he was about to pass out, "Here's some water", I offered him my glass.
"Yeah, I'm fine. Thank you", he replied and took the glass from my hand, "Just a little nervous. That's all", he answered and took a drink of water and placed the glass on the table.
"Nervous? Are you afraid that my dad will be against you and Jackson dating? Because if that's what you're worried about, then you're safe. My dad already said that he's okay with it."
"He did?", Will asked and looked at Jackson who was grinning from ear to ear.
I nodded and looked over at Joey who was sitting there at the end of the table smiling, "What are you smiling at?", I asked annoyingly and waited for Joey to said whatever it is he wanted to say, because I knew he was going to say it no matter what.
"It's just so cute! Look at Will, all nervous about telling dad about him and Jackson being boyfriends. You are boyfriends, right?", Joey asked Will.
"Yeah", he answered and looked at Jackson, "We are."
Jackson blushed and smothered his face in the crock of Will's neck. He wasn't use to getting so much attention. I'm pretty sure this was overwhelming for him, "Hey Jackson, you don't have to be shy, buddy. I'm happy that Will's is your boyfriend", Joey softly spoke out to Jackson who slowly pulled back far enough to look at Joey, "So did you two kiss yet?"
Jackson freaked out over the question and Will quickly grabbed him before he could run upstairs to his room, "Jack, baby. Come here", Will said as he comforted Jackson by wrapping his arm around him and sat him back down on the chair next to him, "It's alright...", he whispered near Jackson's ear. Jackson looked up at him.
It still amazes me how wonderful Will is with my brother. I can see why Jackson cares about him so much, "Is he okay?", I asked Will before shifting my attention over to my stupid ass brother Joey.
"Yeah, he's fine.", Will and answered while Jackson laid his head on Will's shoulder.
"Joey? What the fuck?", I said and gave him a shove, "That's none of your freaking business Jackson and Will kissed or not. Jackson, don't listen to him. He's just being a pain in the ass."
Jackson agreed.
"It was just a simple question! I didn't know he was going to freak out about it! Fuck! Why are you being such a prude, Alex?"
"I'm not being a prude!"
"Yeah, your are! You're just jealous of Jackson because he's got kissed before you!"
"Am not!"
"Are too!"
"Bitch!"
"Jerk!"
"Alright you two, knock it off!", I heard a voice coming from the hallway and look over and saw my dad walking into the kitchen with a huge grin.
Will and Jackson were both laughing it off as I fumed at joey, "Sorry, dad", I said apologetically to the man and gave Joey an evil look and kicked him with my foot from under the table so he would do the same.
"Ouch! Sorry, dad", Joey said and whispered so my dad wouldn't hear him, "Assbutt."
"Alright, boys. What's this all about? Will you two ever try to get along?", dad asked and headed towards the coffee machine and poured himself a cup.
"Doubt it!", Joey and answered and looked over at Jackson and Will, "So, dad. Will and Jackson have so news that they would like to share with us."
"Is that right? Well, share away boys. Oh! And by the way, good morning, Will."
"Morning", Will answered and his face immediately became flushed.
(Will's POV)
"I hope it's alright that I took the liberty of informing your grand mother that you spent the night here. I didn't want her to worry about you Will", Mr. Kiriakis advised me. I've never in my life felt so happy that someone actually cared enough about me to actually do something like this for me.
"Thank you sir. I wasn't expecting to spend the night here. I...We...fell asleep. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to over stay my welcome, sir."
"Oh, Will. I told you this before. You're more than welcome to stay over when ever you feel like it and please. Stop calling me sir. You're making me feel old."
"Alright", my voice shuttered, "Justin."
"Much better", Justin said and slightly giggled, "So, you two wanted to share some news with us. Would this have anything to do with you and Jackson dating?", the older Kiriakis asked and smiled.
My heart started racing. Jackson squeaked my hand a little more and within a few seconds I was already at ease. Yes, I might have been nervous, but once I looked over and saw those gorgeous brown eyes looking at me, I knew that I would be able to answer his question easily, "Well, yes sir. I mean, Justin", I said and swallowed hard, "There's that, but...There is also something else."
"Something else?", Mr. Kiriakis asked curiously and waited for me to share our news with him.
I looked at Jackson before I said anything further. I didn't want to spoil his surprise. I wanted him to be part of this as much as possible. This was his news to share and I hope that this wont be too much for him to handle at once.
Jackson smiled and nodded once, giving me the okay to continue. I took a deep breath and stared, "So, to start off, I guess I should tell you that Jackson and I are dating. I asked Jack if he would be my boyfriend", I said and looked into Jack's eyes, "And he agreed. I hope that it's alright with you
Justin. I promise that I'll never do anything to hurt Jack. I'll take care of him, I'll help him as much as I can, and most of all...", I paused a second and smiled at Jack, "I'll love him with every fiber of my being."
Jackson blushed furiously and looked over at his father for his approval.
Mr. Kiriakis's smile grew wide as he spoke to Jack, "So, you two are a couple now?", he asked Jackson.
Jack shook his head up and down.
"And you're sure that this is what you want, Jackson?"
Jack smiled and opened his mouth slightly, like he was about to say something, but nothing came out. I notice that he was struggling and trying very hard tell his dad with words and not by his gestures. I could see how frustrated Jack was becoming with himself over this. I didn't want to interrupt, but I knew this was the perfect timing for Jack to show everyone what he could do, so I took the opportunity and weighed in to have a talk with Jack to see if I could persuade him and to let him know I was there for him, no matter what he decided to do, "Excuse me sir, could I have a minute with Jack before he answers that question?"
Mr. Kiriakis looked puzzled and gave a nod, "Okay..."
"We wont be long. I promise", I said as I got up from the table and reached for Jack's hand. Jack followed me out the kitchen and into the hall way. I turned him over and spoke softly so he wouldn't feel pressured, "Sorry, for pulling you away just now. I just wanted to make sure you're alright?"
Jack frowned and looked down at the ground. He looked so anxious, and I knew at that moment that he wasn't comfortable with telling them his news just yet. I smiled and lifted his chin up so I could see his beautiful face. Because he was beautiful. So beautiful, that every time I looked into those gorgeous eyes, he took my breath away. Literally, "Babe, You're doing a great job in there. You're so amazing!"
"Will...", he whispered softly so nobody could hear him, "I - I can't do this...", he admitted and turned away from me.
"Hey!", I said and wrapped my arms around him from behind and placed my chin on his shoulder, "You can do this, babe. I know you can", I said, encouraging him to not give up, "You're so brave and you're so strong. You're the most amazing person I know and I...I believe you can do this. I know you can."
He took a deep breath and turn over facing me, "What...what if they laugh? My voice? I...I can't speak very well, Will."
"Oh, Jack. You have the most beautiful voice in the world. Trust me. They are going to love hearing your voice."
"I...I'm sorry. I can't...", Jack said and moved further away from me.
"Jack...", I begged and reached out and grabbed Jack's arms before he could flee.
"Will...", he moaned. It almost sounded like he was crying.
It broke my heart o to see him so vulnerable. I knew he wanted to do this, but sometimes, what seems like and easy thing to do fro us is so much harder for him. I felt for him.
"It's okay", I said and pulled him into my arms tightly, "You don't have to do this. What ever you decided to do, I'm going to be right there with you, babe."
"I'm scared", he admitted and melted into my arms, "So scared, Will."
"I know, babe. I know...", I whispered, running my hands up and down his back trying very hard to put him at ease with the situation. At first he was very tense. I could feel it by the way he was gripping at my shirt that he was more than he was terrified of what their reaction would be when they found out he could speak. But within seconds, he started to relax himself and slightly pulled away.
"Will? Will you help me?", he asked, slowly without stuttering. I could see he was trying so hard not to mess up his speech.
"Babe, if you want me to help you, I'm there. always...", I said as I leaned down a kiss him gently on the corner of his lips.
Jack smiled and held out his hand to me, "Don't let go. Okay?"
"Never...", I said and took his hand, "I love you, Jack. You ready?"
Jack didn't answer me. He just nodded his head instead. I might not be an expert on things such as autism, but even without words, I knew Jack was ready to tell them his wonderful news. I could feel it. See it.
In his eyes...
In his smile...
And most important of all, I could feel it in his touch...
We walked back into the kitchen with Jack closely by my side, ready to share this amazing miracle with the rest of his family. Together...
(Sonny's POV)
As we step into the kitchen I squeeze his hand harder because no matter how determined I was to tell my family the new I was still scared. When Will squeezed back, letting me know that we were together in this, it helped relax me a little bit. We sit down in our seats and I look into each one of their faces. There was some confusion in each of their expressions and I opened my mouth to say something but it still didn't come out.
Will must have realized this so he started talking first, "So Sonny and I have something to tell you guys. On our date last night we made some confessions to each other and we want to let you know."
Alex leaned forward, "What confessions are that? It's not something that is going to make me want to protect my brother, is it?"
I started to feel upset by what Alex said but Will started to laugh and that is when I noticed a twinkle in Alex's eye. I assumed that meant that Alex was just joking, "I promise that it's nothing like that."
Will looked at me and I nodded my head that I was ready, "Last night, Jack and I had a lot to talk, but in the end, I confessed that I was in love with him. I was scared that he didn't feel the same way but he ended up saying…"
He paused a little, trying to give me time to talk and I wasn't sure that I could do it, but I opened my mouth and suddenly the words start to come out, "That I loved him too."
My voice cracked when I talked but I finally did it, I finally talked to my family. I didn't want to look at my them just then because I was scared of their reaction so I continued to look into Will's eyes. It didn't take long before I got lost in his gaze and I found myself leaning forward to kiss him.
Will kissed me back and pulled away lightly, "I'm so proud of you, baby", he said before pressing his lips firmly back onto mine and I couldn't seem to stop myself until I heard Alex clear his throat, "Uh… guys we are still in the room."
The reality of the situation hit me and I pulled away to look around. Instead of them looking mad or grossed out by what just happened they all looked on the verge of tears.
Joey was the first one up and he practically ran around the table but he stopped himself a few feet away from me. I could tell that he really wanted to hug me, but he was afraid that I would freak out. I stood up and smiled, "Joey", and then I went to him and hugged him.
He laughed a watery laugh and hugged me back, "It's so good to hear your voice. No wonder you have Will here wrapped around your little finger. You have the sexiest voice. I bet Will loves it when you talk..."
"Joey!", Alex said, warning him to shut up before he said something embarrassing.
"Sorry", Joey said and hugged me again and whispered something in my ear so nobody else could hear him, "I knew you kissed him. I could see it written all over your face."
I laughed a little and pulled away, "I… I was afraid at how bad I would sound."
I had a little trouble saying the words but I could see that Joey didn't care at all, "I think you sound perfect. I'm happy for you Jackson. The both of you", he repeated and looked at Will.
I looked over and saw that Alex had also made his way around the table. He held his arms out asking me if he could get a hug too.
I smiled and laughed, "Of course you can have a hug too Alex."
This time I didn't get the chance to walk to Alex, he charged forward and wrapped his arms around me, "You have no idea how long I have wished to hear you say my name", he squeezed tighter and held on longer than Joey, "I'm happy for you Jackson", Alex said and looked over at Will, "You better treat my little brother right or I'll have to kick your ass Horton", he said and laughed.
"I wouldn't have it any other way", Will said and smiled at Alex who continued to hug me until I heard the scraping of a chair on the floor.
"Do I get a turn to hug my son?"
I pulled away from Alex and slowly turned around. My dad had tears in his eyes and I could see that some had already fallen down the sides of his cheeks. For so long I have wanted to do all these things with my dad that I am just being able to do with Will. Now I have the opportunity and I couldn't hold back, "Dad… I love you so much", I hurried forward and wrapped my arms tightly around him.
A broken sob came out, "Jackson, my baby boy. You have no idea how happy I am", he pulled away but kept me at his side and looked to Will, "I have you to thank for this. None of this wouldn't have happened if you hadn't been here."
Will looked down and blushed, I don't think he knows how irresistible he was when he did that, "It's nothing really, he just let me love him", Will said as he stood up and walked closer to us, "Well I have to go now, I need to get my homework done before we go to school tomorrow. Will you walk me to the door Jack?"
I nod my head and immediately stepped away from my dad. Taking his hand, we walked out of the kitchen and headed towards the front door. I didn't want to let him go, so I latched myself on to him and I was ready to stay like that all night if I have to.
(Will's POV)
I'm standing at the front door of the Kiriakis mansion, holding on to the man who I am so dearly in love with. Unfortunately, it's Sunday and I've spent all weekend with Jack, and have neglected my homework. Jack whimpers. I look up and meet his wet chocolate-brown eyes and my heart breaks.
I run my fingers through his mop of hair, and rest my palm on the side of his neck. He leans his head into the touch and sighs, "Jack, I know it's hard to say good-bye my love, but we have to. You need to spend some time with your brothers. They love you, you know?", I said watching his eyes.
He nodded slowly and sniffled a little.
I nodded, "They do, almost as much as I do."
I leaned in and stole a little peck on his lips, "You will be fine babe. It's just for about 16 hours, and I will be here bright and early in the morning to pick you up for school. Would you like that?", I asked, hoping this would be enough to suffice him until I return to his side.
Jack smiled a bit through his obvious upset state, and nodded. He still didn't say a word.
I leaned in and kissed his eye, wiping away the tear that was wanting to fall, "And in the mean time, you can talk more to your dad, who by the way, has been watching us for over five minutes from the kitchen", I said and looked over at a smiling Justin from across the room.
Jack looked wide-eyed at me, and his face turned an adorable shade of pink. I needed to pick on him a bit to help him feel at ease, "Oh, what's that Jackie? Are you a little embarrassed? Daddy's watching his little boy kiss his boyfriend?", I sang and he laughed a little.
I ran my hands through his hair again, "It's okay babe. He loves you and only wants the best for you. He just needs to make sure you're happy. Any father would want that for his son."
Jack nodded in approval.
"If it makes you feel any better, I can come back after I talk to my grandma Marlena and finish my homework. That's if you really need me to. But you're such a strong young man Jack, you probably won't need me to, but if by some small chance you miss me that much, I will come back. Just ask Alex to text me. Okay?", I offered and waited for Jack's response. Deep down inside, I was really hoping that he wanted me to come back, because as much as I hated to admit it, I was already missing him and I haven't even left the front door yet.
Jack lifted his arms from his side, and rested his hands on my hips, he stepped in closer to my body and paused momentarily. He looked up at me, almost as if he was asking for permission to touch me, to kiss me. I smiled at how insecure this beautiful young man is, how could someone so amazing, so beautiful, so wonderful in so many different ways, not know how lucky I am just for knowing him? Much less being able to touch him this way, "Jack, please kiss me before I die. I need to feel your lips on mine", I whispered inches away from his lips, "Please Jack", I begged for his embrace.
The whisper came out more of a whine, but I didn't care. I needed to feel Jack against my skin again. his lips... He slowly closed the gap between us and laid the softest feather light touch to my lips, and I felt Heaven in that one touch. He started to kiss me again, deeper this time, his mouth opening and closing in a sweet heavenly rhythm. He took his right hand from my hips and placed it on the back of my head, grabbing a his fist full of my blonde hair. I think I faintly heard someone clear their throats behind of me, but I wasn't sure. I don't think it registered fully as I was kissing the most amazing man in the world. I heard the person cough much louder this time, and took that as a cue to stop the kisses Jack before I couldn't stop my self.
The urgent need to throw this man against the wall and have my way with him was boiling deep into my loins. I broke the kiss slowly and rested my forehead against his. I lifted my hand and stroked the side of his face, slowly, and sighed, "I think we better stop now before your dad kicks me out for mauling his son."
We both chuckled and looked into each others eyes, "I love you Jack. If you forget everything thing that I've ever said, please don't forget that. I do love you, with everything in my being. I love you", I said as I kissed his left eye, "I love you", I said as I kissed his right eye, "I love you", I said as I kissed the tip of his perfect tanned nose.
I kissed his lips one last time and turned to leave, "I love you too", I heard him whisper in my ear, just as I turned.
I smiled, "I love you more", I said with a wink. And it was true, I did love him so much that I didn't think I could hide it anymore. I needed to have a talk with my grandmother. She would know the best way to tell people. I just had to figure out how to tell her first.
I gave Jack one last kiss and stepped out the front door before I changed my mind and decided to stay. I turned around and waited for Jack to let go of my hand so I could leave. It wasn't easy leaving him like this. I knew he didn't want me to leave, but unfortunately, I had to. Spending these last two days with Jack was amazing. It made me realize the kind of life I could have if everything works out between us. We could be this happy together. This could be my future. A future that less than a few months ago seemed so far away and now, it's at arms reach. For the first time in my life, I actually know what I want and what I need. I need him. My Jack...
"I'll see you later, babe", I said to Jack and smiled.
Jack held on to my hand until I closed the door and gave me a forced smile. I took a deep breath and headed towards my car as I tried to hold back the tears. It made me sad to leave him, but I knew that the faster I got home, that faster I would be able to return to him. And that made me the happiest man alive.
(Alex's POV)
As soon as the door close, I heard Jackson sobbing. I got up from the table and headed off to check up on Jackson. As I approached the entryway, I watched Jackson who ran directly up to his room and slammed the door, crying his eyes out. I knew that he didn't want Will to leave, but I had no idea that he would so hard for him to see Will leave. It broke my heart to see my little brother in so much pain and I knew that I had to do something to make this easier for him.
I looked over at my dad, "Should I go check up on him?", I asked, wanting his approval before going after Jackson.
"I think he needs his big brother right now", my dad said and smiled.
"Yeah, so do I. But I'm not sure what to say to him", I admitted and let out a sigh.
"Well, I know I've said this before, but Jackson needs to learn about his feelings on his own, Alex. All you can do is be there for him. This is all new to Jackson and his attachment to Will is beyond strong. So maybe you could try to help him understand that even if Will is not here with him, that he's thinking about him just as much as he is."
"I can do that."
"I know you can, son. You're probably the only person besides Will who can actually reach out to him. God knows I've tried so many times, but never succeeded", my dad sadly admitted and ran his fingers through his hair, "Guess I'm the only one to blame for that. I've been so busy with my work, that I've somehow neglected my own son's needs."
"Dad...That's not true. You've always been there for Jackson."
"Yeah, but not in the way that Jackson might have needed me to be", dad said and took a deep breath, "Not in the way that all of you boys needed me to be. I can't even remember that last time Victor Jr. spent the night here. He's been practically living with your aunt Maggie and uncle Vic for the last few months. And Joey? Well...he's Joey. He's always trying to make us smile, but deep down inside, I know he needs to be given more attention. He needs a father figure in his life now, you know? And you, Alex? You have been taking care of Jackson for so years now, without asking for anything in return. You've given up almost all of your free time to be with him, to give him what he needs, attention wise and socially. You're more like a father to him than I am. He looks up to you in ways that he'll never look up to me in", dad said and broke into tears.
Hearing my dad say those words broke my heart. I couldn't believe that he felt like this and never said anything. My dad was never an emotional person, but to hear him say these words out loud made me realize just how much hurt he's been carrying around with him for all these years, "Dad, you're a great father. You have provided for us this wonderful home, this wonderful life, this wonderful family we have today. none of this would have been possible if it wasn't for you. You have been our rock, our inspiration throughout our lives. And just so we're clear, I have never once complained about helping Jackson. It's been a pleasure for me to be at Jackson's side, helping him, taking care of him, being not only his brother but his best friend as well. So don't you ever feel guilty for working hard and supporting us when we had nothing but each other to lean on. If I would have to do it again, I wouldn't change a single thing. I'm proud to be part of this family. The Kiriakis family. And most of all, I'm so very proud to be your son."
My dad looked up at me. I could see how much my words meant to him. He reached over and pulled me in and wrapped his arms around me, "Alex, I'm very proud to call you my son", he said as he tightened his grip around my body, "I don't know what I would do with you. I love you, Alex."
"I love you too, dad", I whispered softly, "And I'll always be here."
Dad released his hold on me and wiped his eyes dry, "Well, I guess you should be checking up on your brother", he said and turned away slightly.
"Yeah, I guess I should", I agreed as I watched my dad leave for his office, "Dad?"
"Yes, Alex?", dad answered and looked up at me.
"Thank you."
"For what?", he asked.
"For being you", I said and smiled.
Dad smiled back, "Always!"
And with that, he left the area.
I smiled to myself and had an idea. I noticed the gift we got for Jackson yesterday and decided that this was the perfect time to cheer him up with a surprise. I picked up the gift off the bench and headed upstairs to comfort my little brother.
(Will's POV)
I walked into my grandma's house and plopped down on the couch. I leaned my head back against the tan cushions and slowly rubbed my face. I didn't realize that I was crying so hard until I felt the wetness of my tears as I wiped my face. I sat up and sighed, slowly trying to stop the tears from free-falling down my cheeks. I closed my eyes tightly, willing them to stop, but they didn't.
"Will?", my grandma asked as she walked into the living room, "What's wrong honey?", she asked as she sat down beside of me on the couch.
She wrapped her arm around my shoulder and at that moment, every emotion I had running through me went rampant. I started crying so hard, I couldn't breathe. I turned into her and held her as the life line that she was. She has always kept me grounded, always kept me from feeling like I was going to float away in my own stupidity. It's always been her, and now, I needed her more than ever.
I was in love with a boy and I was scared that once I told her, she would leave me to float away. Float away into nothingness. I shook my head, saying a mumbled, "Nothing."
As I continued to try and slow down my breathing and hopefully tears as well, she leaned back, smiled, and wiped a few tears away from my cheeks and said, "Nothing wouldn't have you so upset. What is it honey? You know you can tell me anything right?", she asked and I nodded.
I just needed to feel her hug one more time, so I hugged her, tightly, "I love you", I whispered.
For some reason, I just needed to tell her that before I started, "Oh honey, I love you too. Now, can you please take a deep breath and start from the beginning? Can you do that for me?", she asked, "Just breathe honey, breathe."
Her calm soothing voice was helping me and I think, that must be why she's such a good therapist. She has the best "Calm down" voice. I chuckled a little to myself, "Calm down voice" have you heard anything more ridiculous? I smiled and turned to her, "I need to tell you something grandma, and I hope that after I tell you what I've done, you'll still love me", I said sheepishly as I looked down at our joined hands.
"Honey, there is nothing, NOTHING you can say or do that will make me love you less. You know that, so now, start at the beginning. What has you so upset?"
I took a deep breath, because I knew that I had to get this out, "I'm in love grandma, I'm in love with the most amazing person."
"Oh sweetie! That's wonderful. Who is she? Do I know her?", she asked and waited for my answer.
I knew this was the moment to tell her. There was no more hiding and no more turning back. I looked into her eyes and smiled, "He is amazing. And yes you know him. Very well actually. It's Jack."
For a second, I thought I was gonna either die or pass out after the words left my mouth, but instead, I just smiled. I'm happy to finally let it out and tell my grandma.
She smiled from ear to ear, "Oh Will, that's great. Jackson is a wonderful young man. I've very happy for you honey."
"Really? You're not disappointed in me? Because when you said "her", I assumed that...well?", I asked.
"Well, to be honest. I was kinda hoping it was Jackson, but I didn't want to come right out and say it or even assume it was him. I didn't want you to feel pressured in telling me and I wanted to hear you say it first", she explained and continued, "And I'm glad that you did. I'm very happy for you, Will. You finally deserve to be happy for once in your life. But may I ask why you were so upset when you got here?"
"It's not that I'm upset, grandma. It's just...", I paused for a moment, "Jack is so kind, he's generous, he's beautiful and he's mine grandma. And when people find out that I'm in love with Jackson Kiriakis, they're going to make fun of us grandma. Don't you see? I'm in love with the "special" boy, the boy who no one talks to. He's shunned, he's made fun of, he's called names. But he's not like that grandma. Why can't people understand that he's this amazing bloom, just waiting to explode into a beautiful flower", I said and stopped.
Her face hasn't changed. Why hasn't her face changed?, "Say something?", I ask with a small squeak that I haven't heard since puberty.
"Go on honey", she says and wraps her arm tighter around my shoulder and squeezes my hand for good measure.
I took another a deep breath and continued, "I was having a bad go at school, and the principle said that the only way I was going to graduate was to take help take care of Jack. His brother Alex was having a hard time getting everywhere he needed to be and he was late sometimes to pick up Jack from his class. Jack's what I call him", I smiled, thinking about the first time that I called him "Jack", "I would take him to lunch and help him get to classes, and eventually it turned in to me driving him to his house when Alex couldn't get to school in time to take him home", I took a deep shaky breath and let it out slowly, "But then, something happened. One day in the art room, he touched me. Not sexually or anything", I explained and blushed slightly, "But I was drawing, sitting next to him, and he took my hand and helped guide my hand across the table. He made this beautiful picture from my misguided hand and I knew I was starting to fall for him. I tried to stop it, grandma, I did. Then dad came back", I frowned at the memory, "He didn't like that I was with Jack and started calling him names and I just couldn't take it. I had to get away, so I took Jack as far away from as I could. I've punched T for calling him names, T! The boy was supposed to be my best friend", I smiled a small sad smile, "But Chad, Chad has proven to be the best friend I could have ever asked for. Even though I've neglected him for a while, he's done nothing but support me. He even helped me have my first date with Jack. And grandma, that was the first time I heard Jack speak."
Grandma gasped in shock, "He's talking?", she asked surprised.
"Yes grandma, and he has the most beautiful voice that I've ever heard. And when he says my name, it sends shivers down my spine", I smiled, "The first time he said my name, I thought I was dreaming."
"Have you told Justin that he can speak? That was one of the biggest concerns he has when it comes to Jackson."
"Yes. We told him together. Justin was so happy for him, and for us. Jack was hesitant as first, and I didn't want him to do something he wasn't comfortable doing. So I took him aside and talked to him and told him that what ever he decided, that I would be right there by his side through all of it. Was that okay for me wanting to be there to share this wonderful news with them? Do you think I pushed him to hard?", I asked, now not so sure if that was the right decision.
"No, Will. You didn't push him into anything. If Jackson was ready to show the world he can speak, then you were right in supporting his decision. I'm proud of you honey. Jackson is a lucky young man to have you by his side."
"I just love him so much", I said and looked at her and laid my head to the side, "You're not disappointed or ashamed of me?", I asked in a hushed tone.
"Why would I be?", she asked, keeping her tone even.
Damn, she's good, "Because I'm in love with a boy?", I said with a shrug.
"Honey, I'm not ashamed. I'm so very proud of you. You're growing up into a lovely young man. I respect your feelings and if you're in love with someone, then they must be a great person. I love you and always will", she smiled, "Now, how about game of "Scrabble?", she asked, "You can tell me more about Jackson over a nice game and cup of coffee."
I smiled a huge smile and responded, "I love you grandma."
"I love you too, honey."
She pulled out the box and we began to play the game. She's amazingly good for someone of her age, I snicker at that. We ended up playing three games, all the while talking about how wonderful Jack was. For the first time in my life, I felt lucky and loved. A feeling that I wasn't used to, but a feeling I hoped I'd always feel. Knowing my grandma and Jack, I'm sure I will, "Well, I guess I should probably go and finish up my homework so I can go see Jack before it get too late", I informed my grandma and started up the stairs.
"Will honey? Before you leave, there is something I wanted to ask you?"
I stopped half way up the stairs and took a few steps down, "Sure grandma. What is it?"
"When are you planning on inviting this young man over for diner? I'm excited on getting to know the young man who's stolen my grandson's heart."
"You really want me to invite him over?", I asked, taken aback by her kindness towards my relationship with Jack.
"Of course, I am, you silly boy. I meant every work I said. I've know Jack since he was a baby and I can't wait to meet him as your partner."
Hearing my grandma calling Jack my partner made my heart swell. She's already so accepting of our relationship together and she never even see us together yet. Guess I'm the luckiest person in the world to have such an amazing woman in my life, and I can't wait to bring Jack over and present him to her as my boyfriend, "Thank you, grandma. I'll ask him tonight."
"You're welcome. Well, I'll let you go finish your homework so you can go see Jackson. I'll see you later."
"See you later, grandma", I said as I rushed up to my room.
(Alex's POV)
As I approached Jackson room, I could hear that he was still crying. I didn't want to upset him more by barging in his room unannounced, so I decided to knock softly and ask for his permission before entering, "Jackson? It's Alex. Can I come in?", I asked and waited for his answer.
It took a few minutes, but eventually, Jackson got up from his bed and opened up the door. Never once did he look at me. He kept his head down so that I wouldn't see his face. He walked back over to his bed, got under the blankets and pulled them over his head.
"You okay, buddy?", I asked as I dropped the small gift bag on the floor near the bed and sat next to him, knowing very well that he was far from being okay, "If you want, we can talk about it", I offered, hoping that he would accept my gesture.
Jackson didn't answer. He just kept himself hidden under the covers. I should have figured that much. Jackson was probably not ready to have full conversations just yet, and at the same time, I didn't want him to feel overwhelmed with me being in his room. I decided to leave him alone so that he could deal with this on his own, "Well, I'll be in my room if you need me, Jackson", I said as I got off the bed and headed towards the door. I stopped when I heard a soft whisper.
"It hurts", the soft voice cried.
I immediately turned around and took a seat back on the bed next to him, "What hurts, Jackson? Can you tell me?", I asked as Jackson slowly pull the blanket away from his face, "Maybe I can help?"
"Here", Jackson said as he pointed towards his chest, "It hurts", he whispered while sobbing.
"Are you sick?", I asked as I reached over and grabbed a few tissues from the open box on his night stand and offered them to him, "Your chest hurts?"
Jackson took the tissues from my hand and shook his head from side to side, indicating that I was wrong.
"Okay, so if it's not your chest, and you're not sick, then what is it?", I asked and waited for his response.
Jackson sat up and looked at me with the saddest puppy-dog eyes and cried, "My heart. It hurts."
"Oh, Jackson!", I breathed out and completely understood what Jackson meant by his heart hurting, "You miss Will, don't you, buddy?"
Jackson nodded, rested his head against his pillow and repeated over and over, "He's gone, Alex. He's gone."
"I know, buddy. I know. But he's going to come back, you know?", I tried to remain optimistic.
"I wanna see him", Jackson demanded, but I needed to make him understand that Will couldn't be here right now.
"You will. He just had a few things to take of before he can come back, okay?", I explained to my little brother, who seemed quite confused about why Will had to leave him in the first place.
"I didn't want him to leave", he confessed.
"I know, but you do understand that Will had to finish his homework? If he doesn't, he might get in trouble at school. You don't want him to get in trouble now do you?", I asked and chuckled.
"No, I don't", Jackson said with a half-smile. He was finally getting it.
"Good, because Will cares about you, Jackson. And I'm sure that he misses you just as much as you miss him right now."
"You think so?", he asked shyly.
"I know so", I said and Jackson's face beamed with joy, "Oh, and in the mean time, I have a surprise for you. You wanna see it?", I asked and waited for Jackson's response.
"A surprise?", he questioned and looked at me skeptically.
I reached down, picked up the small gift bag from the floor and handed it over to Jackson, "Dad paid for it, but it was my idea. Mine and Joey's. We thought it was time you had one. Go on. Open it!"
Jackson took the small bag from my hand and placed it on the bed. He hesitated, but finally he reached inside and pulled out the package, "A cell phone?", he asked and looked up at me.
"Only the best! It's the new MyPhone5. It's got all the latest features like FaceTalk and MyMessages", I explained to him.
Jackson looked terrified. He took the phone and placed it on his bed.
"Hey, what wrong?", I asked, "Don't you like it?"
Jackson frowned, "I...I don't know how it works."
"I can teach you if you want", I offered.
"Would you?", he asked.
"Of course I will", I said as I sat closer to him, "Is it alright if I sit next to you like this?", I asked. I didn't want to make him feel uncomfortable. I knew he was used to Will being this close to him, so I wasn't sure how he would respond to me.
Jackson nodded.
"Alright, let's open this baby up!", I excitingly said as I pulled the phone out of the box, "Not only can you take and make calls with this, but you can send text messages and take pictures."
Jackson looked deep in thought. Then he peered up at me shyly from under his lashes, "I could take a picture of Will?"
"Yes. You can take pictures of Will", I teased him a little, "It would be nice if you kept some pictures of your family on there too...you know, maybe one of your favorite brother whose idea it was to get you this phone..."
Jackson laughed at my joke, "I can look at pictures anytime right?"
"Your teachers won't allow you to use the phone in class, but once you take a picture, you can pull it back up anytime. So, you'll be able to look at Will whenever you want."
"Thanks, Alex. I like it a lot."
"I thought you might like it. Here, let me program Will's phone number so you can send him a message."
Jackson was all smiles as he handed his phone over to me, "Here you go. So when you wanna send Will a message, just press this button", I said as I showed him the icon for the messages, "Then find Will's name like this and write your message. It's that easy."
"Can I try?", he asked.
"Of course! When you're done writing your message, just hit the send button on the right. You'll get the hang of it in no time."
I got up from the bed, walked to his door and left him there, smiling down at his new phone.
(Will's POV)
Once I got there, I looked over at my alarm clock and realized how late it was getting and I desperately had to hurry if wanted to see Jack again tonight. So I decided on packing up my homework and taking it with me to Jack's so that I could spend more time with him. Just as I was about to leave, I received a text message from an unknown number.
7:35 pm
Hello
"Wonder who that is?", I said to myself as I took a seat on the edge of my bed and answered the message.
7:36 pm
Hey! Who is this?
7:38 pm
Your sunshine
"Your sunshine?", I repeated as I read over the text. Could this possibly be Jack?
7:39 pm
Jack?
7:40 pm
Yes
I smiled and started writing him a new message.
7:41 pm
You got a phone?
7:42 pm
Alex got it for me
7:43 pm
That's great! Now you can text all the time!
7:45 pm
Will?
7:45 pm
Yes my love?
7:46 pm
I miss you
Reading off those words, "I miss you", almost made me cry, cause I missed him too. So much...
7:47 pm
I miss you more, baby. I can't stop thinking about you. Can I come over?
As soon as I finished typing my last text, I put my phone down for a minute and quickly grabbed my jacket and put it on. As was about half way out the door when I received a new message from Jack.
7:49 pm
Yes. Can you come now?
I giggled.
7:52 pm
I'm already out the door. See you in 10. I love you OXO
"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine...", I was singing under my breath without even realizing it. Both Jack and I were working on schoolwork; he was at his desk and I was sitting cross-legged on his bed, trying to concentrate on my calculus homework. I was having a very difficult time focusing, though, staring at the back of Jack's head, wanting to just hold him and bury my nose in his dark, citrus-smelling hair, "Jack?"
He turned in his chair slightly to look at me. His eyes met mine, and I melted. Will he do that to me every time? I'm still in awe how warm and content I feel whenever I'm around Jack. My heart feels full, and the only thing I want in this world is to spend every moment I can with Jack.
"I know your family calls you Jackson but has anyone ever called you anything else besides that...like a nickname maybe?"
Without hesitation, Jack shook his head and mouthed the word 'no'.
"Oh. Okay."
I looked back down at the page in my book, trying to get on track. My mind kept wandering.
"Will?", Jack whispered just loud enough for me to hear. I saw that he hadn't turned back around in his chair, "Why?"
I shrugged, trying to seem nonchalant, "No reason."
Jack didn't buy it. He kept his beautiful brown eyes on mine and stared intensely until I broke, "I just...I guess I just wondered what you would think if I called you 'Sonny'?", I didn't let him respond, I just babbled on barely making time to breathe, "Well, I call you 'sunshine' all the time because you are such a light in my life; you saved me from so much darkness that I feel like I see so much clearer now. I don't want to be without my sunshine...and then I thought of your real name, Jackson, and that I called you Jack, but I could have called you Son - as in Son-shine - and then I thought how perfect it would be to call you Sonny, because that's how all my days feel now that I'm with you", I sighed heavily, my heart beat echoing loudly in my ears.
Jack cocked his head to the side as if he was contemplating my proposal. Then slowly, I watched him set his pencil down, push his book back further onto his desk and then stand up and walk to where I was on the bed. I could feel myself reddening as he stared at me, but I couldn't look away. Then he sat down
next to me, "Will", he repeated softly, and I smiled in response, "I like Jack, but I really like Sonny", he finished breathlessly.
Without even thinking I grabbed him and pulled him in for a tight hug. When I pulled back he was smiling at me, and I saw that his eyes were now focused on my lips. Oh god did I want to kiss him. So I did.
It started gentle and tender, our lips brushing lightly together, savoring the taste of each other. Then Sonny, opened his mouth slightly, probably to catch a breath, but I could not hold myself back from reaching my tongue in to meet his. I was floored by Sonny's boldness when I felt his tongue start to tangle with mine. Oh god, I thought, isn't he supposed to be new to this? Aren't I supposed to be teaching him? But he has me completely and utterly under his spell.
He reached around me and grabbed the back of my shirt, pulling me in closer to him. I couldn't help but gasp in surprise, and I felt him smile against my mouth. The little vixen. He may not think he knows much about how to touch someone, but oh my does he know! My stomach was dancing, my heart was racing at record speed, and I could no longer deny the longing I felt in my groin. I was totally turned on by this innocent, beautiful brown-eyed boy. In fact, I was so turned on that I acted without thinking. I let my lips slide off of Sonny's and move to his jaw line, his neck and his ear. My one hand, that was perched safely on his knee, started creeping upwards, following the heat of Sonny's arousal. I heard him moan slightly, I thought from pleasure, but when my fingertips finally reached between his legs and caressed him there, he yelled and quickly backed away.
I finally snapped out of my desire-laced stupor and met Sonny's eyes. They were wide with shock. Sonny looked scared, he looked hurt, and he looked so very confused. And I knew I had crossed the line.
"Jack...I mean, Sonny, I am so sorry...", I moved towards him, trying to convey my sincerity. But Sonny didn't want me near him. He put his hands up in front of him, clearly communicating to me to stay away. "Sonny," I croaked, begging him to hear me, "I shouldn't have done that without talking to you. I'm so, so sorry. Please, Sonny...I love you."
Sonny simply lowered his eyes from mine, turned away from me and went back to his desk. He sat down and resumed his homework as it nothing had ever happened. I walked over to the side of his desk, but he wouldn't even look at me. His eyes were completely fixated on his text-book.
My heart shattered into a million pieces. How could I? I fucked up! Would Sonny ever let me get close to him again? I knew I had to leave. It was best for both of us.
"My sunshine, my Sonny...I am so sorry", I said from the doorway. Knowing that I wouldn't get a response, I quietly shut the door, ran down the stairs, taking two at a time, and rushed out of the Kiriakis house.
(Sonny's POV)
"Jack?", I hear Will call my name. I look up to see his beautiful blue eyes, and I turn my chair around slightly to face him.
"I know your family calls you Jackson but has anyone ever called you anything else besides that...like a nickname maybe?", he says. I'm not sure I understand the question. He calls me Jack, and that's a nickname, why would he ask if my family does? Do I need more than one?
I shake my head and can't find my voice to say "no" when I try to speak the word. I'm not sure where he's going with this.
"Oh. Okay", he says and then looks at his hands. He's wringing them, so I know that something's not alright. He only does that when he's nervous.
"Will? Why?", I whisper, still unable to find my full voice.
"No reason", he said and started to turn back to his homework. I knew that wasn't true, because you don't ask a question without a reason. So I waited. I knew he would tell me when he was ready.
"I just...I guess I just wondered what you would think if I called you 'Sonny'? Well, I call you 'sunshine' all the time because you are such a light in my life; you saved me from so much darkness that I feel like I see so much clearer now. I don't want to be without my sunshine...and then I thought of your real name, Jackson, and that I called you Jack, but I could have called you Son - as in Son-shine - and then I thought how perfect it would be to call you Sonny, because that's how all my days feel now that I'm with you."
I saw his normally confident eyes shine with something I didn't know the word for. But, I think I like the name he's picked more than 'Jack'.
I stand up and walk slowly over to the bed, where he's sitting, doing his homework. I stop right in front of the bed and I hope my voice finds me this time.
"Will, I like Jack. But I really like Sonny", I said and smiled. If he wanted to call me 'Sonny' then I loved it, because I loved him.
I leaned over and started kissing him. I ran my hands over the back of his shirt and grabbed a fist full, pulling him closer to me.
Then I started to kiss him harder. I felt like every part of my body was on fire, I was kissing Will, and I had his hands around me, on me, in my hair, all over me. He was the one part of me that I couldn't see my-self without. Then something weird happened. His hand started to come up closer to a part I
wasn't sure I was ready to be touched. I wanted to pull back for a second, but then I trusted Will. He would never hurt me. I moaned as a kind of warning, sort of asking him not to go further, but he did. He placed his hand over my part, and began to rub his palm back and forth over it.
I froze. I didn't know what to do, so I pulled away. Was that okay? Alex and Joey both had told me that no one except approved people were allowed to touch me there, but I wasn't sure if Will was an approved person or not.
"Jack...I mean, Sonny, I am so sorry...", he said, but I couldn't hear him right now, I needed to make sure that I was ok, and that this feeling that I had was okay. I didn't know what to do, so I stood up and walked back over to my desk and returned to my homework.
"Sonny,I shouldn't have done that without talking to you. I'm so, so sorry. Please, Sonny...I love you", I faintly heard him say, but I wasn't sure how I was supposed to react, so I waved him off and continued doing my homework. Only I couldn't concentrate on my homework. I couldn't only concentrate on that touch and how great it felt. But Alex and Joey said no one touches there. Why did it feel good if it wasn't okay?
"My sunshine, my Sonny...I am so sorry", he said and ran out of the room. He didn't say 'good-bye' to me. I was a little hurt at hearing how fast his feet went down the stairs and the front door slam shut.
I laid my head on my arms and cried into them. I didn't know what happened and why he left me so quickly. Why was he apologizing?
The next day, Will picked me up bright and early as he promised. I waited outside on the door step for him. Hoping that he would show up. And he did. He kept his promise. I walked up to his car and got in, but I didn't look at him. I couldn't.
We drove off and the the whole time we were in the car we both remained silent. Neither of us spoke. Suddenly, I noticed that Will pulled over a few blocks away from school. I turned my head towards him slowly wondering why we stopped.
"Sonny, listen. Can we talk for a minute?", he asked.
I simply nodded.
He leaned over and gave me a small peck on the lips. It was barely even a kiss. Then he spoke, "It's not that I don't want to be close to you around other people, it's just that I like what we have, and I want it to be between us, so that it stays just as special as it is", he said to me and continued, "I love you Jack. I hope you understand", he said and lowered his head. He wasn't even able to look at me.
I didn't answer. I just kept on nodding like I understood, when the truth was, I didn't understand at all. Why was he being so distant with me? If he loved me as much as he keeps telling me, why would he be acting this way?
The same thing happened at school, he didn't come see me at lunch. I ate with Joey. I wanted to talk to him and ask him what I did wrong, but I wasn't ready for the conversation, so I just sat at my table and drew pictures of Will.
After lunch, Alex came and walked me to class. I must have really messed up because Will didn't see me at all that day. By the end of school day, I was in such a panic that I couldn't do my homework. I just laid on my bed and cried myself to sleep. I didn't have dinner that night.
The second day, he was at lunch with me, but so were my brothers. I wanted to talk to him, but that conversation wouldn't be easy with those two hanging around. So, again, I ate in silence; listening to Will talk about some basketball game with Joey while Alex talked to me about stupid things.
The third day, I think I had enough of the silent treatment, and feeling bad. So I got on the computer at home and 'googled'. I read that it was okay to be touched there, if I wanted to be touched there. I was so happy, all I wanted to do was find Will and tell him how sorry I was and how stupid I felt. It was okay for him to touch me there and I wanted him to do it again.
4:13 pm
Hey, Will. It's Jack... Sonny. Can we talk?
I tested him, but he never responded. I felt so let down, I cried myself to sleep again that night.
The fourth day, I think Alex and Joey started to catch on that something wasn't right. I kept seeing them look at each other during lunch. That's not like them. Normally, they're too busy talking to Will to notice me. That afternoon, I was so happy to see Will standing at my art room, ready to pick me up and take me home. That was it, I was going to tell him that I wanted him to touch me again and that it was okay.
I intended to make sure he knew that I loved him and that this was okay, and I was okay. I love him, I'm okay.
(Will's POV)
The next morning, I picked Sonny up just as I promised him that I would. I slowly drove up and noticed that he was already waiting for me outside. He got in the car and didn't even look at me. I sighed and drove off.
I pulled over a few blocks away from school because there was something that I wasn't to talk to Sonny about. It wasn't the right time or the right place for the conversation to take place, but under the circumstances, I had no other choice. I had to talk to him about this before we got to school. I just hope that this wont make things worst between us.
"Sonny, listen. Can we talk for a minute?"
He looked over at me and nodded. He seemed so lost in his thoughts. I couldn't help but wonder what he was thinking about.
I leaned in a kissed him softly before I spoke, "It's not that I don't want to be close to you around other people, it's just that I like what we have, and I want it to be between us, so that it stays just as special as it is", I said to reassure Jack, I mean Sonny, that I'm not nor will I ever be ashamed to be seen with him. It's just that I'm not ready to shout it out to the whole entire world yet, "I love you Jack. I hope you understand."
I love Sonny and I hope he understood that this has nothing to do with him being autistic or him being a man, or even what happened between us the other night. This is totally me trying to get use to the idea of being in an open gay relationship for the first time.
Sonny nodded and looked away.
For the next week, I avoided every single chance I had to be alone with Sonny. I'd recruit Alex to help me with homework when I didn't really need his help. I involved Joey in our conversations when he didn't need to be. And both brothers eyed me very skeptically whenever I asked them to stick around with me and Sonny. I knew that they knew that something was up. But it was just easier for now to pretend I didn't know what that "something" was.
I received a short message from Sonny on Wednesday, but I didn't respond to it. I felt so bad for putting him through this; this was my fault for letting my hormones take over my better judgement.
Don't get me wrong; I wanted to be alone with him. I wanted to apologize, to look into his beautiful eyes and tell him now very sorry I was for taking advantage. But I was scared. I was so scared that he wouldn't be okay and that we wouldn't be okay and that I'd lose the best thing that ever happened to me.
But I should have known that the Kiriakis brothers wouldn't let me get away with this avoidance tactic for long.
I stood against my locker reading the text message from Alex over and over again.
2:30 pm
Just u & Jack 2 day. Jo has 2 stay 2 work on a project; I have student council. C u later.
"That's just perfect!", I said loudly to myself as I headed towards Jackson's class to pick him up.
(Alex's POV)
"Alright! Operation Wilson is underway!", Joey over excitedly said as he placed what seemed to be a map or chart of some kind on the table in front of us and rolled it out.
"Operation Wilson?", I asked and giggled at the portmanteau he used to describe our brother and Will's relationship.
"Well yeah? Will and Sonny. Wilson? Don't you get it?"
"I get it. You made a map?"
"It's a diagram", Joey pointed out as he flattened it out with his hands.
"Well, it looks like a map to me", I said and laughed. Which pissed off Joey.
"Shut up assbutt. Now back to our plan. So, what ever happened between Will and Sonny happened between Sunday night and Monday morning."
"And you know this how?", I asked and waited for Joey take on the situation as hand.
"It's easy. Look at this", Joey said as he pointed out different things he noticed throughout the week, "So, on Sunday, Sonny was sad when Will left, but was happy when you gave him his phone, right?"
"Yeah and later that night, Will came over and Jack was over the moon."
"Did Will say goodbye to you before he left that night?"
"No, why?", I asked.
"Well, I saw him running down the stairs and left the premises like he had just seen a ghost or something."
"Okay, but that doesn't mean anything, does it?", I questioned.
"Well, according to my diagram here, on Monday, Will didn't even join us for lunch. On Tuesday, Will kept going on and on about basketball and I'm pretty sure that Will isn't even into basketball. He didn't even know who Koby was for God sake! And on Wednesday, Will was M.I.A. all day. Do you have anything to add?"
I thought for a second, "Will asked me for help with his homework on Monday if that helps", I said and looked over at Joey who was deep in his thoughts.
"What subject?", he asked.
"Math. Why?"
Suddenly, Joey started typing frantically on his laptop, "Well according to the school records here, our young mister Horton has received nothing less than an A+ on his last math final. So, he clearly lied about needing your help in mathematics."
"Joey? Did you just break into the school records?"
"Don't ask, don't tell", he said laughing, and logged out of the system.
"Nice work Sherlock! But why would he lie about needed help?"
"Maybe because he's been trying to avoid being alone with Sonny. So, now on out brother. Have you noticed anything in particular that might be troubling him?"
"Well, he's been skipping out on dinner all week. Oh, and I've also noticed that he's been avoiding eye contact with Will."
"Okay good, so when did you notice these sudden changes in Sonny?", Joey asked as he wrote everything down on his diagram as I said it. He looked like a detective working on a big case.
"Monday morning, maybe late afternoon?"
"Bingo! Told ya!", Joey screamed out and almost scared the living daylights out of me, "Something happened between the time that Will back over to our house and when he left on Sunday night."
"Do you have any idea what it might be?", I asked Joey.
"Well, I'm not sure. But I think it might have something to do with Will and Sonny's private time together. Have you noticed how distant Will is being towards Sonny? He never use to sit so far away from him, and he use to hold his hand every chance he got", Joey explained.
"Yeah, I noticed that too. Do you think maybe, well I'm just saying, that maybe something happened between them intimately that might have caused them to act this way?"
"Maybe, I don't know. But what I do know, it that Sonny is sad and he misses Will. We have to do something to get them back together like they use to be."
"I know, Joey, I know. Any ideas on how to make this happen?"
"Didn't you say that you had council meeting after school?", Joey asked with an evil smirk on his face.
I knew that look all so well. Joey had a plan, "Yeah, but it was cancelled. Why?"
"Does Will know about this?"
"No."
'Give me your phone", Joey demanded.
"Why?", I asked.
"Just give me your phone and stop asking so many questions, will ya?"
"Alright, here", I said and I handed over my phone to him, "What are you doing?"
"Sending Will a message. Will might be trying to avoid Sonny, but now he wont have any other choice but to face him now", Joey said as he hit the send button, "Operation Wilson as been put into action. Oh yeah!"
After Joey was done, he handed my phone back over to me. I read over the message he send to Will, "2:30 pm Just u & Jack 2 day. Jo has 2 stay 2 work on a project; I have student council. C u later."
It was brilliant!
"Do you think this is going to work?", I asked Joey who looked very optimistic about the situation.
"I'm sure it will. Come on. Let's get out of here before someone finds the evidence", Joey said as he rolled out his diagram and headed towards the door.
"Hey, Joey?"
"Yeah, assbutt?"
"Nice work today", I said as we high-fived each other.
"You too, Alex", Joey smiled as we both parted ways. I just hope this plan doesn't back fire in our faces.
(Will's POV)
It was because of their clever little plan that I found myself in my car, alone with Sonny, only a couple blocks from his house.
"Will?", I heard his whispered plea but I couldn't respond. I didn't know how, "Will?", This time it was more than a whisper, and Sonny put his hand on mine, which was gripping the steering wheel tightly.
I pulled into the circular driveway and parked my car. And then I turned to look at Sonny. He was smiling at me so sweetly, it felt almost as comforting as one of his hugs. I tentatively smiled back, trying to hold back the tears that were threatening to fall. He took my hand from the steering wheel, and like so many times before, he intertwined his fingers in mine, reminding me how perfectly we fit together.
"Are you coming in?", he asked hopefully.
"If you want me to."
Sonny nodded quickly and without hesitation. So, we untangled our hands long enough to get out of the car, reconnected as soon as our bags were out of the back seat, and made our way into the Kiriakis mansion.
In keeping with Sonny's stringent routine, I followed him to his bedroom so he could shower and I could start my homework. I was feeling a little better considering Sonny wanted me to be here with him. I was afraid he might not want me to touch him anymore, but he was the one to take my hand first. Maybe there was hope for us after all.
I was deep in thought when I felt the bed sink down slightly next to me. I looked up and was shocked to see Sonny sitting close to me. He had obviously come right from his shower, he had a towel wrapped around his waist and there were droplets of water still clinging to his dark locks.
"Sonny, let me get you some clothes. Did you forget to take them into the bathroom with you?", I started to stand but Sonny shook his head and steadied me with his gaze.
"Don't", was all he said. So, I stayed still. And as if in slow motion, I held my breath as Sonny took my homework from my hands and set it off to the side of the bed. He held my hands and pulled me closer to him. He met my eyes, with a heated look I recognized from before, when we first kissed with tongue. Sonny was turned on. And so was I. But there was no way I was going to do anything. Not after what happened the last time.
As it turns out, I didn't need to. Sonny was the first to raise his hands to my face; he cupped my cheeks and softly rubbed the pads of his thumbs against my jaw. I let my eyes flutter closed. His touch took my breath away, and I knew I needed to close my eyes to help keep my emotions in check. They flew open
though, when Sonny pressed his lips to mine. He kissed me with a confidence I hadn't seen from him before. He was in control. He moved his lips against mine, tilting his head to accommodate our movements, opening his mouth to take in my breath and to run his tongue over the corners of my mouth. He moved
himself even closer to me, almost to the point where he was sitting on my lap, "I've missed being alone with you so much, Will", he said and moved in even closer.
I tried to protest, but he wouldn't let me. He kept silencing me with kisses, moving his lips to my cheeks and chin and back to my mouth whenever I'd try to say something. Finally, I gave in and just let go.
Sonny, sensing my surrender, moved his hands down my back until they reached the hem of my shirt. Lifting it ever so slightly, he slipped his warm hands under my shirt to caress my back. I couldn't help but whimper at his touch. His hands froze at the sound and his eyes met mine, asking if I was okay. I just
smiled and nodded and he started to move once again, pulling my t-shirt up and over my head. His eyes focused on my bare chest, and I felt exposed, even though Sonny was still just wearing a towel.
As his hands explored my chest, I just sat there as if in a dream. His hands were so gentle and though his touch was light, it was doing the most amazing things to my whole body. This person could do so little and yet move me so much. I felt those tears start to well up in my eyes again.
Pushing me back ever so delicately, Sonny laid back with me, setting his head next to mine on his pillow. He kept caressing my chest as his darkened eyes explored mine, sharing with me the depth of his desire.
My hands were stiffly at my sides, afraid to move even just one millimeter for fear of scaring Sonny once again. But Sonny had other ideas. I watched in complete awe as Sonny undid the small knot that held his towel together around his waist, and he let it fall open. I had seen him naked before, accidentally, when he came out of the shower one of the first times I was at his house. This was different. I let my eyes fall slowly to his tanned chest, to his stomach and to his arousal. He was so fucking beautiful. Every single inch of him, "God, you are so beautiful, Son", I said as I pulled myself closer to him.
Then suddenly I remembered what happened last time I touched him, I got carried away, and I crossed the line. So, I immediately looked away and started to turn from him in a panic, "Sonny, I can't..."
"No, Will", he spoke out into the heated silence, "I didn't know...", he continued, taking my hands into his own, "I never, um, did this with anyone before. I was scared."
"Oh Sonny!", I started crying, letting all those frightened tears loose, "I was so afraid I hurt you...I never want to hurt you! But you are just so amazing and beautiful and I lost control. I'm sorry I touched you like that without your permission."
Sonny held me in his arms, our bare chests pressed together, while he kissed away my tears. When I calmed down, he kissed my swollen lips intensely, probing with his tongue, continuing to hold my hands in his.
"Will?", he said and I let my eyes open slightly to look at him, "Will, please touch me like you did before", he asked, his gaze never leaving mine.
"No, no, I can't", I insisted shaking my head, "It's too soon. You're not ready."
"But Will..."
"I said no, Sonny. Remember last time...I scared you and ruined things for us for over a week. I don't want to lose you again. I can't. I just can't be without you."
Sonny smiled in agreement and said, "You won't be without me", and he slowly moved my hands, still intertwined in his, to his hips, then to his waist and finally to the hair nestled between his legs. He pushed my hands down just enough to feel the smooth skin of his hardening length.
I gasped with pleasure, "You feel so good! Are you okay?", I asked. My eyes flew to his for confirmation.
"Yes, Will, please touch me", he whispered, his mouth close to my ear, making my entire body tremble.
I moved my hands on him, rubbing lightly, getting to know the feel of his skin down there; I brushed my thumb against the tip and Sonny yelped. I immediately withdrew, so scared I had done it again, "Sonny", I questioned hesitantly, "Did I hurt you?"
This time his eyes looked at me very differently. There was no fear, no confusion, there was only trust. He smiled at me and brought my hands to him once again, "Don't", he said softly.
"Don't? Okay, I'll stop..."
"No!", he interrupted aggressively, "Don't stop", he begged. Those words completely took my breath away.
I touched him again, caressing, sensing, feeling, getting to know him like never before. He pulled my hips to his, rubbing my hardness against his, and I couldn't help the moan from escaping my lips.
"Oh, god...", I cried, feeling the heated friction between our bodies.
"Oh god", he repeated after me through ragged breaths. I felt his body start to clench, "Will, something's happening...", he said in an almost panic, and with a final sigh, Sonny started to tremble and shake, holding on to me for dear life. He gripped my arms with bruising force as I felt Sonny's entire body quiver beneath me.
To Be Continued...OXO